The Swim Team
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Catherine Jarvis
Catherine teaches English to high school students where she shares her love for writing and Shakespeare. She studied English Literature at Wits. Her short stories have been published in the anthology Feast, Famine and Potluck and in the 2015 Jalada anthology. She lives in Johannesburg with her husband and two children.
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The Swim Team - Catherine Jarvis
Chapter 1: The Changeroom
Even at 7:30 am the changeroom is stuffy; the windows are clamped shut and the damp is rising off our bodies. Swimming costumes plop to the floor, girls strut naked, pulling out school uniforms from personal lockers, and friendly chatter is volleyed about. They have perfect swimmers’ bodies: lean, toned legs and arms, broad shoulders, shallow stomachs – like they have been training their whole lives. Probably have. If it wasn’t for the glances at me, none friendly, you would say they were in total harmony with their environment, having seen each other naked countless times before.
I am huddled in the far corner of the changeroom, my wet costume still slicked to my body, and I’m trying not to seem like I’m staring at their exposed bodies. I know I should be getting dressed right now, but I’m paralysed by the newness of it all. Like if I take off my costume, will they all be curious to see how my body compares with theirs? Will I be some kind of spectacle? Because, ja, I don’t belong with these girls. I can tell by the liberal spurts of perfume they’re embalming themselves with and how even their white school socks are Nike. Before I got all this new gear, every sock I owned had a nice round hole in it for my big toe to poke through. But, the biggest difference of all is, I’m not white and my life before now, couldn’t have been more unlike theirs.
Get dressed,
one of the girls hisses at me – maybe she’s trying to be helpful. She says it while wringing out her costume, water splattering the floor, but then she turns away from me as though she never made contact at all.
I peel off my costume with my right hand and hold onto the towel with my left, trying to cover myself up while undressing at the same time. I just look ridiculous and body parts are spilling out on show, anyway. I hear the sniggers.
I just continue, nonchalant. That’s the style I’ve adopted here: you don’t scare me and I don’t care. I once watched this documentary about prisons in America and the interviewer asked a new inmate – convicted to life in prison – whether he was feeling scared. The inmate was all shrugging his shoulders and saying, Nah, man, not afraid of nuthin
, which is a surprising thing to say considering he will probably never leave and prison is full of crazy, violent thugs. Then one of the warders beamed into the camera and said that the prisoner had the right attitude, otherwise he would get eaten alive in there.
So I’m kind of like that new prisoner – I must pretend to be unafraid of the others so they don’t give me a whipping, and maybe that’ll earn me a little respect. Because, really, this place too is full of crazy, violent thugs but here they’re sixteen-year-old girls masked in Chanel and clothed in Puma.
God, just drop the towel already,
a girl with perfect eyebrows says in a raised voice from across the room, her annoyance wafting towards me. Farrah. She’s standing in her laced and padded bra, her damp brown hair loose at her shoulders and her hands, impatient, on her hips.
The other girls quieten, like they’re waiting for something.
When I don’t do anything, Farrah says, What’s the matter? Scared to expose that tummy of yours?
The hate hits me from out of nowhere. I know meanness doesn’t need a reason but, come on, I’ve been lurking in the corner of the changeroom keeping out of everyone’s way, trying to make myself scarce. Then this?
It might be a test and, like a new inmate, I know my reaction is important. Everyone is expectant. The chatter stops; the wringing of costumes and brushing of hair can wait till after this moment.
I just stare back at Farrah: I’m so not scared of you. Holding her gaze, I drop my towel to the ground with a flourish. I am now practically naked besides my panties. But her eyes don’t flicker.
Oh, so it’s because you’re embarrassed to show us your underwear. Makes sense now. Not quite as shiny and new as your uniform, hey?
And then she points at my crotch. Six pairs of eyes follow the arrow.
My hands instinctively want to cover the panty, to protect it from their prying eyes. She has a smirk on her face and a few girls giggle – caught between amusement and shock. I should have changed in the toilet cubicle.
But it’s too late for that now. Instead I turn my back on them, facing my little corner, and fumble through my bag, hoping they will return to their usual tasks so I can continue to put on my clothes. I can feel the heat rising up my cheeks and the blood pounding in my ears. So much for nonchalance.
The door swings open and Miss Wilson, the swimming coach, enters. She is wearing a white t-shirt French-tucked into tiny white shorts and white sneakers with a pink Nike tick slashed on the sides. When I first met her, all I could do was stare at her perfectly sculpted calves. You wouldn’t say that calves are the most attractive thing in the world but hers totally are. A hush falls over the group and the other girls look up at her, entranced, turning their gaze away – thank god – from me.
