Be All You Can Be: Pam’s Life Story

By Pamela Roberts

The Goal of my book or Journal has been finding Heaven on Earth within our own families learning better communication habits that builds better relationships. Gods Love is what I think can save this old world of ours one family one church one town at a time. Gods Love to You. -Pam

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Oct 7, 2020
• ISBN: 9781664129986

Pamela Roberts

I am Pamela Roberts age 75. I live in an assisted Living Residence or facility . I Have lived in a family home with friends also I have lived in two Nursing Homes and two Assisted Living Homes for the last ten years. The “Powers that Be” thought that I had Parkinsons or Parkinsonism Disease going into stage four five years ago. However that was proved wrong by the DAT test by my Doctor Dr. Tarakad from the Nuerology Department at Baylor College of Medicine in Houston Texas.

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Humanistic Psychology

and Baptist/

Methodist Religion

Pam’s life Story

Contents

Author Bio

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Epilogue

Special Thanks

Author Bio

Pamela Roberts

Is a Resident of a Nursing home and Assisted Living facility in Texas For my grandchildren my great grandchildren and my son and my sister, Relatives and friends who believe in me

Pamela (Perrin) Roberts

• Bachelors of Science– University of Texas 1980.

• Master’s Degree in Education –Special Education at University of Texas 1982.

• Special Education Specialist – Grade Point Average 3.7 at University of Texas, at Austin, 1982

• Master’s in Education –Humanistic Psychology at Hardin Simmons University, Abilene Texas – Counseling and Human Growth and Development 2002.

• Humanistic Psychology counselor- school counselor

• Department of Humanistic Psychology–Dr. Robert Barnes, - 2000–20002.

Chapter One

a loose outline

I. My thoughts on Bi-polar disorder:

• Psychiatry

• Symptoms

Victor Frankl – Meaning to Life. Man’s Search for Meaning.

II. Psychology:

• Humanistic Psychology

• "Be All

• You Can Be" by Carl Rogers.

• Client Centered.

• Reach your Full Potential

• Take

• One step at a Time.

• Humanistic Psychology plus Methodist

• Thoughts, feelings, and experiences in life by Pam.

III. – Mail to President Obama.

Ideologies: psychology, religion, education notes, qualification

Two Master Degrees.

Change one step at a time.

Reality is Love, Trust, Listen,

Be yourself, and talk things out.

1. Result- a changed you, BE ALL YOU CAN BE.

2. Education

3. Being all you can be.

4. being different. God made us all unique. Family and friends. Work toward your full potential God gave you by taking one step at time

5. Cognitive Therapy. Contracts – goals and objectives. Thinking is talked about and written.

6. Behavior Modification – Positive reinforcement for Actions, Experiences.

Chapter One

I have been writing a book, half of the time in the bathroom as to not wake my roommate up. Yes, I live at a nursing Home in Livingston, Texas. God affects my whole being. I started writing my self-help book since 1982. It is called Humanistic Psychology and Baptist/Methodist Religion. Changes- A Journal for my Grand Children, My Great Grandchildren and My Son. I am Bi- Polar. That means my family members may need my book to help them in Life’s Struggles. It is my Legacy to them. They have the Gene for being Bi-Polar from me. I think it is environmental too, if there is a lot of stress. I wrote this book for anyone who needs direction in his or her lives. It is Subjective, It is about me and how Humanistic Psychology helped me to be a fully functioning person (Carl Rogers) a mature (Pam Roberts) person who can think and have feelings that can be discussed verbally or in writing, singing, and dancing for some. I learned at an early age, 4 or 5 years old not to confront problems. I got spanked harder and longer than usual and put to bed. It was because I took one of the pieces of my dollhouse away from a girl a little younger than me. She was the daughter of some friends of my mom and Dad. I was spanked with a belt until I was 17, whether or not I was in my period. I was spanked with a belt to break my spirit. My dad told me so. My family member was 5’11 tall and weighed a lot. His size, his tone of voice, his sometimes cussing, and drinking at times scared and intimidated me to no end. To this day I have trouble standing up for myself. I never learned how to express my feelings, like, standing up for myself. I never learned how to express my feelings! I am doing better about it as I grow older. I saw a man on the television that stood up for him and others in a quiet way. He was from India. His name was Gandhi. When I read I feel empathy for the person I am reading about. Being different from my family’s’ beliefs in what a woman can do in her life was a problem. Religiously I was different as well as different from the local Mental Health and Mental Retardation treatment facilities. I am Humanistic Psychology all the way since 1973. Since I have been back in East Texas, I have been hospitalized 8 times, I know from a friend my file travels with me. I have written a book by myself, with Parkinson’s disorder. When I took the chemical test, the DAT test 2018 from my Neurologists and Dr. Tarakad at Baylor College of Medicine in Houston, I proved beyond a shadow of a doubt that I did not have Parkinson’s disease 9 years after I had been diagnosed and taken medicine for it all those years. I was told I would pass away in 10 years. Well I haven’t passed away, I am still kicking. Having Arthritis, Diabetes II and being Bi-Polar and having Kidney Disease stage 3 has not immobilized my brain so I cannot think. I take all my medication daily. I would like for my file to show that if my medications need to be changed it needs to be done at home or in the nursing home/ assisted living Residence. In the future instead of being hospitalized in a hospital with patients who really have hurt themselves or others. The doctors or directors or CEO’s or persons from management need to examine the place I am being sent to. I was abused once in a mental hospital 2010 and once in a nursing home approximately 2014. I have never hurt myself or others. Persons in charge of me tend to make wonderful stories to tell everyone and believe me I will use those stories to my advantage. I am writing a second book and it will include those stories to show how ridiculous they are.

