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Table of Contents
Timeless Series: A Spiritual Compilation
Copyright © 2023 Clayten Tylor
The Feeling
Copyright © 2017 Clayten Tylor
Conjugial Love (Diagram)
Dedication
Life-Path Analysis
Ten Spiritual Exercises
Acknowledgment
The Preface
Introduction: the Feeling
Human vs. the Divine Ego
The Word, is a Feeling
Separation Exercise #1
Chapter 1: The Darkness Within
The Love of Self
Sensual Love
Love & Honesty
Initial Light
Rational Silence
Fortune & Gain
Providence: Man's Tree
Silent Soul
Permission: Self-Love Exercise #2
Internal vs. External
Chapter 2: Light Within
Love of Darkness
Conscious Thought Exercise #3
Light as Food
Covenant of Love
Radiating as a Use
Revelation & Enlightenment
Love & Earth
Chapter 3: Sound of Love
Creative Love
Lower unites with the Higher
Resonating with Sound
Sound Pleasure
Glowing Light
The Balance
Uniting Polarities
The Creatress
Virgin Love Exercise #4
Sensual Love
Chapter 4: Love-Temptations
The Birth of Conscience
Motherly Essence
Attack against Love
Regeneration Begins
Immature Love
Abstinence Exercise #5
Heavenly Essence Exercise #6
Chapter 5: The Divine Ego
Divine Order
Conscious Love
Spiritual vs. Sensual Love
Silent Memory
Hereditary Mother
Self-Love Exercise #7
Fatherly Love
Brotherly Love
Chapter 6: The Divine Natural
Body as a Spiritual Church
Charity as a Spiritual Feeling
Our Body of Love
Radiating Love
Acting As If Exercise #8
Alternate vs. Mutual Love
Will & Understanding
Chapter 7: The Divine Feeling
Priestly Vow
Feeling Humility
Faithful Love
Power of an Image
Image as Spiritual Love
Ancient vs. Hereditary
Idolatrous Love
Ten Commandments
Four Civic-Loves
Three Moral-Loves
The Lord's Prayer
Chapter 8: The Celestial
Two-Way Communication
Celestial Ruby Sphere
False Self-Ability
Celestial Marriage
A Likeness is the Work of Love
Celestial Nakedness
Celestial Essence
Perception as a Feeling
Chapter 9: The Virgin Birth
Spiritual & Celestial Good
Back & Forth Affection
Up & Down Affection
Expanding Affection
Internal vs. External
Equilibrium Exercise #9
Heavenly Love
Chapter 10: The New Love
The New Essence
Truth Causes Fear
Being & Existence
Reaction & Reception
Peace is Union
Son of vs. Son of
Prayer vs. Praying Exercise #10
One Body
One Mind
Universal Love
The Oneness
Spirit vs. Soul
Ark of Love
Last Chance at Love
Polarity Order of Love
Living Your I Am
Abbreviations & Bibliography
Love & Light
Dedication
Acknowledgment
Preface
Ten Practices
Introduction
Remembering Dreams (Exercise #1)
Useful Garden
Light is Darkness
1 Sphere of Light
Acknowledging Love (Exercise #2)
Perceiving Love
Denying Love
Casting Hell
2 Hell is Our Feeling
Heaven & Hell are Feelings
Thoughts Create Hell
Expanding & Contracting
Measuring our Use
The Ego (Proprium)
Purification
Terror & Dread
Inundation of Temptations
3 The Heartbeat
Separation of Heaven from Hell
The Devil & his Crew
Intention (Exercise #3)
Profaning Holy Things
Logic is Hell
Sacrifice is False
Zeal vs. Anger
The Dread of the False
Lust causes Falsity
Distinguishing Good & Truth
Freedom through Influx
The Influx of Peace or Anxiety
Love as Peace vs. Lust as Anxiety
4 Spiritual Senses Guide us
Sense of Smell
Sense of Sight
Hearing Love
Sense of Taste
Touched by Love
Love as a Jewel
Demons Within (Exercise #4)
Primogeniture
Self-derived Intelligence (Exercise #5)
Acknowledging Good
5 Here Now
Birthing Love from Lust
Effort
Safety in the Ark
Wisdom & Intuition
Casting-out the False (Exercise #6)
Mind-Chatter Puffed-up
Mind becomes Transparent
Two become One Mind
6 Heaven or Hell a Choice
Faith Created Anew
Feeling & Silence (Exercise #7)
Lust & Falsity
Selfishness is Hell
Lust is Self-Love
Pride in our Love of Self
Self can be Saved
Faith is Power
7 Entering Hell
Mates in Hell (Exercise #8)
Letting Spirits Be
Devil & Satan
Power & Wisdom
8 The Equilibrium
Elevated Feeling
Love on Earth
Heart & Breath (Exercise #9)
Love & Innocence
Two Gates
The Eight Ways
Compassionate Soul
9 Measuring Goodness (Exercise #10)
Language of Love
Communicating Love
Love & Faith Become One
Faith Must Become Love
Spiritual Rainbow
Our Aura
Twelve Colors
Twelve States
Twelve Feelings
Common Mother
Summation: Our Daily Exercise
Abbreviations & Bibliography
Glossary of Terms
Conjugial Love
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Path of Conjugial Love (Diagram)
Acknowledgment
Dedication
Preface: Conjugial Love
Preface: A New Age
Preface: Memory-knowledge
Preface: Inmost Delight
Introduction
Author's Rant
Annoying Quotations
Three Wise Astrologers
Chapter 1: Our Inner Crow
Regenerate vs. Unregenerate
The Will to Good
To be Corrected
The Inner Dog
Chapter 2: Mere Copies
The Dog Kingdom
Making Ourselves Less
Feeling of Eminence
The Mammon
Preparation of the Natural
Three Conditions
The Search
Chapter 3: Redemption
Future Cities
Spiritual Food
The Flow of Love
The Human Principle
Effects of Influx
Effects of Influx on Identity
Profaning Love
Christian Doctrine
Marriage of Charity
Justice and Judgment
Good and Truth
Rational Mind
Chapter 4: Good and Truth
Mystical Marriage
Ultimate Boundaries
Ineffable Name
Giving a Present
Will and Understanding
Concept of Survival
Abstaining
Affection of Truth
Freedom from Ourselves
Thoughts from Perception
Growing Conjugial Love
Receptive to an Influx
To Love
Celestial Love is Within
Chapter 5: Age of Aquarius
The Lost Feeling
Honing Talents
Seven Days
Empathy is Dangerous
Communicating Love
Degrees of Use
Mind-Chatter vs. Power
Universal Love
Self Survives
Death & Re-Birth
Rising Above
Inner Change
