My God, My God: Why Have I Forsaken You?: My Story, Living with Schizophrenia

By D. Charleston

D. Charleston grew up like any other kid: No one would have predicted he would grow up developing schizophrenia.

By the time he finished junior high school, he was excelling physically and academically. He took sixth place in the semi-state high jump championship, and was neck to neck with a student who became a professor at M.I.T.

In college, his grades went from As to Cs, as he lost all desire to study. He goofed off, wasted tuition money, and only made it through one year.

Before long, he’d decided his family was evil, his city was evil, and America was corrupted with wickedness. He fled to Mexico thinking he would find peace in a new place.

Later, returning to America, he found himself homeless and was arrested at a Burger King for trespassing while searching for food in a trash can. Making matters worse, a fishing knife he was carrying was deemed to be a concealed weapon.

Going to jail, however may have saved his life. This book gives insight into his mind, what psychosis is, and what the mind believes is reality, during psychosis.

• Language: English
• Publisher: LifeRich Publishing
• Release date: Jul 14, 2020
• ISBN: 9781489729880

D. Charleston

D. Charleston was diagnosed with schizophrenia in the mid 1990s. He enjoys writing short stories, speaking Spanish, and composing songs on the keyboard. This is his first published book.

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My God My God

Why Have i Forsaken You?

My Story, Living with Schizophrenia

D. Charleston

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ISBN: 978-1-4897-2979-8 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-4897-2980-4 (hc)

ISBN: 978-1-4897-2988-0 (e)

Library of Congress Control Number: 2020912564

LifeRich Publishing rev. date: 07/08/2020

Contents

Prelude

The Tree

MY STORY

My Childhood

Schizophrenia Blooms

Events of Psychosis

BONUS MATERIAL

Thoughts to Ponder

SHORT STORIES

25 Years

One Time

Transfer Student

The Wivil War

The Prince’s Friend

Thank You

About the Author

Dedicated to Mom & Dad, my family, and friends.

Plus anyone who lives with a mental illness.

You are loved.

Prelude

What if a kiss to the forehead felt like a blade, and a kind word felt like a dagger? What if everywhere you turned you encountered people filled with demonic spirits whose only desire was to torment and enslave you? What if the only way to leave Earth and go home was by overcoming all of these enemies as you fight an internal battle of good against evil? What if eternal destiny rested in your hands, and one little slip up meant hitting the reset button, starting this demonic game all over again?

What if heaven was waiting for you to overcome evil as they watch you from above as you are reincarnated again and again because of the satanic traps you were unable to conquer?

What if you lived with schizophrenia?

The Tree

What I’ve gone through, with schizophrenia, is nothing compared to a man I know. A friend of mine from the Middle East was ordered by a ruler to be given lashes. The soldiers chose to use cat tails, whips with multiple strands having pieces of glass and sharp stones tied to the ends. As he was whipped he was also cut. The soldiers got carried away and somehow started enjoying hurting my friend. They went well beyond the number of lashes they were ordered to give him. In fact, so far beyond, he should have bled to death.

Next, he was taken back to the ruler to be judged. It was determined for him to be sentenced to death by way of hanging on a tree beside two other criminals. He was ordered to carry this tree up to the place of hanging. He could not make it, he collapsed. A man named Simon had to help him the rest of the way.

At the top of the hill they laid him on the tree as he wore thorns on his head, like a hat. They tied him to the tree, his wrists and