Still Burning: Collected Poems 1963-2013
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--Anca Vlasopolos, Walking Toward Solstice
Alinda Wasners poetry sends you over a Niagara of images in a barrel of wonder. And you experience a thrilling ride and a surprising drop, for you never know, when you start, just where shes going to leave you when you splash down at the bottom. The most seemingly innocent beginnings lead to delicious naughty ends. An innocuous start finishes with a poignant detour into the deepest recesses of the heart. Startled to discover where you end up, you know thats where youre supposed to be.
--Anthony Ambrogio, Assoc. Editor, Corridors
"With craft and insight, Alinda Wasner's poems explore the stuff of life -- love and loss, dancing at long-ago celebrations, kisses under the summer sun, and memories as pale as the moon at dawn."
--John Gallagher, The Detroit Free Press and author of Reimagining Detroit.
Alinda Wasner's poetry collection wonderfully and honestly captures how helpless we are before our passions, whether it's a reconciling couple and their love noises muffled by the shrieks of a jay("Ode to the night and morning following an All-Day of Arguing"), a bittersweet visit to a broken-down home in an old neighborhood (Gone) or a truly beautiful solo of a grandmother braving a blizzard to welcome her newborn grandson into the world ("Aria")--Still Burning is a vivid songbook of loss and desire. ---
-- Patrick O'Leary, The Gift.
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Still Burning - Alinda Dickinson Wasner
Copyright © 2015 by Alinda Wasner.
Library of Congress Control Number: 2013909524
ISBN: Softcover 978-1-4836-4375-5
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Contents
1963-1973
Maybe
Devil’s Dance
Quick! Let’s You And I!
No Funeral
Migrants
Haiku
The One That Got Away
Ice Fishing With My Grandfather
High Tide
The Bait Shop Is Converted To An Art Gallery
Holiday Money
The Boy Who Shot The Baby
Sunrise Near The Byzantine Church, Marblehead, Ohio
1973-1983
Of Fractals And Madness
Stupid Wind
Midwife
This Far North
Sundown On Lake Erie
August Into September
Marigolds
Just Around The Corner
Soaring
Family Secrets
August
Sandusky, 4 AM
Still Life With Purple Sock
Stealing Something To Carry To Hell
Odometer
B & E
Divertimento
Ode To The Carpathian Dancers On The Pier In Ashtabula
Divertimento
Oh, Those Rumpled Dresses
Dinner Party
So Here’s Where My Heart Has Been
Edge Of The Earth
Deadbolt*
Though Some Would Choose
1983-1993
The Letter
Divertimento
You Can’t Get There From Here
Housesitting For The Neighbors
Salt
Untitled
Security Guard At The Main Library
As The Crow Flies
In The Amate Trees
To My Friend Who Came To This Country From Another
From The Girl In The Red Sequin Hat
So These Are Our Daughters
Rooms
Untitled
The Artist At The Ann Arbor Art Fair
Looking Back At The Mainland
Thin Ice
Blue, Largo
Maybe
Double Exposure 1
Improvisation
No One Actually Said
Or, Put Another Way
Anna Karenina Isn’t Dead. Yet
Boy, In Repose
Urban Legend 1
Urban Legend 2
The Swedes Come To The Door
Urban Legend 5
Urban Legend 6
Urban Legend 8
Urban Legend 23
Urban Legend 45
Nobody, Too
Translating Paint Chips
Painting The Front Door
Marilyn, Honey, You Shouldn’t Have Fucked The President
Dry Clean Only
Not Only
Even A Year Later
Love/Hate
At Eighty My Father’s Handwriting
Court Order: Second Warning
A Love Poem
Suggested Reading From The Non-Com Bestseller List And Catalogue
Double Exposure
The Play Offs Go Into Overtime
1987 Earthquake
Summer 1942
Forget This
What Keeps Me Here
Absence
1993-2003
This Boy, That
Don’t Even Ask
Faith
Sunlight On Oranges
Flight Taken After My Mother’s Funeral
Oh, She Said
On Meeting The Artist For The First Time
Cardinal Rules
Dermish
Carnage
Vase, Maybe Swarovski
17 Stairs
Parsonage With Trumpet Vine
Weekend With A Friend
Entanglement
Dawn
Stay Awake!
