The Shattered Heart

By Natalie Walsh

As an author I have found that just watching what goes on around me or in my own life I can come up with a novel. Letters to the Abused I wrote as self help as I was in a tough relationship it was a form of healing for me, The Love Triangle was based on a life of someone close to me. Names were changed to protect others. This novel The Shattered Heart reaches out to the teens and parents of teens as to what happens when children have children. I have a preteen grand daughter and a teen step daughter I feel that this would help them to know what not to do. That boys are not worth an education or a friendship being ruined. While some may be able to bounce back and make a choice to put the child up for adoption some feel they want to raise their child and quit school. We live in an age where parents both work or there is only one parent children are being left alone and have no supervision or if they do they may be in a situation with a death of a parent and this makes them search for what is missing.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Mar 27, 2015
• ISBN: 9781496973122

Natalie Walsh

As an author I have found that just watching what goes on around me or in my own life I can come up with a novel. Letters to the Abused I wrote as self help as I was in a tough relationship it was a form of healing for me, The Love Triangle was based on a life of someone close to me. Names were changed to protect others. This novel The Shattered Heart reaches out to the teens and parents of teens as to what happens when children have children. I have a preteen grand daughter and a teen step daughter I feel that this would help them to know what not to do. That boys are not worth an education or a friendship being ruined. While some may be able to bounce back and make a choice to put the child up for adoption some feel they want to raise their child and quit school. We live in an age where parents both work or there is only one parent children are being left alone and have no supervision or if they do they may be in a situation with a death of a parent and this makes them search for what is missing.

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Published by AuthorHouse 03/11/2015

ISBN: 978-1-4969-7311-5 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-4969-7312-2 (e)

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Contents

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Chapter 22

Chapter 23

Chapter 24

Chapter 25

Chapter 26

Chapter 27

Chapter 28

Chapter 29

Chapter 30

Chapter 31

Today is the day to let go of everything that brings us down.

Do not let negative circumstances deter us from the things which life has to offer to us

What does not make us happy and brings us down is not worth it.

Let today be the first day of the rest of your life.

Live long, love hard, and pray.

This is for my entire family mom, dad, Helena, Angel, Scott, and my Fiancé Jason and step daughter Kristina thank you for all the support you have given me.

Natalie

Thank you Mom and dad for instilling in me the proper way to succeed without being taken advantage of, and allowing me to make mistakes, and my own choices. I love you both and Dad from me to you Semper Fi. Hold strong to the fact you are a marine. I am proud to say that I have been chosen by two of the best parents a child could ever wish for. Much love.

Jason I love you for pushing me to dust off the cobwebs and go for being somebody, I love you and Kristina with all my heart.

Helena, and Angel, and Scott (who will be entering to this cruel messed up world in July) I Love all of you. Be strong and stay in school it is never too late to make a good life for yourselves and to turn the pages of the past.

To all of my friends that have stood by me and given me encouragement and the can do stay positive speech, I love you all too. Especially Will Cox (thank you for looking out for me and being there when I need you, you have been an inspiration where others have failed I love you, thanks for the encouragement).

Chapter 1

The school year was about to begin, some of the teens were excited to be going back to school while others were dreading even going in the door. For the seniors they were all happy this would be the beginning of what would be the future lives for them. This would be the end of high school, and the beginning of the rest of their lives. Of course there were those who were looking forward to going to college, others of them just were looking to be free and not having to worry about school, they just wanted jobs, and to survive how they could, get married and have children. These students were still able to see their friends and make new ones. Meeting all the teachers for the senior class was not what they were looking forward to.

For some odd reason Jen Pinker was dreading going back to school. Jen knew part of it had to do with the fact that her and Mike Ogre, her long- time boyfriend had just broken up over summer. The two of them had been voted most likely to marry and be together forever. Jen had gone through so many changes it was just hard for her to cope. She was feeling as though she would not fit in any longer. Jen began to cry just thinking about it.

Jen, honey, are you alright? yelled Jen mom up the stairs, I can hear you crying from down here. Chrissy is here she said she needs to talk to you.

Thanks mom. Just tell her to come up to my room. I am fine mom really. I just have a lot on my mind, and was thinking that is all that is wrong.

Jen had to wonder if the pain would ever go away. She wondered if her and Mike would ever get back together. Here it is Senior year she is suppose- to be happy instead Jen is depressed wanting to stay in bed and not go back to finish school.

Jen, it is Chrissy, can I come in?

Sure, come in.

Damn girl what is up with you? You look like you lost your best friend. It is senior year you are suppose too be happy not crying and all depressed. Are you okay?

