Inside-Outside: The Ultimate Love Story

By Ronald Frye

While serving 22 straight years in prison, an Angel came to me, in the form of a prison
guard. This guard showed me something I never had a chance to experience. At age 12 I was introduced
to the deadly streets of Chicago. For the next 25 years my heart would grow very dark. And then I met
Miss ‘G, a correctional officer at a Colorado State Prison. Our inmate/prison-guard relationship blossomed
into a true friendship, and it was not long before we realized we were soul-mates. From this relationship I
began a course of “Love 101”, that continues to this day!!

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: May 4, 2020
• ISBN: 9781984577627

Ronald Frye

Long ago darkness was a way of life for this young man while he was on the streets of Chicago. During the course of many years in prison he unknowingly began a relationship with God. While incarcerated and engaged in another writing project, God came and told him he had another writing project for him. He quickly started on this project and was directed by God through the entire journey. He currently resides in Colorado working full-time and writing part-time, and strengthening his relationship with God. Along with his relationship with God came an understanding he never thought twice about. “If the smallest amount of light is placed on any type of situation that may occur in this life time, it will brighten up the darkest of situations”.

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Contents

Chapter One Solicitation of staff, or solicitation of love?

Chapter Two The youngster

In a youngsters eyes….

Chapter Three Headed for the Hills

A change of scenery

Chapter Four Love lost….?

The Bully’s enemy

Chapter Five Hunting for Tiger

Chapter Six Back to the Hills

Chapter Seven Slow it down

Chapter Eight Mom’s intuition

Gangsters pray too!

Chapter Nine Let’s do it

Stories

Chapter Ten The shake-up

Faith

Chapter Eleven The hills forreals!!!

Chapter Twelve The Ultimate Love

Chapter Thirteen Lost and Lonely

Purpose has a place

Chapter Fourteen Super-Max

Chapter Fifteen Learning to Love

Laws of attraction

Chapter Sixteen The Process

Intentions

Chapter Seventeen The Set-up

Beyond the surface

Chapter Eighteen Brothers of the struggle

The Struggle

Chapter Nineteen Game-Changer

The Poetry of a Human Being

Chapter Twenty Always and Forever

Thank God I’ve got it

Will You

Chapter Twenty-One Good in the Hood

Chapter Twenty-Two Quality Time

Chapter Twenty-Three Big Mama, Little Mama

Chapter Twenty-Four Real Love

Chapter Twenty-Five Hidden Love

Chapter Twenty-Six Then, and now

Chapter Twenty-Seven Motivator

Chapter Twenty-Eight Social Distance

The reason I’m writing this piece is so my readers can see my entire journey, from the very start, literally!!! I will share parts of my life that I am by no means proud of, but will show you the very dark roads I have traveled. Now that there is some light shining in my life, it has become the ultimate love story!!!

Chapter One

Solicitation of staff, or solicitation of love?

I know that’s a weird name for the starting chapter of a book. But it’s the perfect fit. See, that is the actual name of the violation an inmate commits in prison, when he pursues a staff member in the fashion I did. And this violation is one that takes place often, in prisons all across our Country.

It’s late summer 2007". A newly employed prison-guard begins to work in the cell-house I was assigned to at the Colorado Territorial Correctional Facility. And the sparks began to fly, immediately. Now usually when these situations occur in the prison environment, the two individuals need a little time to grow on each other, so to speak. Not the case in the story you’re about to read!!

Miss "G tried to fight me off for a hot second, but quickly she understood, what I understood the first time I saw her….. Something out of this world was going on with us!! And not long after our first encounter, we knew we would always be in each others lives. It was truly a no-brainer.

We would get in trouble with higher ranking prison guards, because we were spending so much time together. So there was no way we wouldn’t continue to spend time together once I was released from jail. And in June 2012" that’s exactly what we did.

Back at the prison, things were getting pretty wild. We would sit in the cell-house office, and talk for hours. Just me and her, and from time to time a cup of yogurt, which I always had to eat with a fork! Of course I did no complaining, because at the time I hadn’t tasted yogurt in over 17 years, and I love it!!!

Although we knew something special was going on, it would take years before we knew exactly what it was. And once we did we’d grow to truly appreciate it. And we had our fair share of bumps and bruises. Actually, we had a pretty turbulent ride for quite a while!

When she got fired from the prison, and I wasn’t able to see her everyday. It was then that I experienced, for the first time in my life, the pain that can be love. I never been so hurt in my entire life. I was shocked that my feelings were in such a way! But the understanding of how special she was quickly became a reality.

And it was also this time in my life that I began to feel a softening in my heart. I mean, I was a very bad person, for a very long time. A feeling like this over a woman was NOT one of the things bad guys did! Hey, I’m just saying!!!

I would not feel this way for long. Within two weeks of her release, I received a letter from her, with contact information! And we began to communicate hot and heavy, big-time! So much that I got pulled over by the warden, and the intel-officer. I simply told them; she no longer works here, I’ve done nothing wrong. They tried to question me for 40 minutes or so, then sent me on my way, which was the right thing to do.

They had all the right in the world to be upset. It quickly became obvious to them, we were a lot closer than they thought, when she was working at the prison. It just didn’t come to light until after she no longer worked there. And that seriously left a bad taste in their mouths.

We would stay in touch for over four years, until I got released in 2012. We wouldn’t see much of each other once I was released, because she was in a relationship, and hey…I was married!! Actually I was married when I met Miss G. So as you are starting to see, as close as we quickly became, we still were on a very bumpy, weird ride, that was lots of fun!! Simply put, might I add!

