Hello, I Think It's Me

By Johnny Vandal

This is my first collection of short written pieces compiled together to emphasize the honest journey of a struggling soul. The pieces and background to them deal with a time of my life where things started falling apart and where I started questioning everything. Its deeply personal and deals with my experiences related to my mental health, society, friends, lost loved ones, parents, my partner, my daughter, my passions, my flaws and builds up to my complete breakdown and sign off to the world. At the time of writing the final pieces in this book I was completely oblivious that I was sub consciously writing my almost final words of my life.
Music has always been my main form of expression and so each of the written pieces has music lyrics linked to them of songs that I think best fits each piece. I truly believe that this work can be of help and inspiration for people who have become stuck in the false freedom of life that has been sold to us...and see that there is hope.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris NZ
• Release date: Jun 24, 2021
• ISBN: 9781543497366

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Hello,

I think

it’s me

Johnny Vandal

Copyright © 2021 by Johnny Vandal.

All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from the copyright owner.

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Rev. date: 06/14/2021

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One day you’ll walk the world and keep in mind

The heart you’ve been given in winter time

And through the bitter cold, with opened eyes

You’ll find the strength to fight and stand upright

Gojira – Born in Winter

CONTENTS

Me Inside

My Own Voice

Rush of Your Life

Wakeup Wonderful

Hello, I Think It’s Me

Music, Please Love Me Back

My Cure

The Rusted Saint

Never Again

My Sign To You

From Man to Father

Second Coming

You Can Stand Proud

Talk To Me

Liefde Wen

’Twas the Season

My Friend, Myself

The Crossroads

My Open Apology

Grand Lost Love

Me and this World

Truth Me

Hello My Old Friend

The Fall of Man, The Fall of Me

Lonely Fisherman

I Am Done with You

I guess it all started late in my life, but it had to happen at some point. I was in my late twenties when the idea of my life changed. I had so much angst, shapely heavy figures sitting and jumping on me at night while I was trying to sleep, and so much hate and guilt within me for being me. At the same time, I had no fucking idea how people could just live and accept the idea of their lives.