The Lilac Years
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Almost two years in the making, The Lilac Years is Kevin J. O’Conner’s eleventh collection of poems. The book’s five sections explore the venerable themes of love and loss, the difficulties of living with isolation and depression, the little moments of life, the images and thoughts that art brings to the surface, and musings about poetry itself. The Lilac Years is a world of (among other things) trains, music, shadows, silence, memory, weather, trees, crows (dead and alive), ghosts, penguins at the Ueno Park Zoo, neon-marker hallucinations, Vasilina Orlova, Jean Cocteau, and Harvey Keitel.
Kevin J. O'Conner
Kevin J. O’Conner (56) is not your typical poet. After 30 years of writing only sporadically, Kevin J. O’Conner returned to poetry in 2013—first as a creative exercise, then for the therapeutic benefits. Since 2015, he writes every day, exploring the craft of poetry through monthly writing challenges—‘my ongoing effort to write something that doesn’t sound like something I would write’, he says. Kevin’s poems explore isolation, memory, life’s small moments, and the experience of starting over at ‘a certain age’—always with an emphasis on straightforward expression. As of Spring 2019, Kevin has published eleven collections of poems, the latest of which is WISHES SOMETIMES HAVE CONSEQUENCES, plus four volumes of ‘love notes’ to the days of the week. His poems have also appeared in Raven Chronicles, Spindrift, The CDC Poetry Project, Lament for the Dead, and the anthology VOICES THAT MATTER, and as part of the Clay? VI (2016) exhibit at Kirkland Arts Center. When not writing poetry, Kevin can be found copy-editing documents from far-flung places, attending open-mic readings, designing books, and contemplating what to cook now that he is tired of soup. He lives in Bellingham with his mom's neurotic cat, Cleo III. (updated 28 October 2019)
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The Lilac Years - Kevin J. O'Conner
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
In a blog post about how working titles are often better than ‘official’ titles, I joked that I might call my next book Fred: The Lilac Years. I didn’t think too much about it at first, but then thought I ought to look up lilacs to see what they represent—just in case.
It turns out lilacs have a strong association with love and romance; the color for which the flower is named symbolizes a first love. Also, according to the FTD website, in the Victorian era, ‘the giving of a lilac was meant to be a reminder of an old love.’ Since this discovery on my part coincided with a number of recent poems that referenced past relationships, I stuck with The Lilac Years (but I did drop the Fred part).
Most of the ekphrastic poems, some of which date back to summer 2016, were originally submitted to a chapbook competition under the collective title Ekphrasis à GoGo. A number of other poems were submitted to a full-length book competition under the collective title The Ostensible Sloth of Distress. A few other poems were submitted to journals.
Thanks to the presses who did not select any of these works, as that enabled me to reclaim them for this collection.
Thanks to everyone who reads the poems I post to my blog or on ello, listens to me read at open-mic events, offers suggestions in critique groups, and invites me to participate in similar (mis)adventures. The feedback I get from doing these things helps me to become both a better writer and a better person.
If you enjoy this book, I recommend checking out Carolyn Agee, Minnie A. Collins, Jillian Ingram, Christopher J. Jarmick, Talicha Johnson (Talicha J), E. J. Koh, S. R. Mason, Georgia S. McDade, Vasilina Orlova, Lola E. Peters, Caitlyn Siehl, and Kilam Tel Aviv. I make no claims to similarity between their work and mine; rather, their poems give me something to aspire to.
I also encourage you to check out poetry readings happening near you—you never know what you might hear, or who you might meet. Thanks for playing!
—Kevin J. O’Conner, 25 January 2018
THE LILAC YEARS
The lilac years
1
We secretly love it
when the love story ends…
2
Mornings riding in trains—
time to breathe
before exploring the city
through scramble crosswalks
and record shops
We hear that song
at every stop along the way
I am struck by nostalgia
three weeks old
and counting
Afternoons riding in buses
or walking hand in hand
in the summer heat
thousands of miles from home
feels like freedom
The capacity crowd
are moved to silence
by a memory never experienced
Then the music plays
and we sway
Evenings riding in taxis
whose doors open and close by themselves
leaving rendezvous not quite secret
for sleepless summer nights
in separate rooms
3
Some things should not be repeated—
but where do you draw the line?
Shibuya
I recognize the scramble
from just about every angle
Buildings have changed
signs have changed
but the basic shapes
are as familiar
as the doubt I have carried with me ever since
Nakanobu
I wasn’t in tears
as I went from subway to street
No phone
I didn’t want tears
I wanted answers
No letters
Rain fell
I walked the streets
with music playing through my headphones
Nothing
and a nagging feeling
that something was wrong
Those rainy afternoons
were all I had to guide me
that and the songs playing in my headphones
as I went up the stairs
from subway to street
and continued home alone
Her shoulders
1
The angle of her collarbone
fascinated me
I wanted to dive
into that mysterious triangle
and swim beneath its beauty
barely illuminated by the waning moon
Whatever else she may have had
in store for me
I knew there I would be safe
between head and heart
less than the old stone’s throw away
from those eyes
But I could only sleep
It was the only way
to avoid dreading the next morning
when I would wake up
without her
2
How many songs
will be written
about this moment?
Lights low
shoulders bare
adventures
on the map
of your skin
out to the edge
where sea meets shore
and the time
we stormed the