A Great Gift: Mystical Experiences of Enlightenment in the Abyss

By Seraph Luk

Thirteen cryptic dream messages came from her Higher Self. Should she believe them as real, or should she seek professional therapy? The messages began when she was thirty-eight. She was now fifty-eight and counting, but when one or two of her dreams started connecting afore unknown dots, and guiding her on her path, she had no choice but to wait out the rest with faith. The alternative was living without purpose, without knowing that there is something more, something higher… but she knew better.

Over the course of years, she also received over one hundred personal dreams shared with her Twin Flame. But he was married, and his wife was a bwitch with a vengeance. Why would these dreams guide her to him if it was not meant to be? Why would she have to endure the delays, the blocks, the rejection, and the black magic? Was it all an illusion, a fantasy, an obsession, unrequited love? Was it part of her purpose to help him, or only to wake him? She had asked God to show her, her Twin Flame. God did. What God did not say was if they would have their reunion in this lifetime. It would be a long wait for answers and answered prayer, but through it all she would grow, and she would know her purpose, and his place in her life, or not.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Balboa Press
• Release date: Dec 26, 2019
• ISBN: 9781982240325

Seraph Luk

Seraph Luk has a Master’s Degree in Spiritual Guidance from Sofia University (Formerly the Institute of Transpersonal Psychology - ITP), and is currently pursuing her PhD in Integral and Transpersonal Psychology at California Institute of Integral Studies (CIIS). She has one daughter, and currently lives in New Orleans, LA. [e-mail]

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Contents

Acknowledgements

Preface

Introduction

Chapter 1 A Very Lucky Woman Quest for Love

Chapter 2 Dream Message #1 Go out on a K’an. Then you will be one with your Purpose.

Chapter 3 Dream Message #2 Jezebel buried your name.

Chapter 4 Dream Message #3 God is Love. Love is Truth. Truth is God.

Chapter 5 Dream Message #4 You have been given a great gift.

Chapter 6 Dream Message #5 We just added one million, five hundred thousand to your bank account.

Chapter 7 Dream Message #6 It will always be within 100 feet of you.

Chapter 8 Dream Message #7 The lion is the Scorpion. The Scorpion is the lion.

Chapter 9 Dream Message #8 The last shall be the first.

Chapter 10 Dream Message #9 Jesus is Joseph, just like You.

Chapter 11 Dream Message #10 Your weakness has become your most formidable strength.

Chapter 12 Dream Message #11 Olivia has the key.

Chapter 13 Dream Message #12 You have something someone thinks is theirs, and they want to take it back.

Chapter 14 Dream Message #13 Portia blocked you from Dorsoni.

Chapter 15 Message to all Twin Flames How do you know?

Chapter 16 Dream Message # 14 (With A Face) My Author!

Chapter 17 To my Twin Flame I love you infinitely!

Chapter 18 Out of the Abyss One with my Purpose

Chapter 19 Total Understanding and Acceptance To Whom Much Is Given Much Is Expected.

For my daughter,

The Star

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

There are many people I can thank for being a positive influence and support in the writing of this book. However, there are a few I will mention here because without them, this book would still be in the computer:

To my Higher Self thank you for showing up, for the dream messages, and for awakening me to my Divine connection with you, and to Source through you – the greatest gift!

To Archangel Michael and all the Angels who work to guide and protect myself and my loved ones, Lord Melchizedek, and Ascended Master Djwal Kul.

To my Twin Flame thank you for showing up in my multi-dimensional dreams and for supporting my writing by saying, Print what you want whether you believed in the manuscript or not.

To all the souls who supported and encouraged my writing like my family, like-minded friends, professors and colleagues, acquaintances from my soul group, and especially those who allowed me to share their stories. I wish that I could honor each by name, but you know who you are. I love and appreciate you all.

To my spiritual teacher/advisor/spiritual practitioner/childhood friend: I could not have completed this book without you. Thank you for being an amazing being of the light and following your calling to help God’s children.