I listened to a tape from Talking Books for handicapped individuals. I walked around my nursing home at the time. One night at the home I looked down and I noticed I did not have shoes on like Gandhi. I hope it never happens again. I know the rules, but it was so funny. By using Humanistic Psychology since 1973, I try to stand up for myself in a quiet way. My ex-husband was a B-52 and a C130 pilot for the 10 and a half years. I was married to him. I am pretty close to being a pacifist especially during the Vietnam War when my ex-husband flew over Vietnam and dropped bombs on millions of people with the B -52 bomber planes. I abhor violence of any kind, even arguing. I cannot understand why so many people do not accept who I am. I have a Master’s Degree in Special Education from the University of Texas 1982. I am a certified Humanistic Counselor in Human Growth and Development who also has a Master’s Degree from Hardin Simmons Baptist University Abilene Texas 2002 with Dr. Robert Barnes PhD, my Major Professor. I later became a Special Education Specialist, in California. In 1982, I may have been in a study by Carl Roger’s assistants. I had a 3.7 Grade Point Average. In 1984 I was published in a book Notable Women of Texas. It contained my life history by the League of Women Voters. I was also on a committee in Austin Texas that planned for easy access without a curb on street intersections. Twenty years later I received a 2nd Master’s Degree from Hardin Simmons Baptist University in Abilene Texas, as a Humanistic Psychology Counselor in 2002. I have raised my son by myself since he was 7 years old. I raised his daughter for 14 years since she was four and I had custody. She had been hurt repeatedly. My fiancé’ who I dated for 7 years as friends were going to get married January 1999. He passed a away with a heart attack and died in my living room of the house I was buying December 25, 1998, Christmas eve. In April 1999 I had a knee replacement before we left Livingston. My oldest grand daughter and I moved to Houston to find employment for me. I had to walk 6 classes of students to go to other classes all day long and I could not do it. I was fired. We stayed with very good friends from when Shelbi, my granddaughter, played soccer with the YMCA in Houston. Two months later I got accepted at Hardin Simmons and received Financial Aide. I graduated 2002. Without Financial Aide I could not have gotten my second Master’s Degree in Counseling and Human Growth and Development. We moved to San Jose California to work where I received pay for two Master’s Degrees. It paid $50.000 a year for 2 years. I had arthritis and could not run after students. In 2008 we came back to family in Livingston Texas 2008. The doctor said, I had Multiple Systems Atrophy a rare Neurological Disease. I was supposed to pass away in 3-4 months. We gave everything away in California, nobody wanted to buy old furniture. Friends gave us frequent flyer miles so we could get tickets back to Houston and back to Livingston. I was not contagious. I had Lithium poisoning 3 times. From 2002 to 2013. After 30 years the doctors took me off Lithium for good. I argued over some verbal abuse from a certified nurse’s assistant to my roommate. I heard it and the administrator said I did not hear the verbal abuse. I was sent to a mental hospital for 3-weeks. in Lufkin Texas in 2013, (April 30 to May 25). You should read the notes about me. The hospital thought I was psychotic. Every time I went to the living room the staff moved everyone outside. I started saying my name before I said anything. When I came back to Livingston I cried for 3 days because I was scared and intimidated by the administrator. L took over May 2013. She and Dr. L gave me the gift of time to write my book. They were wonderful. I am pleased to present to you a series of things that have changed my life. I have a rainbow notebook of synopsis of most tapes I have heard on Talking Books for the Handicapped. T. Publishing company said the worker there working on my account took the rainbow notebook with him or it was lost. That is such a shame. I would love to have it back. I no longer have Parkinson Disorder, because I took the DAT chemical test and it proved I no longer have Parkinson’s. Thank you God. I do have osteoarthritis, Diabetes Type II, Bi-Polar Disorder and Kidney Disease Stage 3. Life goes on. December 3, 2014 I have finished writing my book and a poem I would like to present in the Capital building in Austin Texas. The poem of My Thoughts might be considered for an amendment to The Constitution of the United States. This comes from talking to the Ombudsman of Washington D.C. I also contacted my Texas Representative see if he could read it in the Capital Building in Washington D.C. I would love for it to be voted on for an amendment but I know that is but a dream. Please see me in Humanistic Psychology eyes. I have gotten better and better. Not sicker or worse. I have raised myself up by my bootstraps. I am now ready to be a fully functioning adult or a mature person who can stand with friends and say: I am ready for whatever is fair and just. I would like to go to Dallas to be able to see my granddaughter I raised for 14 years and her daughter. (She moved back to Livingston and three years later I moved back to Livingston, The date is 5-19.) I would like to be on the list for low- income housing again.

We need to talk about that. Thanks, for loving me.

History of Pamela Roberts Family

J, my mom taught Kindergarten for 35 years. Oscar and Lorena Tranberg, my maternal grandparents, he knew what alcohol was. My grandmother sang in the choir at Parker Methodist Church in Houston for 50 years. She received a certificate for all that singing. It puts a smile on my face. Asa and Fannie May Sparrowk, maternal great grandparents. He was dragged to his death from his clothes being caught on the doors of a streetcar