Esoteric Exercises
Practice #1 — Birth of the Limbus
Exercise #1 — Love to the Lord
Exercise #2 — Love to the Neighbor
Practice #2 — Days of the Week
Sunday: Sun Center
Monday: Moon Center
Tuesday: Mars Center
Wednesday: Mercury Center
Thursday: Jupiter Center
Friday: Venus Center
Saturday: Saturn Principle
Saturday: Saturn Center
Practice #3: Morning, Daytime, Evening
The Morning State
The Daytime State
The Nighttime State
Pisces-Age First Names
Pisces-Age First Names List
Abbreviations & Bibliography
About the Author
Timeless Life
Copyright © 2020 Clayten W. Tylor
Timeless Life Path (Diagram)
Dedication
Acknowledgment
Preface: Spiritual Largess
Preface: Conjugial Love
Preface: Spiritual Development
Preface: Feeling Bad
Introduction
1 The Psychic Body
The Spiritual Science of Fat
Awareness of the Astral Body: Exercise #1
Recognizing our Self-love
Self-Love is a Mirror Reflection
Developing a New Self by Acting As If
Transitioning into a Spiritual Light Body
Conscious Thought is Love as Food
Everything is a Suggestion
2 The Spiritual Body
The Birth of our Spiritual Body: Exercise #2
Regeneration: 365-Days of Sexual Abstinence
Adoration as a Self-Improvement Exercise
3 The Celestial Body: Radiating Joy
The Nameless Self: Exercise #3
Awareness of our Celestial Body
The Constitution of Conjugial Love
4 The Spiritual Constitution: The Seven Inner Metals
The Seven Articles that make up the Constitution (Church)
Metal Substances of the Days of the Week
Uniting The Seven Substances
Sunday: The Collecting Feeling of Gold
Sun: The Gold of Regeneration
Monday: The Uniting Feeling of Silver
Moon: The Mirror of Silver
Tuesday: The Exiting Feeling of Iron
Mars: Aligning the Iron Filings
Wednesday: The Transparent Feeling of Mercury
Mercury: Making The Mind Transparent
Thursday: The Rewarding Feeling of Tin
Jupiter: The Tin
Begins to Spin
Friday: The Luminous Feeling of Copper
Venus: Our Copper
is Purified
Saturn Becomes The Inner Center
Saturday: The Administrative Feeling of Lead
Saturn: The Lead of Cosmic Consciousness
The Sabbath Finds Equilibrium Within
Having a Clear Intention
Our Intention is Our Inner Life
Pain Binds Us To Love
The Hierarchy Of Love
Feeling Infinite and Eternal
The Eternal Moment: The Three Higher Elements
The Airy Feeling of the Morning
The Fiery Feeling of the Daytime
The Watery Feeling of the Nighttime
6 The Motions of Building a Spiritual Body
Identification with our Animal
Nature
Responsive Nature: Acid or Alkaline
The Divided Feeling of Self
One Moment Of Conjugial Love
7 Polarity: Willpower & Desire
Balancing Light & Dark
Cerberus: The Guard Dog at the Gate
8 The Affections of Good and Truth
Using Color as Regeneration Therapy
Colors Speak To Us
Opposite Colors Guide Us
Colors Suggest Magical Feelings
Being Taken For Granted
Colors Also Regenerate Us
Truth By Trial
The Inner Church of a Regenerate
Seeing Spiritually is Seeing Differently
Everything is Regenerated Always
Shame vs. the Innocence of Heaven
Full-Body Consciousness
Fatness,
The Feeling of Conjugial Love — Part #1
Fatness,
The Four-Fold Feeling — Part #2
Fatness,
The Feeling of Charity — Part #3
Fatness,
Reception into the Three Heavens — Part #4
The Spiritual Limbus — Exercise #4
Expanding The Limbus Feeling
The Feeling of Faith
Setting Goals by The Sign of The Moon
#1 Aries: The Constituting Feeling
Defining our Goals: the Key to Happiness
Ruling our Thoughts and Emotions
#2 Taurus: The Triumphant and Eternal Feeling
Intuitively Guided Actions
Yoking Our Desire-Nature
#3 Gemini: The Disposing Feeling
Discrimination: the Sense of Smell
#4 Cancer: Feeling of the House of Influence
Cancer: The Key To Receptivity
#5 Leo: the Secret Feeling of All Spiritual Activities
Esoteric Leo: The Law of Suggestion
#6 Virgo: The Feeling of Will
Esoteric Virgo: A Purified Response
#7 Libra: The Faithful Feeling
Esoteric Libra: The Law of Equilibrium
#8 Scorpio: The Imaginative Feeling
Esoteric Scorpio: Separateness is an Illusion
#9 Sagittarius: The Feeling of Probation
Esoteric Sagittarius: Our Key To Relationships
#10 Capricorn: The Renewing Feeling
Esoteric Capricorn: The Power of Sensation
#11 Aquarius: The Natural Feeling
Esoteric Aquarius: Forming a Single Mixture
#12 Pisces: The Corporeal Feeling
Esoteric Pisces: Building A Finer Vehicle
Abbreviations & Bibliography
Moon Signs 2023-2024
Moon Signs 2024-2025
The Great Work
Degrees of The Human Mind (Diagram)
Dedication
Acknowledgment
Preface
Exercise #1 Seek & Find:
Introduction
Exercise #2 Acknowledgment as Worship:
Chapter 1: Soulful Feeling
Exercise #3: Mercy
Adoration
Exercise#4 Mutual
Chapter 2: In Search of the Soul
Exercise #5: Moderation
Chapter 3: The Source of Imagination
Exercise #6: Temporary Vow of Celibacy
Chapter 4: How to Feel Good
Vivification Exercise:
Exercise #7: Using a Mirror for Self Healing:
Chapter 5: Perceiving Good
Exercise #8: Kundalini Rising Practice
Chapter 6: The Mystical Marriage
Exercise #9: Meditate for Thirty Years
Abbreviations & Bibliography
The Affection of Love
Dedication
Acknowledgment
Introduction
Chapter One: Two Motions of Love
Chapter Two: Being Good
Chapter Three: Acknowledging Love
Chapter Four: Accepting Justice
Chapter Five: Trusting Divine Justice
Chapter Six: Awareness
Chapter Seven: An Influx of Good
Chapter Eight: Magnetic Memories
Chapter Eight: Magnetic Memories
Chapter Nine: Temporary or Eternal
Chapter Ten: The Seven Substances
Chapter Eleven: Signs and Miracles
Chapter Twelve: Celestial Feeling of Love
Chapter Thirteen: Feeling Balanced
Chapter Fourteen: Building a Foundation
Act #1: To Smell.
