Hell in a Nutshell

By Morsheda Amin

Divine Faith is the only child of her loving parents. Growing up she didn’t have to deal with a scarcity mindset. But the world outside of her home works differently. Here people give away their power to mediocrity and wonder why they feel drained all the time. She discovered personal power grows through skilling out an attraction. The attraction has to be uncontaminated, unaffected by the childhood hurts, traumas. When attraction works along with hurts, a person wants to prove his or her worth to the world and become misled by mediocrity. It takes clear vision to keep attraction separate from the childhood wounds. Once attraction is put in the dynamic of obtaining personal power through creativity, God realization begins. It is impossible to realize God excluding personal power or giving away personal power to the worldly ways. Divine has a cousin sister. Her name is Kara. She is a pioneer in her own right. Faith and Kara dream of a new world and they have the road map of the new world. Their boyfriends are no less than them. Kara’s boyfriend made an abrupt choice to be with Kara. Conan-Faith’s boyfriend went into isolation to fix his mindset for his lovely Divine Faith. Sean-a celebrity writer glued all characters together.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Apr 10, 2023
• ISBN: 9781669867784

Morsheda Amin

I love poetry. I have been admiring poetry since I was a child. The admiration put me in front of one question: where does the feeling of love come from? I used to look in the beauty of sky to find my answer. I looked at the beauty of roses to find my answer. It took a long, long time for me to realize that I am magic and I am made of love with so much creative potential inside of me. Now I look back and laugh at my confused mind. It was not actually my fault that I couldn’t see my power like a tree doesn’t think about the fertility of the soil. But we human beings need to think about our power so we can use it righteously better. Now I am a thinker of “magical human inside.” I am fascinated by the magic and write my fascination through my writing.

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CONTENTS

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

CHAPTER ONE

Roads are flooded. It has been raining for five days. Faith is heading to his graduate school. She already has a postgraduate degree in astrophysics. Loving the astro world reminds her that she hasn’t studied the human mind. Faith is studying to earn a masters degree in psychology. No doubt that psychology is a very interesting subject. Faith sits in the classroom after the class is over. All her mates are left with the professor. The whole subject materials of psychology fascinate her. She has never been so fascinated in her thirty years of life. It appears that the human mind works as a gatekeeper in order to secure a divine life. Faith’s full name is Divine Faith. She doesn’t have any last name like Peterson, Anderson or Gallagher. She kept her own name when she was in high school. Her family thinks she is different. Her father indulges her every idea. Mother scolds her because she has no boyfriend and she is not thinking about getting married. Faith is her parents’ only child. She never feels only though because she has a cousin who she is connected with since she was a baby. Both of her parents are professional if she describes them in a conventional way. Consciousness is well appreciated in her home. The city she lives in is very quiet. Only five thousand people live in her town. People think time and space are an illusion. Faith thinks time is hungry for new sensations and space occupies human beings’ conscious mind with its exortic properties. Faith is driving to her university, throwing rain both on the sides of her car. This is her first semester. The time is fall. She never tries to make things happen. If the universe brings something to her, she accepts it nicely. It seems the universe wants her to be solitary since nobody asked for a friendship from her yet in the university. It is kind of good because Faith doesn’t like to divert her focus from study. She came here not to earn an extra skill to make more money. She is here out of curiosity about the look of inside human beings. Though she is very much interested in making friends with a professor. These days professors don’t even think of going the extra mile with learning like her. It is alright. She doesn’t really expect anything from anybody anymore. She is all busy with herself.

Faith is five feet seven inch tall and weighs one hundred thirty. Her face is assembled with blue eyes and black hair that grows interest in all human beings she meets every day. She got her eyes from her father and hair from her mother. She is a bicultural product. The class she is attaining today is her first class for the course. Class begins with the coming of a professor. All eyes on him. He introduced himself saying that his name is Robin and he is going to see them once in a week throughout the course. He is going to teach them learning and cognition. To tell the truth he is the most handsome professor Fath has ever met in all her classes in her entire life. She decided to be in person with this man. She stares at him to make him uncomfortable. Professor stares at her back with the same amount of time. Class is over and Faith managed to meet the professor alone.

Robin said, I am married and I have a six years old son.

Faith is surprised that the professor thought that she was hitting him for a relationship.

