Collected Poems Richard Greene
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Richard Greene
RICHARD GREENE is Professor of Philosophy and Director of the Richards Richards Institute for Ethics at Weber State University. He is the past Director of the Intercollegiate Ethics Bowl. He is the author of Spoiler Alert: It’s a Book About the Philosophy of Spoilers, and has produced twenty or so edited books on pop culture and philosophy. He also co-hosts the popular podcast I Think, Therefore I Fan.
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MEMORIES
Old files
sifting through old files
like layers of earth
yielding up bones
and pollen,
the shards of life
breath clotted
by the dust
of triumph and failure
desire and loss
(August 1996)
The Mother Lode
One’s past is a lode
of images
where we work the veins of childhood,
lost innocence,
love in all its variations,
the old and their reminiscences,
those to whom we are linked
by the chance of birth
or life’s tectonics,
those who are no longer with us,
all there in the mineshafts of memory
waiting to be brought to light.
(September 13, 1999)
Boxes
Our basement is full of boxes
and often when looking for something
I’ll be surprised
by the debris of another time,
my children’s toys or baby clothes,
my son’s baseball cards
that haven’t been touched in years,
the paraphernalia of forsaken interests,
long unused pots and pans,
and as I sit there sorting,
memories flicker
through my mind.
(October 21, 1999)
Steam Engines
When I was young
trains were still powered by steam,
and I remember gazing at locomotives
latent in stations
or churning by at crossings,
or, as a passenger,
catching a glimpse of one
spewing smoke from its fierce furnace
as the train rounded a curve.
They gobbled coal by the shovelful
quaffed the contents of water towers
as easily as you might down a soda pop,
displayed their naked wheels and driving rods
like the muscle
of sweat sheathed, carbon smeared, shirtless coal shovelers,
those old steam engines
showing off their brawn.
(October 30, 1999)
To the Basement and Back
Looking for something in the basement this morning
I noticed once state-of-the-art equipment I’ll never use again,
which reminded me
of other phantoms that haunt my nether world,
paint that no longer adorns our walls,
gadgets whose use I no longer know,
the too-warm sheepskin coat I never wear,
still-good suitcases
supplanted by newer ones that won my favor,
books I’ll almost certainly never read again, nor lend,
a book I was going to return but never did
which reminded me in turn
of friends I meant to call,
but weeks turned into months
and months into years,
and I came back upstairs
bearing the baggage of those years.
(April 13, 2002)
Becoming Dickie Again
I saw my cousin Bob last week
for the first time in decades
His hair is white now
and he looks older than his father did
the last time I saw him,
but he called me Dickie
and it made me feel like the Dickie I was
those many years ago.
(August 4, 2000)
Autumn Returns
Opening the window
I see leaves on the street
and autumn slips in,
a crowd of autumns
mingled in memory,
a distillation of autumns,
sounds, scents, scenes,
a feeling that runs over the skin.
(September 16, 2002)
Sensing Memory
If one can talk of the mind’s eye
why not the mind’s ear, nose, taste, touch?
I can hear a pianist playing Schumann
in a concert hall in Copenhagen
fifty years ago,
smell the camellias
outside my bedroom window
when I was eight,
taste the salmon
I savored long ago
fresh from a Canadian lake,
feel the smooth skin of a woman
I haven’t seen in decades,
all in this very moment
as if now were then.
(January 7, 2006)
In the Attic
among the cobwebs and mementos
in the dim light
diffused through clouded windowpanes
I hear voices in the street
footsteps in the house below,
but there’s no going back to that house
where I was young
so many years ago.
(December 7, 2002)
Memories
I don’t need more memories
yet they keep coming.
Nearly seventy years accumulation stored away
in the attics, closets, cupboards of my mind,
but more arrive each day,
and the bedchambers too are full
of animated guests.
Granted, some don’t stay,
and some stay only awhile
taking their leave considerately
Others, however, remain,
stalking the halls year after year,
some unremarkable,
some congenial,
some unwelcome lodgers who resist eviction.
And so, though the house is full
it keeps on filling
for it seems there’s no end
to the memories it can hold.
(May 13, 2000)
One Memory
If I could have
only one memory
it would be
of my firstborn
resting on her mother’s shoulder,
life and memories ahead.
(May 23, 1999)
First Memory
My first memory is of a name,
Rachel.