It’s a very strange thing that I noticed in the pool this morning. The only way I can describe it is infatuation. They’re all a little bit in love with her because she represented South Africa in the 2012 London Olympics. (I admit, I was also a little starstruck when I realised that I’m being coached by an Olympian.)
I seize the distraction to put my clothes on. The bra in my bag is old; it is the only one I have and I’ve had it for a while now. The elastic is all stretched and loose and it’s now a dull-grey colour. I know I definitely can’t let them see it. I slip on my new school shirt and the bra at the same time, trying to cover it almost immediately. I keep shooting covert looks in the others’ direction but I’m no longer interesting to them.
The coach is addressing us all, but she stays standing in the middle of the doorway, letting much-needed air into the stuffy room.
Girls, I hope you are not giving Khethiwe a hard time, hey?
she says, and there is no smile on her face; her eyes are cold. The girls all drop their gaze – like oops, sorry – and mutter their nos. Even the ringleader is doing the same. I just continue putting on my clothes, hoping against everything that she won’t ask me whether I’m being treated nicely, like I’m some little girl who needs help.
Farrah. I want to see you now. Outside.
Farrah’s perfect eyebrows are now raised in puzzlement but Miss Wilson ignores her and instead holds open the door, standing aside to wait for her. Farrah has no choice so she troops off, head held high, trying desperately not to look meek.
Before Miss Wilson swings the door closed, her eyes meet mine. Then I know that she must have heard it all. A sliver of pity drops from her eye, but I want to throw it back at her. Because pity is worse than shame, even if it’s coming from a good place.
The rest of the girls are murmuring to each other, throwing looks my way as though it’s somehow my fault Farrah is in trouble. I hear raised voices outside but I continue to get dressed like everything is normal and I wasn’t just humiliated a moment ago. Put on socks, put on shoes, throw on a ton of aqueous cream so my legs aren’t dry as hell, fix hair in the steamed-up mirror.
The bell sounds for breakfast and the other girls start to leave, ignoring me. I am the last to go – actually, I wait until the last girl leaves by pretending to be busy with my kitbag (if I could fit in it, I would burrow inside and never leave).
The coach and Farrah are still there when I do eventually make my way outside. The coach sees me as the door slams and she says something to Farrah, then puts her hand on her shoulder. The girl turns her head to look at that soothing hand. It’s just a friendly pat –no hard feelings. But she seems grateful that the coach has somewhat forgiven her, like she wants that hand to stay on her shoulder forever. I turn around quickly to avoid Miss Wilson because it is bad enough that she is trying to fight my battles.
Hey, Khethiwe!
Damn. I turn back to look at the coach but don’t move closer to her.
You did great today. You’ll be acing the swim meets soon.
She’s smiling, this brilliant genuine smile, as though she means it. Maybe she does.
I give her a smile back and mutter, Thanks.
Farrah is watching with a perfect snarl, still standing underneath the coach’s shadow.
Let me walk with you,
she says, her snarl mutating into a smile. The coach looks pleased, thinking that she’s worked her magic. Ja, sure.
She waves us off and strides back to her small office attached to the damp changeroom.
With that, we’re alone.
The 25-metre pool stretches out before us, water still rippling and unsettled after we thrashed about in it for an hour and a half. Patches of water blot the sides of the pool where we’ve heaved our soaked selves out of it. I like this pool. It’s much nicer than Yeoville where I used to train. And, really, it is the only place here where I feel I belong; where I’m not an intruder.
That’s the beauty of swimming. When you’re in the water it’s just you. Before St Anne’s, I used to think about how being in the water gave me so much space to move around freely, and it would feel like I’d escaped the cramped flat I lived in with my mother and the Sudanese couple with their screeching infant. I could ignore my life and listen instead to the roaring of the water with every stroke I made, and concentrate on nothing but the rhythmic movement of freestyle.
Now I swim to escape this school – the school I was desperate to get into. I knew that it wasn’t going to be easy, being the poor scholarship girl. Pierre, my neighbour and probably best friend, said in his French-Congolese accent that I shouldn’t worry because a school uniform is like the invisibility cloak in Harry Potter – it will hide my poverty. Too bad it took me so long to put on the invisibility cloak this morning. Not that the other girls didn’t already know I was poor – it’s not like I need it tattooed on my forehead. They can just tell. They can hear it in my accent and see it in my not-so-perfect teeth. There are so many little indicators that tell them I’m not one of them.
The rest of the team have already turned the corner and are on their way to the dining hall. I feel their absence immediately. It’s just me and Farrah now. Farrah starts walking: big leaps, her body upright, no slouching. What kind of person walks like this? But I match her strides, my kit bag thumping against the back of my knees.