She said, hopefully you are happily married. Trust me I seriously have no interest in your personal life. I just want to let you know my thoughts about the human mind personally. Can we sit somewhere? The ideas I am going to express to you are not taught in the psychology class.

Robin said, it is lunch time and I am hungry.

Okay, then let’s go sit in the cafeteria.--Faith finds a solution.

Faith and Robin are walking towards the cafeteria. As they walk they think about each other. Robin thinks this girl is different and Faith thinks he is too young to be a father of a six years old. At the cafeteria Robin asked if Faith wanted something to eat. He himself ordered a bowl of salad with a chicken breast laid on it. Faith ordered a smoothee. Before he sat down at the table he went to the restroom. Sitting at the table Faith smiles. This Guy cares about his internal system very much.

Robin, sitting across Faith asked, what do you know about the human mind?

Faith said, slow down. Let me know a little bit about you. Where did you study your psychology?

Read the college directory. I am well described there. Now tell me what exclusive idea you have about the human mind?--asked Robin.

I think the mind is a victim or victory of the moment.--said Faith.

Keep going. I need more explanation.--said Robin as he was breaking apart the chicken breast.

Mind can’t avoid not being affected by the energy that comes from other people’s words. Mind’s bond with the other mind is inseparable. There is something that is decided somewhere else, not in the world. And this is the reason community is an obvious state of life. Oneness is a more real thing even if we experience hell in it.--said Faith.

What do you think? Who is that Something?--asked Robin.

That something is a game player. The shadow side of God.--Replied Faith.

Do you think God has a shadow side?--asked Robin.

You need some shadows to create an existence because all existence stands up on a balanced matrix and all balances are light and shadow or weight and empty space. I find God a little wicket.--said Faith while she almost forgot to drink her drink.

Our psychology text was written based on data, study, probability, possibility and lab tests. We really don’t combine God to it.--said Robin. He is so curious.

You psychologists have to rewrite the books.--said Faith.

Why don’t you write one?--asked Robin.

I will. Before then I have to know how mainstream psychology works. Let me tell you something: God is wicket until it is love. When a wicket man manages to get rid of all wickedness and merge with Godly love, divine begins. Before holiness there is a war. And it is all designed by a superpower whose only intention is to lure us to divinity through experiences.--said Faith.

"Go ahead.’-- said Robin.

We become victorious by the words of love. The moment the mind picks up the energy of care, we heal. It is a magical thing. No one really knows why. The existence of love is real and it is the only reality that makes our living profound, precious. Most people know the idea of love, not its power.--Faith finished.

Still you need the people who know only the idea of love, not its power because the source of human beings is one. I think you have to know how to deal with the unloved without being affected by it. What do you think? Is it impossible?--asked Robin.

It is almost impossible because the mind collects information in order to keep our lovely beings stable. If it happens that it receives misinformation, it has to fight it. Here comes an active mental chatter box. Along with that grows a mad mind. Mind is made default in the first place.-- said Faith.

You are given rational intuition. Using that intuition you can explain divine plans part by part. You have power over everything, even God’s mistakes. I won’t say it is a mistake. Rather, unwanted supplements are necessary to keep the existence standing. You just have to play around with it carefully so you don’t have to lose your mind.--said Robin. He finished his salad.

This is something I try all the time. I also want to heal the collective mind. There is no set criteria to do that. I wish one person could heal all the world. I definitely would make myself that one person.--said Faith. Her voice is a bit sad.

Don’t be sad. According to you God’s have the best intentions for you. Keep up with good works and see how God conjoins with your thoughts and brings new stages for you.--said Robin. He expressed his desire to leave.

