This Is Fifty-three
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THIS IS FIFTY-THREE is Kevin J. O’Conner’s seventh collection of poems—and his most ambitious to date. This is not your typical poetry collection; it is an exploration of living with uncertainty at a time when we’d expect most of life’s big questions to have been already answered.
It is also an exploration of form and craft.
"In my poems, I have continued to try out different forms and styles in order to stretch myself as a writer. As for the visuals, my previous books used images to mark the boundaries between sections; here, they are an integral part of the whole, whether complementing the text or providing a counterpoint—or stirring things up. The result, for better or worse, is an honest portrayal of me at age fifty-three."
—Kevin J. O'Conner, August 2016
THIS IS FIFTY-THREE is divided into sections, plus a prelude and postlude:
Formalities
Poems written using established forms—in this case tritina, pantoum, terzanelle, viator, rhyming couplets, lune, landay, haiku, and rimas dissolutas.
Oddities
Experimental poems, poems based on dreams, poems based on prompts, poems given unusual graphic or typographic treatment, and unusual or unexpected graphics.
Secrets (and Other Secrets)
Private moments, secrets, unspoken thoughts.
Delicates
Small moments and fragility.
Kevin J. O'Conner
Kevin J. O’Conner (56) is not your typical poet. After 30 years of writing only sporadically, Kevin J. O’Conner returned to poetry in 2013—first as a creative exercise, then for the therapeutic benefits. Since 2015, he writes every day, exploring the craft of poetry through monthly writing challenges—‘my ongoing effort to write something that doesn’t sound like something I would write’, he says. Kevin’s poems explore isolation, memory, life’s small moments, and the experience of starting over at ‘a certain age’—always with an emphasis on straightforward expression. As of Spring 2019, Kevin has published eleven collections of poems, the latest of which is WISHES SOMETIMES HAVE CONSEQUENCES, plus four volumes of ‘love notes’ to the days of the week. His poems have also appeared in Raven Chronicles, Spindrift, The CDC Poetry Project, Lament for the Dead, and the anthology VOICES THAT MATTER, and as part of the Clay? VI (2016) exhibit at Kirkland Arts Center. When not writing poetry, Kevin can be found copy-editing documents from far-flung places, attending open-mic readings, designing books, and contemplating what to cook now that he is tired of soup. He lives in Bellingham with his mom's neurotic cat, Cleo III. (updated 28 October 2019)
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This Is Fifty-three - Kevin J. O'Conner
CONTENTS
Prelude
Formalities
Oddities
Secrets
Delicates
Postlude
About the Author
Where to Find Kevin Online
Acknowledgements and Special Credits
Other Published Works by Kevin J. O’Conner
THIS IS FIFTY-THREE
This is fifty-three
It’s been that long since the moment
when I first became me
Some of the hair is grey
the eyesight has started to go—
(actually, so has the hair…)
Everything’s a bit thicker
above the belt
and the knees aren’t what they used to be
(well, I assume they’re not
seeing as how I don’t run or play basketball—
or do anything of the sort, really)
I avoid salt, corn syrup, and stevia
and just gave up alcohol
in favor of coffee—
not lattes, mochas, or macchiatos
but regular coffee
(it’s from a K-cup® machine
but I use one of those reusable cups
because the standard K-cup®
is not recyclable and will end up in landfills
plus the coffee is otherwise
too damn expensive
and I’m a cheap bastard)
I have decent car insurance
and crappy health insurance
with vision
(even then, it will pay for
an eye exam every two years—
but doesn’t cover the cost of glasses)
but no dental
I have fillings and a crown
but my teeth are otherwise in good shape
if still a bit crooked
despite having had braces when I was a kid
(which is why I will never have
more than twenty-four adult teeth)
I do freelance work
and make almost no money
but I still owed $728 on my tax return this year
I live in a one-bedroom apartment
with two cats
and several area rugs (see cats)
I have a lounge sofa
(it’s orange!)
that I use as a bed
(I have one of those, too)
I have a 40-inch TV that’s ten years old
it’s bulkier than most of the new models
but it works just fine
I don’t watch regular TV anymore
except maybe for election-related news
It’s Hulu® and Netflix® all the way
(and the occasional movie or Twin Peaks on blu-ray)
I listen mostly to thirty-year-old music
hear nothing above 12 kHz
and play cassettes in my thirteen-year-old car
because the CD player is broken—
and the replacement player broke
a few months after I got it
I married my high-school girlfriend
when I was forty
after not having seen her for twenty years
We got divorced after nine
(That’s as much as I want
to say about it right now)
When the divorce was final
I bought an iPhone to celebrate
(which I still have*)
but I got rid of the friend
who was making me crazy
(and most of my CDs—no connection between the two)
I began writing poems again
when I needed a project
now it’s sort of what I do
There’s no money in it
It’s just something
I have to do
I’m largely invisible
when it comes to women
who aren’t already married
but I can understand
that broke, balding, middle-aged poets
aren’t exactly sex symbols
I think too much
and don’t go out enough
(though that means
I save a lot of money on gas
because I don’t drive very much
and I live near an ARCO® station
in an area where gasoline
is relatively inexpensive—
except for the Chevron® station on the corner)
I go to bed around midnight
and haven’t had an uninterrupted
night’s sleep in several years
because I have cats
(see area rugs)
and tend to fall asleep
with the TV on—
which does weird things
to my dreams sometimes
I get up around five a.m.
feed the cats and make coffee—
which makes me sleepy—
then I go about the day
doing what I do
until it’s time to go to sleep
so I can get up
and do it all again
the next day
This is my life
This is me
This is fifty-three
I’m that far from the moment
when I first became me
This is fifty-three
* – Well, I still had it when I wrote the poem. I don’t now.
(top)
THE COUNT
[tritina]
When I’m trying to understand my thoughts
I write a poem
to uncover new layers of truth
Funny thing, truth:
hidden in thoughts
revealed in poems
How many poems
does it take to find the truth
distilled from thoughts?
This is but one poem, a couple of thoughts, a single truth
TRUE LOVE’S KISS
[tritina]
Your kiss could make me believe
It’s just a feeling I have
a feeling I’d like to give in to
so much so that I have to
kiss you until I believe
that love is something I can have
In the meantime, the doubt I