“We are meaning-making machines. Chaos is uncomfortable, and thinking that everything that happens to us is due to random chance feels cold and impersonal. The brain seeks out patterns and order when they are not necessarily present.” Sarah Henn HaywardOur guest this week is Sarah Henn Hayward. Sarah is a mom of two, an author and our first self-proclaimed agnostic/atheist on the podcast. To say that our conversation was fascinating and enlightening would be an understatement.On this episode, we explore these topics:Unpacking the realization that so much of our former faith was about control and distraction from the realities of life. We were looking for safety and consistency and a formula to explain all of life’s pain.Embracing the uncomfortable chaos/mystery/the "I don't know"What happened when Sarah finally said the words "I don't believe in God" out loudDeconstructing faith when it leads to actual de-conversion or agnosticism/atheismNavigating parenting with a partner who is still believes in God.Our favorite words from this podcast episode were things like "mystery" and "wonder" and "peace" and "what if." Find out why when you listen.You can find Sarah at the following:Website: sarahhennhayward.comInstagram:  @shaywardwritesFacebook:  Sarah Henn Hayward