I remember no more of her
but know we played
and I recall
or dreamed
the courtyard
of an apartment building
where I see two toddlers
in early memory’s glow,
like the aftermath
of creation.
(December 18, 1999)
A Birthday
There’s a difference of opinion in the family
as to whether I was three or four.
I remember a coconut cake in the shape of a lamb
surrounded by yellow cotton chicks.
I see it as through a scratched lens.
(November 1, 1999)
Frozen Fields
My grandmother drove me to the train
that winter I was four,
through the threadbare fields of Indiana
with their ragged patches of snow.
I was on my way
to my mother in New York,
excited about the journey
and the prospect of being with her again,
but I remember
not so much the excitement
as passing through those wintry fields,
as if time were deep-frozen
in memory.
(November 19, 1999)
West Side Memories
We lived across from the planetarium,
mere yards from the sky,
while just down the street
was the el,
and still vivid
under the long-gone girders,
a barbershop
with its candy stripe pole
and carousel pony
astride which young clients sat,
at the center of the universe.
(July 1998)
First Grade
I was in first grade when I was five
and my memories of it are so nebulous
I can’t be sure
whether they’re memories
or dreams.
I picture low, rambling buildings
of vague design,
the excitement of a track meet
in which older boys enviably competed,
and making parachutes
of handkerchief, rock and string,
hurling them as high as we could
and watching them drift down slowly
drift slowly down
through a dim haze
of memory
or dream.
(February 23, 2000)
Truckin’ on Down
In the thirties,
when I was six,
we lived on Riverside Drive
and across from our apartment,
in the park,
was a small stadium,
with a big red apple
over its entrance arch.
Dance contests were held there,
bringing a bit of Harlem to midtown.
I watched from the window of our apartment
and though I remember little
of that place in which we lived,
the dancers are still visible in my mind
performing that rhythmic,
finger-shakin’,
high-steppin’,
bouncy walk,
truckin’ on down,
in memory.
(June 10, 2005)
Pullman Memories
Riding a train
takes me back
to those boyhood summers
when I traveled alone
from New York to Chicago
starting from Grand Central Station
with a gentle jolt,
gathering momentum
past the vacant eyed apartments
of upper Manhattan,
wondering about the people
who lived inside,
then over to the river
where we hit full stride,
our wheels clicking
at a Dixieland pace,
the Hudson Valley scrolling by,
lake-wide river, stubs of old mountain,
the play of light in a cloud-crowded sky,
until we turned off at Albany
into mile on mile of farms and woods,
imagining myself into the houses
along the right of way,
those who might live within
seeming not quite real,
as we no doubt to them,
two worlds
sliding by one another
each in its own continuum
of time and space.
Then in the dining car,
self-conscious but proud,
the center of attention
in that adult place,
and not long after
in my berth,
snug as a tent,
shaken down to sleep
by the jiggling of the train,
waking during the night
when we stopped
at some anonymous station,
pulling the window shade up a crack
to see if I could make out a sign
of where we were,
watching the moving figures
swathed in steam,
silhouetted against the platform lights.
Then it was morning
and the flat fields of Indiana
were wheeling by,
telephone poles
riffling by
at a dizzy pace.
Like a horse
galloping back to its stable,
we seemed to accelerate
as we drew near our destination.
I felt I had to hurry getting dressed
lest I would still be in my pajamas
when we reached Dearborn Station
where the train might be shunted off
before I emerged,
my father on the platform muttering,
Where is that boy?
But we slowed down
as we swam into the denser urban landscape
and instead of being caught unprepared
I waited impatiently
for that endless city
to end.
(February 1999)
Summertime
As a child I spent my summers
with a crew of cousins
at my grandfather’s house
on a lake in Michigan
where we passed much of our time swimming
and trooping into town for ice cream, or movies.
Horror films were a favorite,
Igor pouring molten metal on us,
in three dimensions,
from the tower of Dr. Frankenstein’s house
(which for many years made Victorian houses
synonymous in my mind with horror),
The Incredible Shrinking Man
fleeing a house cat bigger than a rhinoceros,
rubber dinosaurs
rampaging through The Lost World.
The youngest of the gang
I took all this seriously
peering out from between my fingers
through much of the show,
clamping them shut when the going got too scary.
