My Soldier
By Van Cole
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I returned from the war with scars that run deeper than my flesh.
Tormented by memories of the past I wonder if I'll ever be able to become the man I used to be, or if I'm always destined to be this shell that returned from the foreign country, broken and battered and defeated.
There seems to be little hope for improvement until I receive a surprising call from my old best friend, Clint.
We lost touch a while ago as life took its hold on us, but as we reconnect, I start to remember why he was such a good friend.
He's the only one who can get me to talk about my emotions, and as I open up to him, I start to feel something else.
Something unfamiliar…something a little scary, but very exciting.
Maybe, just maybe, we can save each other.
My Soldier is a standalone Gay Romance with a HEA and NO cheating!
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My Soldier - Van Cole
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Dan is a professional hockey player at the top of his game – but when his wife up and leaves him out of nowhere, it feels like game, set and match. How is he supposed to get through his upcoming games with an apartment empty of furniture and his wife off sleeping with some baseball player she's supposedly been seeing for a while now?
Turns out, however, that Dan's life isn't finished loading things onto him yet. When Dan's college flame Jeremy walks back onto the scene, after years of Dan convincing himself that he's not gay and that his father was right about everything? Well, it completely screws his head up.
Now, Dan has no idea whether he's coming or going. Is he supposed to try and make it work with his wife? Is it possible for him to develop a friendship with Jeremy, whose heart he broke all those years ago... and is a friendship all he wants? The ghost of something special and more intimate is definitely hanging around him, but he thought his days of wanting men were long behind him.
No question about it, Dan's life is a mess – but maybe if he follows his instincts, they'll take him where he needs to go.
After all, they've never failed him in a hockey game. They should know what to do. Right?
Foreword
Ireturned from the war with scars that run deeper than my flesh. Tormented by memories of the past I wonder if I’ll ever be able to become the man I used to be, or if I’m always destined to be this shell that returned from the foreign country, broken and battered and defeated.
There seems to be little hope for improvement until I receive a surprising call from my old best friend, Clint. We lost touch a while ago as life took its hold on us, but as we reconnect, I start to remember why he was such a good friend. He’s the only one who can get me to talk about my emotions, and as I open up to him, I start to feel something else. Something unfamiliar...something a little scary, but very exciting.
Maybe, just maybe, we can save each other.
My Soldier
Chapter 1
The air was dry and hot. Sweat prickled on my skin. My gear weighed heavily on me, like solid weights. I looked up, but the glare of the sun blinded me. Bullets cracked through the air. I yelped and whimpered like a little lost puppy. Fear gripped my heart. Sand filled my mouth, and I coughed. I was in a foreign desert, a backwater place far from home, defending my country. An explosion bloomed in the distance, a plume of smoke rising through the air, followed by an orange supernova. I turned and rolled over. I heard the cries of all my friends, my allies, the people who had come to mean so much to me. I heard them cry out in pain. I saw them fall to the floor, clutching their guts and their wounds. I watched blood spill out over the golden sand as all the armor and gear we wore did nothing. We were nothing compared to the little shards of metal slicing through our flesh.
I clung to the ground as if it offered life itself. I buried my head in the sand, literally, just waiting for it all to be over. I was a soldier. I was a brave man, defending his country from the enemy, protecting the people back home, except they had no idea what I was doing. Nobody did, except the men and women who were dying around me.
I heard them all fall to the ground, and I just stayed there, shaking. I tried so hard to will myself to pick up the gun, but my hands wouldn’t move. I was paralyzed. I clamped my eyes shut and tasted the salty tears that trickled down my face, leaving tracks through the dry sand. I was sure that one of the bullets would have my name on it, that one of them would end me just like all my friends.
But then the bullets stopped. The thunder in the air settled. I heard a car drive away, the triumphant whoops and hollers of the natives fading into the distance. The glare of the sun beat down upon me as I tentatively lifted my head and looked around at the carnage. Dead bodies lay all around me, wounded people groaned and moaned, writhing in agony, and I was laying there, unharmed, my gun unused. I was a disgrace to my uniform, to my country, to my friends. I had been sent there to defend and protect, but all I could do was cower in the dirt and the sand, praying for it all to be over.
It wasn’t over for another few months. Somehow I managed to make it to the end of my tour without anyone looking at me like I was a coward. They all told me I was brave for making it through, that I had done my country proud, but I knew different. I knew I was just a lucky son of a bitch who should have been killed with a thousand other men. I was a disgrace, and something inside me broke that day, something in my mind snapped, and I wasn’t sure I was ever going to be the man I used to be.
Even now I wake up in cold sweats at night, and it’s been a couple of years since I returned home. Somehow it has to end, hasn’t it? God, I hope so. I pray every day for salvation, even though I don’t really think I deserve it. Maybe this is my penance for surviving when so many other, worthier people didn’t. Maybe this is just what I deserve.
I drank the water beside my bed and looked out at the dawn sun rising through the window. It had been another night where my dreams were plagued by the sounds of bullets and explosions, the cries of victory as I looked around at my wounded friends. The worst part was that the war was still going on. Somehow despite all the sacrifice and all the death, we hadn’t achieved anything. I had sold my soul to the army, and all I’d been given in return was a plague.
I pulled myself out of bed and staggered downstairs, ignoring the glittering decorations around the house.
Morning, Bobby,
Mom said. She wore a cheery smile. I felt worse for her more than anything. She’d lost so much already. I was all she had left, and I was just a shell of the boy I used to be. Sometimes at night, when she thought I was asleep, I’d hear her on the phone to her friends talking about how I wasn’t the same as I used to be and how she hated the government for taking her little boy away from her. I wished I could be the same, I wished I could go back to being the way I was, but I was different. I just couldn’t come to terms with the man I had turned into. It felt as though I had been corrupted, and my innocence had been stolen away. Once gone, it could never return.
I grunted at her in reply. She didn’t deserve it, but somehow, I couldn’t stop myself.
What are you going to do today, dear?
she placed a plate of pancakes in front of me. I chewed on them. Even they didn’t taste the same as they used to. Nothing did. All I tasted when I ate was the dry sand of the desert.
Probably go for a run and then go to the gym.
"Why don’t you go to the library instead? You always used to like reading. It would be good for you to