Reflections

By Brent Murphy

Based in Southern Chile and Southern Ireland this is a story of a man who encounters some strange spiritual experiences in both countries. Sectioned by his wife he is labelled a manic depressive and put on medication but the experiences continue despite all. The author is convinced that there is a battle going on between God and the devil and that the author is caught in the fight. While we sleep the suthor engages himself in a battle with the devil and believing that God is on his side fights to the end.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse UK
• Release date: Apr 29, 2011
• ISBN: 9781456780265

Brent Murphy

Born in Cork in southern Ireland the author emigrates to Chile in the early nineties, where strange events change his life. Recounting these adventures and strange experiences the author recalls how these adventures occur, and suggests where they are leading. He returns to Ireland in December 1999 only to discover that these experiences continue with a regular frequency. Labelled a Manic depressive he battles with the concept but never loses his faith and follows through analysing what is happening until the end.

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Contents

Introduction

Opening

My Theories

My First Experiences

Being High

Back to Ireland

Oscar

The Final Battle

Reflections

Introduction

This is a book based on a true story with real characters and real places. The book is about my life between 1999 and 2010, a time when strange events took place and must be sorted out. When I tell a psychiatrist about my plight she estimates that I am manic depressive. However willed on by the reality of the situation, I never lose my faith that the only problem I now have is that my system misses the medication if I stop taking my pills and that the reality is that my visions are for real and real things happen to me. Undeterred I fight my way through life coping and with the knowledge that these experiences are real.

In 2004 I cross a line from where I will never come back, a line of no return where my faith is solidified into a faith so strong that nobody will ever break it again. The enormity of the situation is so great that no man can fathom what is to happen except for one man in the world, and so taken with it all he will never speak of what is to come. As chapter upon chapter roll on, we can see similarities with the Bible as the truth unveils itself in such a manner that even I have a problem in understanding all that is going on.

I dedicate this book to my late Grandmother Isabella who was physic in her time, and would have enjoyed listening to a chapter or two from this book.

Finally I hope you all enjoy this book.

Opening

I am the author and this is my story. This book is based on true facts with real characters and real places so I hope you enjoy reading about all my experiences and theories. However I feel that I do feel the need to tell you that I was diagnosed with Manic Depression on the 8th May 1999, as it may influence your concept of this book. I tend to suffer mainly from mania, and to tell the truth I have very little experience of depression. Mania is also known medically as a high, and is a chemical imbalance of the brain. With mania the brain wave leaves its normal state of mind and moves upwards to a new level above normality. The result is a feeling of super confidence as never experienced before, and this can lead to excessive spending and sometimes silly acts can be committed such as the patient taking off his clothes in public places. The feeling of confidence is so great that people with mania can believe that they have super powers, and sometimes believe that they may be descendants of God or God himself. It was an issue I had to deal with myself as I squared up my friends to be my disciples in 1999 during a period of mania. When somebody is manic, their sleep pattern is affected and the patient can go for long periods of time without sleep. I have also found that I tended to burn up a lot more energy than normal, and on occasion constantly drinking water.

Waves of depression cause the brain wave to move below the normal wave, and can generate a lack of confidence with the person affected. Feeling worthless, people with depression can attempt to harm themselves or even take their own lives. I’ve never had any serious bout of depression, but I do have the odd day where I spend most of it in bed.

Over medication can also be depressing, where the patient lacks confidence because he can’t get out of bed or is rejected by the public because he looks drugged up. I’ve had experience of these effects which lead to me reducing my medication without the doctors’ consent, subsequently leading to my hospitalisation for a short period of time. It is important that you understand that when patients are high that they will feel like superman, full of confidence and a bubbly character and that they will feel the opposite when they are depressed.

Both depression and mania can occur unrelated to each other; that is a patient may just suffer from depression without the effects of mania and vice versa. This manic state is known as uni polar manic disorder and is applicable when the patient is diagnosed as being manic and at the same time never suffers from depression. In the case of patients who just suffer from depression only is know as clinical depression. This type of depression is often induced by surrounding circumstances in life and can result in death by suicide. The most shocking suicide that I recall was a woman called Helena. Helena was a manic depressive and had been in hospital for several years, and was so institutionalised that when she was released from the hospital she couldn’t settle into taking her medication and a regular life style. I used to meet her on the bus on Fridays on her day release from the hospital and she would tell me that she couldn’t cope with life because she had forgotten what it was like to have a normal life. Then some months later the doctor released her from hospital permanently to lead a normal life, but Helena was influenced by certain people and she stopped taking her medication because she was confident that she could survive without it. The result was a disaster and she had to be hospitalised again. Once again the hospital tried to reintroduce her into society and she was allowed home for the weekends in an effort to help her to be reintroduced to the world outside her hospital. Helena died from an overdose on one of those weekends, unable to cope with life with little or no friends in her life she died a sad death. How sad, the end of a life of anxiety and misery, compounded by somebody telling her she could live without medication. Once diagnosed being manic depressive it is medication for life.