Act #2: To Taste.
Act #3: To Chew.
Act #4: To Swallow.
Act #5: Digestion.
Act #6: To Excrete
Chapter Fifteen: A Spiritual Life
Chapter Sixteen: Regeneration – What to Expect
Chapter Seventeen: Eternal Life
Chapter Eighteen: Our Usury Nature
Chapter Nineteen: Mankind's Destiny
Chapter Twenty: Death or Resurrection
Chapter Twenty One: Innocence
Chapter Twenty Two: Unity
A Personal Note about Blessedness
The Unity of the Feeling
Chapter Twenty Three: Truth Enlightens
Chapter Twenty Four: Good Heals
Abbreviations & Bibliography
Good & Truth
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The Art of Spiritual Balance (Diagram)
Acknowledgment
Dedication
Preface
Introduction
Chapter One: Cognition
Chapter Two: The Touch
Chapter Three: Silent Light
Chapter Four: Extension
Procedure #1 : Archetypal Love
Chapter Five: Vivification
Chapter Six: Enlightenment
Chapter Seven: World Soul
Chapter Eight: The Marriage
Chapter Nine: Preparation
Chapter Eleven: Smelling
Chapter Twelve: Good Use
Chapter Thirteen: Innocence
Chapter Fourteen: Secret Doctrine
Chapter Fifteen: Truth Excites Evil
Chapter Sixteen: Inner Balance
Chapter Seventeen: Discipline
Chapter Eighteen: Spoils of War
Procedure #2: Silencing the Mind.
Procedure #3: Changing our Inner Rhythm.
Procedure #4: Zapping it with Light.
Procedure #5: Planning our Approach.
Procedure #6: The Ultimate Inner Power.
Chapter Nineteen: Pleasure
Chapter Twenty: The Feasts
Abbreviations & Bibliography
Timeless Series: A Spiritual Compilation
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This book is an Esoteric interpretation of Emanuel Swedenborg’s spiritual writings. It is written from a sinner’s perspective as a personal memoir meant to impart spiritual guidance by example. It is a hands-on self-help book on how to birth
the Divine Feminine Essence of Love from within.
The author traces the Divine back to its original source as Essential Love and Essential Innocence, which begins in the body as a sensual feeling of love, and through the process of regeneration it becomes the Word of God. By sharing the spiritual feeling of the Word
as love, it becomes a blissful union with the Divine within as the feeling of the New Church.
The New Church
is the perception of an influx of spiritual love flowing from within as happiness. But it also has a two-fold purpose: For when the feeling of love from a sensual life has been transformed into the spiritual feeling of love, and when done on a mass scale, it ultimately manifests as the true purpose of the New Church, Swedenborg’s New Jerusalem,
the Brotherhood of Mankind as the feeling of Heaven on Earth.
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A special thank you to the Swedenborg Foundation for their generous approval to use their copyrighted material quoted in this book.
Conjugial Love (Diagram)
OEBPS/images/image0003.jpgDedication
Dedicated to: Emanuel Swedenborg, (1688-1772) – My Savior.
I will admit that this book has far too many quotations from Swedenborg. Yet, the reason I used so many of his quotes was that I needed to prove what I was writing, was true. Often with subjects of spirituality, we like to take the spirit out of the word spiritual. My use of too many quotations is a way to bring the feeling of the spirits and the angels back into the words, spiritual, and celestial.
I like to smell while I breathe. Smelling while breathing opens the spiritual mind and stops the mind-chatter. We need a quiet mind to understand spiritual quotes. Sometimes, as an example, when my mind is quiet and I smell a beautiful perfume, I can feel as if an Angel just swept by me. I want to thank Swedenborg for that way of thinking. By thinking of life in this same way, makes it easy to read difficult subjects, or to come up with ideas and solutions not possible to imagine through the memory.
I like to think of the term spiritual, as being guided intuitively. Intelligence is an aspect of breathing; as is spirit, understanding, and wisdom. The most noticeable thing about death, is the loss of the breathing function. Yet, there is another breathing function. It is the spiritual breath that results from death, but also by breathing deeply while reading something with a spiritual meaning.
The spiritual breath awakens as a rhythm between the in-breath and out-breath. The rhythm of the breath, affects our ability to discriminate and to understand difficult subjects. This book and Swedenborg's quotations, are a way to develop that spiritual breathing function, and to bring the discrimination to recognize a good idea, merely by the feeling of it. The next good idea, could be in our next in-breath.
We want to open the rational level of the mind that results from smelling while breathing-in the spiritual breath. We are trying to draw out the feeling of conjugial love that is already within us. Not only that, we just need a quiet mind to attract it. This is all I am going to say about the innocence of wisdom, the breathing function of Spirit, as truth, knowledge, and light. The rest of the book gets devoted to the Breath of the Soul, as beauty, charity, love, and goodness.
Life-Path Analysis
For: Emanuel Swedenborg – January 29, 1688
To understand someone, I like to start by undertaking a life-path analysis of their date-of-birth using Numerology. I will calculate one for Swedenborg, but I suggest that you follow along by doing one on your own birth-date. In this way you prove to yourself the spiritual guidance left behind like bread-crumbs along our Path of Return.
Emanuel Swedenborg was a Christian mystic and visionary of the spiritual world. He was born under the Sun-sign of Aquarius, in Stockholm, Sweden, on January 29, 1688, into a wealthy Lutheran family. His writings, particularly his concepts that heaven is a communion of souls,
and that dreams contain spiritual guidance,
are both significant keys to understanding our present new Age of Aquarius, which signifies the feeling of mutual-love on earth.
Swedenborg's birth-date adds-up and reduces to a single-digit destiny number eight. This is the most fortunate of nine possible life-paths, and can indicate wealth and genius. Indeed, Swedenborg did not ever need to worry about money. The number eight signifies good
(A. R. 739).
During our early years, our life gets ruled by our month, of birth. In Swedenborg's case, his birth month is January, which corresponds to the number one, highlighting a pioneering period in his life. It was during this time that he studied geology, botany, zoology, and mechanical sciences. It was also when he wrote his scientific and technical works, which included his inventions and theories on physics and algebra.