Then there was the amusement park
only 12 miles away
(which at the time seemed far to me
as if distance stretched
in inverse proportion to one’s size),
the fun house
with its whimsical mirrors
and the forced laughter
reverberating from its loudspeakers,
the papier-mâché monsters in the house of horrors
exciting more hilarity than terror,
and a large flat cylinder of a ride
that rotated so fast
you could hang on its inner side
defying gravity,
a sensation that visited me in my dreams.
The cousins with whom I spent those summers
over half a century ago
are still young in my mind
splashing into the lake,
filing into the little theaters
in Coloma and Watervliet
or heading out rowdily for that amusement park.
(September 12, 1999)
This Dove Is Not for Mourning
The mourning dove doesn’t sound mournful to me,
wistful maybe,
but not melancholy,
as if happy with the day
whether a chill March one like this
or a sultry one in August.
For me it sings of childhood summers,
spent at the lake
where my grandfather had a house,
of warm mornings
when fresh from bed
I could comfortably step outside shirtless,
of times when I could hear
the trees’ full rustle
and waves lapping the shore,
and see fish dimple the mirror of evening
and swallows swoop
over the languid water
streaked with gold.
(March 28,2002)
Scent from the Past
Opening the back door this evening
I’m caught up in a scent of earth and vegetation
from over 50 years ago,
the dark aroma of the dirt road
I sometimes walked at night
along the lake where I spent my childhood summers,
the oil-calm water on one side,
a small tremor disturbing its reflections,
on the other side, interiors
stage-lit behind their window panes.
For a moment I think I’m seeing the lights
from houses next to that long-unvisited road,
but then I’m back in the present,
though the scent of that old ground
still tugs at my memory.
(August 15, 1999)
The Road by the Lake
The road by the lake
where I spent my childhood summers
was here again
when I stepped outside tonight,
a faint odor perhaps,
something in the feel of the air,
the lights beyond the trees…
It visits me from time to time,
a ghost of summers past.
(June 22, 2000)
Watermelon Days
Here I am, a graybeard, eating watermelon
and remembering those summers
when I could count my age in single digits,
summers at the lake where my grandfather had a house
and all the cousins would assemble for dinner
around my grandmother’s large table.
Though there’s plenty of melon in the fridge
I find myself cutting close to the rind,
as I did in those days,
and there I am,
still that boy at seventy-three,
at the table with the tiffany lamp overhead
or descending the hill to the lake,
its remembered water, smooth and green,
lapping softly on the shore,
and the sound of mourning doves in counterpoint.
(August 23, 2004)
At the Window
Standing at the window I see
light glinting off leaves,
pale light on the pavement—
streetlamp or moon?
Darkness too
flows in at the window,
night air,
cool to the skin,
and summer nights
still warm in memory.
(August 28, 2002)
Scrapbook
I still have snapshots I took when I was eight,
Sixty-five years ago,
the house, the pond, the patio.
I remember the camera
a Kodak Bullet
so named in the fashion of the day
when streamlined was the thing,
a candid camera,
plastic as befits so casual a machine,
Bakelite I believe,
like those 78 rpms it joined long ago
in a landfill somewhere.
It was a gift of a woman who took care of me
and might have been a significant expense for her,
but though she may have doted on me,
I remember nothing more of her.
Then there’s the snapshot of me with my mother
at the side of the house
taken with that same camera,
by whom I have no recollection,
the photographer now only a ghostly presence
on the other side of the machine,
gone with the camera
and the caretaker
whose name I no longer know,
all in the ground somewhere.
(March 30, 2004)
Under the Apple Boughs
There was a wall along the road
where we played soldier
behind the loosely stacked stones.
Next to it a row of mountain birch
tops tinted in memory with evening sun.
Then the house
in dappled coat of whitewashed brick,
and the orchard with gnarled trees
where we pressed apples on chill fall days
and savored the cold, sweet cider.
Outside my bedroom window
a camellia tree glistened,
and, beyond, a broad lawn
sloped down to the pond
where frogs held nightly congress
and I learned of mallards
and snapping turtles
and green-winged teals.
There we skated in winter
until darkness hid the agate surface,
and swam impatiently in spring,
the ice barely melted,
as if our innocence protected us from cold.
Between pond and house
stood a lone apple tree
where, as I watched at first light,
pheasants gathered
in their courtly plumage
to feast on windfalls.