I am depressed. Ever since Mike and I broke up, I have felt like a part of my whole world has fallen out from under me. I feel lost without him. The worst part is I feel like I won’t fit in with the rest of our crowd since Mike and I are over. They all have boyfriends and here I am a single loser.

Jen, really you know damn well that is not true. All of the girls do not have boyfriends. Look, at me, I am single I have not had a boyfriend in over four years. Seriously they do not look down on anyone for not having a guy on their arm.

Chrissy really you just do not understand, I have been with Mike since we were in eighth grade. Now here we are going into senior year, and we are not together anymore. What happened to us, where did we go wrong?

Oh come on Jen really, is Mike worth being this upset over? This is supposed to be our senior year, happy year, no more high school, we need to enjoy it, make the most of it. Instead, you chose to be upset over losing a boyfriend.

Chrissy, you just do not understand, Mike and I have been together for so long. We have been through so much together. We used to do a lot of things together. My favorite was when we would just go to the park, sit by the river and talk about our futures together. Now, that is all over with. For no reason at all Mike said he thought we needed to start to date other people. The worst part of that is that he said he still wants to be friends. Now you tell me how easy is it to be friends with a person you still love? Jen paused for a moment to wipe away the tears then she continued, The part that really hurts the most was Mike said after we dated others and we see that it was not working out then we could give our relationship another try, pick up where we left off. He just does not realize how much he means to me or even how much he hurt me. Mike and I were at a party about a week before we broke up, he wanted me to have sex with him, at first I told him no, then he got angry with me. He said we had been together for four years, he thought it was about time that we have sex. Of course like a dumbass I gave in to him. It was my first time, and what a big mistake that was. A few days later we broke up. Now I feel like he just used me, or he was out to just hurt me and worse yet we did not use protection. Why now after four years does he chose to break up? I gave him what he wanted, now it is time to grow up and realize that life does take strange turns not all are good.

Chrissy was not sure what to say, for once she was speechless. Chrissy felt sorry for Jen, she just could not seem to find the right words to console her. Chrissy realized that now would not be a good time to tell her what she had come over to tell her. Not now anyway, not as upset as she was over Mike, Chrissy would only make matters worse.

Jen, honey, I wish I could help you, I really do not even know where to begin to help. I do know that guys will be guys all that matters to them is them. We will talk more in the morning, I have to get home I still have to get the rest of my shit together to school together, I will see you at the bus stop in the morning.

Okay Chrissy, Oh by the way thank you for listening. I really did need someone to talk to. I feel a little bit better. Sorry, I was not up to hearing what you came to tell me. You can tell me tomorrow. See you in the morning.

After Chrissy left Jen lay on the bed thinking, she did feel kind of stupid being that depressed over a guy. She began to realize that he really was not worth it, not if he could walk out of her life the way he did, a week after having sex, taking her virginity. It meant nothing to him, if he could just walk away. It meant the world to Jen to be with Mike. Jen was sure she was not the only girl with a boyfriend who would take their virginity then move on and brag about it. Mike is not worth all this depression.

Chapter 2

Jen woke up feeling better than she had felt since her and Mike had broken up. She went downstairs, ate breakfast, showered, got dressed, got her stuff for school together and headed for the bus stop.

Chrissy was already at the bus stop. She and Jen stood talking while they waited for the bus.

God, I hate taking the bus, Jen said as she stood looking around, Mike and I have ridden together to school since he got his car and his license.

Yeah I know, Kimber and I used to stand here and wish he would give us a ride. Chrissy said.

Suddenly a car drove by and honked. Both Chrissy and Jen looked around to see who it was. Jen was mortified to see it was Mike and Kimber. Kimber was her best friend. Jen could not believe what she was seeing. So many thoughts ran through her mind. She wondered if they were together and if they were how Kimber her best friend since first grade could do this to her and hurt her this way. She wondered how Kimber could even date Mike knowing how Jen felt about him. Jen wondered how long they were together, if that was why Kimber was avoiding her. Was Kimber the reason Mike broke up with Jen? How could Jen and Kimber be friends now? More and more thoughts went through Jens head as the bus pulled up.

Jen, come on the bus is here. Jen, I am so sorry, I should have told you. Are you alright? I thought you were okay with him moving on.

Really Chrissy, you bitch, who’s side are you on? You knew about the two of them and did not tell me. Why? Seriously why didn’t you tell me? We are supposed to be best friends remember. Best friends take care of each other and have each other’s backs. The three of us have been best friends and been to hell and back together since first grade. Anything else you are not telling me about?

