Forever Fearless

By MUSA

This special book is also for…

my dreamers that stopped dreaming,
my dreamers that won’t stop dreaming,
those people that have been delayed but REFUSE to be denied,
the people that hates their nine-to-five,
the little child that was told he/she was an accident,
the adult that was abandoned as a child,
the person that feels they have no purpose in this world,
the person that feels like the world would be a better place without them, and
my weary warriors that keep on fighting, but aren’t really sure what they are fighting for anymore.

This is for…
the people that just feel lost and a bit hopeless;
the person that believes that there is something more to this life than just working to pay bills for forty-seven years and then just… die,
the person that drinks until they black out, secretly trying to run from their problems; and
the person that needs a second wind of inspiration/motivation.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Oct 10, 2021
• ISBN: 9781664110991

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Rev. date: 10/08/2021

This book is

dedicated to my loving parents that sacrificed everything they had to give me everything I have. It is my heart’s desire to honor them with this work since they fearlessly risked their lives to leave Sierra Leone and come to America. This allowed my siblings and I to have the best life possible.

This special book is also for…

my dreamers that stopped dreaming,

my dreamers that won’t stop dreaming,

those people that have been delayed but REFUSE to be denied,

the people that hates their nine-to-five,

the little child that was told he/she was an accident,

the adult that was abandoned as a child,

the person that feels they have no purpose in this world,

the person that feels like the world would be a better place without them, and

my weary warriors that keep on fighting, but aren’t really sure what they are fighting for anymore.

This is for…

the people that just feel lost and a bit hopeless;

the person that believes that there is something more to this life than just working to pay bills for forty-seven years and then just… die,

the person that drinks until they black out, secretly trying to run from their problems; and

the person that needs a second wind of inspiration/motivation.

This is for…

the person that wants to take it to the next level mentally, physically, financially, and spiritually; and the person that’s been afraid to go all out after their dreams.

This is for…

that person that has conquered the corporate world, but feels like they lost their soul in the process chasing money,

the people that fill their life with possessions but don’t possess peace or feel fulfilled; and

the person that is constantly living in fear, worrying about future things they can’t control.

This book is for…

the person that is just holding on by a thread and feels overwhelmed,

the person that feels like life is just passing them by and they can’t get a grip on things

the person that feels like they are drowning and need a savior, and

the person that’s been doing their best, but just needs a little flicker of hope at the end of the tunnel.

This is for...

the single mothers that are struggling just to keep their head above water;

the father that is doing his best to lead his family, but doesn’t know which way to go; and

the people who daydream about a better life for them and their families, but don’t know how to get there.

This book is for

the person that wants to break generational curses and give their family financial freedom;

the person that thinks there is no way out;

the person that is just going through the motions of life emotionless;

the person that is working as hard as they possibly can, but not seeing any progress; and

the person that secretly wishes they could just go to sleep and not wake up.

This is for the person that has no one to believe in him/her.

It’s for..

the person that has never seen anything or anyone positive in real life do anything great coming from where they are;

the person that feels like they ruined their life too bad beyond repair and can’t ever get it back to normal;

the person that wants to have a fulfilled, purpose-driven life and leave a legendary legacy

the person that wants to awaken the warrior within; and

the person that is not happy where their life is and where it seems to be going.

Trust me, I’ve been there. I see you. I hear you. I wrote this for YOU!

Everything in your life can change at any time…and this will be the beginning of your life changing! It’s sad...Some people live their whole life and never live, but that won’t be you after this book!

I’m fully aware that the secrets I’m about to confess in this book can very well ruin my life forever, but they need to be said. I know most men take these types of secrets I’m about to share to the grave with them, and only few men are even brave enough to confess these types of secrets on their deathbed because they know they won’t have to actually live with the confronting shame and guilt of their actions. I don’t expect, deserve, or look for any sympathy for my past actions. Just know that I was a man operating out of fear.

Contents

A Glimpse of Greatness

The sum of all fears

My Fearless Foundation

Landmines of the Mind

They

Undenyable

Excellent Execution

No One Is Coming to Save You

A Sea Full of Gorillas

If You’re Reading This Right Now

Purpose: I believe

Fear Fighters

Photographs and Memories

Your son is set

Parting Remarks

A Glimpse of Greatness

Intro

T here comes a time in everyone’s lives where we internally question our existence. We question why we are here in the first place and what makes us happy. As I reflected on these questions throughout my life I realized that I actually haven’t been living at all. Growth symbolizes life, and honestly, I have been dead stagnant for a long time. I wasn’t growing because I wasn’t moving, and I wasn’t moving because I was full of fear. Friends, fear paralyzes people!

Some people are mentally paralyzed where they can’t move from their high school way of thinking and understanding life. They still think everything is a party. Some of us are paralyzed from the legs down and can’t move out of our hometown or away from our old group of unhealthy friends. Some people are paralyzed financially because we keep failing the tests presented in front of us to live humbly for a season, because they keep living beyond their means. Since some of us are financially living beyond our means, we stop any movement that we may have in our lives by creating our own businesses since all excess seed money was spent on clothes, drugs, or partying. Some of us are paralyzed spiritually because we can’t move to the next level due to the fact that we keep failing the same spiritual tests over and over. I’ve tried to mask my own fearful spirit as just being cautious, but honestly, deep down inside, I knew I was simply afraid. I have been letting my fears get the best of me, not for a day, but for decades.

