The Girl Who Should Have Been Left At Airport Security: Traumatized stargazing, #1

By T.M. Tarantino

This is my memoirs, about the pain I went through as a kid and young adult! Fast ward to now and I was at my therapist when I said that I wish my mother left me at the airport security checkpoint! As I write there will be some rough stuff along the way! From a disappointing alcoholic for a mom to being abuse by my brother! Until now, this is my first fucked up 35 years in life

• Language: English
• Publisher: T.M. Tarantino
• Release date: Apr 10, 2024
• ISBN: 9798224080427

T.M. Tarantino

T.M. Tarantino is a penname for an author and artist!  T.M. Is a tattoo and piercing fiend as well as solar eclipse happy!  She love stargazing and writing! When she is not NOT seen writing or reading, she is getting tattoos/piercings and doing art!  She is a PTSD warrior and was bornin romania!  Ottawa based author and artist

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The Girl Who Should Have Been Left At Airport Security

Traumatized stargazing, Volume 1

T.M. Tarantino

Published by T.M. Tarantino, 2024.

While every precaution has been taken in the preparation of this book, the publisher assumes no responsibility for errors or omissions, or for damages resulting from the use of the information contained herein.

THE GIRL WHO SHOULD HAVE BEEN LEFT AT AIRPORT SECURITY

First edition. April 10, 2024.

Copyright © 2024 T.M. Tarantino.

ISBN: 979-8224080427

Written by T.M. Tarantino.

My friends

The girl who should've been left at airport security By T.M Tarantino

The girl who should've been left at airport security

To my friends thank you for being there

Trigger warnings

Tw: trauma/ptsd, suicide, bullying, eating disorders, addiction ( that of my mother!), S.A., torture and terrorism, war and distressing content, violence, and mental illness, abandonment issues, depression!

Prologue: therapy

It took a lot more than my only mother figures jeep that brought me to the therapist! There was 35 years of pure bullish that brought me to there too. I have been in the therapist before but this was different! It was more like an exorcism then anything else as there so major demon monkies that were infecting my

brain! I think the song by Limp Bizkit nookie will say this better!

Check

One, one, two

I came into this world as a reject

Look into these eyes

Then you'll see the size of the flames (size of the) Dwellin' on the past (past)

It's burnin' up my brain (hot)

Everyone that burns has to learn from the pain Hey, I think about the day (days)

My girlie ran away with my pay

When fellas came to play (play)

Now she's stuck with my homies that she fucked (ooh) And I'm just a sucker with a lump in my throat like a chump

(Hey) like a chump

(Hey) like a chump

(Hey) like a chump

(Hey) like a chump

(Hey) like a chump

(Hey) like a chump

(Hey)

Should I be feelin' bad? (No)

Should I be feelin' good? (No)

It's kinda sad, I'm the laughin' stock of the neighborhood And you would think that I'd be movin' on (movin') But I'm a sucker like I said, fucked up in the head (not) And maybe she just made a mistake

And I should give her a break

My heart will ache either way

Hey, what the hell, what you want me to say?

I won't lie that I can't deny

I did it all for the nookie

(Come on) the nookie

(Come on) so you can take that cookie

And stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your

I did it all for the nookie

(Come on) the nookie

(Come on) so you can take that cookie

And stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your

Why did it take so long?

Why did I wait so long, huh?

To figure it out? But I did it

And I'm the only one

Underneath the sun who didn't get it

I can't believe that I could be deceived (but you were) By my so called girl (but in reality)

Had a hidden agenda

She put my tender heart in a blender

And still I surrendered

like a chump

(Hey) like a chump

(Hey) like a chump

(Hey) like a chump

(Hey) like a chump

(Hey) like a chump

(Hey) like a chump

I did it all for the nookie

(Come on) the nookie

(Come on) so you can take that cookie

And stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your

I did it all for the nookie

(Come on) the nookie

(Come on) so you can take that cookie

And stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your

I'm only human

It's so easy for your friends

To give you their advice

They'll tell you, just let it go

But it's easier said than done

(I apppreciate) I appreciate it, I do, but

Just leave me alone (leave me alone)

Leave me alone (leave me alone)

Just leave me alone

Ain't nothin' gonna change

You can go away

I'm just gonna stay here and always be the same Ain't nothin' gonna change

'Cause you can go away

And I'm just gonna stay here and always be the same Ain't nothin' gonna change

And you can go away

I'm just gonna stay here and always be the same I did it all for the nookie

(Come on) the nookie

(Come on) so you can take that cookie

And stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your

I did it all for the nookie

(Come on) the nookie

(Come on) so you can take that cookie

And stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your (yeah)

Stick it up your

Wow, great there it is

That's fucking amazing

Here's how you do it

Watch this

Crazy bastard

You gotta pay for a major expensive glass

Ha-ha-ha-ha

That's how you do it

Ha-ha-ha-ha

Chechen innocence lost

When I was born I was the product of a rape and also that of a poor mother! That being said I was not wanted to begin with in life! As the first two years of my life would play out I would lost my innocence in the most painful way possible, through actual violence and torture! But know buy just anyone but by mujahadeen the actual predecessor of Al-Qaeda, sounds far fetched? No, because at the very time I was born up until I was adopted I was in a terrorist infest country and warzone! There was no intelligence or airport security to be had! One of tormentor I was able to Identify through a night mare I had! Some of the torture I went through was waterboarding, stress position, sleep deprivation, and isolation to pure pain in the worst way imaginable! I would you more about this but it would be triggering for you! And this continues for two years two months.

