My Cursed Sadistic Alpha: Sebastian's Chance

By Liz Barnet

"Well, he should be focusing on you, shouldn't he?" I forced a smile on my face, pretending that I didn't know my mate at all.
"Not really. Besides, I'd be happy to set him up with someone and get rid of my duty to reduce his loneliness for good," She snickered, "And, don't worry, I'm always in for a threesome."
"Cora, stop it." Sebastian decided to interrupt not wanting his girlfriend to spill more of his secrets than she'd already done.
"Calm down, Sebastian. Not everyone freaks out even over the tiniest little things and this beautiful lady over here, seems like the perfect match for you and I saw the way you looked at her," She cheekily nudged his arm, "She is hot, isn't she?"
"Shut up, Cora. Just shut up for now.”

*****

Athena, haunted by her past, seeks a fresh start in a new town. But as it resurfaces and, the very individuals she left behind six months ago, along with the nightmares she yearns to forget threaten to intertwine their lives with hers once more, she is forced to relive the past once again.
When with a twist of events, Suddenly, Beta Aaron, offers a loving hand and the one who once left no bounds to torment her, Sebastian, stands in front of her door, she must make a choice— Between the Beta who wants to give her a new life and the Alpha, who is willing to lay his life beneath her feet, to repent for the mistakes he made, even if it meant letting her go.
Where the boundaries between past and present are thin and the past echoes loud, she must choose a hand to lead her out of the darkness.
Especially when a lost treasure from the past once again knocks at her door— A rare case that seeks to return the most valuable gift for…..a mother.
What will she choose? Past or Present?

• Language: English
• Publisher: supernovel
• Release date: Sep 5, 2023

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CHAPTER 110: Time To Live Together

Athena

Aaron. His name slipped from my lips as I watched him, standing a few feet away, leaning against the bonnet of his car with his hands tucked in his pockets, his impatient eyes scanning the surroundings until they landed on me, and then at the man standing beside me, my mate.

His presence had ignited a spark of tension between us that threatened to escalate into a full-blown confrontation. The way he leaned against his car with an air of confident impatience made it clear that he wasn't about to back down.

But amidst the chaos, I couldn't help but wonder if Aaron's return was a sign of unfinished business.

This piece of— As Sebastian's anger flared, I felt a surge of fear and desperation to defuse the situation.

Sebastian, don't, I intervened, grasping his hand before he could react.

Athena...

Please, Aaron's a friend and has helped me a lot. It does not have to end on a bad note, I said, Let me just talk to him, okay?

I could see Sebastian's reluctance, but I knew it stemmed from a place of insecurity that was understandable given the current situation. He was aware of his mistakes, and that was the scary part - where all his doubts and insecurities came from.

Okay, He nodded, I'll go and take care of the formalities with the manager.

Sebastian's retreating form couldn't mask the animosity in his eyes, which bore into Aaron with chilling intensity, sending a clear message: Stay away.

Summoning my courage, I approached Aaron. His expression revealed that he had already anticipated my decision.

Hey, I said, the words feeling awkward in my mouth.

So, you have made up your mind? he asked with a bitter chuckle.

Aaron, Sebastian is my mate, I said with a sigh, my voice softening as I implored him to understand.

And I am just a stranger. His eyes filled with a sadness that pierced my heart.

No, Aaron, you are not just a stranger, I hurriedly added, taking a step closer to him. You mean so much to me, more than you could ever know. After Sebastian, you are the only person in this world who matters to me.

No, Aaron. It's not like that, I hurriedly added, stepping close to him, You are not just a stranger. You mean a lot to me, trust me. After Sebastian, you are the only person in this world who matters so much to me.

And I'll always come after Sebastian, won't I? he replied, a wistful smile playing at the corners of his lips, tugging at my heart, "I'll always be like this.

I did not want this.

It doesn't have to be this way, I said, my voice trembling with emotion.

Maybe he was right when he said that you would always choose him. I just raised my expectations for no reason, he laughed, though I could see the tears he was trying to hide. It's okay. You can go and spend your life with your mate. Have a good life, Athena.

Just as he was about to walk away, I reached out and grabbed his wrist, stopping him.

Just because I chose the one I love doesn't mean I have to lose a friend.

At this point, I could only hope that he would understand that he still meant a great deal to me. But the feelings I had for him were not strong enough to stop me from being with Sebastian.

We were never just friends, Athena. You know that, He did not pull away his hand from my hold, giving me a bit of hope that I might make it to the end.

I know, Aaron, but we can't move beyond that. I've always seen you as a friend, I said gently, hoping that my words would not hurt him too much.

But I've always been open about my feelings, haven't I? he asked, pulling me close with a swift jerk, his gaze boring into mine. I may not have told you directly, but you felt it, didn't you? So what makes you think that when you choose to be with Sebastian, I would be willing to stay and let you label it all as just friendship?

