Confessions Of A Heart: Light In The Darkness

By Scott Gobett

Life is too complicated and write this story is even more complicated; Facts and small parts; everything turns to confusion and feelings. Desires, dreams, challenges, people, animals, violence, prejudice and pain; this is life, but there is just that, in this world we can also love, help, have wisdom, knowledge and have many other good things. Music, movies, theaters, cultures, dances, customs and lives. My life so far has not been easy, but who said it would be easy? Who said life is easy, congratulations, because you can t see the reality that is visible even to a blind man; Life is beautiful, challenging, and we are ruining everything. Confessions of a heart, light in the darkness, is not something to make you feel sorry for anyone, it s just for you to analyze what happens around you, because the danger may be much closer than you might think, a child may be suffering and no one will notice, then look and analyze everything that happens.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Clube de Autores
• Release date: Aug 24, 2015

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Confessions Of A Heart:

Light In The Dakness

Scott Gobett

Confessions Of A Heart: Light In The Darkness

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In Memory Of Brian Bittencourt André.

In Memory Of Justin Norman Aaberg.

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INTRODUCION

Nothing is like a fairy tale, life isn't easy, although it’s to

be lived.

A butterfly flying and the sea running in the wings of the

limit.

Today ...

Yesterday ...

Tomorrow ...

Life is very complicated and write this story is even more

complicated; facts and small parts; everything turns to

confusion and feelings.

Desires, dreams, challenges, people, animals, vio-lence,

prejudice and pain; this is life, but there is just that, in this world

we also love, help, have wisdom, knowledge, and have many

other good things.

Music, movies, theaters, cultures, dances, customs and

lives.

My life so far wasn't easy, but who said it would be

easy? Who said life is easy, congratulations, because you can't

see the reality that is visible even to the blind; Life is beautiful,

challenging, and we are ruining everything.

Confessions of a heart: Light in the darkness, is not

something to make you feel sorry for anyone, it's just for you to

analyze what happens around you, because the Danger can be

much closer than you think, a child may be suffering and no

one will notice, then look and analyze everything that happens,

you tie yourself in the family, because family is everything.

And who suffers or has suffered any of these situations,

talk to someone for everything to be resolved.

Recalling that the events are in random order.

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LIFE

January 31, 2012

Hi, I'm Scott Gobett, some people know me because of

my music, or because of my dance, or perhaps because of my

poetry, but nobody knows my history or the history of many

ordinary peoples like me.

Although I am Scott Gobett multi-functions, I am a

simple person; My name registration is Iago Andre Gomes

Peixoto, born on the 15th of April and in 1993, the son of

Patricia Cibele Peixoto and Magno Acacio Andre (Basic Detail,

my biological father left me before I was born, never sent not

even a letter, an email, it never bothered me, he even pretended

he wanted to meet his son, incidentally, the firstborn, because

after that, came others, I confess that my mother tried to make

me know it but did not, I didn't want an illusion, the futility of

his new family and it was so great, that does not surprise me,

suppose I wanted to approach him because he had interest, only

that's no surprise, even if trying them, though all this has

happened, I still give him opportunities to try to be my friend,

but it's only friend, I needed a father will 18 years ago, now I am

already a young adult if he wants to talk, be my friend, all right;

but he will never be my father); Although I have the name of the

mister Magno in my certificate, my father called Marcos

Antonio da Silva, he is the father of my cousin actually, but he

helped me, he even without obligation, I reached , took care of

me, paid my subscription to naval school (that was my dream),

he was the father that the Magno wasn't.

All this happening, thousands of things putting me down

(Or at least trying to), I just gave a comeback with the help of

friends, I managed to win everything and everyone; But one of

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the things that calmed me was the fact I was adopted by two

wonderful people, Robson Lemes and Graziela Regina, my

foster parents and loves of my life.

February 1, 2012

Today I want to talk not so much of myself, wanted to

talk about some people who cheer me, saddens me, or the like;

so let's start.

First person; in the city of São José dos Campos, I

humbled myself to become friends with a guy who lived on the

home front, his parents were super cool, it was cool, smart, fun,

but he never gave a damn and my attempts purchases at first it

was cool to get to humble friendship of someone (Although I

never do it and I hate to do), I did everything and I found that

we were childhood friends, but as a lot of childhood friends, I

was more one he erased from memory, not per event, but becau-

se he wanted to forget, perhaps because I'm not the man who

kissed thousands of girls, or because I'm not rich, cool, or be-

cause I was trying to understand women, whether or not there

different from the fact that he wanted to forget reason, it made

me sick (to be honest).