Faith lets Robin go while she is sitting in the chair like a statue. She thinks people don’t have similar emotions as she has. Faith really knows the source of hurt and pain. Hurts and pains are nothing but the mind’s resistance to odds. Faith is sipping the remaining drink slowly. Suddenly she felt so sorry for the vulnerability of mind. Human beings are born with the deal of facing a fight. A very few can keep their sanity. Faith thinks this is the time to let people know what is the real story with real human beings. She doesn’t know where she should start. It is not easy to talk about a God that is independent from religion. As long as God is divided by religions, there is no understanding of love. If love is not understood, healing is impossible. All human beings need to be healed since evolution comes through fighting ignorance. Ignorance is real until ego becomes able to be aligned with God’s potential. Putting ego or identities at the feet of God is called peace. Faith looks at the ceiling of the cafeteria and imagines the trillions dollars it takes to run this university. A poor nation could be fed years and years with this money. People come here to get a degree about the human mind and how to take care of a damaged mind. All thoughts aside right now Faith feels like going back to her very own love. Her love is not identified with her look, her upbringing, her knowledge and not even her dreams. She herself is a dream that is able to relate to the dreams of the universe. She only owns the spirit dream invokes. And her capacity to own spirit makes her fall in love with time. A day feels like a year. Her presence makes the moment radiant regardless of what is in the moment. She spent many countless years bringing herself to this position of selflessness. Faith believes one thing for sure that class is a result of hard work. Lots of attention and action make a class to be expressed. Faith is actually a great believer of action and she loves to act quickly. She acts as quickly as she can write a book in a week. Only one area she didn’t focus on was popularity among general people. Politicians have this quality. Faith tried to be popular before but it didn’t stick to her. She gave out her phone numbers to many but for mysterious reasons they never called her. Maybe her class is the barrier. Faith remembers that she has another class in a bit. She went to the class. Same students are there. This professor dressed herself like a teenager. Her name is K Green. Faith doesn’t like when professors are more attentive to influence students with their charm rather than in depth knowledge. Faith actually tolerated the professor the entire time. She realized that her excitement is declining. She loves her own time of love better. Still she likes to demystify the mainstream ideas of human minds through flipping the university classes. When she got out of the classroom with a bounce of handouts, her head felt heavy. In the hallway she bumps with a man. The man is no other than Robin- her first class professor. Robin is surprised. He got a feeling that this bump is not random.

He asked, are you okay?

Not really. This school grew some discomfort in me. I feel like I don’t belong here.--said Faith.

Robin and Faith take the side of the hallway and Robin said, you are going to be alright after a few weeks. A new move demands so much from us. You have to give yourself time.

You don’t get me. I think this place is fundamentally wrong to the way creation functions. And this is the reason for my discomfort.--said Faith with a disappointing voice.

You seem unbelievably sensitive. Remember we are parting a journey of evolution. This concrete foundation is wrong now but it will not be wrong too long since people like you are here.--said Robin.

Faith looks up to Robin’s face. She likes what Robin just said. Faith said, What is the use of continuing something where my heart is not present?

Continue. Let people see how your views are different from others. Make different sorts of assignments. –suggest Robin.

Views? I view ‘God and no God’ as a life and death problem.--said Faith with determination.

Church people are going to like you.--finish Robin.

You don’t get me. A professor is supposed to get his students. Unfortunately you don’t get me.--said Faith nodding her head.

Help me to get you. I am a professor, this doesn’t mean I have learned all the knowledge in the world. I seriously don’t understand quantum mechanics applied to human life. I don’t understand the theory of relativity. Don’t think I am a perfect human being.--said Robin. Robin is really enjoying talking to Faith.

You don’t understand quantum mechanics and you are teaching the cognitive mind. I should drop your class.--said Faith with a smile on her face.

I thought I could trust you to be truthful.--replied Robin with a similar kind of smile Faith does.

You can trust me. Anyway I am Divine Faith.--said Faith with a light voice.

I feel like you kept your name. I have to say you have courage.--said Robin with surprise in his face.

Faith said, courage turns and twists our life. No courage, no class. No wonder why a learning period is called class. Elevation of mind happens here.

Robin watching his wristwatch. He has to go teach another class. He said, It is very nice to talk to you. But I have to leave.

Okay. See you next week. said Faith with stars in her eyes.