Once we pass the swimming pool gates, a stone pathway unfolds before us, covered with big outstretched trees and silence. It really feels like someone could get away with a murder here in this lonely faraway spot.
Breaking the silence, Farrah says, You think Miss Wilson actually means what she just said about acing the swim meets?
Maybe.
Well she’s just saying it because she feels sorry for you, you know? You’re the poor township girl who landed at St Anne’s Academy. I don’t need to tell you that you don’t belong here because you know that already. And you’re not even that good a swimmer.
She pronounces the last insult with emphasis as though that’s her trump card.
At least we are alone. So no one can hear what she is saying to me.
At least we are alone. So no one can hear what I’m about to say to her. It’s not shame I’m feeling right now; it’s venomous anger.
Listen here, mediocre white girl, I am not afraid of you. You think you can tell me I don’t belong here when I beat you by a length this morning?
I spit out at her, and I’m this close to saying, Tsek, you rubbish,
but I hold that one in.
Farrah is looking at her nails, in an effort to appear unconcerned, and then she says, I’m recovering from a shoulder injury. I’m actually embarrassed you think you could beat me for real.
I remember seeing blue plasters on her shoulder when we were swimming earlier. Blind with fury, I bump my shoulder into hers with as much force as I can muster as I move away from her. She yelps and clutches her injured shoulder.
That was a huge mistake,
she says to me. You are messing with the wrong person.
I start marching along the path, leaving her swearing at me, and immediately I’m overcome with remorse for what I’ve done. How could I purposefully try to hurt someone, no matter how cruel they are? I know I shouldn’t have let my anger get the better of me. I send a plea upwards that I haven’t made her injury any worse.
One thing I know for sure though: by hurting Farrah, I have ensured that this feud is not over; we’ve only just dived into the pool.
Chapter 2: Libertas Means Freedom
There are three boarding houses at St Anne’s: Veritas, Libertas and Aequitas. Each house is situated at the bottom of the school grounds and has its own flower garden and a large statue symbolising the name of the house (Truth, Freedom, Justice). I’m in Libertas and our statue is of a slave woman with broken shackles, her arms lifted high in the air. Her eyes are haunting, almost as though the fight for freedom has come at a terrible cost. I walk past the statue every day and I can’t help but pause when I see her.
Libertas, the oldest of the houses, is a quaint three-storey house with rickety, creaking polished floorboards. My dorm room is on the second floor and it overlooks the manicured flower garden.
The dorm lights are about to be switched off. Mrs Janse van Rensburg hasn’t yet made her final appearance of the night. She normally shuffles in here, with her dressing gown on and rollers neatly arranged in her greying hair, and sighs about a hundred times until we’re all in bed and we’ve turned off our phones. Her left eye twitches continuously when she is agitated, which happens when she is trying to settle us down. She wears big round spectacles which make her eyes enormous and magnify the twitching.
Girls are ambling around the room, someone is blasting Ariana Grande on her phone while a couple sing along. A girl called Celine is strapping up Farrah’s shoulder while she shoots me nasty looks. A pang of guilt shoots through my stomach. I probably should apologise for knocking into her but then I think about what she did to me in the changeroom and anger bubbles up inside me: why should I apologise to a bully like her?
So instead, I sit on my bed and take in my surroundings – it all still feels so new even though I’ve been here for two weeks. It’s a rectangular-shaped room and there are six single beds which are lined up against the wall with a small night stand next to each one. My bed is the one beside the window, the furthest from everything, and it sticks out like a sore thumb: it has plain white school-issue sheets and duvet while the rest of the girls have brought their own colourful, 400 thread count Egyptian cotton bedspreads from home. I wonder why the school would allow such a thing when it makes it so obvious that the girl who has the crap white sheets is the poor one with no money even to buy a bedspread. Then again, how many poor people get to come to this school?
The girls’ bedside tables are littered with framed pictures of their families, friends and pets. They have all sorts of ornaments too, souvenirs bought while on holiday overseas – a mini Eiffel tower, a snow globe of New York’s skyline, Russian nesting dolls. My table, in contrast, is bare besides the George RR Martin book I’ve borrowed from the school library.
I have also prestiked to the wall the only printed photo I have of me, Elodie and Pierre – the three of us with our gangly arms around each other, laughing into the camera while their mom took the picture one day after school when we were still in primary. They are my closest friends – my Day Ones. Pierre and I are both sixteen and Elodie is a year older. We live in the same apartment block, just a few doors down from each other. In a block of flats where the tenants are ever-changing, here one day and gone the next, they have stayed in the same place for years and years like me and my mom.