Jen, I am so sorry, I came over to tell you about those two last night, but, when I saw how upset you were I could not do it. I was not even sure how to tell you. They started to date a few days after you and Mike broke up. Kimber wanted to tell you herself, she just was not sure how to tell you. She knew that you would find out sooner or later, she was just trying to buy time.

Chrysie, just leave me alone. I want to be alone right now, find another seat on this fucking bus, just get the hell away from me. Way to be a friend.

Jen just needed time to think, she just could not stand the thought of her best friend hurting her like Mike had hurt her. All the way to school Jen cried. She had been hurt so many times by people she had thought were friends that she trusted now she was not sure if she would ever trust anyone ever again. Jen stared out the window of the bus. Now she had to wonder what she was going to do when she would see Kimber. All Jen could see was when her and Mike were still together, she kept hearing their song, the one that they vowed was theirs, over and over she was hearing him sing it to her. Worse yet the song they had sex to. Jens thoughts were interrupted when the bus came to a stop in front of the school. She got off the bus still crying. As if she were not already hurting enough she had to notice Mike and Kimber kissing on the steps to the school. She just kept walking.

Jen, stop, yelled Kimber, We need to talk. Jen did you hear me? Stop.

Jen turned around to see who was yelling at her, she noticed it was Kimber and tried to avoid her and kept walking into the school.

Kimber caught up to her. Then Jen turned around and glared at her. What the fuck is there to explain, huh, Kimber, what? You were supposed to be my best friend, and then you turn around and stab me in the back. You date Mike even though you know how much he means to me. You know how much that hurts me, and yet you still have to flaunt it in front of me that the two of you are together. End of story right there. So as I said what is there to explain?

No, Jen, you are so wrong. I did not take him away from you. You two had already broken up a few days before I decided to go out with him. Mike is not your property. He never has been. He never will be. He told you he needed space and wanted to date other people. Just because you and Mike slept together does not make him yours for life. If that shattered your heart you will just have to piece it back together and move on with your life. Mike and I have slept together, if we break up that does not mean I am going to fall apart like you do. It is really not a big deal. Men come and go.

Jen had heard just about enough of Kimbers mouth, she was beginning to get angry to angry to even cry anymore, she had to do something, she would shut Kimbers mouth somehow. Jen walked up to Kimber and shoved her.

Thanks a lot you bitch, thanks for being a backstabbing friend. I guess trusting you and thinking you were a friend was a big mistake.

Mike ran up and tried to protect Kimber, but nothing was going to stop Jen now she was angry, and wanted a fight. Jen shoved Mike out of the way and punched Kimber in the face, and watched Kimber fall backwards down the stairs in front of the school. Jen suddenly felt bad wondering what she had done, Kimber was not moving. She may have hurt her pretty bad. Oh well, bitch deserved it.

Someone gets an ambulance, Mike yelled looking up at Jen, This girl is hurt pretty bad.

Jen, really, why would you do this to Kimber? She is hurt pretty bad, she is barely breathing. Accept it is now over between us. No matter how you try we will never be a couple ever again.

Jen just looked down at Kimber then back at Mike with tears in her eyes, she did not mean to hurt her, she just wanted her to know how mad she was at her for what she had done. Whatever happened to the girl code to not date each other’s boyfriends? Shit, now what, Jen wondered if she was going to jail, if she would have to go to a different school.

Mike you know that I did not mean to do that. I was just angry and was trying to show her she was wrong. Not my fault she cannot fight or protect herself. I did not want to hurt her that bad. Mike, please, forgive me.

I cannot forgive you, whether or not Kimber does is on her but I sure hell won’t. She and I dating is no reason to hurt her the way you have.

Jen turned away from Mike then she turned back around as if she wanted to tell him something, instead she looked at him with tears in her eyes. Wondering if he would believe what she really needed to tell him. She needed him to know that she loved him and always would. She was afraid to tell him now knowing that he was angry at her and he would just walk away from her.

Mike, for what it is worth, I love you, I really do, I always have, more than you will ever know. My life has not been complete without you in it, now it is even more of a mess. There is a huge part of my heart gone, which you took away, I miss your hugs, your kisses, your gentle words when I felt down, the way we made love for the first time, it was so special to me. The song we chose as ours plays over and over in my mind. You made me feel needed, you made me feel loved, how do you just throw away four years like nothing happened and move on like this? I cannot handle life without you maybe I will make it easier on all of us and just kill myself.

Seriously Jen, get over yourself. Stop trying to play on my sympathy those games are not working with me. It is over if we are meant to be we will find our way back to one another at this point it will never happen. Get over it and move on.

Mike wanted so much to tell Jen the truth how much he loved her, why he was forced to break up with her, he just could not do it, not now. Instead he just turned away from her and he watched