The Cycles of Nicholas: A Memoir of Raising a Child with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome Disorder
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The author,’’Inspired’’ has spent decades educating and advocating for children and adults with special needs in public and private schools in multiple states. Now semi-retired she supervises future special education teachers.’’ Inspired’’ adopted a five year old child diagnosed with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome from a country notorious for alcohol abuse. Spending decades advocating for her son she now speaks at various’’al- anon and nar- anon’’venues delivering the message of hope to those afflicted with drug/alcohol abuse.
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The Cycles of Nicholas - Inspired
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ISBN: 978-1-9822-3145-3 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-9822-3144-6 (hc)
ISBN: 978-1-9822-3151-4 (e)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2019909825
Balboa Press rev. date: 07/18/2019
CONTENTS
Foreword
Preface
Chapter 1 Go with God
Chapter 2 Off to Russia
Chapter 3 Home with a Son - The Elementary Years
Chapter 4 Junior High and High School
Chapter 5 Beyond High School
Chapter 6 The Big ’’H’’
Chapter 7 Escape to Florida
Chapter 8 Return from Florida
Chapter 9 Florida and the Future
Afterword
Appendix i
Appendix ii
Appendix iii
Chronology
Bibliography
This book is dedicated to all those
that have lost their loved ones to the horrors of addiction.
FOREWORD
I am privileged to consider the writer of this work one of my closest friends. Our relationship began twenty-eight years ago when we first met at the preschool attended by our young children. Our friendship as women blossomed as well as our friendship as married couples. I witnessed first hand the writer’s struggles with infertility, a difficult marriage, and an amazingly hopeful adoption. Additionally, I witnessed fifteen years of fear, heartbreak, conflict, confusion, despair, and doubt. Finally, I witnessed faith, hope, enduring love, patience and commitment. As a friend and confident, I know, in my desire to help, I tried to impart my own advice and wisdom as the struggles with Nicholas moved from one desperate stage to the next. The truth is, I knew nothing. Yes, I experienced parenting ups and downs with my own children. But mine paled in comparison to what my friend was enduring. I could sympathize, but I couldn’t empathize. I never actually walked in her shoes.
I am not unscarred by the illness of addiction as it has impacted my life in a very personal way. How many years did it take for me to trust the addict that I loved? Is it ever really possible, on the deepest level, to trust an addict again? What makes Nicholas’ story so complicated is that his addiction was the manifestation of the biological damage done to him by his mother who drank alcohol while pregnant, then abandoned him to a state institution. Was there one doctor in all the years of treatment who clearly knew how to help this boy? No. Was there one medication that was found to be the perfect magic pill to help this boy? No. The one constant in all these years was my friend’s unwavering commitment to help her son. I know there were moments of despair so dark that thoughts of giving him away or sending him back to Russia floated through her mind. But she persevered. I do not lie when I say that many of us believed we would be attending the funeral of this young addict - as we had attended others. There were days, weeks and months when I was afraid to ask How is Nick doing?
because I believed the answer would make me flinch. However, the last time I asked that question, my heart was filled with hope. Could he be finally be winning the war or is it just another battle? Though I know addicts never completely conquer the monster that is drugs I pray he becomes stronger, more resilient and more confident so that when faced with the Monster again, he can walk away.
The significance of my friend’s writing lies in the hope it may give to others who are walking, or have walked in her shoes. No one can predict Nick’s future but we can pray that each new day finds him happy, healthy, stronger, and drug free.
J.M.
PREFACE
I procrastinated with the writing of this book; forever it seems. I have wrestled with sorting out my protestations, realizing that the writing of this book was as painful as it was to live through it. As I wrote each word I relived each moment. Fortunately, I had a nagging voice screaming in my head Write the book!
If one woman doesn’t drink during her pregnancy a life has been saved. If social services and social security would recognizes the impact of Fetal Alcohol Syndrome on families, schools, the courts, the incarcerated, medical insurance companies and society perhaps the services will become more readily available. If one person realizes the impact that addiction has on our global society than my message was heard. We all pay for the sins of our brothers and sisters! There is an urgent shortage of FASD communities in the United States.
This is a memoir of my years raising my son who was diagnosed with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome Disorder. I have changed the names to protect the privacy of everyone involved in this story. I ensure that every aspect of my story is true and that any misrepresentations were unintentional. The events and details are original. Yes, I really did live to talk about it. I purposely left out details about my other child and my ex husband. This is my journey in raising Nicholas, the beautiful 5 year old boy that I traveled the globe to adopt. Nicholas has a loving heart and is a good soul. He is sensitive, funny and thoughtful. He is a victim of alcohol abuse. His lifelong challenges are the manifestations bestowed upon him due to abuse of alcohol. Nicholas has much pain and shame in his life. I am sure that