Someone, I thought I loved: Revenge is surviving

By Alexandra R. Luke

About the Book
Behind every dark moment lies a bright light.
33-year-old Karina Waters creeps through the night, terrified of her abusive husband as she tries to protect her children. Karina finds comfort in another man, until the terrifying moment when she finds out she's pregnant. Is it her husband's or the man she's been sleeping with? What will happen? And will it end in a horrible way?
About the Author
Alexandra R. Luke was born and raised in Bronx, New York, with some time on her hands and has always had a big imagination. She is the third youngest out of four siblings in a strict household; she often spent her time in silence in her room with her nose always buried in a book. A passion for writing took hold when she began reading poetry and she knew she had to write. She started writing poems on paper in the ninth grade, and over the years, graduated to essays, blogs, and spoken-words.
Before becoming a writer, Alexandra tried to be a normal adult by holding down various jobs day by day. Ms. Luke always had a passion for writing and telling her story, and slowly opening up to the world on how she views life and about her life.
Ms. Luke enjoys spending time with her friends and family.

• Language: English
• Publisher: RoseDog Books
• Release date: Dec 5, 2023
• ISBN: 9798888129593

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Dedication

This is dedicated to all the beautiful women and men who have been a victim of Domestic violence we are praying for you everyday. I don’t think people realize how much strength it takes to pull your own self out of a poisonous situation with someone you love deeply. So if you’ve done that today or any day for that matter we are proud of you. At any given moment you have the power to say, "This is not how the story is going to end.

*Always Stand Strong*

When things seem difficult or miserable. life is turning away from you, intimidated and worn out, you remain in darkness at a corner you examine watching the sky as it disappears reminding the lost beloved ones how beautiful and caring they were. vanishing without saying goodbye shortening your long life span and leaving you destitute and lonely, deeply you wonder how life can really be unfair to honest and good people like you. But all you let go of and focus to mend your life and strengthen your heart with good and caring friends on your side. Opening the picture of brightness knowing God is holding your hand leading you to your success and survival, stars Embracing the whole sky and you know your journey has started in pursuit of your purpose, slowly matching from dusk till dawn with smiles and determination in whispers you read your heart.

*Always Stand Strong*

Acknowledgments

You know how it is, you pick up a book flip to the dedication page and

Find out once again, the author

         Dedicated a book to someone else and not you.

Not this time.

Because we haven’t met yet/ have only a glancing acquaintance

/are crazy about each other/haven’t

        Seen each other in much to long/ are in some way related

/Will never meet, but will I trust,

Despite that always will think fondly of each other…

This one’s for you. With you know what,

     And you probably know why. Much love everyone

        And I hope you enjoy my book. Much more to come.