The only other decoration on my sidetable is a small cut-out picture of swimmer Katie Ledecky holding up her four gold medals from the 2016 Olympics.
It is hard getting used to the structured routine of boarding school. Of getting into bed at a certain time, and being expected to shut your eyes and fall asleep when you’re told to. I’ve never had to do that before. What I find most foreign is the silence. Sure, there are a few whispers hopping around the room after lights-out. But usually it’s completely quiet after fifteen minutes. I lie awake for ages. It’s as though I’m trying to swallow up all the silence, to hold it close to me.
Back home, the word silence
does not exist. Outside the flats, there ’s usually some drunk guy, angry at the world, swearing loudly at the unfairness of the universe and a homeless lunatic cackling at nothing. There’s an impatient driver pressing his fist down on a hooter, waiting for his dealer or a girlfriend. Someone’s smashing a quart bottle against the telephone pole for the fun of it. In the folds of the flats, West African pop music is pumping. A couple next door are arguing; a group of friends are laughing raucously at someone’s joke. The Sudanese couple’s baby, Layah, is shrieking her head off while her mom is singing an Arabic lullaby in the room next to mine. My mother, who sleeps in the same room as me, separated by only a thin sheet, is snoring loudly.
I never really knew what I was missing until I came here. People would think I’m strange if I told them that I didn’t know what silence – real silence – was until I arrived here and lay in this hard bed with its starched white sheets and listened in amazement on the first night. It was so quiet I could hear crickets chirping on some far-off sports field.
When I think about this, it makes me realise how badly I want to stay here. I could make a list with thousands of reasons why I hate this place. Right at the top is the look on Farrah’s face right now; then the fact that I don’t fit in here at all and likely never will. But to leave would be worse. Not that I hate Yeoville, but dreams die there.
The St Anne’s Academy for Girls in Johannesburg is a world apart. It is one of the most affluent and respected schools in the country – any girl who comes here is lucky. There is a long waiting list and expectant parents get their unborn daughter onto it as soon as they find out they’re having a girl. There are also those parents who refurbish the school’s tennis courts to leapfrog to the front of the list. The only other way to get into St Anne’s is through their Einstein Scholarship Programme, which aims to award bursaries to girls who display exceptional talent. Yep, that is why I am sitting in this room surrounded by rich girls.
The school has everything. Sports fields that stretch far and wide, one after the other, lawns greener than any Instagram filter could ever fake. Tall imposing stone buildings built in the early 1900s which make you feel like you are a part of history when you walk around the school. There are two rose gardens and a meditation garden with statues and fountains, and you can hardly believe it’s in the same city as Yeoville (and a ten-minute drive away).
Undeniably, it is a beautiful school. It is also my way out of poverty. Well, their sparkling Olympic-sized pool is.
I used to go to the Yeoville swimming pool almost every day during the school holidays, first in the baby pool where kids with snot streaming down their chins would splash about, and later, when I was old enough, I graduated to the big pool. In the big pool there were always tons of people clogging up the shallow end, so me and a few brave souls taught ourselves to swim – and by swim, I mean thrashing our arms and legs and somehow still staying afloat, usually with our chins jutting just above the water and an arm’s length away from the side of the pool.
Then these Americans from Swim for Hope
arrived when I was ten. They were part of a big charity organisation called Giving Hope
and all their projects had the words ‘for hope
’ in their names (Bead for Hope; Read for Hope; Code for Hope – you get the picture). Every Saturday they held swimming lessons at the Yeoville pool. For some lucky reason, my stars aligned with theirs and I stumbled upon the first lesson they were giving. The Hopers
, as they called themselves, had a hard time convincing most kids to join their swim school
, so they were delighted when I arrived and hopped straight into the deep end, ready to be taught.
When I first learnt that you’re supposed to move your arms and legs at the same time, I was surprised at how smooth and rhythmic swimming was. It wasn’t the panicked state I’d always known it to be, where you spend the whole time in the pool trying to keep your head above the water and your mouth closed so you don’t accidentally swallow all the acidic pool water.
And when I first swam underwater with my eyes open, it was like the first time life meant something to me. All I wanted to do was swim in this blurry new world, where outside sounds were muffled and everything was tinted blue. It was the quietness of being underwater that made me imagine what life could be like, alone with my thoughts. Sure, my eyes stung like anything, and afterwards they were bright pink like I’d been smoking something illegal.
Soon the Hopers discovered that I was what they called a natural
. One of them, Miranda, whose skin was a leathery brown from spending her whole life outdoors, poured all her energy into getting me into competitive swimming. She was the one who bought me goggles and a swimming cap from her own money. She was the one who got Swim for Hope
to spend money on a