Psalms of My Heart
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Christine Browning shares her personal story of recovery from sexual abuse through this lovely book of poems which are written patterned after the Psalms in scripture. She shares about salvation, days of lament, and her experiences of redemption.
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Psalms of My Heart - Christine Browning
RED TENT LIVING PRESS
Published by Red Tent Living
6523 Rose Arbour Avenue, Kalamazoo, MI 49009
Second printing, September 2016
Copyright © 2016 by Christine Browning
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Red Tent Living Press and the Living logo are tradmarks of redtentliving.com
All scripture quotations unless otherwise indicated are from The ESV (The Holy Bible English Standard Version), copyright 2001Crossway. Used by permission. All rights reserved.
Library of Congress Cataloguing-in-Publication Data
Browning, Christine.
Psalms of My Heart/ Christine Browning.—1st ed.
ISBN: 978-0-692-76601-9
ISBN: 979-8-218-04938-6 (e-book)
1. Devotional—Christianity. I. Title.
Printed in the United States of America
Set in Berthold Baskerville Book - Regular and Italic, Avalon, and Great Vibes Layout by Wendalyn Park, Mi Print Works
Dedication
This book is dedicated to my grandchildren
Sam,
Emma,
and Sera
that you may come to fully know
the God revealed in the encounters written here.
He is our future and our hope.
I love you,
Grammy
Acknowledgements
Thank you
rolls so easily off the tongue it often does not carry the weight of gratitude intended. Hearers often dismiss the depth of the words – the emotion behind the breath it takes to produce them. Thank you
in the context of this little book coming to fruition is penned with much emotion, tears of gratitude, and heart-felt appreciation for the multitude of individuals who have contributed to this work. It feels dangerous and dismissing to try to name all to whom I am grateful for the production of this work – but I will name some, knowing I will unintentionally forget to name others.
To my friends, Karen Dixon and Eve Sherwood, who have read, advised, and encouraged me to dream into reality the 2nd edition of Psalms of My Heart.
To Tracy Johnson and Katy Johnson who believed in the work enough to take on its production. Their suggestions, encouragement, eye for detail, and extended kindness provided a safe space for me to dream and create.
To Allison Johnson for the stunning watercolor painting that became the cover for this work. Her sensitivity and artful expression beautifully capture my heart in whimsical color and form.
To Red Tent Living for opening new opportunities to explore places in my soul, space to write and share my story, and for their belief in the goodness of this work.
To Open Hearts Ministry, the organization that first introduced me to the possibility of healing from a life of trauma; at my first encounter with Open Hearts at a Survivors of Abuse Leadership Training Seminar (SALTS) in New Braunfels, TX in February 2006, I knew I had come home to a family where I was heard, seen, and loved – and to Katie Taylor who invited me to attend something I had no idea would change my life.
To Dr. Dan Allender, The Allender Center, Recovery Week, and the many good folks connected with Dan’s work. Through all these venues I have experienced the goodness Dan’s life and work bring to the deeply wounded, providing tools to fight back against the enemy’s assault on faith, hope, and love.
To Dr. Richard Hipps, a pastor who allowed his own encounters with deep trauma and loss to produce a deep passion for God and a heart of kindness for others. Richard helped restore my belief that there are good pastors in this world who truly love God and lead others with integrity and grace.
To my children, Tom, Matthew, and Kristie, who have seen the worst and best of me and loved me still. Their navigation through the dark days and their courage today as they face their own need for healing brings me deep sorrow, repentance, and great joy.
To my husband with whom I have walked much of this earthy sojourn – we know the secrets of the fire swamp.
God has been more real in us and helped heal our love more in the last 10 years than in any of the previous 35. I am so thankful for our love story and look forward with joy to the years ahead.
To my colleagues, students, and friends at Milligan College who encourage me to be the best I can be and consistently call me to more. In particular, to Dr. Susan Higgins, who read through the manuscript and provided invaluable feedback and encouragement.