Ode To Andre Segovia
Dear Mr. Rich Man
Treachery
Summer
Sea Change
Ghost Trees
2003-2013
Tryptych
Rereading Sandburg At The Beach
Morning After
Fool’s Gold
Wedding Dance
High School Tromp L’oeil: What I May Or May Not Remember
On The Back Roads
Suddenly, Suddenly, You Here, The Thin Blue Thread Of You
Wedding Dance: Tsifstetelli
Bitch Of A Moon Over Port Of Detroit
Alain, Alone
Rain
Grief
Trumpet And Voluntary
Tonight The Snow
Divertimento
On The Head Of The Pin
Memory Birds
Woman Kills Spouse On Honeymoon At Grand Canyon
Three
Dead Toad
Sound Poem
Aria
Still, Life
Thumbnails
Riptide
Armistice
So Maybe We Should Have
Speak Or Forever
When You Don’t Know Who You Are
So Her Phone’s Out
Promiscuity
The First Time
Epilogue
Incidental love
U-Turn
Oh, House
She Tried Everything, Really
Orange Shoes I Inherit From My Mother
Phillip, Asleep
Those Initials
Test
If I Were You
So, Tell Me
Hospital
Absence
I Am Burning Some Things
B And E
Don’t Even Ask
Family Reunion
Hymn
Passing Trains
Light Year
In The Field, A Piano
Shower Curtain With Antique Car Motif
October
Small Craft Warnings
Divertimento
What Are The Odds?
Love Me Some; Was Not, Was
Line Drive
Avalanche
Losing You
Say It Never Happened
Deep Blue Night
Spring Forward, Fall Back
Mostly, I Never Think Of Her
Wedding
This Is Where We Lived
Here’s What I Think
Untitled For Emily Dickinson
What Is Normal?
Trust Me
And Then What?
Orbit
All That Talk
Life Sentence
Spring Forward; Fall Back, 2
Sleep, And Not
In The Days Of Overdue Books
More
I Tried To Get Past The Words
The Seductive Book Cover
Say What You Want
The March
When Gas Was Cheap
As If A Vase, A Knife
Reading Back To Front
Miss Your Crazy Ass
Be That As It May
Life On Harding And Kercheval Streets
I Drove Through The Mountains
They Were Living With Us
All They Wanted
Wildfire
Accusation
Fairy Tale
Almost Winter
Crime Show
The Morning You Leave
The Poet Stops Writing
Orbit
While On The Porch
Mismatch
Ode To The Night And The Morning Following An All-Day Day Of Arguing
Duel
Shelf Life
Ferris Wheel
Kissing The Ikons
Rosary
At The National Bird Sanctuary With My Father, Age 90
Divertimento
I Never Tasted A Pomegranate
After The Woman Who Longed
Refraction
Gone
So How Do You Know?
Ecosystem
Red
Menage A Trois
Equinox
Love, Again?
Night Vision
Sunday, Early
As The Light Changes
Rain, Doorway, Grief
Why I Came Here: Lines Penned At Lake Huron Following My Father’s Death
What Worried Me Most
Home Improvement
Parasol
Late Summer
Call Me, I Love You
Morning Cold And Your Words
Can’t Do It
And The Other Really Weird Thing
Summer
The Boy Who Once Walked Me Part Way Home
February
Topography
Wildfire
Fall
Alps
How We Talked All Night
The Thing Is I Didn’t Know
A Day With You
Morning
Storm
I Love To Stand At The Window
Too Late I Loved You
What Are The Odds?
Reunion
Still Life
Hymn
Confession
In The Neighbor’s Attic
I Need To Go Home Now
Wind
Ode To The Bullet Holes
Keep Me, Sailing
Hit Hard
Every Damn Light On
Blue
Galaxy
Fantasia Impromptu On The Ursid Meteor Shower
Love, Was It?