Then bombs fell on Pearl Harbor
and soldier games gave way to war.
(September 1998)
Radio Times
There was the opera
my parents tuned in to every Sunday,
in the background like a movie score,
but of little interest to me,
but then The Inner Sanctum
with its creaking door
and shivery stories
that sent me fleeing
down the long hall
to my parents’ bedroom,
and The Shadow,
who knew what evil
lurked in the hearts of men,
and that other crime fighter
of mythical proportions
The Green Hornet,
whose theme song was
The Flight of the Bumble Bee,
which strikes me now
as biologically incorrect,
and The Lone Ranger
whose theme was
an Italian overture
commemorating
a legendary 14th century
Swiss patriot,
and Jack Armstrong, The All-American Boy,
which posed the existential question,
"Have you tried Wheaties,
the best breakfast food in the land?"
(January 1999)
Passover
I was eight
when I learned the four questions
(Why is this night different from all other nights?),
a duty reserved for the youngest child,
memorizing them in Hebrew
in the car
on our way from the suburbs
to my aunt’s apartment in the city.
For me that night was a time
of waiting hungrily for dinner
through a drone of words
in a language I didn’t understand,
a blur of readings, songs and prayers,
and of falling asleep after dinner,
drowsy from the ritual wine,
on a big bed covered with fur coats
that smelled of perfume.
I didn’t get any thrill out of stealing the afikomen
while the adults pretended not to see,
and the questions I mouthed
weren’t the ones I would have asked for it seemed unfair to me
that the Lord had hardened Pharaoh’s heart
then punished the Egyptians for it.
It only occurred to me years later
that this holiday celebrated freedom.
(October 30, 1999)
World’s Fair
You may not be interested in war, but war is interested in you.
—Leon Trotsky
I went to my first world’s fair
when I was eight.
As is the way with such events
it was more about us
than the world,
and refracted the future
through optimist eyes.
You wouldn't have known
from anything on display
that a cancer festered
in Europe’s bosom
or that the most brutal of wars
was mere months away.
Nor was there any inkling
of the baleful new words
soon to be unleashed
on our vocabulary,
blitzkrieg, storm trooper, quisling,
kamikaze, Hiroshima,
Holocaust,
while the Futurama
with its ebullient guides
depicted a morrow
of shining towers
where poverty was ostracized.
Oh, the world looked good
in our neighborhood
in the spring of ’39.
(March 10, 2000)
Book Worlds
I’m nine or ten
seated at my rolltop desk
next to a dormer window.
It’s a rainy day
and a pearl-gray glare
of cloud-scattered light
streams through the window
where the only landscape I see
is that of the book before me:
the ubiquitous forests
where Arthur and his knights
pursue their solemn quests;
or Sherwood
where Robin Hood and his men
display their courage and cunning;
the plane before Troy
where long-ago armies clash
and Hector and Achilles pass
on their way to immortality;
or scenes from Odysseus’ adventures
where Cyclops and Circe and Sirens
lie in wait.
Such are the pictures that scroll by
on the gray screen of those days.
(January 3, 2000)
Milkmen
This morning I dreamt of the milkmen
who used to deploy through the half-lit city,
when I was a child,
with their cargo of clean, white liquid
and rows of glistening bottles,
depositing their burden
on doorsteps and porches
with a soft clinking
that made sleep
all the more voluptuous.
This morning I dreamt of milkmen,
but, when I awoke,
they were only a dream.
(September 10, 1999)
Jane Austen at Fort Dix
Yesterday I heard a broadcast
commemorating Fats Waller
whose centenary is this month.
They played Ain’t Misbehavin’
and it took me back fifty years
to when I was a draftee at Fort Dix
and spent my Sundays at the enlisted men’s club.
Though I’m not a clubbable type,
it was the best place to escape from the barracks
where there was the risk of being called upon for extra duty.
I was working my way at the time
through the complete works of Jane Austen
(which I kept well concealed the rest of the week)
and secluded myself in a balcony
reading those works so far from the military mind
while a fellow refugee played piano downstairs
and sang in a clear Irish tenor.
Ain’t Misbehavin’
was one of the songs he sang.
Fats Waller, Jane Austen and an army base.
Now those Sabbaths in that club,
deep in that place I’d have shunned if I’d had a choice,
sing amongst my memories.
