Free Your Mind
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Free Your Mind - Amanda Kidd
Copyright © 2020 by Amanda Kidd
ISBN 979-8-3509-2588-3 (paperback)
ISBN 979-8-3509-2589-0 (digital)
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Illustrations by Ky’am Malik
All scriptures are paraphrased from the King James Bible. Printed in the United States of America
Table of Contents
My Testimony
But What about Crazy
Drive-bys, Shaming,
Flashback to My
I Had No Limits
Steel Magnolias
Still in Bondage
March 2001, the Fatality That Changed My Life
Finally, a Diagnosis
Don’t Come for Me or My Kids
I Said No!
Deliverance
God Spoke
Medical Terminologies
Medical Intervention
Get behind Me, Satan
We Do Need Counseling
Who Sinned?
The Invitation
Bondage
Boot Camp
Coworker Harassment
Grace When You
Judge Judy
Used to Be
Spirit
Passing These Tests
OCD Boot Camp
Casting Down Thoughts
Beautiful Thoughts
Healthy Fear
Living My Best Life
Submitting to My Husband
The Finale
About the Illustrator/ Graphic Designer
About the Author
For the Most High God is not responsible for the spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a stable mind.
—2 Timothy 1:7
My Testimony
The Holy Spirit helped me write this book in four days. As early as age fourteen, in my mind I began to have unwanted visions of my mother dying. These visions escalated into the majority of my family and friends dying, and even worse, I died in my visions too. Thoughts of tragedies bombarded my mind daily and repetitively. As a fourteen-year-old teenager, I lacked the mental capacity to distin- guish what was transpiring in my still-developing soul.
These visions eventually held me in bondage and developed into obsessions. I began to repeatedly check doors and the stove at night, believing there were burglars waiting to kill me, or perhaps I left the gas on. I also found it odd that I was obsessed with keeping my bedroom and total environment in order. I did not appreciate anyone rearranging my clothes or my bathroom towels, and some- thing as trivial as my bedroom pillows had to sit at a certain angle, and I would be furious if someone rearranged them.
I was trapped mentally by unwanted obsessions and compul- sions. The number of nights I cried myself to sleep is uncountable. I struggled and was literally in a battlefield in my mind. Could things get any worse? Yes! I observed early in my young adulthood that, if anyone brought intentional harm to me, I would retaliate with unprecedented ramifications.
Now, before you judge me, I believe it is normal for any wounded person to desire restitution for harm caused to them; however, my anger was always disproportionate to the offense. I had a plethora of defense mechanisms that qualified as revenge. My first response was
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a handwritten epistle loaded with explicit text and threats to my vil- lains. I learned later from a famous playwright that writing to release intense emotions is actually healthy. It’s called the process of cathar- sis. So I became infamous for expressing my anger through letters.
That was when I also earned the label she is evil and crazy.
I never understood why people labeled me as such. How swiftly they forgot that my parents nicknamed me T-Nicey. The T is for tiny,
and Nicey was birthed from my generous heart as early as age two. My parents said I was extremely nice and generous. I gave unselfishly to all.
Today, as I approach my fifty-first birthday, I still live up to my nickname. I would give anyone the shirt off my back because I hate to see humanity suffering. People could have identified me by the good in me, but Satan will always recruit his advocates to defame and slander your person. I know that God knows that I was never evil. People are either ignorant of the true terminology or selectively seek- ing to devour your character because the devil comes to kill, steal, and destroy us all (John 10:10).
The biblical and secular definition of evil is opposer of God. The Greek word poneros means people who are God’s enemies. Another word that describes evil is