After Most Of The Guests Have Gone
. . . I was kindling… making the real fire/Out of myself and I am still/ Burning.
~Eloise Klein Healy
Dedication
I will always be grateful for my husband Hal for his steadfast support and enduring patience, who understood my need to pursue my passion; for the members of The Detroit Writers Guild’s years of encouragement and keen insights; to the Burton Historical Collection of The Detroit Public Library Main Branch where the originals of these works and others are archived in The Michigan Writers collection; and for Professors Allen Koppenhaver and Herbert Merrill of Wittenberg University who not only helped light the fire under a budding writer, but tended it masterfully at the beginning so it would not die out.
This is not a complete collection because there are still hundreds unpublished. Others have been lost in moves or in computer crashes and I especially grieve the loss of Ruby Falls, which was first place winner in the 1989 Mr. Cogito Press publication, and the poem RBIs which never found its way to publication but was dedicated to a childhood friend whose passion for baseball equaled mine for painting word pictures. I still hold onto the hope that these will surface some day.
Thanks also to the publishers at Ex Libris who have assisted me every step of the way during the 18 month publishing process.
This book is divided into 5 sections. Because I wrote mainly fiction from 1963-1983, fewer poems appear in the first three sections. Due to work constraints, I began in 1989 to encapsulate my ideas for fiction into vignettes that I hoped would ultimately be developed into longer works; but as time went by I began to see that I had so many vignettes that seemed to fit into the realm of poetry, I began to look at them anew and rework them into poetic form.
My purpose in collecting these works was to fulfill the request of my children that they have a tangible collection of my work without having to go through file cabinets of papers and photos when I die and try to decide what to keep or throw out. This way they can gather once a year if they wish to, and I hope they will, to read through those other papers and journals and not have to worry about having to store them in their own basements or attics.
Although some of the early poems were published relatively soon after they were written, many poems were written decades before I had the time to send them out for publication.
1963-1973
Maybe
Maybe August—
maybe a purple sun
teasing the purple clouds
or maybe purple clouds
slumped across purple elms
or maybe March
maybe purple ice
turning the trees to glass
or maybe lightning
splitting the trees in two—
or maybe June
the ground in purple protest
lurching beneath our feet
but maybe May
perhaps the green shoots
protruding from
this dirt
and maybe me
waiting for the right words
to parade across my heart
or maybe you
wandering towards me
across these fields
oh, maybe
yes,
maybe you.
Devil’s Dance
Laughter kicked his heels together
In a summer rain
I heard it
In the hot wet afternoon
The laughter in his beard
Went curling underneath his chin
As though I must have
noticed it too soon
but I threw back my head
and danced
and hurled my abandon
at the moon
while Laughter whistled
through his teeth
that bittersweet
nostalgic little tune.
Quick! Let’s You And I!
Gather summer and the sky
That falls between the leaves
And catch the sun with yellow
Eyelashes out to here
That curl around each waterfall
And sometimes lift up all
The tails of fireflies.
Come! Then we can go
And gather milkweed pods to blow
And listen for sounds that no one hears
And maybe we can catch the tears
Of eagles’ eyes.
And then to pause and wonder when the summer’s through
That somehow we have gathered Autumn, too.
First place: Sounds Literary Review, Wittenberg University, 1964
No Funeral
try to think her
Still, not returning
letters
just unanswered
sounds of bones
Stones
Crushed by waves—
hollow voiced wind
Hallowed trees
wind threading
The last of the birdsong,
blue dusk
the only word drowning
over and over
poem fragments
Roiling the water
clouds dark and circling—
and crowd gathered,
shore buried
Tide family, frantic
Still calling her name.
Migrants
The wind has just scurried by us
Leaving us in a wake of sidewalk-patterns
Of leaves that fell when the cement was
Still wet.