Our middle years get ruled by our day of birth. Swedenborg's day of birth is the 29th, which reduces to the number two, and bestows a socially diplomatic influence. During that time, he met Sweden’s King Charles XII (1682–1718) and his sister Ulrika Eleonora (1688–1741) who in 1719, ennobled his family, changing their name from Swedberg to Swedenborg.
This name change for the family was a life-altering influence, particularly for Emanuel Swedenborg. It changed the life-expression of his full name from 6 4 1, which indicate caring, but highly independent person, to a 3 9 3, signifying love and the desire to express it as a feeling. The number three in The Tarot, by Paul Foster Case is the Luminous Intelligence,
to indicate the radiating aspect of the feeling of love.
In Numerology, we cannot begin to contribute to society in any meaningful way until after six cycles of nine, after the age of fifty-four. Until that point, we are too full-of-ourselves, overly self-centered. It was at that time when Swedenborg had his spiritual feelings awakened, He began to attune to an intuitive source within, the beginning of his visionary period that greatly influenced the world.
The latter part of our life gets ruled by our year of birth. Swedenborg's year of birth reduces to the number five, which imparts a willful influence. It is best expressed by traveling and trying new things. Spiritually, it signifies the power of the Will to-do-good. This is intriguing considering the number five signifies remains
(5291); and they represent the feeling of love, as the means of communicating with heaven.
This book intends to follow the same spiritual path that Swedenborg took, through the realm of the affection of love. By developing our intuition, we too will arrive at the same goal, and to personally experience an influx of conjugial love.
Conjugial love, is a term Swedenborg uses to describe the Essential Love. It is through the direct experience of perceiving a spiritual influx of conjugial love flowing through our body that we are then able to communicate with heaven.
Essentially, this communication is not difficult if we think of the Divine as the feeling of conjugial love. A personal conjugial love experience is the verification of that feeling as a cognitive knowing. The sensation of knowing is the esoteric signal to the subconscious mind to begin the cellular transformation that will enable us to communicate with heaven.
The oft-misunderstood quote: a little knowledge is a dangerous thing
holds an important secret: do not make the same mistake and pretend that you can perceive conjugial love without actually having the spiritual experience. When biblical Christians revealed their secrets, they were fed to the lions. It was because their oppressors could not feel the same depth of love as they did. By pretending that you can feel conjugial love when you cannot, tells your own subconscious mind to also just make-believe. Therefore, it does nothing, and you will forever be waiting for your own cellular transformation.
Sorrowfully, because of the sensation that falsity causes in our own body when we are dishonest with ourselves, we can never know the true feeling of conjugial love. For conjugial love gets experienced through the spiritual feeling of innocence, which is void of the twisted sensations that falsity causes.
Swedenborg said that a new church arises.
Yet, he also said that it would be a different church, based on the inner knowing. Consequently, the falsity will eventually burn itself out. It is the result of just pretending to be able to feel conjugial love. The entire battle of man against man was the result of hiding this knowledge of the spiritual feeling of conjugial love.
Therefore, I can see the New Church
as being the true feeling of love, coming through the subconscious mind. This will enable each of us to feel a direct conjugial love experience for ourselves. Thereby, to truly feel mutual love for all of humanity.
This was Swedenborg's vision for the Aquarian Age: the repatriation of the feeling of Conjugial love. Not another religion, not another building as a church — but a feeling as the affection of conjugial love, as mutual-love on earth.
Ten Spiritual Exercises
The evolution of Conjugial love, from a celestial feeling of spiritual light into physicality as a sensual affection encompasses a multitude of complexities. This book contains ten exercises to help experience those complexities. They are the layers of sensual-love that together make up the pure affection of a conjugial love experience. However, to perceive its celestial purity as a sensual affection, one must first remove the layers of misconceptions regarding the sexual feeling of self-love.
The ten spiritual exercises are layers, or different sensations of love. When layered one upon the other in a particular order, the result is a blissful feeling. If you are unable to complete one of the ten exercises, put it aside while you keep practicing. Eventually you will experience that particular love-sensation, because conjugial love is an expanding living feeling based on the layering of all ten of the different sensations of sensual-love.
Ancient wisdom has taught this knowledge of layering. The Divine Name translated as the Lord in the Bible, and Jehovah in the revised versions gets designated by various names, such as the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost. Thus, each name has its own separate spiritual feeling as a layer of the One.
Nevertheless, humankind's outward search for this secret knowledge has led us astray. Our search will be inner, for the spiritual feeling of conjugial love. It is composed of layers of different affections of love, and of being loved in return.
The reason I am writing this tell-all book that includes the ten spiritual steps is that I wish someone had told me earlier in life. For when these ten exercises get practiced as a sensual rhythm, they attune us to the blissful feeling of conjugial love within.
It is important to experience the sensual affection of each one of the ten balancing exercises to perceive the totality of the spiritual feeling of conjugial love. It is in the act of doing each exercise in their order, which transforms our sense-of-self as our ego to perceive beyond our personal feeling, and to live spiritually.
Ten Spiritual Exercises:
1) Separation from the Ego
2) Recognizing Self-Love
3) The Holy Supper
4) The Virgin Birth
5) 42-Days of Sexual Abstinence
6) Heavenly Essence
7) Reflection, a Mirror Perspective
8) Acting As If
9) The Sabbath: Equilibrium Within
10) Adoration Praying; Humiliation Prayer
Acknowledgment
I am eternally grateful to my wise friend, Kasandra, for her insightful influence and companionship during my midlife crisis, when she sensed my inner suffering, and handed me the following quotation by Keen.
When through the deep waters I call thee to go,
The rivers of sorrow shall not overflow;
For I will be with thee thy troubles to bless
And sanctify to thee thy deepest distress.
Kasandra was the Western representative for Information Swedenborg, Canada. She first introduced me to Swedenborg's writings with his quotation God is Love,
and from that moment on, we began a back and forth intellectual exchange that continued three hours a day for the next fifteen years.
Kasandra affected me deeply as a friend, and through our mutual love of Swedenborg’s writings, we shared our deepest concepts of what God
could be. It was a comforting theology at a time when there were no answers to what I was experiencing.
Kasandra's love for God brought me much peace and understanding as I struggled to make sense of my own overtly religious spiritual experiences happening to me at that time.
Swedenborg wrote the quote God is Love
over two-hundred and fifty years ago. Yet, it was Kasandra who helped me to get comfortable enough with religion so that I could expand on Swedenborg’s spiritual concepts from an esoteric perspective. I was often guided by his visitations through his theological writings.
