My Shepherd
By JR Tarin
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JR Tarin
Jose was born in East Los Angeles at the L.A. County General Hospital. He was raised in the Ramona Gardens projects, where he also worked as a residence cleaner. He is 3rd to the youngest of eight children born to Eva and Robert Tarin. He never graduated high school. He finally received his GED from the L.A. Occupational Center. He is wayward, prancing and frolicking about life with no dimension or prowess—nonetheless, a happy and measurably innocent soul.
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My Shepherd - JR Tarin
For my brother
Edward
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, organizations, places, events, and incidents are products of the author’s imagination or used fictitiously. Text copyright © 2017 JR TRAIN. All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without express written permission of the author. Published by:
TARIN, J.R., My Shepherd. (Hocake). Las Winas Media LTD, Kindle Edition.
ISBN: 979-8-35-094887-5
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Night terrors emanated from a mortifying dream, sudden and frightful. Short breath pangs and a heartbeat pounded his chest with a resounding clamor that shot to the top of his head—sweating and exhausted from an exasperating tension he’d never experienced. Gage struggled to regain a semblance of reality that seemed distant from where he huddled. Curled and rigid upon his bed, sheets tangled between his legs, and pillows were strewn about. A fight, it seemed, had been levied upon him during the night. He sat up quickly, recalling the place on his bed in his room. Delicately, the morphed escapade diminished from his sub consciousness and brought forth his reality as it seemed. He looked at the corner table and noted the time; it was early morning. He struggled to remember why he had felt so disjointed and frail. Then a memory sudden and painful; as a sharp saber thrashed through his heart and memory. Jaden! His beloved, he recalled, the woman of his dreams and his life and happiness, which were no more. She had been taken only days earlier; suddenly and without warning, he thought. Why? How could this happen? Why did God allow her to perish? An angel of goodness and innocence plucked away for no reason.
Questions without answers are vague and obscure. His world had been torn from the fabric of his very existence like a thief in the darkness, inconspicuous, quiet, distorted, and sinister, leaving only this mockery of a man—a scarecrow, a straw dog left to toil in misery. But that wasn’t all! The devil had reached even further to claw and shred his sanity because Jaden had a living essence within her. Yes, a child, a beautiful baby fetus that was 27 weeks into its life formation.
Madness hovered above like a dark cloud of ash spewing forth into his meager soul. Gage needed to seek some reprieve from his desperation, or he knew there’d be nothing to live for. He’d been contemplating that thought, which was getting worse by the day. Nevertheless, he knew he still had family and friends there for him no matter how far this ache would carry. And his church and all people were here for him in this tragic time. Yet still, there was that burgeoning feeling deep inside his chest that would not relent. He was angry towards his God, who he believed had abandoned him and Jaden. He found praying difficult, which did not sit well with him either because prayer and worship were and had been a part of his life and family since childhood. His anger and frustration grew into a monster that consumed his thoughts. He remained terrified and shallow in the darkness of his mind. What truly is a man without family and God? Gage also thought of Jaden’s parents and siblings and the pain they must have endured these past few weeks. He wanted to be there for them as well. It wouldn’t be easy, but he knew it was the right thing to do. In his limited kernel at this point, he thought to stand and make his decisions based on his inner being. To call upon his strength as a man from within because, from now on, he would be making his path without the veiled hope and faith he so naively relied upon. This is where he remained: broken, ungodly, and without faith.
The days became a chore instead of the beautiful aspirations and dreams most of us feel. The mild sunshine and subtle breeze on our faces nourish our breath of life. Those dimensions were the essence of the past. He was trying to adhere to anything that would conjure a feeling for that life he’d so embraced not a month before. But remaining in this void contemplation of pain and suffering would do nothing more than discourage his motives for seeking a better place other than this darkness where he’d been suddenly reposed. Regardless, Gage managed to escape the terrors of the night and brought himself to take charge of the many issues that needed his attention. His local print shop, his pride possession since high school, required some focus, knowing his five employees and friends couldn’t continue with an out-of-touch master. Although they all did their part in keeping his place and jobs together, each imparting condolences and empathy for the condition, he remained. But how could anyone pick up and continue with life and all its responsibilities over a tragedy of such proportions?
Jaden’s funeral was a monumental challenge for Gage, emotionally and spiritually. Listening in vain to the sermons preached, becoming more rigid in his disbelief