So, what we have, this friendship, it means nothing to you? My voice shook as I spoke.

It would have meant a lot if it was genuine, Athena. But it isn't, he replied, his grip on my wrist tightening. The pain was excruciating, but I didn't pull away.

What makes you think that this friendship isn't genuine?

I was hurt by his words. It pained me to think that he thought of me like that.

I can see what you're trying to do. You're just trying to escape this situation, and the label of 'friendship' seems like the easiest way out. You don't need to pretend to care for me. Just don't pretend. I loved you, but you know what? The line between love and hate is very thin. So let my love stay the way it is. Don't say anything more. It would hurt me more to hate you than it would to keep loving you despite your rejection.

I care for you, Aaron. You matter to me. I am not lying, Tears welled in my eyes, Why can't you just understand that I can't love you the way you want? The feelings I have for you are genuine but they are not how you want me to feel. I can't picture myself with you that way but what we have, means a lot to me. You are my friend, the one I can rely on, the one I can trust—

But can I trust you? No. Because you've already proved it. Sebastian Valdez—that's where your loyalties lie, Aaron interrupted, his voice laced with anger.

You held my hand when I had no one and I don't want to let go of it when everything's getting normal again. Why is it that I have to choose between you and him? I can't betray my mate to prove my friendship to you, Aaron. He's my priority but it doesn't mean that you have no place in my life. I value relationships, and Sebastian's your friend too. Everything can be fixed, and he'll forgive you in a blink.

I can't believe you're even asking that, Aaron snapped, his rage spilling over. Why should I ask for forgiveness when I've done nothing wrong? Or maybe you're calling my love a mistake? Are you trying to make me feel guilty for loving you, the mate of my friend whom he raped, abused, and hurt in every possible way?

My heart sank at his words. I had never intended to hurt him or make him feel guilty, but I could see how my actions had caused him pain.

And, Damn! He was making the prior wounds turn all fresh again.

Look, Aaron. I didn't mean it like that. I have always respected your feelings and never once blamed you for it. I just want everything to be normal. I don't want to be put in a place where I'd have to choose.

Oh cut the crap, Athena. Don't try to cover it up right now, He harshly threw my hand away, staring at me with a look of hurt and betrayal, And besides that, I know who your choice would be so, goodbye.

My tears slid down my cheeks and I hugged him, Don't make me choose, please.

You have already chosen who you want, Athena.

I need you in my life. It's not a lie. Your presence matters!

But you can live without me, not him.

It'll be hard...

But you'll be able to live. You'd be able to manage.

Don't go. Please. Please. Please. I held him tighter, my tears wouldn't stop.

You have left me with no options. He gently pushed me away, and wiped my tears before he flashed me a faint smile, I hope he'll keep you happy.

Tears were glistening in his eyes as he turned around and headed to his car.

Don't go, Aaron. I ran behind him in the hopes of trying to stop him.

But he didn't listen. When I held his hand, he jerked it away and took off with his car without another glance at me.

As I stood there, alone in the middle of the empty street, shocked and slapped with the reality that I just lost a friend just because I chose my happiness for once, my mind was racing with a million thoughts.

I couldn't help but wonder if I had made the right choice. Would I regret it later on? But then, I saw Sebastian approaching me, and for a moment, I forgot everything else.

What happened? He asked. Concern was etched on his face as he looked at me, Why are you crying?

He left... I sniffled, turning to face him, Our friendship doesn't matter to him.

That bastard, he cursed, pulling me into a tight hug with visible rage.

Don't say that, please.

You really care for him, don't you? He asked, his voice dropping a few octaves.

He is the only friend I have made in my whole life, I admitted, resting my face against his chest, I thought he'd understand me.

I could sense his conflicting emotions, but he released them with a small sigh.

It's okay, he said, rubbing my back to comfort me. Sometimes things don't work out as we want. But if you give me a chance, can I be the second one?

The second what? I asked, confused.

We've had a rough start, Athena. Maybe we can start with friendship, he proposed.

You want to be my friend? I couldn't help but smile.

Yeah, if you don't mind, he said, clearing his throat.

It was actually very endearing to see him acting soft. To be honest, I'd never thought that I'd get to see this side of him when he'd always been the one to act tough. It made my heart flutter.

Friendship isn't a bad idea, I smiled at him and this time a curve appeared on his lips too.

Okay. So now we are friends?

Friends.

*****

I am sorry I never told you anything about my past, I was on the verge of tears as I hugged Shelly. I knew this was not goodbye but at the same time, it was an undeniable and cruel way to step back from the world I'd created for myself and get back into the one I'd always dreamed of.

Leaving these people behind for a while was tough but at least, it was not a final goodbye. I wasn't going away for good nor was Sebastian the man who might prevent me from meeting the precious people of my life.