Although Emanuel appeared to me in my dreams and wanted me to write a book about my personal spiritual experiences, it was Kasandra who always encouraged me to be myself when it came to the topic of religion. The seemingly unimportant personal stories used to explain Swedenborg's religious concepts, are in the hope that you will find a similar narrative in your own life. Thereby, be able to perceive the Divine as the feeling of conjugial love more easily.
The Preface
Swedenborg's writings were my anti-depressant medication during my midlife crisis. How a person with my background — having had no traditional religious education and raised by a single parent, non-believer Mother — could ever have been introduced to Swedenborg's spiritual writings was only by a miracle.
My peers were all drugged or drunks, and most of them materialistic and angry. The wild birds were my true friends. They would follow me on my runs, and occasionally land on my windowsill to encourage me in my quest for truth. I can hear them talk to me now from miles away. They helped me to open my inner hearing. Yet, Swedenborg's writings brought acceptance to that bird-level awareness of knowing.
Swedenborg's writings also brought order, logic, and reason to my life. His was a sensible religion, in the sense that it awakened new feelings within me. It was his religion, but he allowed me to understand and interpret it in my own New Age way.
The only caution with having your mind fried with spiritual knowledge is to stay grounded and not be led-astray or confused while the inner world gets revealed. It was revealed to me, first through outside forces, such as the birds, and then through the synchronicity that happened everywhere in the little things. Only later was the inner world revealed through my dreams and visions.
OEBPS/images/image0005.jpg My first vision happened in my living room at two o'clock in the afternoon. It was a vision of a tall, glowing white Guardian Angel. Just the feeling of its Presence brought me to my knees crying and kissing its feet. It was the first of many visions. Although, I do not know what this vision was, I think that it might have been what is described as seeing the burning bush,
because it created in me a burning desire to be a better person.
Any other person would probably have been diagnosed as a mental patient as I would have been if I had ever tried to describe any of my visions to a doctor. Just mentioning the idea of seeing God, would have had me committed. Over time, I changed the terminology as I understood the experience more fully: it evolved from I saw Jesus,
to the Guardian Angel.
During that time, I knew that my logical mind could not understand or interpret correctly the visions that I perceived. Although, it may have been a hallucination, and I was crazy, I did not tell a doctor. Had I done so, I am sure that I would have become another statistic, one of the many millions prescribed anti-depressant medication for feelings of unhappiness. Then, I may have missed my own enlightenment experience, something meant to happen to everyone during the middle years of our life.
It has taken me twenty-five years to understand the visions and the feelings I experienced when I turned forty. I do not think that I would have interpreted any of my visions, which changed me for the better, unless I had understood them as I do today, as spiritual experiences, and not as a mental disorder. I should note that I wrote a cookbook about seaweed and lost most of my friends in the process — so imagine telling a doctor that I thought I saw God.
I felt that I could talk to Swedenborg through his writings, and that I understood him differently than most people. This is because of my understanding of Numerology and knowledge of numbers from a spiritual perspective. Everything about Swedenborg's life captivated me. I was interested in everything from the spelling of his name, to his family’s name-change and the feelings associated with this process, as I too felt different after I changed my name.
Similarly, when my friends got married and changed their names, I noticed how they too became different: I could see the spiritual influences of the new numbers in their lives. I could see how a numerically difficult name, being popularized by a movie star, could create a whole generation of extreme egotists. I could also see how thinking a certain way about yourself can change how you appear to others. Now, I understand why the disciples got new names — they felt different inside.
My wise friend Kasandra once said to me, look at that person over there.
I answered, yes?
She replied, "No, really look at them, because that, is how they feel about themselves." This new awareness of the spiritual feeling of numbers and their correspondences allowed me to better understand and accept others. Not to necessarily like them. That came later with the opening of my heart,
a process that involved much inner searching for the feeling of the soul.
Swedenborg's writings taught me the spiritual meaning of planets, personal desires, and personality traits. I am an Astrologer, and his extensive work on these subjects had even a deeper meaning. This is because the Divine appeared to him as the Sun, signifying celestial and spiritual love, the light of the Sun is its Wisdom, and the heat of the Sun is its Love. Just knowing that about the Sun means the spiritual feeling of love, can animate us into being more than just human.
I soon understood that it was our personal response to an influx of spiritual love that determined whether our life here on earth felt as heaven or hell. I began to imagine my own physical body as spiritual light. By symbolically imitating the feeling of the Sun, I too could become a radiating center of spiritual light, a flame of the vivified burning bush. Thereafter, I began to feel better about my life.
Swedenborg's orderly approach to writing had an immense effect on my own thinking. Yet, my personal skepticism constantly looked for errors or inconsistencies in his writings, like how one can tell when something does not add up with numbers. Well, with Swedenborg's writings, everything adds up to the spiritual feeling of one glorious vibrating whole number.
The spiritual realm contained in Swedenborg's writings helped me find explanations to things not spoken about in our society such as sex and death. When several friends of mine died too young, it was his philosophy that allowed me to see the workings of faith, when love appeared all around me as a spiritual feeling. I learned to project that feeling of spiritual love at times when I felt as though I could not possibly make another depressing hospital visit. I had the sense of being able to radiate that luminous feeling of love, out like the Sun, which helped me be less uncertain.
Although, Swedenborg kept his personal life somewhat secret, his writings revealed to me the feelings that he must have experienced in order for him to have witnessed the spiritual realm. This led to a conscious freeing of my own creative energy as it developed into a source of concentration that grew.
Concentration, is needed to understand both Swedenborg and the feeling of the inner spiritual realm, and to accept the hugely disparaging, apparent disorder of the outer world.
I would like to note that I have never been happy being in a physical body. I could not understand why I was alive, as it felt to be a great punishment. To me, this was the most important question that I had to find an answer to, before I could ever be happy. Most of my friends seemed to love life, or at least pretended to. Yet, when I outlived them all, I felt that too was a punishment.
Physical existence is like that, but a spiritual life, actually is reversed, which has helped me understand that as we become more spiritually responsive, we are also more sensitive to the collective suffering with others. As human beings, we can never be spiritually content as individuals until everyone else is happy first.
If starvation and poverty is a collective cry from the Divine for charity, why can we not hear it? Humankind is at the phase where greed and ownership is making us more insular. Yet, we cannot really own anything, certainly not our spiritual feeling of life, because it is only formed by the affectionate act of charity.
Nowadays, when it is said, the meek shall inherit the earth,
everyone thinks that it real estate. Yet, the spiritual earth
is actually the result of an influx of the feeling of a conjugial love experience, as a momentary blissful union with the Divine.