One of the reasons I feel my bond is so strong with Miss "G, is my wife! When I first met her, I was very honest about my wife. Not one lie, just all the facts, about my marriage at that particular time. At first she seemed ok with the fact I was married. But she quickly had a change of heart in the matter, and understandably so.

I have had my moments with female guards, over my 20+ years in jail, but nothing could compare to The ultimate love story, that you are reading!!! I mean this woman tore me down, and she wasn’t even around. And then she built me back up, and the building was done on a solid foundation, A LOVING HEART!

Unlike a few prison stories you will read about later, which got pretty physical, in all aspects of the word!! The only time me and Miss "G ever touched, was one time I grabbed her ankle in the guards office, acting as if I was going to yank her out of a chair she was sitting in, and the other time she playfully stuck her hand out for me to kiss, and I did just that…I kissed it!

It’s just so cool, because you live 45 years, and you just don’t ever imagine that another human-being could have any major impact on another human-beings life. And then almost out of nowhere something like this takes place, and I can’t help but think of the instant direction change my life took, so quickly! And it all started to formulate after I met her.

Of course Inside-Outside represents the love that blossomed between Miss G and I inside of a prison, as well carried over to the outside of prison. But it’s also about that transformation that takes place on the inside of self once you truly decide to embrace love. And let me tell you, it’s going to flow over to the outside like never before! This is truly The Ultimate Love Story"

I’m not just saying that to boost sales, or none of that marketing strategy type stuff. I’m telling you what is oh, so true. When you can take a mean, viscous person like I was, and turn that heart into some love…Let me tell you all, that is an ultimate love story, all day and everyday!!!

You want to talk about a chance meeting?! Unbelievable is the best word to use here. Every inmate in prison, across the good ol’ United States, that has the MOMENT with a female prison guard, has himself quite a little time, let me tell you. They have sex a few times, several times if they are smart, careful, and a little lucky. May even get a piece of contraband or two, drugs, food, e.t.c!! Well I have seen and done all of that. TWICE!!! With Miss G I actually had a life changing experience, and that trumps all of that other bull-crap I ever indulged in with any other prison guard. Sorry ladies, that’s simply the truth. I only got sex and contraband out of all of you"!!!

You can laugh as well, because I KNOW there is a young lady somewhere reading this, whom I am talking directly to, laughing her ass off!!! And rightfully so, because like most of these situations that end in the correctional officer getting in lots of trouble!!?? I never got one in real trouble. I mean suspicion was always there, but I have always been smarter than the average JOE, so I always stayed one step ahead of Everyone, all my prison sentence!

And to be honest, it’s pretty ironic, because out the gate I was no doubt trying to get some sex, and contraband out of Miss G. As fate would have it, my heart had MUCH" different plans. Hey, that’s the way the cookie crumbles buddy.

As I am finding out more and more with each passing day, when there is love in your heart, life will be filled with a lot of peace, and plenty of joy. And more than you will ever need in this life time, my friend. And this is why there is so much drama in the world today, there just isn’t any solid LOVE in the air!!

Now, as I mentioned earlier, the reason I chose Ultimate Love Story for my reading material, is this: I was very deeply embedded in evil. I did a lot of things on those streets of Chicago back in the 80’s that even shock me, when I go back down memory-lane. Oh, I was a real fricking nut-case, to say it mildly!

The madness that you are witnessing on Chicago’s streets is a direct result of a multi-million dollar drug-trade, sprinkled with a taste of good old fashion Chicago corruption! Now dealing with all that drug-dealing, gang-banging, and top it all off with a 22 year stay in prison!!?? No one could have ever told me my mind-set would be where it is today. The power of love can do mighty things.

Just from my life experiences I have become a firm believer that a person with an evil mind has no chance of demonstrating love, not on any level, as well, vice-versa. When my whole being was about the carnal self, I had no clue what love was, nor did I care to find out. Now I’m overwhelmed with the love bug, my eyes stay focused on righteousness.

No matter how far gone I got in the 80’s, on those deadly streets. I don’t care how twisted of a mind-set I had on that prison yard, decade after decade. I ALWAYS had a soft spot, as well, I never thought I was too tough a guy to show it. And because of this I am sure a small part of me knew Miss "G was about to show me something I’ve always wanted, but never knew how to ask for. A loving heart, mind, and soul, and to be taken to school on exactly how to use all this love!

I recall a situation 25 years ago, in my old neighborhood, Roseland. An incident took place in this small area on Chicago’s South-Side. I won’t get too deep off into it, but some people wanted to pay me a large amount of money to set-up my child-hood friend, to be executed. I wouldn’t do it! I couldn’t do it! See, as it turns out, I always had the makings for a loving heart. I assure you, the money I was offered that night….One hundred gang-members in that same situation!!?? 99 of them, if not all 100 would have took that money off the counter, that hot summer night, back in 1990"! And would have had absolutely no remorse about what happen to their child-hood friend.

And I know for sure, having that small vacancy reserved for love, was what allowed so much love to rush into my heart all at once. As well, get me on the path I have chosen to pursue. And in like fashion, all that I do today, is foundated on love!!!

I feel as if I’ve been chasing down love all of my life!! I just ran into so many obstacles through my walks, I never had a chance to sit back and smell the roses, as my mama like to say. That is of course, up until I met Miss G. And then, even though I was chasing after the physical woman (Miss G), all through the cell-house. In all actuality I was really just chasing love! She just happen to be the vehicle I used in the high-speed chase. And guess what? Through all the chasing down of love, I fell in-love with