The Appendix: Transmasculine Joy in a Transphobic Culture
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The Appendix explores transphobia in UK media, as well as the trauma of living in a society constantly debating you. Liam explains his time spent 'stealth' after moving to the UK, his false belief that witnessing the transphobia by documenting it would lead people to change their behaviours - that if he could only show them the effects on people like him, it would all stop - and the peaks and troughs of anxiety. More so, he turns the focus to the more positive representations and experiences, capturing - as he sought - the beauty in transmasculinity.
Liam Konemann
Liam Konemann is a queer Australian writer based in London. He writes music journalism, fiction and poetry with a focus on queerness and masculinity. His work has appeared in Dazed, HUCK, NME and more. He is author of debut novel The Arena of the Unwell, and essay pocket book The Appendix: Transmasculine Joy in a Transphobic Culture, part of 404’s Inklings series.
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The Appendix
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The Appendix
Transmasculine Joy in a Transphobic Culture
Liam Konemann
For my parents.
Contents
The Appendix
Content Note
Introduction: A Terrible Idea That Will Make You Sick
Chapter 1: Stealth
Chapter 2: Won’t Somebody Please Think of the Children?
Chapter 3: The Appendix
Chapter 4: Not ‘Born This Way’
Conclusion: On Joy
References
Acknowledgements
About the Author
About the Inklings series
Content Note
As comes with the territory of writing about a transphobic culture, please be aware that transphobia is detailed throughout The Appendix, in many ways and levels of detail, across the entire book.
Specific topics within that include:
Homophobic slurs (chapters 1, 4)
Murder (chapter 1)
Rape (chapter 1)
Sexual assault (chapter 1)
Transphobic slur (chapter 3)
Introduction: A Terrible Idea That Will Make You Sick
I was making the long trek back from the Royal Albert Hall.
I’ve long held the opinion that West London is a made-up place invented specifically to mess with me, but I was in a good mood anyway. I caught up with an old friend, the band we’d just seen were great, and I realised quite early on that there was an unknown bathroom just one floor up in the venue and I didn’t need to queue for the loo all evening. I wasn’t difficult to please.
It was late, but there were still a few mangled copies of a popular UK newspaper littered about the near-empty tube car. Flicking through one, I got to the arts pages and stopped at a review of Jeanette Winterson’s Frankissstein, which I’d been thinking of picking up. I couldn’t decide whether I wanted it enough to slightly inconvenience myself by having to read it in hardback, or if I should just wait for the paperback to come out like everybody else.
Foolishly, I thought the review might help me.
The first sentence or so was innocuous enough. But partway through, the reviewer got to the bit they really wanted to highlight. When revealing that Ry, Frankissstein’s main character, is transgender, they wrote, ‘of course!’ You could practically feel the eye-roll coming through the newsprint. I knew then I was going to have to add the review to the growing list of transphobia I was keeping on my phone, but even I was surprised at the turn the next paragraph took. I actually caught sight of myself reflected in the carriage windows opposite, my mouth gaping open like a shocked clown. My good mood evaporated.
I hadn’t drunk that much, but I took a picture of the review anyway so I could check it again in the morning. Maybe I misread it or was overreacting. I hoped it couldn’t possibly be as bad as it seemed in the moment.
The next day, in between waking up and getting into the shower, I opened up the photograph of the review, standing there in the bathroom with my phone in one hand and a bottle of shower gel in the other. I re-read the piece while I waited for the water to heat up. I was right the first time. The newspaper really had described Ry like this:
S/he is called Ry, short for Mary (as in Mary Shelley), which makes you wonder why s/he isn’t called Ree, so as not to sound like Ryan. S/he started out female and has XY chromosomes, but has had upper body surgery, no prosthetics and testosterone supplements which gives Ry an elongated clitoris – two centimetres, I think – and a satisfactory sex life.
An ‘elongated clitoris’. Space in the arts pages of print newspapers is famously at a premium, meaning what gets reviewed – and who gets to review it – is hugely competitive. Imagine surmounting all of that, reading an entire novel, and then wasting three of your precious, finite words, commenting on the protagonist’s clitoris.
The little aside, ‘– two centimetres, I think –’, was almost comical. Here is the reviewer, sitting at their computer, painstakingly typing their query – ‘trans clitoris how long’ – into Google. One finger at a time, pecking out the letters with a furrowed brow. They would write the review and edit it, cutting out lines and phrases to meet the word count, and ultimately decide that their newfound knowledge of clitoris length absolutely had to stay. Presumably, multiple editors and sub-editors also