To inherit the earth
is to embark on another life, when we are in possession of the true earth. This book is an attempt to help the average person feel a conjugial love experience as a blissful union with the Divine. Spiritual love is accessible to all, both the sinner and the saint.
Therefore, it is by the discovery of our true inheritance, the spiritual earth,
as the real affection of love within that we can then birth the feeling of the living soul. This is the exegesis of this little book about conjugial love.
Nevertheless, we are embarking on a dangerous journey of self-discovery filled with great peril and misunderstanding as we try to distinguish the true Earth,
the real Love, from the false love. We are also assured that everyone by the mere fact of being a human, has been given the ability, to achieve this task. The task is to arrive at a sensual feeling of heavenly happiness, as a result of the affections of love and charity. Thus, the person who is not regenerated, is called a void and an empty earth
(17).
Swedenborg also says that absolutely everyone can perceive the exalted feeling of heavenly happiness, merely by the potency given to us by love
(D. L. W. 413).
To better focus this topic so that we can embark on this beginning together and experience the feeling of love spiritually, we must understand that the potency that we are seeking is the internal spiritual affection of goodness.
Thus, the states of this love are innocence, peace, tranquility, intimate friendship, full trust and a desire shared by the disposition and heart of each to do the other all the good they can
(C. L. 180).
Essentially, this is a beginning of a spiritual life of feeling happiness for others. It is accessible to everyone, because the difference between the feeling of a sensual existence and the spiritual life of heavenly happiness can be learned.
This feeling of heavenly happiness that we are seeking is an inner marriage of the spiritual and celestial affections of radiating love with the light from within by becoming luminous. Heavenly happiness is the act of feeling loved spiritually.
Heavenly happiness is essentially an internal affection of goodness caused by an influx of spiritual love flowing into the body. The term feeling
is used throughout this book to distinguish it from the word emotion.
Our emotions must be at peace to feel spiritually. To feel spiritually is to love. Emotions get programmed to love only ourselves. Affections get programmed to love others as ourselves. Whereas, spiritual affections, feel all as One.
Throughout this book, the word feeling
is used to define both the spiritual affection that results from willing mutual-love to others, and the celestial sensation that is perceived by sending love to the Divine. By blending these two love-feelings together in a synchronicity to the inner spiritual rhythm of Divine order, the two affections become One, as the feeling of a personal conjugial love experience with the Divine.
Introduction: the Feeling
OEBPS/images/image0006.jpg This little book
is just about the feeling of spiritual love and happiness. Yet, I felt it was necessary to use terminology acceptable to both the religious and the atheist reader. However, that kind of logic was in the hope of changing the atheist into becoming a believer.
I thought about changing the word God, to Love; or even to something like Godd, just to overcome the dogma connected with it. Yet, that would be missing the point, because the traditional words, best resonate with the feeling that those particular vibrations spiritually represent. By this, I mean that the spiritual understanding of any word, such as God,
comes from the actual vibration of that particular spelling. It is the inner vibration, as a spiritual feeling that gives life and meaning to the words.
Our personal name also causes an inner vibration as the spiritual feeling of our sense-of-self. Our name gets linked with knowing the inner nature or quality of our individual spiritual essence. Through a name we can determine the inner nature and quality of a person or thing.
Therefore, unless we can feel the internal sense of the word, we can never know the truth. The truth does not appear, except to those guided from within. Therefore, we will need to examine the internal spiritual feeling of words, such as God
and Christ,
Heaven
and Hell,
Good
and Evil,
to reveal what they represent spiritually, without their dogmatic religious interpretation.
All of this religious terminology is just the means to take us to a state of mind where we can actually approach the true sense of a name — its spiritual essence — and briefly become it as a feeling. We want to be able to feel like God, to be like Christ, and to know
first hand the truth of what these words mean.
Also, throughout this entire book, my use of the term man
is always meant to mean both male and female. The same dual-gender meaning applies to the Divine Human,
God-man,
and the internal man.
The terminology that we are forced to use to communicate, is merely an intellectual language. Yet, what I am going to explain is not an intellectual concept, but a perception of a spiritual feeling. The feeling is the most important perception of all of our physical senses, for the taste, smell, hearing, and sight, are all a result of it.
Although, we have only language to convey this inmost feeling,
I want to stress that this affection cannot be understood with just words, because it is the communication of the heart, and the intellect puts up great resistance to this intuitive knowing.
OEBPS/images/image0007.jpg The real language of spiritual love is the feeling aroused by pictorial symbolism, divinely inspired imagery that flows from within when the time is right for it to be revealed. If you have any resistance to religious terminology, then try to understand the particular word as I do, from a numerologist's point of view, not as a spiritual feeling, but as a sound vibration.
That said, you do not need to know anything about the spiritual meaning of numbers, to perceive the feeling of conjugial love. The best thing that you can do is to become aware of the spiritual feeling that certain words instill in you as an internal love-response. Pictorial imagery begins to be revealed, first by a celestial feeling, and then as a spiritual knowing.
The esoteric feeling of any word such as God, vibrates as the perfect meaning of everything that it represents spiritually. That precise word, gets needed to communicate to you that exact spiritual feeling. If reading or hearing a particular religious phrase upsets you or does not make you feel good, then that response is not in the actual word, it is in you. Our judgments block the feeling of knowing.
Likewise, by correspondence, the spiritual plane of the Divine gets felt to be reversed to the physical world. All religious symbols require that we turn and back ourselves into them, to act as if
when we want to experience them spiritually. When we act as if, we re-unite with the spiritual essence of a thing. Therefore, we must first act as if, by putting ourselves in its place, and truly understand by experiencing it.
In addition, if you are accustomed to terminology such as love and wisdom, it would appear in the spiritual world reversed. Similarly, a color like red would appear as its after-glow as green. Moreover, if something irks you, such as a word like feeling
or God,
then you will not delight in the understanding of it. It is the delight of love that unites us to a thing that we desire to become.
In addition, if you are accustomed to terminology such as love and wisdom, it would appear in the spiritual world reversed. Similarly, a color like red would appear as its after-glow as green. Moreover, if something irks you, such as a word like feeling
or God,
then you will not delight in the understanding of it. It is the delight of love that unites us to a thing that we desire to become.
As human beings, we are created by our resistance to the flow of spiritual love through us. Thus, the experience of living in a body can be painful by feeling separate from love. Yet, the feeling of separateness is necessary for the birth of the spiritual awareness of Oneness. Our painful separation and all personal suffering gets based on an illusion arising from a misunderstanding. This is how the spirits rule over us.
