Heretic: A Memoir

Written by Jeanna Kadlec

Narrated by Xe Sands

A memoir of leaving the evangelical church and the search for radical new ways to build community. 

Jeanna Kadlec knew what it meant to be faithful--in her marriage to a pastor’s son, in the comfortable life ahead of her, in her God--but there was no denying the truth that lived under that conviction: she was queer and, if she wanted to survive, she would need to leave behind the church and every foundational building block she knew.  

Heretic is a memoir of rebirth. Within, Kadlec reckons with religious trauma and Midwestern values, as a means of unveiling how evangelicalism directly impacts every American--religious or not--and has been a major force in driving our democracy towards fascism. From the story of Lilith to celebrity purity rings, Kadlec interrogates how her indoctrination and years of piety intersects with her Midwest working-class upbringing. As she navigated graduate school, a new home on the East Coast, and a new marriage, another insidious truth began to reveal itself --that conservative Christianity has both built and undermined our political power structures, poisoned our pop culture, and infected how we interact with one another in ways that the secular population couldn’t see.  

Weaving the personal with powerful critique, Heretic explores how we can radically abandon these painful systems by taking a sledgehammer to the comfortable. Whether searching for community in the face of millennial loneliness or wanting to reclaim a secular form of fellowship in everyday life, Kadlec envisions the brilliant possibilities that come with not only daring to want a different way but actually striking out and claiming it for ourselves.

• Language: English
• Publisher: HarperAudio
• Release date: Oct 25, 2022
• ISBN: 9780063274198

Jeanna Kadlec

Jeanna Kadlec is a writer, astrologer, former lingerie boutique owner, and recovering academic. Her writing has appeared in ELLE, NYLON, O the Oprah Magazine, Allure, Catapult, Literary Hub, Autostraddle, and more. A born and bred Midwesterner, she now lives in Brooklyn. Heretic is her first book.

Reviews for Heretic

[Jo · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

I loved this wonderful memoir that mixes Jeanna’s personal experiences with her insightful analysis of the wider social and political context.

[Jacques Mercier · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

As an atheist raised as a catholic, even if I "escaped" much younger than the author did (catholics I knew were not nearly as fanatic as evangelicals seem to be), I can still understand the arc of her life, even if more extreme than my own experience.
I applaud her courage and her skills at depicting her journey. I also thank her for helping me understand those dog whistle subtexts, which up to now I just did not hear or was simply baffled (or naively dismissive) when I thought I had heard something.
Remarkable and important book.
I also enjoyed the reader's performance who managed to personalize, internalize and capture the turmoil the author went through.