"I Can't Do This!": ("So... Who Will?")
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When you are sure you can't do something...are you really sure?
Elizabeth Engkjer could well be your neighbor, the lady sitting in the church pew three rows ahead of you, or the psychiatric nurse you hesitantly consulted about a family member. So how in the world di
Elizabeth A. Engkjer
Elizabeth Engkjer thought she someday would be a medical missionary. Little did she know the twists and turns her life would first take. After graduating from nursing school, Elizabeth married USAF pilot Richard Engkjer. The couple moved from coast to coast with their three children, finally settling in the suburbs of Denver, Colorado. The couple participated and led in the resettlement of Vietnamese and Laotian families. The entire family went to Jamaica with Christian Medical and Dental Society, and Elizabeth spent two summers in the jungle of Belize on medical missions to indigenous families. In 1997, Elizabeth was coaxed to join a women's mission trip to Ecuador. This initiated twenty-five years in El Florón. Richard ultimately built a mini water purification plant next to the clinic. The Engkjers have three married children and six grandchildren.
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"I Can't Do This!" - Elizabeth A. Engkjer
Preface
Taken from The Holy Spirit and Reality by Watchman Nee, First Edition, August 2001, published by Living Stream Ministry, Anaheim, California:
The message in this book (i.e., The Holy Spirit and Reality
) touches a great matter in the Christian life—the Holy Spirit and reality. With concrete examples, it demonstrates that behind everything spiritual there is reality. This reality is in the Holy Spirit, and the Holy Spirit leads men into the knowledge of this reality…
I have not written or published previously. That will be apparent. The introduction and after are in my own words except for biblical quotes. I prefaced the introduction in hopes that Watchman Nee’s words will more succinctly clarify my purpose, which is to unveil the incredible work of the Holy Spirit as a guide to a willing heart and to use that person to meet far-reaching goals or miracles not based on education (theological or otherwise) or intellect but solely on a fervent love for and seeking after Jesus Christ.
Introduction
Spirituality is a very personal topic and one that can remain deeply hidden within oneself and has varying meanings from individual to individual. It is not finite and thus, cannot be physically grasped or touched. And as we have become a very hurry-scurry
society and world, spirituality may even remain tucked away within oneself. Reflecting over twenty-five years, I am sure the presence of spirituality has often been unnoticed or ignored by myself. However, over these years, there have been repeated baffling episodes and occurrences in my life that spirituality
surfaced within, and part of that spirituality was something other than what I could attribute to myself… My hope in sharing these years will bring concrete reality with the presence of the Holy Spirit. If spirituality
is something your hurried/pressured life has disregarded, I understand. Hanging on the wall next to our apartment door in Ecuador is a plaque that states better than I ever could,
Take time for Quiet Moments as God whispers and the world is loud.
(No person is given credit for these words of wisdom.) My increasing quiet moments
have uncovered within the Holy Spirit of God, who has lifted, carried, and guided me through unspeakable times of resistance, doubt, grief, and, yes, overwhelming, unspeakable joy… Our loud world seems void of experiencing and being used by the Holy Spirit of God. May you long for and take quiet moments
and be blessed and rejuvenated to new levels in your life each day, each experience.
…and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever—the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans…
(John 14:16–18a, NKJV)
Chapter 1
I Do Not Feel Called…
This was the third time Elsie Demarest asked me to go on our church women’s mission trip to Ecuador. Each time—even this third time—I tried to be polite and said I did not feel called to go on this mission trip (which was not medical). I am a nurse, and I had gone on two exciting medical missions in the jungle of Belize the past two summers. Even farther back, our family (my husband, I, and our three children—twelve, fourteen, and fifteen then) had gone with Christian Medical and Dental Society to Jamaica. We worked in the hurricane-ravaged, seven-floor hospital in Montego Bay. Canadians built and gifted the hospital to the people of Jamaica. I vividly recall this pathetic lady they asked me to persuade into entering the hospital and then escort up to the seventh floor… She obviously was in a deranged manic state, in a urine-soaked dress, loudly ranting, resistive, and minimally combative… I was able to coax her gently and persuasively up out of the dirt outside the hospital’s ER and guide her to the seventh-floor psychiatric unit. The next day, I returned to visit her; she lay badly bruised, expressionless, and motionless on a mattress, no sheet, just a bare mattress. I was all too familiar with that distant, vacant gaze in her eyes. I knew they had manhandled
her, unaware and untrained of how to manage someone in this state other than they had. Undoubtedly, she had been sedated with antipsychotic medication. I have worked on psychiatric units most
of my nursing career…I felt equipped,
experienced, and extremely protective of people with mental health issues. People at church often come to me to share about a family member with a psych diagnosis/
disorder; individuals gravitated in my direction who had previously been hospitalized…they knew I understood and that whatever they confided would never be repeated, questioned, or criticized; I am safe.
As I think back to when Elsie asked me to join the women’s mission to Ecuador, I probably was a little