Thinking Out Loud
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Kayla Ackelson
Kayla Ackelson-Mannato is an artist and creator. She is an advocate for mental health awareness, drawing from her own journey through self-discovery. 'Thinking Out Loud' is her debut work, born from a desire to offer a sense of community and understanding to those navigating similar paths. When she's not writing, Kayla enjoys painting, exploring nature, and spending time with her family.
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Thinking Out Loud - Kayla Ackelson
THINKING
OUT LOUD
KAYLA ACKELSON
For my boys - who inspire me daily.
I remember being able to feel my pulse in my whole body and I would start to go into a panic. I started worrying about a lot of small things and it quickly turned into a constant fear of my own thoughts. I didn’t trust myself. I thought I’m absolutely losing my mind.
I wasn’t sleeping, I cried every single day for years, I was self-sabotaging, I was worrying myself into nausea, and I had so much brain fog I couldn’t answer simple questions. I was pushing my partner away because I thought it would protect him. I couldn’t get out of bed in the morning because I would think what’s the point? If I’m awake I’ll just have more terrible thoughts and do something horrible.
I was late to work because I couldn’t get in my car to leave the house. Once I finally got to work, I would have to step away from my desk frequently to calm myself down from panic attacks while I was in public.
It felt like I was underwater. Hours would pass by and I would have been thinking the same thought for an entire day and spiraling.
I would drive home and pinch my arm and pull the hair out on my head. I wanted to quit. I stopped creating. I wanted to run away.
I tried acupuncture, therapy, essential oils, supplements, reiki, reflexology, tapping, quitting caffeine, quitting alcohol, yoga, different diets, going on an antidepressant, tinctures, going