Up to a certain point my life seemed like a long sad song. I kept failing in life by default because I wouldn’t even try things due to fear. I wouldn’t show up for my divine opportunities I was being presented in life and kept getting counted absent. I’ve stood by and watched people get the jobs I really wanted, because I was too scared to even fill out an application form for them. I’ve stayed in other jobs that I hated to satisfy my false fantasy of perfect security. I’ve watched men marry the women that I secretly adored because I was too afraid to step up and ask them out. I’ve watched people live the dreams that I’ve privately dreamed of living, but could not because they took the risks I wouldn’t dare to. I’ve emptied my eyes of tears and had a heart full of sorrows. I’ve stayed up countless nights staring at the ceiling, wondering, and wishing while playing the What If game of regret. Over time regret was gradually becoming the undefeated champion of my mind. It used to beat me into submission every time I wanted to advance in life. It would only come around when I get brave enough to try and fly again or dream of a better life. I personified my fears and called them Dante. Every so often Dante would come around like a middle school bully ready to collect my hard-earned lunch money, but instead, he comes around and makes me give up my dreams. I used to hand them over to him, because he was bigger than me, and at that time, fear was stronger than me. He would always remind me of my past failures, and they used to be like kryptonite piercing through the heart of a saddened Superman.

In all my years of living, I have concluded that you can either live out your fears or live out your dreams through faith. Most people are living out their fears because they fear their dreams won’t come true. You can only live out one life at a time. You can live a fear-filled life or you can live a faith-filled life, but you can’t live them both simultaneously. Picture your life as one glass, and that glass will either be filled with fear or faith. A glass half full of faith and half full of fear is a glass fully contaminated. Think of fear like a poison. If you had a glass full of water and put just ONE drop of poison in it the whole glass would be contaminated and undrinkable. Your faith and belief in self need to be unshakable and I’m going to help you get there by the end of this book!

Fear: An unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous or likely to cause pain, harm or death.

Courage/ Bravery: Being able to take action in the presence of fear. The ability to do something that frightens you.

I’ve studied fears for years and come to find that there are hundreds of fears. The list below shows that you can be afraid of everything OR you can choose to be afraid of nothing.

A 1998 survey of more than 8,000 respondents published in the British Journal of Psychiatry found that some of the most common phobias include:

• acrophobia, fear of heights

• aerophobia, fear of flying

• arachnophobia, fear of spiders

• astraphobia, fear of thunder and lightning

• autophobia, fear of being alone

• claustrophobia, fear of confined or crowded spaces

• hemophobia, fear of blood

• hydrophobia, fear of water

• ophidiophobia, fear of snakes

• zoophobia, fear of animals

Examples of some of the more unusual phobias include:

• alektorophobia, fear of chickens

• onomatophobia, fear of names

• pogonophobia, fear of beards

• nephophobia, fear of clouds

• cryophobia, fear of ice or cold

Here is a short list of some other phobias you may not have heard of. As you read through them, I want you to think of people (family, friends, coworkers, neighbors) in your everyday life that may suffer from these fears without even being aware that they are. These phobias serve as restrictors and stop people from enjoying all that life has to offer. How many times have you heard, I can’t go on a cruise because of all that water (hydrophobia), or I can’t go in that beautiful cave on this vacation because there might be spiders in there (Arachnophobia). All you hear is I can’t, I can’t when in fact they actually can, they just choose to believe the worst case scenario. The body won’t go where the mind won’t grow. Your mind grows when you believe the best and contracts when you believe the worst. Be careful what you believe.

The sum of all fears

As funny as some of these phobias/fears may seem they aren’t actually a joke at all. They cause people to live in constant torment and keep people from reaching their full potential. These phobias cause people to miss out on the magical moments of life, and live a life that’s miserable.

Out of all the hundreds of fears there are in the world I think the saddest one is the one most of us secretly suffer from. That is Cherophobia, the fear of being happy. The fact that so many of us can barely enjoy the good moments in our life because we are programmed to focus on when the bad moments will come is heartbreaking. I only realized I suffered from this once I no longer suffered from it. My life had finally gotten to where I was the happiest I had ever been, for the longest period of time I had ever been happy, and I caught myself thinking, I actually feel wrong for being happy this long. I was not realizing that throughout my life anytime something good would happen I was spoiling the moment because I was already wondering when it was going to end. It’s crazy for me to say this because I’m usually an optimistic person outwardly. Internally I was clearly a wreck and didn’t recognize it. I was subconsciously always looking for something bad to follow the good things that happened in my life. It was as if I was internally believing that good things should not be happening to me, as if I was unworthy of obtaining happiness.

I found myself sabotaging good relationships or ending great situations because I expected bad to follow shortly behind. If you would allow me, I want to teach you how I became the happiest person I know and how I retain that