(May 19, 2004)
Pictures of Yesteryear
Looking for an old photo
I came across another
from almost fifty years ago.
It was rolled up in a mailing tube
addressed to my mother
in the handwriting of my youth
and labeled prominently
Reception Station
Company C 14.7
Fort Dix, N.J.
September 15, 1954.
I’m at the far left of the back row
cap raked low over eyes
looking about fifteen,
though I’d already finished graduate school,
and I think to myself
if my children looked at this photo
it would seem to them
like ones from early in the century did to me,
alluding to wars they’d know only from books,
while in my mind
the years elapsed seem not that many
and those days like recent history.
(July 22, 2000)
Where Have the Hurdy-gurdy Men Gone?
Reader, do you even know what they were,
the knife sharpeners, the milkmen, the icemen,
who peopled the world of my youth?
Have they all quite faded away,
or is there an alternative universe
where crowds of them circle in the streets
performing the slow waltz of time?
(July 8, 2005)
Old Music
Today I came across records
I haven’t listened to in years,
wide black disks
in musty cardboard jackets.
The sight, the smell, the sound
transported me back to those years
when I first heard much of this music,
years filled with learning and longing
dreams and doubts,
and the times that followed
when I tried to fill the void of loneliness
with melodies
so that even now
these tunes are burdened
with the weight of those years.
(July 25, 2000)
Back to School
The weather turned cool last night,
the end of August near,
and my mind returns to school,
schedules
homework
confinement in a classroom
gazing out a window at a still bright sky
enduring through still open windows
the lure of fresh autumn air.
All this weighs heavily on my mind
though I haven’t been to school in fifty years.
(August 24, 2003)
From the Archives
A photo of Times Square 65 years ago,
on the RKO marquee, J. CAGNEY
,
on the Translux,
"LONDON CAN TAKE IT
FDR-WILKIE-LEW LEHR",
women wearing hats,
cars with fenders.
The photo’s in black and white
but what stirs in my senses
is the feel of night air
and the smell of fedoras.
(July 6, 2006)
Endangered Species
All my life it’s been Ace combs.
I never much liked the name.
Made me think of youths with greasy pompadours.
But the combs were good,
more durable than most,
and whenever I went to the drugstore to buy a comb
I looked for Ace.
But now they’ve disappeared from the shelves
displaced by a rabble of brands I don’t recognize.
I still have an Ace in my bathroom cabinet,
reminding me of simpler times
and my long-gone youth.
(November 6, 2006)
Remembering Trolleys
Reading recently about trolleys,
now almost extinct,
I heard in my mind
one clanging down a Chicago street
Seventy some years ago.
I was four and staying with my great aunt Florence.
I can’t remember the place where she lived
or even what she looked like
but I remember
trolley tracks ran shining
down the street outside,
and during the night,
hearing a trolley’s ghostly clang and rattle.
(February 15, 2007)
The Demons of Madison Avenue
I read a review of a book today
about how Pepsi gained on Coke
over half a century ago
and the Pepsi jingle from that time
jangled in my mind:
Pepsi Cola hits the spot.
Twelve full ounces.
That’s a lot.
Twice as much for a nickel too.
Pepsi Cola is the drink for you.
It’s probably close to sixty years
since I’ve heard that ad
but it still has the power
to commandeer my brain.
(February 21, 2007)
Sue and Me
My sister recently sent me a photo
she found among my late stepmother’s things.
It’s from 72 years ago.
I’m standing with my cousin Sue
in front of an apartment building,
that could only be Chicago,
when I was four and she eleven,
and it’s almost as if she were in this room.
I don’t remember her from then
but can see her in my mind’s eye
as she was a few years later,
soon to become her high school homecoming queen,
can almost smell the air
on the shore of the lake
where she was babysitting me
the day I fell off the breakwater
trying to study the pattern
on a snail shell on the bottom
while Sue flirted with the neighbor’s son.
Her life flashes through my mind
her marriage,
at which I was present,
her children when they were young
and grandchildren now,
some already adults,
tactile images
opening in my memory
like a time capsule
buried on some commemorative occasion.
(February 6, 2008)
Sue, Sue, Kalamazoo
I was talking to my cousin Sue last night
about the old days
when she was in her teens and I in my pre-.
We were among the summer cousins
who used to assemble
at my grandfather’s house at the lake,
stocking shelves in the storehouse of memory.