Another thing to mention to help you understand where I am coming from is that I believe that everything is an aspect of memory, conscious energy made of mind stuff. Thus, if you believe in reincarnation then that too is just memory. Everything, including all knowledge gets contained within, and we want to enter the memory to feel the Love and then the Light flow through us.
Consequently, we must get past our personal memory to be able to attune with the Divine memory. In order to experience the feeling of spiritual love, think of it as a spiritual memory of a celestial feeling of being truly loved. The memory is the entrance into the spiritual feeling of heavenly happiness. We want to reach the inner center, where it is the most beautiful. That center, is an image in our memory.
Our personal memory is the collection of our most intense feelings of love as images. The intensity of our ruling love veils the feeling of our soul as an image essence. It follows us to eternity, unless we deal with the memories, no longer appropriate.
Think of your soul, as the essence of a spiritual fountain expressing the desires of your ruling love. Desires are feeling-premonitions of what is to come. They signify, what is possible with faith. Faith, is to believe that it shall be done.
Therefore, we must relax with our spiritual goals, if they are to manifest. To develop our spiritual self, we do not have to achieve anything special except to recall the feeling of the divine occasionally as a present state of being. Then, act on our own intuitive guidance to get it. Thus, to manifest any desire, it helps to think of it as a feeling from our past.
To manifest a spiritual knowing as faith, it would help if you imagine the Divine in this same way, as a loving feeling of affection from the past. Then all you have to do is remember that same spiritual feeling to trigger an influx of conjugial love from the Divine.
However, first we must reverse our position towards the idea that time and space are necessary constructs to manifesting our desires, or to healing, or to knowing the Divine. Once we do that, and make the shift from the intellectual self into our intuitive feeling-self without time and space, then all of these explanations about terminology will be redundant. Once we feel It, we will be It, for we are It now.
Essentially, try to feel the spiritual affection, and automatically you will love yourself. If you can feel your spiritual self, automatically you will love the Divine. It is the same with manifesting all your material goals — just love-them into the eternal now.
Also, forget about time, for it gets related to pain, which is concern about the future. Only love gets experienced without time. Only love gets predestined. Yet, we are all predestined to love, which first, needs to be the feeling of mutual-love on earth.
Thus, purgatory is a fable invented by Roman Catholics
(T. C. R. 475.3, Rose). Yet, as a selfish lonely feeling, purgatory does still exist within. Especially, when we worry about the future and close off the feeling of love from within.
Thus, our greatest influence over time, space and the outer events in our life is not only by how we respond to the things that we like or dislike, but also by adjusting that response to a more loving feeling. This is because, if we dwell on something that we dislike, a similar negative feeling arises, which causes the event to repeat itself. This is how we are purified, first by the temptations that attract us, and then by the fermentation that separates us.
Conversely, if we dwell on the feeling of love as a corporeal sensation within our blood stream — presto, negative thoughts subside, mind-chatter becomes silent, and a spiritual love-affair begins as an affection throughout our entire body. It is the spiritual feeling of the soul coming forth as a pictorial image that saves us from ourselves.
Therefore, be cautious about negative thinking or worrying about the future. The sensation of worrying, not only blocks all of our worthy desires from manifesting, but also the inmost soul-feeling awareness of the spiritual feeling of love.
Human vs. the Divine Ego
Swedenborg's use of the Latin term proprium is translated own.
It is our ego, the sensation of our false awareness of having a separate sense of self. It is our hell. Spiritually, it is everything that we are. It is our feeling-response to the vibratory influences of the spiritual energies flowing through us. Our victory is to fight and overcome our own false identification, and begin to be reformed.
Much has been said about the temptations that result from trying to live up to the increasingly awakened spiritual feelings produced from a conjugial love experience. It is difficult to deal with the experience of spiritual love when it starts to grow from the inside, because it is backward to physical life. Most people are cautious about admitting to these spiritual feelings, because we associate them with being the perception of the feminine affections of love, and they make us feel weak.
I propose that the term proprium was a word used to highlight the ego's trans-formative process from a sensual feeling of selfishness, to an awakened intuitive sensitivity of Oneness. If we were to bring that to light, we could thereby acknowledge that just as we have a separate feeling of self, so too does God. Yet, in the perception of Oneness, all sense of separateness vanishes.
Therefore, when reading the words proprium
and own
in the following quotes, replace them with the term feeling,
to see for yourself that they make a lot more sense.
Man's own [feeling]is the love of self and the conceit of self-intelligence
(S. S. 60).
Man's own [feeling]is twofold, one infernal, and the other heavenly. Man receives the infernal proprium from hell, and the heavenly proprium from heaven
(3812).
Man's proprium [feeling] is all evil and the false, originating in self-love and the love of the world
(210).
The Lord is not conjoined by the proprium [feeling] of man, but removes that, and gives him a new proprium [Feeling] from himself, in which He abides
(A. E. 254).
For Man's proprium [feeling] is, as it were, destroyed, when it is vivified or made alive
(731).
The Word, is a Feeling
The esoteric sense of the Word, is an affection felt as the joy and happiness of conjugial love. As an esoteric vibration, conjugial love is the Divine in its celestial essence as a feeling. The Word then, is the Divine's Presence as a spiritual feeling of luminous love as knowing.
The Word gets perceived first as a spiritual feeling of love that vibrates within the physical body as Divine Truth. It is perceived when man's life acts in accord with love and charity. Then the Word, is revealed as the affection of being able to love, spiritually.
Thus, the Ancient Word was not written, but revealed to each individual, and inscribed on their hearts
(2896).
The Word, as a spiritual feeling, first comes about when we read, understand and then perceive. It is the feeling of the affection of spiritual love, which opens the perception of knowing.
Thus, illustration flows into the natural man, by the affection of truth, when it is initiated in good
(2185).
This spiritual perception begins as an inner communication. It can appear like the light of the Sun, but it is the opening of the way to the things in our inmost sense of self.
Thus, the mystery of the Word, is the contents of its internal or spiritual sense
(4923).
The mystery
is finding the spiritual feeling of love within. To experience the mystery
of the spiritual affection of love, let us do a quick exercise to symbolically separate from our possessive feeling of the ego. We are going back through our memory into the feeling of the Divine name,
in the womb as our vibratory beginning.
However, please do keep in mind that merely reading the following words will not help you understand the esoteric feeling of the exercise, for only by having the actual spiritual experience will it convince you.