Second person; this guy had several brothers; He

had a sister, sweet, delicate, beautiful, intelligent and a lot more

that words cannot say; have known, made me very happy

because she has a very good soul, she cares about others and

although I don't remember her name, yet have great pride to say

... You're seeing this woman with a great soul like an angel? I

know her and I'm proud of that.

Third person; she has brother. He is intelligent, friendly,

cool, fun, he is very quiet, but is a great friend, he spends com-

fidence to people, people can trust him because he's a great

friend.

Fourth person; that person has nothing to do with the

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previous ones, this one is beautiful, friendly, comfortable, great

pianist and much more than words can say; For those who think

I'm talking about my best friend Matheus Peres is totally right,

mah Peres is a great soul, a great composer, a person in whom

we can always trust and I'm proud to say ... Best friends forever.

Fifth person; Anderson Villas Boas, a man with a good

soul, he always tries to help everyone, even he doesn't know; I

really am proud to be his brother; he is friendly, people hurt and

he forgives, he is a wonderful person.

Sixth person; Leonan Garcia, this is my baby, my baby

brother, my counselor, my point of peace, my inspiration, friend,

star, great brother, clever off and many things that are

impossible to be said, but the best part is .. . much I love him.

February 2, 2012

My God, I woke up early today, saw the little sister of my

son Yuri. I was dancing Marry Proud from Glee, I was like a

cra-zy, but it was fun.

Today I did a thousand things; I review the book "LIKE

A PRAYER: A LIFE IN MINUTES", downloaded videos from

my brother (Asher Monroe), composed a new song and slept

at a friend's house.

February 3, 2012

I woke up with my phone ringing Elevate from the

band BIG TIME RUSH.

It'll be eleven in the morning, I just got home and had to

go to market with my sister, I'm super tired, but it's hard for say

no to my princess.

I lay down to rest and put the song Invisible from the

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band BIG TIME RUSH. I slept and woke up and was still

playing, so I went to one side, then to the other and I was still

listening to this song on my phone; I spent thirteen hours

repeatedly listening to this song, in my opinion. It is perfect.

February 4,2012

I woke up, turned on the phone and heard ONE OF US

from Glee, then I was listening to music from my brother (Asher

Monroe), I heard ...

-Love Away – Asher Monroe

-Back For More – Asher Monroe

-Hello Baby – Asher Monroe

-So High – Asher Monroe

-Bohemian Rhapsody – Glee

-Only Imagine – Asher Monroe

-Invisible – Big Time Rush

-Intermission – Big Time Rush

-You’re Not Alone – Big Time Rush

February 6, 2012

I woke up at seven o'clock, I came to write something (I

have not wrote yesterday), twenty times I heard the song

Invisible from Big Time Rush and now is eight o'clock and I'm

listening to my brother Only Imagine (Asher Monroe), these

two songs are beautiful .

I texted my parents, my brother and my princess

(Quésia)

I'm not feeling well, I have various pains, but it is all

because of nervousness, anyway, tomorrow I'm going to the

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army

and

I'm

really

looking

forward

to

it.

Now I am hearing THOUSAND MILES from

VANESSA CARLTON.

Yesterday I was listening Invisible and crying, as I

remembered it all my love story with Mariana; people don't

believe, but she is the love of my life, after all she was my first

love and even today, my love for her has only grown (Though I

cannot be with her, helping her, kissing her, fondling doing ,

holding her, loving her, touching her hair, looking into his eyes,

touching her hand and holding it, put your head on my chest

whenever I needed to cry), although time seems to destroy her

love for me , my love for her grows every day.

I sended a menssage to Peres.

The day started very strange today, memories, songs;

nothing was as well, but Igor came home, we talked, we heard

songs, played and provoke my sister, then went to his house, he

got ready, went out to do the job interview, but his brother called

him at the time we were going. He saw what his brother wanted,

then we were waiting for the bus, he got to go to the city center

and I left home, coming home, washed my face, ate bread with

meat, I turn on my cell phone and put the music Invisible,

placed to repeat, I lay in bed and wrote this as it was my day so

far; one more thing, the song Invisible is too beautiful.

February 7, 2012

The day came, now I have to introduce myself in

the military and although I must stay calm (Because it was

what I wanted), is not what is happening, it's four o'clock

now, yesterday I was looking for a role that I had to take

today and I have not found, the nervousness is so much I

couldn't even sleep; I was doing prayer to see if God

helped me and I think he tried to show me, but I still

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cannot see, it's like I'm walking in a maze and there was

no kind of light to guide me; in a moment I leave home to

go introduce myself and I cannot find this role, and I will

not lie, so this time, only God can help me, I know I'm not

beautiful, wise, perfect, right, I know that error and these

errors lead me to imperfection, but I am struggling to give

my best, I'm giving my life for it; I need to be selected, so

why I have to help my biological mother and my brothers

(her sons and daughers), I also need to go because of my

grandfather, he has had many disappointments with

several different people and with different degrees of

severity, and to be honest, I don't wanna be a disappoint-

ment to him; these are the reasons that drive me to keep

trying again and again, but not only because of them, the

motives that move me most are ...