Then, all the other sometimes come
Whir-rr-ing back like a boomerang"
A yesterday world of bubble-gum fortunes
And cornflake milkshakes:
We sold tax stamp stubs
So all the mothers in the neighborhood
Came to our show
And the dancing fleas
Were grains of sand
On a metal tray
That I tapped with a spoon…
AND THE MOTHERS REALLY BELIEVED IT!
And the feel of the shade of the porch steps
Against our hot summer backs—
A sky that everyone knew was really a lake
And we could hum to math the sound of the motorboats
And the warm mud path ran under our barefeet,
Down to a crick that always scurried away
With our reflections
As soon as we got there
So other people at the ocean could see us…
And maybe if we waited long enough we could see theirs’ . . .
Yes, a boomerang of grinding roller skate noises
And clouds that unwound
Faster than our rope swing
First place: The Wittenberg Review, 1965
Haiku
Midnight moon-puzzle
Caught in the tree’s top branches
Waiting for the wind
Haiku
O, baby your lies
Are a purple sourball
Rolling on my tongue
Haiku
As the wind whispers
To the tress of the forest
So my heart listens for yours.
The One That Got Away
Fishing for perch off Kelly’s Island,
my father lowered his oar
over the side of the boat
until it hit the coral reef
and then let out his lines.
Though I couldn’t get my mind around
what made him want to sit all day
casting into the same bed of weeds
in hopes of reaching his limit
which in those days was
a hundred fish a day,
I was content to crawl
into the hull, my tiny stateroom,
with a box of Ritz crackers
and Joseph Conrad’s Typhoon
convinced that under different circumstances,
my dad, who in his bashfulness
was not unlike Captain MacWhirr
must have longed for some adventure.
At least, I wanted adventure for him.
I wanted him to have a bigger, better boat,
say, one with an inboard motor
and a real depth finder
and perhaps an expanse of mahogany on the deck
not to mention chrome louvers on the windows.
But I said none of this
Though I see now
He probably knew.
Ice Fishing With My Grandfather
Inside his fishing tent
my grandfather digs two holes
just inside the door
and I take the line
he hands me
but at first he can’t remember
what he did with the worms
so we try empty hooks
and the fish, hungry and stupid
bite anyway, their tails
flashing under the water.
In winter, the light
rises out of the ice
like the Holy of Holies
and we lower our lines
as if he thinks this time we’ll come away
with some new secret—
an understanding
that although already a hundred times I have heard him say
he’d give up farming for peace and quiet
that he should have been a priest
and listened to his mother—
I won’t automatically figure today will be just like any other.
But as the afternoon lengthens,
the sun glints up through the augur holes
as if they are the mirrors my mother
and grandmother sewed onto their headscarves
to ward off evil spirits.
And despite myself
I confess that I really hate ice fishing
that I’ve been planning to run away
since I was seven.
But he just laughs and takes my hand
as if it were the last bead on his rosary;
And the fish doze and I doze
and the tent is so warm
that we stay until the moon itself
rises just like an angel ascending to Jesus in Heaven.
High Tide
Pulled under
By your eyes
Closing over me
Like water over a stone
Eddies,
Waves spreading to tsunami
And my heart, a new map
Continent still uncharted
As if the land and sea changed places
Upside-down horizon
In bowl of blue
The great waves
Spilling
Sloshing over!
The Bait Shop Is Converted To An
Art Gallery
if it were only an oil painting
ice would be the pigment
the colors dripping
onto the floor of the
temperature-regulated rooms
the docents ooh and ahh
pointing out the
allegorical significance
of the artist gone missing
the patrons
lined up three deep
in the lobby
where the lures and penny candy
used to be—
the artist was a local boy
who moved away,
chose not to live here,
airbrushed the suffix from his last name
then put it back again—
remains unknown
to those of us
who thought we knew him.
Holiday Money
Was usually chocolate coins
wrapped in gold foil
shimmering in our imaginations
as we hung our stockings from the sofa.
Because there was no fireplace;
But Rudolph and Santa always
left a thank you