Journey Through the Rainbows: Secret Dream Whispers

By Kessa Reuben

This book is about the greatness of Gods love in my life. It will help you magnify your relationship with God. Life with God, was never meant to be a separation from this world. We cannot resolve our problems if we do not understand their cause. Education is a tool, but not an end. The end is what you decide to do with what you have, and the knowledge and the wisdom given by God.
This book is about some of the dreams that God shared with me in my life. I want to share them with you, to let you know that a relationship with God can be VERY VERY special. That God is not just a person we worship with a one-way paging communication line, where there can be no hope of any reply. He is an active person, with whom you can have a relationship with, just as you do, with any family member
This book is also about today’s Church, the body of Christ, in the entire world.

• Language: English
• Publisher: WestBow Press
• Release date: Mar 20, 2020
• ISBN: 9781973688198

Kessa Reuben

Apart from Gods love, I am nothing. I am just a servant of God, fulfilling His calling to spread His message. Who I am, is not important, but the path you choose after you have read this book, will certainly be.

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Dedication

Dedicated to my daughters Nora and Norma, my husband Jerry, my Mom Celia and Dad Jonathan. Special thanks to my sister Sarah, brother Filip, my sisters in the Evangelical Church, Penny and Li and the Pastors of the Evangelical Church and the Catholic Church, who have all been instrumental in growing my faith.

Authors Note

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 1 Corinthians 13: 4-5 NIV

This book will help you magnify your relationship with God. Life with God, was never meant to be a separation from this world. We cannot resolve our problems if we do not understand their cause. Education is a tool, but not an end. The end is what you decide to do with what you have, and the knowledge and the wisdom given by God.

Prologue

Telescope

When I was little, I knew He was God

And I loved Him

I looked at Him through the telescope of my life

He just existed

As I grew

The people and things in my life grew

It seemed, like He was there

But, somehow, He zoomed out

As I grew into a youth

A presence began missing in that lens

Soon, my world turned upside down

I didn’t understand why?

My priorities got skewed

A perfect storm began to brew

Then came life’s disasters

One after another

I searched for that one presence

The calm and The omnipresent

Sadly, He could not be found

Then one day, everything crashed

When the dust cleared

One presence stood tall

It was the presence of God

He had gone nowhere

When all that did not matter, disappeared

Only the One that mattered

Became visible again

I understood

It was not the telescopes’ fault, It was mine

Too much things, people and clutter

Unimportant, but made more important than God

I started to de-clutter

Threw out the obsolete things

Rid myself of unhealthy attachments

Attachments to people, electronics, habits, jobs

Daily chores that did not need to be done

Soon my life got simpler

I spent more time with God

Then something changed

I noticed God growing larger in the telescope of my life

This, had never happened before

As He grew larger, I saw Him draw closer

Then, one day, I didn’t need a telescope

I had a friend

I was never going to be alone

Now God has His own telescope for me

It seems like I’m looking at the world through His eyes

The picture is different

It takes my breath away

It is changing me

I am no longer the person who I was

I am slowing turning into the person, He wants me to be

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This book is about the greatness of God’s love in my life. As I grew old, relationships became one of the most painful aspects to endure. Through life, I had to endure the presence of an alcoholic father, abandonment by my family, the break up of my first inter-religious marriage, the flight to another country because of my Christian faith, the terrible perils in my second marriage and the constant loss of jobs leading to poverty and danger at every turn in my life. At every step, I felt alone and abandoned, thrown to the mercy of the world and my only help was from the Lord. Through His love, I found help from those I least expected. Sometimes, I just found everything I needed, without even asking for it or even realizing that it was something I needed. As I grew up, some of the people I loved most, threw me out of their lives, some for a little while, some forever. I hurt so much that I promised God that I would never do that to my worst enemy. I never knew how much God was going to hold me to that promise. He was just going to test me with my loved ones. Then I heard Him say, that if you cannot even forgive your loved ones for the hurt they caused you, how difficult will it be to forgive your enemies. I thought it was going to be easy. Not so easy, as I found out. In doing so, I discovered God’s great love, because He forgives us, who are His own, but who treat Him like an enemy. Not just once, but over, and over again. How great is His love. It is in my own life’s success and failures, that I experienced the greatness of His love and compassion for us. Praise be to God, the mighty forgiver and redeemer of us all.