Cousin Sue’s in her 80s now
and I in my 70s
and when we talk
we rummage merrily through those memories.
Last night Sue was talking about
how they used to pick me up in Kalamazoo
when I came from the East on the New York Central.
I don’t recall the town at all
though I’m sure I was there more than once.
I conflate it in memory with another K
the Kellogg company
which is in Battle Creek,
not far away,
where they made some cereal,
the advertising slogan said,
by shooting it out of guns.
(Somehow that made sense to me at the time
though why that would sell a cereal
is beyond me now.)
I’ve another magic memory
of a town nearby,
Holland Michigan,
where they grew apples the size of grapefruit
too large to get my young hands around.
And then there’s Glenn Miller’s I’ve Got a Gal in Kalamazoo
which we used to listen to
on 78 rpm
in the sunroom
along with Harry James’ Sweet Sue
and, in my mind, cousin Sue
is that gal from Kalamazoo.
(January 11, 2008)
Fishing
There’s a time at the end of the day
when the air grows perfectly still
and lake water smooth as syrup.
When I was a boy, I used to fish at that hour
hurrying through dinner
to row out on the silky water
ruffled only by the wake of my boat
and the rings within rings made by its oars.
Most evenings I’d cast my lure
dozens, scores, maybe hundreds of times,
the calm broken only by the whir of my reel,
the gurgling of the lure,
the occasional splash of a fish
leaping out of the water,
or a dog barking
somewhere on the shore,
but every once in a while
a bass would strike.
(March 28, 2008)
Life and Times
Reading May Swenson’s "Riding the A"
I’m beamed back in memory
to that time in my early twenties
when I daily rode the subway
between 23rd and 116th and Broadway,
reading my texts or The Times,
tranquilized by the rocking of the train
and the click clack of wheels on track,
rolling timelessly
through station numbers mounting
as the years
or counted down in memory,
and now I find those years alive
like images on celluloid.
(July 28, 2008)
Mashed Potatoes
When I was ten
I graduated from my one room school
with less than a dozen students
to a larger one
a couple of miles from home
on a busy avenue
instead of a few hundred yards
down our quiet road,
with hundreds of kids,
most unknown to me,
and bigger,
many by as much as a foot.
But they had a cafeteria there
where they served mashed potatoes every day
for five cents a scoop
(this was 1941)
a creamy volcanic islet on your plate
with thick brown gravy
in its crater.
I’ve never tasted anything better.
(November 27, 2008)
Dwellings
Every place I’ve lived
still dwells in my mind
like ghosts in an attic.
I think Chicago and see
the apartment by the lake,
ice piled on the shore
one cold winter,
or the place near the railroad tracks
where I slept in harder times
on a cot rolled out at night.
The house in White Plains
when it was still country:
the meadow, the orchard, the pond.
New York, Los Angeles, Boston, Beverly Hills
Washington, Quito, Bangkok,
to name just a few,
so many cities
so many dwellings,
more rooms than Versailles,
but it’s the houses that haunt,
not are haunted.
(April 4, 2009)
First Books
My mother and father gave me
a gold-embossed set of children’s books
for my eighth birthday,
Treasure Island,
Gulliver’s Travels,
Greek myths I read over and over,
Norse myths,
a book of poetry,
from which I remember best
Burns’ To a Field Mouse
its Scots dialect engraved in my memory
like a language learned in childhood.
Then there was a book I’d asked my father for,
one I’d seen advertised,
The Book of Marvels,
sci-fi about Mars,
but my father mistakenly got instead
Richard Halliburton’s Complete Book of Marvels,
with its pictures of
the Hanging Gardens of Babylon
the Colossus of Rhodes,
the Great Wall of China
Mount Everest,
the Taj Mahal
and more.
I leafed through that book again and again
until its pages were worn,
its places on Earth
so much more interesting than Mars.
There’s a faded photo of me
from that time
holding, with both hands, a book
propped up on a child-sized, roll-top desk,
soft light streaming through a window.
Books were my friends in those days—
unathletic, a new boy in town, I had few others—
and so they have remained.
(April 13, 2009)
You Can’t Go Home Again
You can go back to the place where you lived
but you can’t go home again
as the man said.