It's okay. I understand sweetcake, She flashed me a small smile, I am happy for you and now that you have a new precious member coming to both of your lives, I want you to be as careful as possible. I'll sue you if the baby feels any discomfort, understand?

How would you know if the baby's feeling uncomfortable? A small chuckle left my mouth and I wiped my tears.

I'd know, She said sternly, trying to make me believe her words by force, So, don't mess with me.

Okay, I nodded, unable to hold my laughter but then I broke into a sob again, hugging her, I'll miss you, Shelly.

Me too, I heard her sniffle, Don't forget to visit me after your delivery.

I won't, Promise.

That's Sebastian, my mate. I guess you have met him already, I motioned at Sebastian, who was leaning against the frame of the door.

Yes, he has told me everything.

Everything? I was taken aback.

Yes, everything.

This was enough to tell me that he had told Shelly the things I couldn't and none of his flaws were covered in the narrative.

To be honest, I wanted to kick his ass at first but then again, I did not want you to lose someone close and him to lose the chance of being a better man, She continued, Life is short, it's easier to forgive than holding onto something that's hurting you.

Thank you. Thanks for everything.

Silly girl, don't thank me. I love you, okay?

I know and I love you too.

Live a good life, spend as much time together as you can, you two have a lot of time to make up for, She stroked my hair, And you young man, you better take care of her. If you don't, trust me, I'll make you regret it. She sent him a stern look.

Trust me, you wouldn't need to do that. It's her home and everything there, including me, belongs to her and her only, He let out, the smile on his face only said how true he was with his words, I won't let her tears fall ever again.

CHAPTER 111: Home Again

Athena

As the sight of the mansion unfolded before me, my breath caught in my chest, and a deluge of memories came rushing back, threatening to overwhelm me. It felt as though they had been lying dormant, waiting for this precise moment to resurface and drag me away from Sebastian. Miles away.

The mansion, once a dark, foreboding cage, now seemed to radiate with an otherworldly glow, contrary to my expectations.

It was painted a resplendent shade of white that shone in the evening light. The trees surrounding the property no longer obstructed the rays of the setting sun.

Despite being at a distance, I could see the verdant garden had sprung up in the back.

Yet feet remained frozen to the ground, my mind reeling, and my heart racing at an alarming pace. I longed to move forward, but my body lacked the strength to do so. Just then, Sebastian took my hand, and his touch sent a shockwave of memories coursing through me, including the day he had purchased my destiny for two million dollars and dragged me inside this very mansion.

Strangely, I didn't feel weakened by the memory that had been triggered. Instead, my focus was fixed on the hand that once had forcefully seized my wrist and dragged me into a living hell. Now, that same hand was gently intertwined with mine, guiding me forward on a path that wasn't leading me into darkness, but out of it. Sebastian was there for me this time, holding my hand firmly as if to pull me out of the abyss and lead the way.

Let's go, Sebastian said with a soft smile, pulling me along as he led the way into the mansion.

As we stepped inside, several maids and servants appeared, their faces familiar to me. What struck me as odd was that none of them showed any fear towards Sebastian, despite his reputation.

Hello, Alpha, one of them stepped forward. Welcome home, Luna.

Thank you, Jake, Sebastian replied, his smile never faltering. I trust you've taken good care of my home, or else...you know what I can do.

My heart sank at his words, thinking of the worst possible outcome. But then Jake opened his mouth.

Oh no, I wouldn't dare to act careless, Jake chuckled. I can't bear the thought of my mother being disappointed in me for being irresponsible and lazy.

Okay! But this was still half of the story.

Well, I'm glad to hear that you've learned your lesson. Now, you all can get back to work while I take my Luna to our room, Sebastian said with a nod.

Of course, Alpha. I've made sure that everything is in order to ensure Luna's comfort, Jake replied, and the other servants followed suit, quickly dispersing to carry out their duties.

Let's go. They disappeared soon and before I could utter a word, Sebastian suddenly picked me up, causing me to gasp in surprise.

What the--

Shh, don't curse, my love. The baby might hear you, he cut me off before I could finish my sentence. He effortlessly carried me up the stairs as if I weighed nothing.

Why did you do that?

Do what? Sebastian asked, leaning in closer to my face. His blue eyes sparkled with curiosity, and I found myself easily bewitched by his gaze.

My breathing grew heavier as his warm breath caressed my cheeks, sending shivers down my spine. I struggled to keep my composure, my heart pounding in my chest.

This, suddenly..ahm—Picking me up like this? I tried to explain, perhaps looking like a fool, especially given that my cheeks were burning red.

Oh, this? The stairs are long and I won't be taking any risks. He shrugged, proceeding carrying me to our room, I have to make sure my mate does not have to exert herself unnecessarily. Besides that, I want our baby to be as comfortable as possible.

Sebastian, he's in my womb. I deadpanned.