Also I heard other kids being hurt and also hearing AK fire and IEDs go off almost every fucking hour!

I remember that food was scarce and that I would've starved anyway, which is sad to say!

This aided in my fear of the dark as-well as the Herculean pain tolerance that I would have in the coming 30 some odd years in my life! Though the beginnning of my life was morbid and grousome! It got worse as the people in the orphanage also started stealing my stuff, yet another torture tactic.....but this time it was mental torture! As you can see I was born in a shit land that was hostile to girls, women and females as well as the Roma!

I only discovered the force sex and rap of women in my country when I was with my brother Bryan, more about him latter as he contributed to my trauma! People this days are like oh my god thank god your no like a Quentin Tarantino character especially Oren Ishii! And unfortunately I am able to relate to Oren and her copious amounts of trauma too! Also it does not help that I was bother Eurasian and Indo-European (Roma which is another way of saying Eurasian). The only white I have in me is Chechen and Bosnian as well as Romanian! This will not be the first time that I would lost innocence nor the virginities, not just sexual but in other way too! I will get them later!

When I was adopted my brain took another shift and I was traumatized again by having a new set of humans and a new country to live in, still to this day I have to tell my self that I was safe and that I still am! But the fuckery would not end there, as my first triggering memory was fucking daycare! The shit excuse so my parents can drink all day and not have to deal with me! The repercussions were this that I ended up being a hellion as a kid. As this was the first shit memory I had in Canada! That being said I found my self with the same damn dangerous but this time they were make believe, but it was so real at the time! But at the end of the day my parents had to deal with a very pissed of peach~ me! I was told I was horrible and bad and that I was the devils child whenever I left day care! If that was so bad why did not my ret*rd parents just leave me at the security checkpoint or at customs as I would have benefited from that!

Pre school

Just to show you how bad daycare was our preschool was it was not exactly my cup of tea, even if I was born in Canada instead this was what I was dealt with anyway, but let’s see what I can say about preschool! That being said it was not exactly a pleasant experience for me. I think I remember I was going through times where I was I guess would be called hunger strikes until my parents would come and get me that being said I never eat and daycare, because I was afraid that the other children would take the other food, and and then I would be chickenshit! That being said it wasn’t my cup of tea to be in this kind of situation Canada it was getting too surreal for me. I would find anything a cold to a flu even though I would have my flu shot or even as much as whatever else I can think of in my childlike brain at the time to avoid going to Daycare sometimes I had a fake the cough and fake the sniffles just to get out of going to daycare that was the only things I knew about diseases back then was the cold and flu strep throat or other things that were pretty much contagious that I know about chickenpox, or anything of that matter or worse for that matter, I should say, my medical knowledge was very very laminated at the time, because well I was a preschooler and I had to get the fuck out of there sooner our way, so I would coughing until I would throw up or I would fake sneezing!

Got to the point where my humans were starting to get a little worried about my health thought I had an auto immune disease disorder something to that effect. I don’t know what the fuck to say, but they were worried that I had a cough for most of my childhood I could not sing, I could not do music, because I had to live this life just to get out of friggin preschool and sooner or later Catholic school.

That’ll be another shit show for another time but anyways, I was not a very good person In preschool I was called the devils child or I was possessed by the devil they didn’t really understand me for the simplest reasons as I was too complex and two gifted I know I’m saying that I’m not tooting my horn, but that is basically what it was is that I was too complex and two gifted to be understood by other people on the planet, especially my parents they never understood my humans as I call them they never really understood me until I was ready to move to the group home. That being said there was a lot of choice things that was going on, but I will mention that one time, when I was going through preschool I made one I don’t know how the hell I made one friend when I was so hateful and I admit I was hateful in preschool I didn’t share I didn’t. I didn’t play with the other kids. I didn’t do anything I just was miserable and how this one friend Chelsea Powell was able to be my friend and was attracted to my personality was one thing out of another different I just didn’t understand for the fact and I forgot her completely completely until I went to high school that being said that’s another can of worms is high school but anyways this kind of worms was every day I was putting in the

corner when I got home and I didn’t really give a rat’s arse about being put in the corner I just wanted to get the hell out of the fucking preschool at the time that was what my main objective was was still defined security and peace and safety.

That being said, I never will find that until I was about 30 years was kind of sad because I need a kid you need security and safety to find in our peace. I never found that until I was about 30 and then more stupid stuff was happening after that particularly with my brother and stuff but let’s see I don’t really remember very much about preschool, except for the fact that I didn’t enjoy it. I was hunger, striking and I was basically mean and bully like! Which I will admit, was the truth.

I remember my parents always saying Elena were such a shit and preschool/daycare and I agreed with them and I said