Because You Told Me To Write
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One relationship starts. One relationship ends.
The same relationship starts again.
Another boy likes me, I go after him, leaving the relationship suspended.
The boy who likes me ruined my life and took all my friends away.
I go back to the relationship on a whim.
Without a thought, I'm back again, fighting with him.
One relationship starts. One relationship ends.
The same relationship left me dead.
Together another night, the best one yet,
Because that was the time you told me to write.
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Because You Told Me To Write - Katherine Cava
Because You Told Me To Write
Katherine Cava
Copyright © 2023 Katherine Cava
All rights reserved
First Edition
PAGE PUBLISHING
Conneaut Lake, PA
First originally published by Page Publishing 2023
ISBN 979-8-88960-479-2 (pbk)
ISBN 979-8-88960-485-3 (digital)
Printed in the United States of America
Table of Contents
To my mom, who supports me even when she thinks my decision is iffy.
To my friends, who listened to me and told me I was right, even if I wasn't.
To Ms. Thomas and Mr. Spinelli, who inspired me in every way possible and appreciated whatever I had to say and create.
And to you, the person who told me to write, thank you.
preface
the introduction
yes
tough night
IP
it's never forever
fly high
alarm
delusional
confusion
text message no. 1
letters
memory
listen
for granted
wall
dark mistakes
JL
fools
indecision
lost
need
louder than words
falling from grace
creative urge
overshare
middle of starting over
hope's for suckers
overthinking
do you remember?
advice told from everyone, everywhere
hard times
my sincerest apology
effect
prequel
i remember when i was eight
ZR
living
backstabber
PTSD
voice recording no. 1
despair
judas
writer's block
backpedal
rotten
burn
karma
ladylike
trapped
war
anxious and depressed
IP part 2
terrors
frown
text message no. 2
human nature
a million things
gossip
gabriel
rules
famous
addiction
insomniac
questions
agonize
impalpable
playground
symbolism
tarot cards
love letter
regret
forever
stage fright
flu season
maze
masked
mirror
eighteen
clown
hope
the funeral
decisions
fourteen
free
relapsed
ugly girl
five o'clock
ex
smile
manipulation
obsession
OCD
the one
god
i'm stumped
nightmare
invisible people
slice
selfish
school
opinion
i'll stop
text message no. 3
dead
voice recording no. 2
romeo and juliet
voice recording no. 3
observation
indomitable
you
eggshells
love
text message no. 4
shield
the middle
head and heart
cheerleader
joker
voice recording no. 4
imagination
text message no. 5
second place
heartbroken girl
love story
JL part 2
marathon
enemy
slapstick tragedy
invasion
ailment
numb
text message no. 6
attached to imprisonment
fatigued phobophobia
anticipation
everything you told me
joke
return
romance tales
paranoia
mercy
indecisive
too bad
text message no. 7
possibilities
toxicity
examination
death date
déjà vu
mind changer
text message no. 8
angel view
too young
line
dying inside
sonnet
pretend
text message no. 9
dreamers
angel
lucid
circles
voice recording no. 5
heartbeat
text message no. 10
lonely
lying to myself
deserved collapse
calligraphy
never again
voice recording no. 6
perjury
blame
i remember when i was nine
text message no. 11
the purge
tears
unchanged
voice recording no. 7
six p.m.
child
answers
home to you
text message no. 12
my life
the third friend
gone
JL part 3
ghost
vending machine
text message no. 13
two people
time travel
stay
JL part 4
responsibility
voice recording no. 8
you and me
eating disorder
court
haunted mansion
voice recording no. 9
no identity
countdown
dramatic
multiples
voice recording no. 10
ZR part 2
text message no. 14
deservance
permanence
don't worry
disguise
text message no. 15
death of my past
told
the ending
about the author
To my mom, who supports me even when she thinks my decision is iffy.
To my friends, who listened to me and told me I was right, even if I wasn't.
To Ms. Thomas and Mr. Spinelli, who inspired me in every way possible and appreciated whatever I had to say and create.
And to you, the person who told me to write, thank you.
preface
High school. What an interesting place—a building full of new people and anticipation of new experiences. Within four years, people can thrive or hit rock bottom. Others, like me, choose to live in the middle of the two, holding on for dear life, screaming at yourself to never let go, but then you meet them: the person that makes you believe that everything will be okay, even if it only makes you hurt more.
Inside these pages, you will find implications of suicide, self-harm, and mental disorders. Some might deem these words as disturbing
or uncomfortable.
However, these words are just my life.
the introduction
I wish I didn't feel like this. I wish I didn't think this way. I
wish I wasn't paranoid. I wish I didn't listen to you and
believe everything you told me. I wish I didn't still miss you
and the way you messed with my head. I wish I never met
you, and I wish you never left. I wish you were still here when
I needed you the most. I wish you didn't lie, and I wish you
didn't cheat. But most of all, I wish I wasn't so weak.
I wish I didn't feel like this. I wish I didn't think this way. I
wish I wasn't here, and I wish you always stayed. I wish you
didn't act that way, and I wish you weren't so annoying. I
wish we never spoke, and I wish we never met. I wish we didn't
end like this, and I wish you all the best. I wish that last
sentence was true, and I wish I didn't still feel so blue.
I wish we never met. I wish you never left. I wish you never
moved the hair from my eyes, and I wish you didn't kiss me
goodnight.
I wish I didn't feel this way, and after all this time, the only
thing I wish you didn't do was give me a reason to stay.
I wish I didn't feel like you did all this to give me a reason
because you told me to write.
yes
Sometimes