Yet, being able to feel the presence of the Divine name is not something that we can convince others of either. Thus, we will need to learn to share the spiritual feeling of love, to radiate the sensual affection to a greater and greater radius. This is how we transform the sensual vibration of our ego into an innocent, silent affection of spiritual love, the primary principle of the feeling of conjugial love.
Separation Exercise #1
In Numerology, the feeling of our personal name, defines our personality and its psychological characteristics. It influences how we respond to life. The vibration of our name, makes us feel separate, including from the Divine.
Thus, the Name of God signifies the Word
(T. C. R. 298); for the Word holds the feeling of everything that the Divine is. Your name also holds the feeling of everything that you have ever experienced in this lifetime. Your name represents everything that you identify with being you. The possessive cupidity feeling gets linked with being evil. Yet, it is only meant to be an immature expression of self-love.
Consider if we were to take away your ego, your so-called evil, the feeling of self-love with its sense of separateness, even for a few minutes, who would you be? Especially since Angels have no name
(1705); and Man's spirit is in a more perfect state when separated from the body
(Sp. Ex. 129).
So let us try a spiritual visualization, which I call the ego separation exercise. This is how the feeling of spiritual regeneration begins.
OEBPS/images/image0008.jpg Exercise #1: Start by putting your sense of self, and all the memories of who you are as a person, onto an imaginary chair in the corner of your room. Spiritually, look at that distant sense of self. Who is the aspect of your consciousness reading this? This you, is the higher level of the mind: a state without mind-chatter, your spiritual self. This level of the self, is the feeling of spiritual love, but before it is fully love-conscious, before it has been manifested in our aura as the affection of the Divine, made flesh.
Now, let us imagine that the other self, the one in the opposite chair, is a search-lamp. Imagine its light as the feeling of love, lighting-up the lives of others. Yet, no matter how bright it becomes, it is still going to burn-out, because it is seeking love outside itself as a means to feeling happiness. It might get married, or receive an academy-award and feel good for a short time, but those are all outer forms of love,
mere reflections of the real affection it is seeking.
The possessive aspect of our self, our ego, our love-of-self cupidity feeling, eventually has to learn to be affectionate, without needing a temporary form of love. Therefore, if we are ever to be spiritually happy, we must permanently reprogram our response to life by being lovable always — and not just when things are going well.
Now let us imagine that the spiritual you, the one reading this, is the self-less feeling of love flowing through that other self. If I was to ask you, "why don't you increase the feeling of love and give that other self everything that they want? You would say,
if I did that, they would just continue as they are, they would not change, they would only buy more things, or look for another lover, etc."
So, how do we get the other self, to become an awakened recipient and to start to work together? It is done by bringing the possessive self back into you and have the two of you re-unite. That is it! It is the only thing necessary to begin the process of becoming awake.
The feeling of separateness begins the process of being united and reborn. The sensation of being separate from the Divine, begins the process of spiritual regeneration. It results in a self-less affection of immortality, and with it, the knowledge of the survival of the spirit after death as a feeling of love.
The feeling of the Divine flows from Itself to become you. Through the feeling of the in-fluxing flow of spiritual love, Unity takes place. This is what actually takes place every night when we go to sleep. The possessive sense of self, partially separates and hovers above the physical body in the self-less feeling plane to dream to repair itself. When it returns to consciousness, it is because of a reflex action that the body, too, is repaired.
The process repeats itself again and again. You can wear your body out during the day, and it will repair itself night after night by a spiritual attunement. Our soul eventually awakens through time and dream, as we are being reborn into the truth of who we are, fully aware of the feeling of the one true Self.
It is the spiritual vibration of our name, which causes us to feel possessive. Our name creates the cupidity sensation of ownership, the subtle contracting feeling of self-love, with its accompanying stress and tension that wears our body out. Alternatively, it is the self-less affection of the Divine as a feeling, which repairs us when we sleep.
Therefore, when we become permanently spiritually awake, and we no longer feel separate, we can repair our own physical body at Will. This is done by attuning with this deeper cellular feeling of oneness, the selflessness of conjugial love.
The insecurity that is caused by the feeling of separateness threatens each of us. Imagine if we could feel the sense of separateness while a spirit was possessing our thoughts and feelings. We would immediately be able to overcome them, overcome every negative thought and feeling. Now imagine, if we could all feel our sense of Oneness. There would be nothing to overcome.
Thus, evil spirits do not want us to wake-up and to be able to sense the spiritual feeling of love. They do not want us to know that we are not separate from love, because when we wake up, those negative evil spirits within, will naturally be gone. This waking up is the only way to rule over our own thoughts and emotions.
Thus, to awake denotes to be enlightened
(3715) as illumination is attributed to the holy ghost, effected through the medium of spirits and angels
(D. L. W. 150).
Chapter 1: The Darkness Within
I would like to describe a reoccurring dream I had, which represents the ego's possessive feeling of self-love. It precedes the first of seven stages of what is described as the process of regeneration, when the new intellectual principle and the new will-principle are formed
(5354).
Spiritual regeneration is the process that will lift our ego out of its selfish, darkness feeling of self-love. It is done by the celestial self-less feeling of conjugial love. Thus, Conjugial love is the conjunction of love and wisdom
(C. S. L. 65).
OEBPS/images/image0009.jpg Even though dreams denote foresight
(5091); in this one, I lay motionless, paralyzed and unable to move. A silent darkness pervaded all space and surrounded me. At the skyline, where the dark sky touched the earth, it was as if a wire, was stretched across the horizon, and held taut by two unseen figures positioned off to the side and out of sight. Every few minutes the two unseen figures would pluck the wire and create a pulsating vibratory sound that resonated throughout the entire universe. It made my body feel paralyzed, as if it were encased within an endless, silent, vibrating darkness.
The darkness represents our emotional needy feeling, the emptiness that precedes the first state of spiritual regeneration. The first state is called a void, emptiness, and thick darkness
(6-13). Thus, needy signifies one who is not in good
(A. R. 95).
The reason darkness precedes the first state is that Good is not known as to its quality, but by relation to what is less good, and by opposition to evil
(D. P. 24). Thus, it is important to be born into the proprium or ego's dark state, and perceive the light, as the first stirring of the feeling of spiritual good. Thus, black signifies proprium
(A. C. 3994).
Similarly, it was not until after I turned forty years old that I began to remember the silent-darkness dream, and the feeling that it caused within me. It was not until then that I also realized that it had been a reoccurring dream, which began when I was young, and had happened more than a thousand times during my lifetime.
At first, the feeling of being touched by the Divine always appears as darkness to the wicked. The sense of touch