Sebastian, he's in my womb, I deadpanned, trying to ignore the discomfort that was growing inside me.

So? Who says that babies can't feel discomfort in their mother's womb? Sebastian quirked an eyebrow, a hint of confusion flickering in his eyes. But it was quickly overshadowed by confidence – perhaps even overconfidence.

Still a bit cocky, I see, I muttered, trying to cover up my sigh. But he heard me anyway, responding with a chuckle that indicated he agreed with my words.

As we climbed the long staircase, I couldn't help but feel a sense of nostalgia wash over me. It wasn't my first time in his mansion, but these past few months had made me forget what it felt like to be here.

The walls were now adorned with paintings, each one more beautiful than the last. The chandeliers glittered overhead, casting a warm glow on everything around us.

What's with that Jake guy? What did you do to make his mother mad at him? My interest piqued.

Sebastian chuckled, a mischievous glint in his eyes. Well, firstly, he's obnoxiously lazy and clumsy. The last time I was away for two days, I came back to find everything in disarray. It turned out that Jake hadn't done his job properly and hadn't even bothered to make the other servants work efficiently. So, I resorted to the easiest way to teach him a lesson. He somewhat looked proud and there was a curve at the corner of his lips. A smile— The one that resembled a kid's.

So you snitched on him to his mother?

Yes. He grinned.

I couldn't help but laugh. I can't believe you!

What? That was the least I could do. I didn't want to fire him and leave him jobless. He chuckled back but sounded genuine and I'd be lying if I said that this made my heart melt.

Watching him being kind and considerate had been a dream, and now that it was actually happening, I couldn't help but look at him in wonder and become entranced every time. And somehow, I couldn't help but be astonished at how strikingly attractive he was.

God, I was head over heels in love with this man.

Unable to hold myself back, I leaned in and placed a kiss on his cheek. I'm proud of you.

I felt him freeze for a second, but then he gained his composure again, You are?.

Yes, I am, I replied, smiling.

Sebastian turned his face towards me, his eyes studying my expression. He seemed to be searching for something in my features, and I held his gaze without flinching.

After a few moments of silence, he leaned in and placed a gentle kiss on my lips. It was sweet and tender, a stark contrast to the rough, possessive kisses he usually gave me.

I'm glad, he whispered against my lips. I'm glad you're proud of me. For a moment, all the worries and fears that had been plaguing me since we arrived at the mansion faded away, and I was left with nothing but the feeling of his lips on mine.

He pulled away soon, making sure to not make it uncomfortable for me.

I smiled against his mouth, savouring the warmth and softness of his lips.

I blushed like a lovestruck teenager who just had her first kiss and tried to contain my smile, looking away as it seemed the best way to hide my blush, Let's get going.

He grinned mischievously, Okay, madam.

*****

Somewhere in my mind, I had thought that being in this room would be awkward and traumatising but it turned out that Sebastian had already known the possible circumstances and the entirely changed surroundings. The atmosphere was different— He made it different. For me.

All these books....you have started reading? I moved towards the bookshelf, looking at the collection in awe, running my fingers over the spines of the books, feeling the texture of the leather and the paper. There were classics, contemporary novels, and even a few non-fiction books that caught my eye. The shelf was beautifully arranged at the corner of the room with books that were arranged, neatly and meticulously.

Uh-huh, He shook his head, coming to stand behind me, I thought you might like to read sometimes, that's why I arranged this setup.

And this hammock, it wasn't here before. So?

I thought it'd be comfortable to read while sitting here, He nervously added, trying hard to put it together and read my face, Besides, you can enjoy fresh air from here. It is good for you and the baby.

That Yoga mat?

It's good to exercise while pregnant. It keeps the baby healthy.

Oh, but why are there two of them? I asked, slightly confused.

I'd give you company.

God damn. He was making it hard for me to not kiss him then and there. This thoughtful sight of Sebastian was way more powerful than the cold one he no longer held on tight.

A smile broke onto my face on its own and I tried to hide it some sort but surely I didn't succeed.

I guess this new television setup and this book of baby name suggestions is for me too?

Yes. You got it right. His excitement didn't let my smile fade, I have installed a bigger jacuzzi, too. It'll make you feel good.

This room was no longer how it used to be. It did not feel like a cage. The pain and fear it once held, was now transformed into a sanctuary of love and care. Now, It felt like...home. My home.

I did not know what to say. I stood there, speechless and trying to think of how far we have come. The room that once held so much

We even got our baby back...

Sebastian approached me, noticing the tears streaming down my cheeks, Hey, why are you crying?

I tried to play it off, It's nothing, something just got in my eye, wiping away the tears with my hand.

But of course, he didn't buy my excuse and the never-fading concern on his face said it right, "Did you not like something? You can tell me, Athena. I'll get it removed right away if it does not feel right to you. Just