Chapter I

Where Did I Go Wrong

  *A queen will always turn pain into power *

It was a chilling night on February 2009 as the clock was striking 10pm my husband walked in from work the kids ran up to him and hugged him. I could hear him yell babe! dinner was just about done when I walked out the kitchen wiping my hands off with a towel, the kids and him came up to me as he kissed me on the lips and held on to my kids rubbing their backs and saying are ya’ll hungry dinner is just about done right babe? the kids ran into the dining room and sat down waiting to be served. I looked at my husband and kissed him one more time and smiled when I felt his phone vibrate as he walked away and said, I will be back down Shortly babe, as he headed upstairs and shut the bedroom door. Woman are you crazy don’t be calling me when I am around my family and besides you have a family you need to worry about, don’t contact me no more. Daniel Said before he hung up the phone, that’s what I needed to talk to you about Daniel about the baby it’s not CJ’s its yours. CJ’s Wife Nadia said over the other line, Bitch Excuse me I am not that fucking baby’s father you are just a whore that doesn’t know any better, its probably someone else you fucking slept with your trippin don’t call my fucking phone again you hear me. Daniel said as he got up from the bed and slammed the phone.  His phone Vibrated again Nadia was on the other line again I am telling Karina and CJ, and before Daniel could speak he heard CJ in the background saying, you are telling Karina and me what? Nadia put the phone down and said nothing baby. The phone hung up abruptly before Daniel could hear anything else. Later Daniel came downstairs as I got his food out of the microwave and sat it at the table with his drink, we all began to talk about each other’s day as the night went on. We talked and laughed, a few hours later as everyone took their dishes to the sink the kids went upstairs to get ready for bed. Make sure you wash up and brush your teeth before you hit those sheets you got it? I kissed all three of them goodnight, I continued putting the dishes in the dishwasher and letting the pans that I cooked in soak. My husband walked up behind me and kissed me on the neck and said, I will see you upstairs babe, Love you. I stopped him and asked is everything okay baby you seem a little off. I am fine babe; I just had a long day that’s all. Daniel said before walking off again and headed for the steps. I continued Cleaning up and humming a tune I turned off the television and lights, and left the stove light on and headed to the bathroom to wash up. Half an hour later I got out with my robe on and went into my children’s room and kissed them each goodnight and whispered, I love you. And shut their doors and headed for my bedroom and shut my door and locked it. I seen my husband laying on the bed waiting for me, I smiled and took off my robe and went into bed with him. The television was playing in the background, and we were kissing and rubbing on each other, he went down and began kissing my inner thigh and lightly bit both sides when he pulled me in close and began eating my pussy, I grabbed the sheets, and arched my back moaning mmm keep going baby he bit lightly and sucked it as he grabbed my thighs, and I grabbed his head I squirted and ejaculated immediately. He got up and stood on the bed and he leaned his back against the headboard and grabbed my head and made me suck his throbbing hard dick and tilted his head back and held the back of my head and thrust himself inside of my mouth slowly as he moaned, he looked down at me and said Look at me Baby I looked up at him and He grabbed me by my chin gently leaned in and kissed me on the lips and pushed me backwards on the bed as he grabbed my legs and pushed me towards him I could feel his hard dick on my clit I moaned as he slowly went inside of me. Shit woman your pussy is too good. He went back and forth as he grabbed one of my legs and pulled me close and began going a little faster as he licked his finger and began playing with my clit while he fucked me faster and harder making me cum more then once he then turned me over, I bent down as I spread my legs apart, he slapped my ass as hard as he could and went inside of me and fucked me harder until I came more than once. He then grabbed my waist with his hand on my lower arched back, I knew he was about to cum and lifted myself up a little bit I began fucking him as he grabbed my waist and slapped my ass as he moaned louder. I could feel him cum inside of me; luckily I was on birth control. He turned over and laid down as he kissed me and looked at his phone and seen a message from CJ’s wife Nadia, saying she was outside and needed to talk right now and wasn’t leaving until she spoke to him. Daniel got up and said babe I am going downstairs to grab something to drink okay baby. I said as I kissed him once more before turning over and going back to sleep. Daniel put on his clothes He got up and grabbed his phone and shut the bedroom door behind him. Daniel headed downstairs to open the door and before he could step foot outside to talk to Nadia. CJ walked in as he looked at me and gave me a handshake and a hug but I seen the anger in his eyes and all I smelled was liquor under his breath. How you doing man?  Where were you at today? I heard you left work early. He sat down on the couch and asked for another glass of liquor. Oh yeah man I had to check on my daughter she said she wasn’t feeling well. Daniel said as he poured the liquor into two glasses and sat down across from CJ. CJ laughed and took another sip of the crown royal as he stood up in frustration, stop fucking lying Bitch, Nadia told me everything man I thought out of everybody besides my own fucking wife you wouldn’t fucking lie to me. I looked up at him as he just stared at me Excuse me motherfucker who the fuck are you talking to like that and keep you’re fucking voice down Karina is sleep upstairs I don’t need her hearing this shit, Daniel said as he got up and brushed pass CJ to grab another drink. Fuck that shit let her hear me. CJ said walking up behind Daniel. Nadia told me how you been leaving work early to come see her when I wasn’t home for several months nigga and she told me that the fucking baby wasn’t mine and it’s yours, nigga you thought I wasn’t going to find out, CJ said as he stumbled across the coffee table and sat down on the couch across from me. Man keep it down my wife will hear you. Daniel said as he put his index finger to his lips. We been boys for 33 years man telling each other everything from foster care and shit you was like a fucking brother to me and you know how I am when it comes to my damn wife you fucking asshole, What happens if Karina finds out you slept with her friend that she’s known since they were younger, oh nah no need to worry though she won’t find out  because I killed that bitch I shot her and that fucking baby inside her. CJ said as he stood up and pulled out the gun from the back of his pants. He got up from the couch and said, This is for fucking my wife nigga. Look man it was an honest, before Daniel could even get the words out CJ Shot him in the chest, as Daniel looked down and seen the shot he got up and stumbled backwards towards the stairs hitting his head on the wall, CJ got up with his cup in his hand and walked up to him and said Now you can fuck that bitch all you want in hell bastard. as he shot him two more times once more in the chest and then in the head. He smashed the glass on the floor and proceed to grab another drink before walking out the front door. I was startled by the sound of the gun as I got up and grabbed the gun from the bedroom drawer the kids opened their bedroom door as I waved for them to come to me and stand behind me and stand at the top of the step until it was safe to come down. I yelled as CJ turned around and seen me at the top of the step with a gun in my hand with the kids behind me as my son hid his sister's behind him so they couldn't see their father's lifeless body. Shoot him mom, Damien yelled out in fear. I looked down all I seen was Daniel dead on the floor and blood everywhere I completely blacked out and I looked up and before CJ could lift his hand with the gun, without hesitation I shot him three times walking towards him as I went down the step and Damien took his sisters back to the bedroom and shut the door and followed me downstairs I stood on top of his body with tears in my eyes, CJ Whispered I’m Sorry, I shot him once more in the head as I dropped the gun on the floor and fell to my knees with tears in my eyes I lifted my husband's head on my lap as I tried to get everything under control