From my experience, mania is like any other illness and can occur in various degrees of severity, where the degree of mania can be more severe or moderate and likewise with depression. I would consider that I suffer from a mild form of mania, and that I was one of the lucky ones. I tended to recover very quickly from the highs, and moreover I remembered everything that happened during my illness. I have met other patients with manic depression and generally they were much more affected by their illness than I had been, and their tendency is that they would forget what had happened to them when they were high after they recovered. Helena would have suffered from a severe form of mania, and would get aggressive without medication. When I am high I do things more instinctively than normal which sometimes gets me into trouble, but I also become very charming if I may say so. I have also been known to be aggressive but only with reason, but when you are ill nobody understands that reason. Although it may seem quite simple to avoid, you cannot avoid getting high if you stop taking your medication or if your medication is inadequate. I had the experience in Chile where I was on two medications, neither which controlled the highs to maintain a normal life. The first signs of mania are that you feel great and you want to give up your medication because you feel so well, not realising the validity of the medication at that time. In my case I gave up the medication twice in Chile, feeling that it was doing me no good because I was always high anyway, and I gave up the medication once in Ireland because I was too drugged up with the tablets and I wanted to live a normal life. Easy to say now but I have experienced six years now of a normal life on the medication and no problems to talk about. I might have the odd day where I feel down, but heck doesn’t everybody. It’s all a part of normality. When people go high some of them feel spiritual in character, and often believe that they have a special relationship with God. I am one of those people but I do believe that I have a right to think so, and as this book progresses you may actually come to agree with me. Jesus is dead so I can’t be Jesus, but once I told somebody close to me that I felt like Jesus because of everything that was happening around me. I became spiritual the first time I went high, and have never lost that spirituality and continue very spiritually on a daily basis. As you will find out in this book there was a lot happening in my life that nobody knew about, and my life will continue that way.

As for you dear reader I will be mixing those spiritual experiences and you will be hearing about my experiences whilst on medication and in perfect health. I’ve had experiences whilst I was in a high state of mind, and I’m going to include some of those experiences because I think that they were important and help build up the story. An example is that I have seen things when I was high which could be classified as hallucinations, but were key parts in the final story. Matter of fact all my visions had a bearing on the story one way or another, so high or not so high I believe that everything that happened, happened for a reason, and we must never lose sight of that.

Apart from my tales about my spiritual experiences I will also be including my spiritual theories which have been developed over the years and hopefully you will enjoy reading about them. I wrote a small book in 2006 which contains a selection of theories and I am going to include them in this book. It is very hard to tell you how I came about my theories, but the best explanation is that the ideas just popped into my mind Now I don’t expect everybody to believe my book, but for the reader out there that does believe I want you to have a feast. This book is full of real characters and real places, and I want you the reader to enjoy this book as much as I’m enjoying writing it.

I have lots of friends in the world, but my best friend in the world is God, and even though I cannot see him I feel close to him all snug and secure. During the last ten years I have enjoyed some amazing experiences with him and I must say that he is top of my friend list. To many it may seem an amazing thing that God is a friend of mine, but I have him as a friend because when I called to him he was there for me. When I had needs he was there for me and moreover he kept in contact, and I think that he is very special. I’m sure that there are people out there who would agree with me and understand my situation, and there will be others who cannot fathom the situation. There are very few people in this world who can say that about God, or who is prepared to say that about God. You might expect the Pope to say something like that which would surely encourage our own spiritual faith, or even hear it in the church on Sunday, but hardly expect a normal citizen to say that God was keeping in contact with him. What we don’t realise is that God is in constant contact with us all, and that he is open to receiving your friendship when you are ready. Many people have found God like I have and the experience is enriching. Down through the years I’ve often wondered where that friendship would lead to, and now I believe that there is a beautiful future for this world and I am very happy.

While we are destroying the worlds’ atmosphere, the men in grey suits at summits and conferences will never move fast enough to prevent a global disaster. Already our climate is changing faster than we can blink and our men in their suits are reacting slowly to reality. This year we are experiencing summer weather in autumn here in Ireland after a washout in the summer. We have a crisis now and it is now that we need action, not in ten years time when it will be too late to save our planet. Not only do we believe that world pollution is destroying our ozone and heating up the atmosphere but we must also consider the destruction of the rain forests all over the world. It is frightening and the greedy race to become wealthy has seen the destruction of these forests for the production of commercial crops in countries once covered in natural rain forests. The destruction of the forests for the production of commercial crops is not being stopped, and our whole ecosystem is being affected. The future is floods, typhoons and hurricanes in multiple scores across the continents of the world, without abate until we sink beneath those waves of terror. With the poles melting and their masses of ice now transforming into extra masses of water, time is against the world and we are facing the most major crisis of our time with an ever increasingly high tide mark. I saw the proof this summer on a beach in Kerry in Ireland this summer, where the sea water now occupies areas once safe from the sea during the seventies and eighties marking an impacting rise in tidal levels across the globe. There are those of us who are screaming out to stop the flow of emissions which are affecting our atmosphere and thus heating up our world, are being ignored by the suits that rule the world. We’ve got to move faster if we want to save the world, with climates switching in all parts of the world, or is it time to put our faith in God and let him reveal himself in true form as to his future for this world. If the suits aren’t going to move fast enough with drastic