Love’s Unrelenting Course: One Woman’s Secret Life of Bondage to Sexual Trafficking and Abuse and How She Found a Way Through to Freedom Sexual Trafficking and Abuse and How She Found a Way Through to Freedom
By Tom Steward
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Tom Steward
Tom Steward is a Licensed Psychotherapist in Northern New Mexico who seeks to facilitate the healing of himself and others by using tools and practices from ages past and also the latest developments in energy healing. This book is his latest effort to provide practical tools so the reader is set on a course of discovery, recovery, and transformation.
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Love’s Unrelenting Course - Tom Steward
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This book is dedicated to all women who live closeted lives because their abusers forbid them to speak the truth. For all of you women, even though you hide in secret, feeling afraid, ashamed, and that no one cares, you are seen. You are known. You are valued. You are so very loved beyond what you know. May you be given strength to come out of hiding at the right time so that you can live a life of freedom and fullness.
This book is also dedicated to all parents who have lost a child. Your precious son or daughter, as a child or an adult, has been taken from you, perhaps in the most painful way. Your heart aches with a stabbing pain and an emptiness that you may believe you could never recover from. May you be comforted knowing that there are others who share your pain and that your cherished child is now in a state of grace, love, and beauty. May you have glimpses of your beloved one on the other side of the veil and see them as their true eternal self in a way that provides significant comfort.
And finally, this book is dedicated to all children who have been forced to endure abuse from anyone in their lives. Your body and heart have been ravaged and treated without care because of someone else’s cruelty. May you know release, freedom, and comfort some time very soon. May someone extend themselves into your life in order to demonstrate to you that you are prized and important, and may you find a way beyond the dreadful circumstances of your young years to become a strong and mature adult when that time comes.
This book is based on true and actual events. It is the story of the life of one particular woman. She has been a counseling client of mine, and she has granted me full permission to reveal the story of her life.
Names have been either withheld or changed to protect the identity of those involved.
This book is not meant to malign any individual or to suggest any criminal involvement. I hope that the story would speak for itself, and any indication of unlawful behavior would be processed by law enforcement through a criminal investigation as deemed necessary.
Law enforcement had been consulted on countless occasions regarding what is written here, and extensive reports had been filed in two separate counties in the state in which these actions occurred.
Incidentally, those who had committed the malicious acts that I have recorded in this book are now deceased. This is true in every case except one.
It is my hope that justice will be served and that perpetrators of any and all forms of exploitation everywhere will be held accountable for their actions. I also hope that all who have experienced harm and abuse would know freedom and release.
At our core, all humans are loving, full of love in their heart of hearts. To return to love the self and others so that this power from the Divine or the Source is evident in our lives is a worthy goal indeed.
May this writing achieve these purposes.
Contents
Foreword
1 Eternity’s Light Cast on Winter’s Soft Shadows
2 Being Who You Already Are
3 Thrown Headlong, Get Up Running
4 A Human for Sale
5 A Son Registered Only in Heaven
6 Freedom
7 Unholy Matrimony
8 Ambrosia’s Subtle Soothing
9 Sexual Trafficking of Children in America
10 Healing the Brokenhearted
11 Much Love to You
Afterword
Foreword
Secrets
This writing is one that contains many secrets. These secrets have been held quietly in the safe trust of private lives, particularly of one. These secrets have been progressively released over a long season of trusting and telling. This writing is a further unveiling of dark secrets that at times seemed too astounding to be true. What is written here is nothing but the truth, so help me God.
This is the story of a particular woman whom I have known for several years now. What is written here is meant for the general public, to let anyone and everyone know what is really occurring behind a well-crafted presentation. If you would be given hope in the midst of any struggle you are going through, this revealing will be worth the effort.
What is interesting is that many of this woman’s family and circle of friends and the wider community where she lives have no idea about the details written here. This will be new information for many, and it may very well be quite shocking. There may even be a sense of betrayal experienced. Some might ask, How could she keep this from those closest to her?
That her life had been a carefully crafted secret is a key part of the story. It may become clear as you read why she felt the need to not speak the truth of what her life had become. Fear is a predominant core state for humans, as well as shame. These inner states represent the sidewalls, decor, and furnishings of the interior house of the soul for each one of us to one degree or another. There are those who live by shame and fear more intensely than others.
Deception and Demolitions
Sir Walter Scott had written, What a tangled web we weave when first we practice to deceive!
(1). As the weaving of the web begins, even by kind and normally honest individuals, its necessity builds, and the lie extends its insidious circumference. Lies build on lies because it is determined that the secrets are too unbearable to be exposed. Who would believe it? Shame and fear are the energies driving this force, and it takes a greater power to shatter this construction.
Rumi, the gifted Persian poet, offered long ago that in this life many demolitions are actually renovations
(2). I know about this woman’s demolitions. She let me in to observe the horror and agony of it all. I have also been a witness to the renovations as her life—piece by piece, thread by thread—was sewn back together into a garment of wholeness.
Kintsugi and Wabi-Sabi
Kintsugi is the centuries-old art of repairing broken pottery with gold. Kintsugi means golden joinery
or golden repair.
Pottery that had been cracked or shattered can be remedied with a special lacquer dusted with powdered gold, silver, or platinum. Such exquisitely beautiful applications of gold are delicately brushed into the cracks of the ceramic ware, presenting a unique appearance to the reconstructed masterpiece.
In offering this means of restoration, each artifact’s unique history is celebrated by emphasizing its fractures and breaks instead of hiding or disguising them
(3). This practice coincides with the Japanese philosophy of wabi-sabi, which allows beauty to be seen in that which had been deemed flawed or imperfect. In this way, a piece of art becomes even more beautiful than it was prior to its breaking.
The practice of kintsugi is reflected in this woman’s life. She was broken, and her fractured essence had been repaired by a golden adhesive as fragments of her shattered life were reformed to represent exquisite beauty. This, to me, is quite incredible, and it is why her story must be told.
1. Sir Walter Scott, Marmion: A Tale of Flodden Field, A Poem in Six Cantos
2. The Essential Rumi
3. https://mymodernmet.com/kintsugi-kintsukuroi
1
Eternity’s Light Cast on
Winter’s Soft Shadows
Small Beginnings
When she first came to see me, it was in the long dark season of December’s snowy winter. I guided her to my office, and she sat down on the couch. She was tentative and demure, and I detected a fear that seemed to cascade through her that was subtly palpable. Something like terror bled from her eyes as she sent out a nonverbal plea: Help me!
Yet there was also a discernable hesitance as if she wasn’t sure she could trust me. The development of trust would take its time as the weeks and months stretched into years.
Outside my office window, I noticed the snow begin to gently fall, and I directed her attention to this sight. We observed the snow’s shimmering translucence that was flanked by the sky’s black canvass. There was something special about this beginning that we could not fully perceive or appreciate at the time. I would come to find out later how important snowfall was to her. It has marked significant events in her life in which timely divine intervention was represented when it was needed the most.
I engaged her in conversation in this beginning encounter, yet her words were few. It was obvious that she was in pain—physically, emotionally, and otherwise—yet it was not initially clear why. I would come to find over the protracted course ahead that she had ample reason to harbor the flickering psychic states of fear and pain.
She had a story, one of the most