This book is also about the Church, the body of Christ. As I grew and traveled from one family to another, from one place to another, from one country to another, from one church to another, I realized that the Church was no longer the Church that mirrored the original purpose of God. The Church is still a place of worship and a place where you can find the message of God being preached. It is still the place where we share and love as a Christian community. But not everyone is a part of it. It has, in many places, grown into a superficial place of walls, where repetition, mysticism, gradeurism, and religiosity have become central to its identity. It has become more like a political establishment headed either by religious heads or family members, where tithes have become the fuel that oils the machine of a religious establishment. Though the tithes are necessary to maintain the huge expenditures that sustain the Church and its preachers, it is by no means necessarily required to twist the political will of a country or mislead its citizens. I found little attention being given to the poor, the needy, the prisoner, and the shunned of society. The people considered lowly in society like the prostitutes, gay, the transgender, the prisoners, ex-convicts, sex offenders, beggars, broken, poor, homeless, sick, disfigured and the misfits of society, were being ignored and marginalized by an institution that was meant to be inclusive and not exclusive. It seemed like these people and their family members were all the lepers of today’s church. These were not just the people being ignored by the Church community, but were treated as lepers by their own families. As I write this, I am deeply saddened by all the painful moments, both mine and the people who have poured out their hearts to me. These are the people that Jesus would have called, if He were here today, to be part of His Church. But these are the very people we have been thrown out of our churches, because we, in the Church have deemed ourselves self-righteous, just as the Pharisees did, in the time of Jesus. What is worse, is that few try to speak the truth in the face of persecution. I have fought my own Preachers many times, but have not succeeded. The leaders would not risk losing their church community to the truth, lest the number of tithers or community members, hear the unpleasant truth and leave. I have challenged preachers over the message of hate, by calling on them over the commandments of God. I’ve even challenged a preacher on stating the fact that I need to stay with my husband because he thought I should leave. While, I believe that he meant well, My reasoning was simple, If God did not abandon us sinners, so why should I? But he only saw worldly wisdom, not God’s plan. It was hard living a life of inconvenience. Here I was just a rookie Christian, fighting with the leaders of the Christian world and I felt I was right. But how could I be? Shouldn’t they have already known the truth? These are the men of God who had been through Bible College and had spent years mastering Christian doctrine.

I fought this great urge to doubt myself for many years, but the Holy Spirit in me, just wouldn’t let me give up, because the word of God was clear as quoted by Jesus that all the commandments hang on these two commandments given by Jesus:

Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself. (Mark 12:30-31 KJV)

In fact, He went another step further by giving us a new commandment

A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. (John 13:34 NLT)

I believe this commandment is especially for those who love themselves too much, to love others not like themselves. I speak to those who discriminate on the basis of race, religion, sex, gender or any other aspect. This is true for all people, with all people. It is very necessary to love like God, because He loved us, irrespective of our physical form. He celebrated our differences just like the rainbow in the sky. It is we who look for differences to sow divisions. On the contrary, God looks for the differences to make us more beautiful. The rainbow is just one example, for it would be bland with one color, but with many colors, it is vibrant and beautiful. If we look through His eyes, we are all beautiful, physically and spiritually. God wants us to view the world through His eyes, for our biases, perceptions and opinions are narrow, cruel and wicked. He wants to change that. I thank God for His beautiful rainbows in the sky.

This book is also about some of the dreams that God shared with me in my life. I wanted to share them with you, to let you know that a relationship with God can be VERY VERY special. That God is not just a person we worship with a one-way paging communication line, where there can be no hope of any reply. He is an active person, with whom you can have a relationship, just as you do, with any family member. There have been many moments when He has just spoiled me rotten, then others when He disciplines me. There have been playful moments when He finds ways to challenge me and make me laugh even in the worst situations. There are times when He somehow helps me get the help I need. There have been times when I found myself drifting, yearning for His love and presence. It’s like being His little princess. Even though He is the GREAT GOD, He always found the time to come to bring Himself to the level of my humanity. There are times when He knew I was down and found the perfect way to reach out to me. His presence was always uplifting. The Lord became the most important member of my family. At some point, I started feeling guilty that I seemed to love Him more than my own family. I think my family sensed that and hopefully understood it.

I know that God will always be with you, no matter where you go in life, or what stage of life you are in, or how old you grow, and beyond life itself. He is one person, who will never let go of you, even when you let go of Him. Even if you think He is not there, be assured, He is certainly there and He has the funniest way of reaching out to you, if you only know where to look. Maybe you don’t see it right now, but as you build your relationship with Him, you sure will.

There are 3 stages to this relationship with God. The Dating stage, The Engagement Stage and the Mature stage. The Dating stage is an exhilarating and romantic stage. Its basically getting to know God and experience a kind of Love, you have never known, that makes you the center of God’s love. The Lord, really made me feel real special in this stage. The Engagement stage is when your relationship begins to bloom and grow. This is the stage, when commitment becomes essential and spending time is not a choice, but a need. The Mature stage is when you now have a steady relationship with God and He becomes a regular part of your life. Its kinda like 2 people who have grown accustomed to one another after being together for so long and have built a relationship of trust, togetherness, faith and dependability. Through all the stages, one thing never diminishes, unlike any human relationship, that is Gods limitless love for you. Think about it as having a lover who woos you till your hair falls off and your skin begins to look like a complicated work of line art. This relationship is a relationship of your Spirit with God’s Spirit. It has nothing to do with your body that is slowly dying.

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day (2 Corinthians 4:16 KJV)

A relationship with Gods Holy Spirit opens us up to His presence and communication, which is very unique and special. God can reach out to us in ways that no one else can. It is personal. It is the perfect love of God for His imperfect people.

Why I wrote this book?

One day my daughter asked me to describe who her Mom really was. It was one of her school assignments. I tried in a few words, but it got complex. A few days later, my spiritual counselor Liza at the Evangelical Church asked me to write about my experiences with the Lord. Two years ago, a church friend had asked me to make notes about all the great things the Lord had done for me. I didn’t think my past had been that great. In fact, it’s a perfect example of what not to do. I wasn’t proud of it and absolutely didn’t want to put it on paper. The good part about my life is, I learned that it did NOT matter how bad our lives really got, or how terrible a situation we got ourselves into, the Lord is capable of saving us and changing our lives for the better. There is always hope. There is no reason for us to give up and sometimes we are the hope of others.

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see (Hebrews 11:1 NIV)

Many times in my life, I had to go on hope alone, having faith that God’s eventual outcome would be