From Hollywood Exec to Farmers Market Artisan - Walking away from a life that isn’t workingHave you ever found yourself looking around at your life and thinking, on paper you have everything you ever wanted and worked hard for but something still doesn’t feel quite right? Tracy Mazuer’s life is a powerful example of this - AND how we can begin to find our way back to our true calling - even in the midst of chaos and unhappiness. This is one of those episodes that has the power to change the trajectory of your whole life if you happen to be ready for what it is trying to tell you. If you suspect that there is a different, more fulfilling life whispering to you and you are ready to do some reflection, pay close attention to the end of this episode because, i have some homework that will help you begin to tease all this apart and start down your own path of returning to your truest self. After wanting to be a successful Hollywood producer as long as she could remember and fighting her way up the dysfunctional ranks of Hollywood, Tracy spent 25 years tearing her hair out in Hollywood as a television executive producer, writer, and director. From Bachelors and Bachelorettes to Deals and No Deals, from the Littlest of People to Biggest of Losers, from Millionaire Matchmakers to Long Lost Families, from A-list celebs to D-list and beyond, Tracy did it all. One day while immersed in the stress of producing one of her shows, Tracy realized that instead of tearing out what remained of her hair, she was going to try breathing and doodling on her desk calendar. And what it led to changed her life completely, forever. The trees that emerged in her doodles reflected exactly what she was feeling — chaos, frustration, with bits of light and joy. There were so many feelings packed into these doodled trees! And with the gusto familiar to any newly minted artist, Tracy tore it off of that desk calendar, brought it home, and stuck it on the fridge. Her husband immediately declared her a “Toddler Savant” and Tracy's foray into the forest took root. She's now officially left “the biz” and combines her storytelling skills with her illustrations to bring her art Trees Have Feelings - to life. Tracy is a vivacious, fierce, powerhouse of a human. A gentle giant. She shares with us how she came to know it was time to leave behind everything she worked so hard to build in Hollywood so that she could follow the quiet whisper of her trees. Trigger warning; Tracy references some sexual trauma that she has endured, it is brief and not graphic but all the same I wanted you to have a heads up on that. Perhaps my biggest takeaway from this episode is how art and creativity don’t stop pursuing us as long as it has gifts for us - and it always does. For most of Tracys life she felt she was not a ‘good’ artist  - she told us herself all through school she couldn't draw the way she wanted to draw or sculpt the way she wanted to sculpt. Doodling found her in the midst of the trauma she was going through as a young child and stayed with her for many years. And it came back to her in the midst of the chaos, stress and turmoil in a job she hated but had worked so hard to earn. In fact from where i sit, it certainly seems that doodling saved her life. It turned up in her office that day and helped walk her out of a life that may have been slowly killing her and into a life of healing, joy and fulfillment with her trees. Tracy’s story of ‘making it’ as a producer in Hollywood and then realizing she hated it is one that perhaps many of us can relate to. It can feel almost impossible to look at everything you have invested into your career or relationship or even a community and friendships and realize that while they are exactly what you thought you wanted, in reality, they just aren’t quite right for you. So many of us would rather (and often do) ignore these pangs - which is totally understandable - dismantling our lives is counter intuitive. We may be dealing with inne