At least not for long
The house that’s been sold
is no longer home,
and it isn’t just the house, it’s the neighborhood,
those friends and neighbors
who’ve moved away,
or died,
houses painted new colors,
extended or modified,
new gardens, trees, shrubs,
maybe a new house or two,
the empty field at the end of the street
now a development.
And maybe even those neighbors who’ve remained
no longer the people you knew.
(May 15, 2009)
Pictures Then and Now
Time was, unknown to most of today’s youth,
before the spread of suburbia and the multiplex,
when we went to the movies in palaces,
not like Versailles or Buckingham, to be sure,
but rather vast dark chambers
where shifting light beams played on mote-filled air,
like sunlight falling through clouds,
where we passed our Saturday afternoons and evenings,
immersed in adolescent murmurings,
entranced by motley patterns on a screen
or necking in a place called the balcony
like courtiers in some ornate nook
surprised there by Watteau.
(June 18, 2009)
Time Machine
Our neighbors have a granddaughter
who’s about two
and I’m reminded when she visits
and I hear her cry
of those many visits with my children
to their grandparents
in Glencoe, Lake Worth, Van Nuys
from the time when the children
were small enough to bawl at least once a day
till they were old enough to do the rides alone
at Disneyland or Disney World,
and almost old enough
to have stopped bickering in the back of the car.
(July 26, 2009)
Oldies but Goldies
We moved not long ago
and today as I unpacked our CDs
(compact disks, not certificates of deposit,
though I’m of an age to have those too)
my eye lit on The Best of The Doors
and faster than I could snap my fingers
a door opened on the time
when I first heard that group.
It was in the late Liberty Music Shop
in midtown
around the corner from Saks and Saint Pat’s
between the secular and the sacred as it were
where you could audition records,
meaning listen to,
33 rpm in those days.
A woman in the booth next to mine
was listening to the The Doors’ new album.
I could hear it through the partition.
Hello, I love you. Won’t you tell me your name.
Baby won’t you light my fire.
People are strange when you’re a stranger
they sang
to a faintly raga-like beat.
I asked her what the album was,
having been out of the country for two years,
bought it forthwith
and hurried home to play it for my wife,
my then wife, that is.
I liked rock from the beginning,
though already a career man by that time,
liked everything Middle America found offensive,
wore my hair long, as long as I could in the State Department,
had sideburns and granny glasses,
was against the war.
The Doors,
then cutting edge
are gray haired now,
if still alive,
and their era is another country for the young
as the Roarin’ 20s were for my generation.
CDs are disappearing too.
But 33s are coming back.
Maybe the Hindus were right
about cycles of history.
(August 11, 2009)
Skipping Stones
I remember skipping stones
as a boy,
looking for those round flat ones
you don’t find everywhere
and throwing them just so
index finger round the stone’s circumference
arm out to the side
tilting the body a bit
so the flat side of the stone hit the water
and bounced
not just once but as many as four or five times,
seeing how many bounces you could get
each smaller than the last
before the stone sank into the water
as a diminuendo
diminishes into silence,
or a memory dwindles
into the distance
of time.
(February 24, 2010)
Bivouac Weather
It was cold this morning
with wind driven rain
and when I went out for the paper
my mind was swept back 56 years
to when I was a young draftee
in basic training.
We bivouacked for a week
in weather like this
sweating under ponchos all day
while the rain drummed its fingers
on our helmets,
sleeping two to a pup tent
in flimsy government issue sleeping bags,
awakened after a few hours by the cold.
Some nights it was cold enough to snow
but it was worse when it rained
for if you brushed the tent in your sleep
rain seeped through where you’d touched it
smearing your sleeping bag with water
dripping on your face and neck.
But this morning
as I padded back to the house with the paper
I felt like I was 23.
(March 30, 2010)
Woods
When in early spring
I pass a woods where the trees are budding
I feel like I’m back in those woods near military school
to which I escaped on weekends
with a fellow cadet, Duncan Tremaine,
wholesome as the sound of his name,
one of my few friends in that place
to which boys were sent
for discipline,
a place of the violent, uncouth and authoritarian—
those who liked to impose their will on others,
or who liked to live under the arbitrary order
of military life,
and those who fought it,
not out of principal
but because they liked to fight
or resisted all authority—
a place of southern chauvinism,
the civil war refought verbally
in the dorms at night
with the few boys from the north.
