Surviving Schizophrenia: My Story of Paranoid Schizophrenia, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, Depression, Anosognosia, Suicide, and Treatment and Recovery from Severe Mental Illness
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Richard Carlson Jr. was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia when he was twenty-one years of age. His illness first manifested when he was an early adolescent. Modern psychiatry greatly failed Richard for over a decade. Then, after an incident involving the police, he truly understood that his diagnosis was real, and finally began the long process of recovery. Over ten years later, his life is greatly improved. In the course of his treatment, Richard also recovered from depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and lethargy.
Do not let what happened to Richard happen to you, a loved one, or a patient dealing with severe mental illness. Always be honest with each other, and with your psychiatrist. For patients, family members, caregivers, students, and medical professionals who would like to learn more, visit www.survivingschizophrenia.com.
Richard Carlson, Jr
Richard Carlson Jr. is an author of children’s books and coming-of-age romances
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Surviving Schizophrenia - Richard Carlson, Jr
Surviving Schizophrenia
My Story of Paranoid Schizophrenia, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, Depression, Anosognosia, Suicide, and Treatment and Recovery from Severe Mental Illness
By Richard Carlson Jr.
Published by Richard Carlson Jr. at Smashwords
Copyright © 2017 Richard Carlson Jr. All rights reserved.
Cover photograph credit: Copyright Richard Carlson Sr.
The author would like to thank the editor for her help.
Disclaimer: The information in this book should not be considered medical advice. The author is not a medical professional. Mental health consumers should always consult with medical professionals for advice.
Surviving Schizophrenia is a work of non-fiction, however certain facts and other details have been changed.
Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
About the Book
About the Author
Chapter 1
Be Honest
Please listen, because this is important.
The most important thing I’ve learned from dealing with my severe mental illness is that you have to be truthful to yourself and others. Honesty is not only the cornerstone of a successful and fulfilling life—you cannot receive the treatment you need or experience true recovery without it.
Do not waste years of your life by telling lies.
Because I was not honest with my psychiatrists and family, I did not receive adequate treatment for over ten years. That’s ten years of my life that I cannot get back.
Do not hesitate to begin being truthful immediately. Your life might depend on it.
Chapter 2
Born in New York City
The stork put me into Mom’s arms in the early 1970s. My parents were middle class and Catholic, and we lived on a nice street close by a Jewish neighborhood. Did you know that people who have schizophrenia are more likely to have been born and live in an urban environment? I spent much of my childhood in New York City, so I often wonder how much difference that made.
Mom was a hardworking woman who stayed at home to take care of me, as well as my younger brothers, Mike and Steve. My dad was a great father, who provided a good example for me to follow. Once, he took me to his work at the wastewater treatment facility. He and Mom were both caring toward us. Life seemed perfect.
My earliest memories are of my grandparents, who lived on the first floor of our house. My parents, brothers, and I lived upstairs. I would run downstairs in my pajamas to see my grandparents every morning. Grandpa emigrated from Poland when he was seventeen. Grandma was born in America, but grew up in Poland. I loved her so much. One of my most vivid memories is of her making pierogis for dinner. My Polish heritage is so important to me because of my grandparents.
My grandfather was an excellent role model—I couldn’t wait to grow up to be just like him. I looked up to my father, who was a great dad, but I remember Grandpa best. He was a nice man, and we would take long walks in the city together.
Once when I was four, I made tire tracks with my toy Batmobile car in the fresh cement that our neighbor, Teddy, had put down in his front yard, and Grandpa smoothed the cement for me afterward.
Grandpa was bald, wore thick glasses, and smelled of the cigars he smoked.
Don’t do that!
Grandpa exclaimed as he saw me from the window, No!
However, I continued to drive my new Batmobile through the fresh cement. The Batmobile’s wheels and my small hands were splotched in drying cement. As grandpa hurried out, the sunlight showed through the clouds.
Vroom, vroooom, vroooooom!
I grumbled as I drove the Batmobile even faster. Batman and Robin had to catch the evil Joker!
Grandpa grabbed my wrist and pulled my toy car out of the muck. I cried out in defiance, Grandpa, no!
arching my back and clinging tight to the car, trying not to move a muscle. He walked me down the steep steps to our basement for a thorough hand washing.
But the Joker! Batman and Robin need my help!
Do not play in the cement, Richard,
he scolded. When he was angry, his Slavic accent was even more pronounced.
‘Mobile,
I said, wanting to play more even as he rolled up my sleeves. Instead of giving back my toy, he scrubbed it, and then washed my hands.
I still needed to help Batman, so I asked if I could play in the backyard. When he let me go, I darted to the dirt where a row of behemoth rosebushes grew. My chest began to tingle as I raced to the rescue through the moist soil.
Vrooom, vroom, vroooooom!
The Batmobile sped to Gotham Bank.
I stopped the Joker! I am the hero!
I was loved by my parents and grandparents very much.
Chapter 3
My Boyhood in Upstate New York
Before I was old enough to start kindergarten, my parents had a house built in Stormville, which was a small town in Upstate New York. My parents didn’t want me to grow up in the city, because they believed the city was too rough for children. They also wanted to make sure I had a good education. It was 1975, and our house had yellow siding with white trim.
Dad put in a small pond in our backyard, replete with lily pads, fish, and crayfish. One day, Dad brought home a huge frog from his work and put it in the pond.
To me, Stormville was the greatest place in the entire world for a boy to grow up. I had a blast catching frogs, tadpoles, toads, turtles, snakes, newts, salamanders, and a myriad of other creatures not only from the pond in our backyard, but from creeks and ponds all over the neighborhood. I played that I was in the vanguard of the army, I managed a construction site with toy trucks, and I had fun in many other ways at our Stormville house. Wild raspberries and blackberries grew in our front yard, and they tasted so sweet.
Once, my dad hired a man with a bulldozer to remove a tree in our yard, and the man offered to let me drive his bulldozer. I was too shy, so I refused. I wish I hadn’t. Growing up, I missed out on a lot of interesting experiences because I was shy.
How would you like to drive my bulldozer across your yard?
the man asked, climbing down from the dozer. He wore a white t-shirt with holes, old workman’s green overalls, and scuffed tan boots.
Dad looked back at me as I dashed behind him, silent. I didn’t expect to be offered to do something today that was so much fun! Imagine me—a five-year-old!—driving a bulldozer, just like a real construction worker. The tingling in my chest quivered with uneasy nervousness. It had poured rain earlier that afternoon, and the summer humidity caused my sweaty shirt to cling to my chest.
Mom put her hands on her hips. Come out and tell the man, ‘Yes,’ Richard!
she urged.
I looked at my shoes and Dad kneeled down, looking at me. "Don’t be shy. You