Faith left the university and went to pick up customized small furniture which she ordered with an Indian lady. She ordered elephant chairs. When she got home with two chairs in her car’s back seat, it was evening. Faith’s mother is cooking dinner. The smell of buttery sauce everywhere in the house. Her father is also in the house. He is examining the garden if last night’s rain damaged the plants. Faith gave her dad a hug and showed her chairs. Dad praised the artist. Faith reminds her dad how beautiful a human mind can be. Dad asked her if she had met any interesting people in the university. He knows that his daughter is looking for uniqueness in everything. As faith goes inside with the chairs she asks her dad what her mom is doing. Dad said your mother is probably making your favorite dish. Faith came inside holding two chairs in her two hands. Kitchen space is easily seen from the front door. Mother came towards Fath and gave her a lovely kiss. She loves her daughter to death. Her love for Faith is growing each day. Mother can sense that her daughter is not like any other girl. She understands why it is difficult to find a romantic mate for her. Her daughter is so good, so loving that she can’t blame her for anything. Still deep down inside she is dissatisfied that her daughter can’t find a mate to be married. Mother asked Faith about her class. He said that she met a professor and she got him to talk to her personally. Faith carved out a beautiful story about her and Robin to present her mother. Mother asked if the professor was single. Faith said that he is married and he has a six years old son. Mother sighed and asked Faith about her chairs. Faith described her chairs. She said according to ancient Indians elephants are symbols of prosperity. She also said if she keeps them on the south-west side of her room, she is going to be prosperous. Mother said that she is already prosperous since she has a postgraduate degree in astrophysics. Faith clarified that she doesn’t have a real job yet. She spells out her present state of being saying that she is nobody unless people care to listen to her. Mother suggests that she should teach the school since she has a lot to say. Faith said that she would think about it and went upstairs into her room. Everything in her room is customized by an artist or she made it herself. She has a queen bed on the north side of the room. The bed is covered with a quilt which she bought from Washington DC while she was visiting the Amish town. She bought the quilt with ten thousand dollars. She spent all her money she earned from short time jobs. She worked on and off in many places. Right now she is unemployed because of her reentering school again. She kept her beautiful elephant chars on the south-west side of her room. The black rocking chairs have colorful elephants all over its surface. Faith sat on one of the chairs and examined if it was comfortable to sit. It feels like a bit of a kid’s chair. It is something she actually wanted. She wanted to charm her friend’s daughter Fiona. Most of her friends are married and few have kids. Faith smiles to herself thinking that time is ticking. If she goes like this she will never be a mother. Motherhood is seriously inclined to a dream that lives in the future. No wonder why it is so attractive. There are so many other things to be attracted to other than a baby. Faith has a plan with the universe as the universe is a God’s plan initially. She never discussed her plan with anybody else. She literally has nobody who will understand her thoughts. Faith thinks not having a friend is perfectly fine. Another human being either dissipates the strength of dreams or tries to make the dream something else that is not primarily designed. The problem is if something is for collective wellbeing, it can’t be done alone. Her plan is to use all communication platforms to talk about pragmatic God. Faith thinks while she gets naked to take a shower. The time of shower is her most favorite time. Relaxation allows her to remember which she is not supposed to forget. In the bathtub she answers the question of an imaginary audience. Faith is confident that she knows all the answers. Her audience asks, what does God have to do with curing diseases?

Faith speaks out to her imaginary audience. She pronounces each word of her with the fine tune of her voice, God is not an idea of power that is entitled to respond to our prayers of fear. God itself is creative potential and by balancing the creative potential it gives birth to amazing unique beauty. We are a part of God’s creative potential. We are God’s created beauty and a dynamo of creativity on our own. We also give birth to amazing unique beauty by using our creative potential as God. Our created beauty invokes spirit. Spirit gives us strength meaning our connectivity to the source of power makes us strong. Our strength takes care of our immune system. We are made not to suffer diseases, rather we are made to enjoy all the beauty in the world through designs, patterns, colors, forms, texture, temperature within our senses. This world is a land of joy.

The audience asked, how do you define religion? Isn’t it true that religion wants us to stick with God and almost all of the world sticks with it. Is it possible that the God of religion and your God are different?

Religion puts identities to God. My God is a creative source with conscience that controls ugliness coming out of ignorance. My God’s infinite creative power works through all living and nonliving beings as proactive love. My God knows only free, happy expressions regardless of time and space. The expression is so beautiful.--said Faith.

What do you think we should stop going to church? asked the audience.

I can’t decide for you. I am just saying how everything falls into place when we accept open God. We don’t suffer through disease. We can mix our attraction with God’s attraction that beautifies the world in a patient but exuberant manner. There is no delay in nature. The more we see how God does its work, the more we can trust its given safety. And feeling safe helps us to root out our creativity quickly. We finally became healthy and blossomed. The process of blossoming is the journey of our life.-- replied Faith with a world of satisfaction in her voice.

The audience