'I love being in the military service and;

'I need to help my family.

Not sure what to do, the light is so bright and I don't

think the role honestly, I won't endure to arrive at the last

second and hope to see all crumbling, I was officially and

had his heart in the Navy, but still, I accepted into the

army, so all the need. I spent five hours praying and

listening to I LOOK TO YOU, this song is from singer

Whitney Houston, but it was rewritten by the wonderful

Amber Riley of GLEE series and it is this version that I

keep hearing over and over, trying to find some point of

hope, I know not what I do, so far I have only brought

disappointment, I wanted someone to be proud of me,

proud of having me around, I wanted the Mariana felt for

me, the same feeling five years ago, I wanted her to

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continue loving me, for being next to her, I'm sure, I would

be happier.

Today I'm questioning if God is with me? I hope so,

because only he can help me achieve.

I'm already halfway through the day I left the

barracks and came to Shot of War, I hope I can solve my

problem, Lieutenant sent me to the barracks in Tyre War

and ask duplicate document.

Waiting for the opening shot of War and taking

pineapple juice, remaining exactly forty-two minutes to open, I

think I'll freak in every heat.

This pineapple juice is wonderful, the restaurant is

simple and cool, and although simple, sells quality products and

very good.

Missing thirty-eight minutes and juice over.

That much, I bought some more pineapple juice, I

thought of buying this instead of guava, pineapple but seduced

me (Again).

Missing thirty-three minutes and I'm in the restaurant

taking pineapple juice; I think it has a chocolate calling me, but

I will resist, ever eaten a packet of breath, already took a can of

Sprite and am taking the second glass of pineapple juice and

seeing the trailer for the film A CURRENCY OF LUCK.

The day is very hot, I saw a girl that hurt all left the

hospital and came to eat here in the restaurant, her face is full of

all brands; besides her body is full of brands, it is with a support

arm (Which is also injured), the poor thing is all bloody, as if

they had beaten her.

Insufficient twenty-five minutes.

I am tired and sick, missing a long time yet and I'm

really bad, I spent almost four hours standing in the sun, I

couldn't sit anywhere.

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Missing twenty minutes yet, time does not pass, creed.

I think I'll jump off a bridge; don't worry, I'll jump off the

bridge that broke in my bed, kkk.

Rain rains, it rains non-stop, because I will say a prayer,

for this heat fade and the cold back.

Definitely, I hate heat, I want the ice age.

If the temperature rises a bit more, everyone dies roast;

the funny thing is that it rained the entire vacation and wanted to

go to the beach and didn't give, now that classes start again,

comes this infernal heat, but the good thing is missing just

fifteen minutes now, then finally open the Shot of War.

Is the night, I'm entering the Messenger and thanks to

God, I managed to solve the problem of the role of the army,

and now have to go back on Thursday.

Today, the night is so beautiful, has some dark clouds

strolling through the sky, the sky is starry and is a full moon, it

is exciting, since morning I saw a lunar twilight, was perfect, the

moon was super orange and in the middle of the plantations was

fog that combined with the lunar twilight, formed a wonderful

landscape.

Today I confirmed what I already was sure; say that man

is a rational animal and animals are irrational, but never made a

real setting, look at this:

-Animal RATIONAL - existing race who think intelligent, but

the one thing that they do is destroy biodiversity and the

environ-ment; said to be rational, thinking, they were right, they

can think of who is the next victim, since he is capable of killing

anyone, anything to get what he wants.

-Animal IRRATIONAL - Animals of different breeds and types,

say irrational animals don't think, but let's examine the animals

are smarter than humans, proof, when humans are learning

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martial arts, who are the masters intelligence in whom he

inspired? HERON, TIGER, Viper, Mantis and APE; Oops, they

are not irrational animals?

February,8th 2012

Today was the worst day of my life; one of the reasons,

Igor gave me a bad news and I liked him very much, that gives

trust people, you take a chance and get hurt, so that tomorrow I

start in the army, thanks to God. He is the only friend who never

abandons us, he knows what is best, and you know why he

doesn't write straight with crooked lines? Because when he

created the world, He created it perfectly, we humans destroyed

line.

February,9th 2012

I have arrived here in the barracks, are now almost seven

hours, missing eighteen minutes and has about already fourth

peoples here,