And to the God who sees, hears, and answers – for His great faithfulness to pursue me, call me to His side, whisper words of love to me, dance with me, and take me to new heights always, always leading me with tenderness and divine intention. "Behold what manner of love the Father has bestowed on us, that we should be called the children of God!" (1 John 3:1)
Endorsements:
The Psalms resonate in us because they intersect the cry of our soul with the desire of our heart. Our inner world needs words, especially in the midst of heartache. The Psalms also are meant to be prayed. We use the words of struggle and confidence to articulate what might remain dormant in us. They are also meant to prompt us to write verse to voice our deepest desires. Christine Browning has offered us a sweet gift of her psalms that were written and prayed through deep trauma. They echo not only the Psalms but as well the war of hope in our heart. Her poetic prayers invite us further into the mystery of how God redeems. He meets us in our pain and triumphs with us in our faith. Christine’s life has known dark and hideous harm, and it is reflected in not only the pain but also in the creation of beauty. Read this great gift not only for comfort but as well to prompt you to write your heart.
- Dan B. Allender, Ph.D., Professor of Counseling Psychology and Founding President, The Seattle School of Theology and Psychology
My dear friend and colleague, Dr. Christine Browning, writes about the pieces of trauma and loss that don’t seem to fit together and perhaps never will. Entering her story through beautiful, challenging bone-honest poetry and prose will help you appreciate the fact that you are not alone in your suffering nor are you alone in your thoughts and feelings. Stories are powerful. Stories hold our world together. Without stories we remain isolated and vulnerable. Enter her story and find your own. I pray this book will offer you a spiritual perspective on what is happening to you, or has happened to you, one that is both biblical and life tested. - Dr. Richard Hipps, Senior Pastor, Trinity Baptist Church, Cordova, TN
Psalms of My Heart is Christine’s invitation for you to discover your story through the eyes of one who has searched the heart of God and found the beauty of her own. Christine’s prose and poetry draw you into her story of abuse, neglect and abandonment to a place of redemption. She is a poignant writer, one who will touch your heart deeply. - Mary Jane Hamilton, Author Living on Empty, Living in Gratitude
Contents
Forward
Introduction
Psalms of Orientation – Salvation
New Life
At Calvary
Beholding Your Salvation
The Door
The Exchange
Unmerited Benefits
Faith
Love
Jesus in Me
God’s Wisdom
Fragrance
A Walking Epistle
Windows of Wisdom
Make Me a Prism of Light
A Fool’s Belief
Kept By the Power of His Love
His Little Lamb: A Hymn
I Belong to You
His Thoughts Toward Me
A Father’s Love
No Condemnation
Held in His Hand
His Sheep Am I
Tugs
Psalm 91
Alpha & Omega
God’s Love
His Jewel
Sunrise/ Sunset
Love
Eternal Reminder
Eternal Need
Eternal Freedom
A Teacher’s Prayer
Fall
His Bounty
Psalms of Disorientation – Lament
Body
His Voice
The Doubter
Rebellion/Obedience
Failure
On the Fence
Glowing
The Full Flame
The Face of God
Desert Places
Fear
Transformed
My Way
Want List
The Little Lamb
Green Pastures
The Shade of a Huge Rock
War
Throwing Stones
Prayer
Surrender
Time Flurries
A Promise Kept
For Yang
Outward Appearances
Dead Men
Proud Wrath
The Real Enemy
Stained Glass Religion
Our Refuge
The Rock
Jesus Wept
A Needy People
Mid Life
Seeking Through the Pain
Spiritual Surgery
Waiting
Thank You for Coming
Squeezed
The Storm
Always Near
Instant Pressure
Love is Blind
Giving Up
Building
Let Him Have His Way With You
Beauty Out of Ashes
One New Step
Restored
Children Search for Pieces
Desperate Cries
Terrors by Night
Through the Night
Cracks of Light
Looking In
Perspective
Releasing Control
The Interview
Sin Crouching
Noah
Moments
Heritage
My Soul Waits
The Argument
The Transfer
Bitter Sweet
Promises
Misunderstanding
The Jailer
Love Affair