Blue Jeans
By JD O'Meara
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Blue Jeans captures the emotional and psychological chaos of the author's recovery from a nervous breakdown. The decentered narrative of vignettes from therapy sessions, memories, dreams, and real events challenges the reader to construct a narrative in a way that mirrors JD's process of collecting and piecing back together the shattered remains of the self.
While the specific circumstances in the book are those of its author, the larger issues tackled in Blue Jeans are those of the contemporary human condition: how to cope when you can barely survive, how to find yourself when you are utterly lost, and how to move forward when the past holds you back.
JD O'Meara
Unlike many writers, I can't honestly say that I've had a lifelong love for literature and writing. Encouraged throughout most of my schooling to study math and science, I was introduced to literature as a discipline late in my undergraduate career. It was really only during my graduate studies that I began to fully appreciate the act of writing as a form of inquiry and expression. This appreciation notwithstanding, it was still only after a breakdown that I myself turned to writing in a desperate attempt to understand myself.Because my writing is so personally motivated, I choose to keep much of it private. The texts I offer here, however, are notable exceptions.Although it began as a highly personal and private work, whatever.odt ultimately -- and to my pleasant surprise -- blossomed into precisely the sort of text that I wish I had read when I was younger. I've chosen for this reason to share whatever.odt with anyone whom it might interest, in the hope that the genderqueer individuals who need it most will find and be empowered by it.Blue Jeans is a far more universal text than whatever.odt in that its narrative structure whisks the reader through the disarray and disjunction of a mental breakdown. My hope is that it will provide vicarious solace for those who have had such an experience, and foster patience and understanding in those who have not.
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Blue Jeans - JD O'Meara
Blue Jeans
JD O'Meara
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Acknowledgments
Thanks to my readers, Liz and Cathy: Liz for encouraging me to expand sections of this manuscript into what ultimately became whatever.odt, and Cathy for convincing me that Blue Jeans is a compelling read on its own.
Thanks also to my family and friends who are there for me even when I don't deserve them.
Table of Contents
Note from the Author
Epigraph
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
References
About the Author
Note from the Author
Experience the madness and find the meaning.
That's what I did.
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Epigraph
When I used to read fairy-tales, I fancied that kind of thing never happened, and now here I am in the middle of one! There ought to be a book written about me, that there ought! And when I grow up, I'll write one -- but I'm grown up now,
she added in a sorrowful tone; at least there's no room to grow up any more here.
-- Alice, Alice In Wonderland
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August 2008
How have you been since our first meeting?
He opened my file and ran his finger down a page of notes. I have here depression, anger, anxiety, phobia, ACoA, GERD, recurrent stomach bleeds, TMJ, two leaky heart valves, Raynaud's, DJD, tinnitus, chronic tonsillitis, indoor and outdoor allergies.
I stared blankly as he rattled off the fundamental constituents of my psychological and physiological being like items on a fucked up grocery list.
Did doubling up work?
My eyes floated slowly over to him. Not yet.
Give it another week. If you don't feel more balanced by then, we can think about some other medications.
He patted down his desk and