The woods were dimpled
with shallow hollows—
like cupped hands—
fringed with feathery budding leaves,
a different planet from the campus,
and I feel when I pass such places now
the freedom of those budding woods
and of being 15.
(April 17, 2016)
The Taste of Raspberries
I taste a raspberry and suddenly
I’m in a body much smaller than this
picking berries
from a thorny bush
in a summer field
amidst meadows and woods
under a bright canopy of sky.
(July 15, 2010)
Hidden Treasure
I dropped something in my lap
and it disappeared
into one of those invisible cracks in the universe
so I searched for it
in the subterranean crease in my chair
below the seat cushion
where the seat joins the arm
and there I found a cache of coins,
ranging from pennies to quarters
and experienced a familiar thrill.
But it wasn’t the money.
It was the memory
of finding coins in couches as a child.
(August 29, 2010)
Marrakesh Express
We had Moroccan food tonight—
restaurant leftovers brought home in a doggy bag—
and I thought of the song Marrakesh Express.
As we were doing the dishes
one thing leading to another
I put Dylan’s Country Pie
on the CD player
and my wife and I were dancing
around the kitchen
like it was forty years ago.
Those were the days.
Crosby, Stills & Nash
Dylan
The Lovin’ Spoonful
Blood, Sweat and Tears.
I was in my late thirties
a little old for new pop
but that music was different,
and so was I.
(January 20, 2011)
The Taste of Summer
I remember picking blueberries
with my mother and sister and brother
on a sunny, breezy hill
overlooking our house,
the sky bright blue,
few clouds.
My mother gone over five decades now,
I can still taste those berries,
even this winter day
as I breakfast on blueberries,
brought from another continent,
and I remember my mother,
her auburn hair, her grey eyes, her voice,
on that berry-laden hill.
(February 7, 2011)
The Persistence of Memory
A school friend of mine just died.
He was 83
but it isn’t real to me that he’s gone.
I’d seen him over the decades
only from time to time
and barely remember now
what he looked like then
but my memory of him
as an 18-year-old
is vivid and alive.
(March 26, 2012)
Time and Again
Catching a glimpse through an open window
this mid-June night
of a circle of lamplight on the street
and the soft silhouette of the maple tree
in our front yard
I’m suddenly a GI in Verdun
almost sixty years ago.
It’s May.
Winter finally vanquished by spring,
the streetlight in front of the barracks
shines through full new leaves
fragrant in the fresh night air,
and I’m just twenty-two.
(June 15, 2012)
Ode to Forgetfulness
People are always going on about memory—
all those allusions to Proust and his madeleine—
but forgetting is shamefully neglected
though it probably occupies a larger space in our minds.
Much can usefully be forgetorized,
we could helpfully send each other forgetoranda,
and the world might be a better place
if aspiring authors wrote forgetoirs.
Then too, many of us could most appropriately
be seen off with forgetials
or have them erected in our names.
Someone needs to write a how-to manual
called Don’t Waste Your Time Searching for Lost Time
or, perhaps, Forgetance of Things Past
(March 7, 2013)
Summer Memory
Seeing the lights of a slow-moving aircraft
over the floe-clogged river outside our window
I suddenly remember an autogyro
I saw in a summer sky
when I was a boy
three quarters of a century ago.
Now few know what an autogyro is
and that memory seems like it belongs to another life.
(February 17, 2015)
Michael White
Sixty some years ago
my sister had a boyfriend named Michael White
a well-educated but callow young man
who was writing a novel entitled
The Cadmium Terrace
.
(Don’t ask.)
Today there was an obit in The Times
for Michael White, 80,
characterized by the actress Greta Scacchi
as the most famous person you’ve never heard of.
He was the producer of Oh! Calcutta!,
The Rocky Horror Picture Show,
and Monty Python and the Holy Grail
among other popular entertainments.
In my mind, Michael was still that callow youth
trying to write a novel with a pretentious title.
(March 13, 2016)
So Many Memories
I forget so easily nowadays.
Is that because I’ve so much to remember,
the places I’ve been,
obscure corners of this planet
I’ve inhabited for mere days, or hours,
the regimental rolls of people I’ve known,
many so briefly,
the books I’ve read and news I’ve ingested,
the stories I’ve lived?
Is my memory too full
with living?
(October 17, 1999)
Loss
Her cat got out of