To my professor in my master’s grad school who edited the first draft for the publisher, thank you. To my adjunct professor/author in my Ph.D. program who showed up at the right time to work with me on completing the second round of editing, thank you. To my colleague in the Ph.D. program who took hours from her own schedule to help me to edit the last two chapters, thank you. I have added a lot of material since those first three edits so as a full-time student without the funds for a professional editor, the final submission is as good as it gets.

Thank you in advance to all the readers of this book. Just know that I am sharing as much as I remember in the way that I remember. I may jump around chronologically, but I hope the writing comes across in a way that you can follow my reverie.

Mystical is the consciousness of an immediate rapport with the Divine.

Mars

PREFACE

I am a Lightworker motivated by love and light. I initially said the words love and light because it sounded good, as opposed to for example the words peace and love or just love which we all know is the greatest energy force in the universe. Little did I know at the time that I needed both: love, and especially a divine connection to the light. I recognized this because of my life path that entailed being the victim of the dark forces. Connecting to the light through love was the one way to ensure that I held fast to Christ consciousness. To begin my story of how I was shaped to become who I am today I will share what appears to be an insignificant story of the beginning stages of rebellion against what I was taught from childhood, only to be understood as an adult.

As an adult I was once fortunate enough to meet a man who was born on the same day and in the same year as I was. Obviously, we were not born at the exact same time, and we had different souls and we were at different evolutionary levels spiritually.

My birthday twin was my girlfriend’s boyfriend, so I was able to observe him the few times that I was over to their house. He and I had nothing in common except that neither of us liked to brush our teeth. I brushed for oral hygiene but very reluctantly. Then I stopped using toothpaste altogether but still did not like to brush my teeth not understanding that fluoride was in the toothpaste but also in the water. When I met my birthday twin, I thought that maybe I could find other similarities. However, because of limited time and conversations about him from my girlfriend, not brushing his teeth was the only thing that we had exactly in common. He was, however, in one or two DUIs but never got hurt. The similarity was that I was in a car accident where the driver was drunk, and I was scarred in my face. I have never been able to find out (yet) if this accident was karmic or a psychic attack. However, years later I discovered that fluoride slowly calcifies your pineal gland. The pineal gland is also known as the third eye and is the feminine earth energy. The pituitary gland (behind the physical eyes) on the other hand, is the masculine earth energy. The third eye opens when the two merge in the sacred marriage. This third eye is then able to receive and transmit higher dimensional information, opening humans to multidimensional consciousness.

Even the French philosopher Rene Descartes (17th century) thought that the soul was located in the pineal gland. So, it was not so much that I didn’t like to brush my teeth, it was more-so that my intuition was telling me that I needed my pineal gland to remain open. It was heaven when I discovered that I could use activated charcoal powder or turmeric powder instead of toothpaste. There’s been research that shows that turmeric can reverse fluoride exposure. Yet, even if I change the toothpaste, there is also fluoride in the water. What’s a gal to do? Bottled water? This brushing of my teeth issue was the beginning of a simple rebellious act against the societal norm and following my intuition because it just felt right for me. Maybe my birthday twin had the same intuition but had never discovered why he was against oral hygiene. I don’t know. What I do know is, my intuition became even stronger later after I met my own Higher Self.

I didn’t believe I really had a Higher Self until I had my Spiritual Conversion Experience. This happened in 1997, and it was not until sixteen years later that I would learn that what had happened to me actually had a name.

To share briefly, I was working at a university at the time for five years. Within the last two years I had made the decision to take my spiritual path more seriously and as they say in the adage, when the student is ready, the teacher appears. Teachers literally appeared in the form of unusual Outreach courses, that I could attend for free. So, there I am in this Elder’s Institute course in Past Life Regression, a course introduced for the first time, along with Psychic Development, and Kabbalistic Astrology. I attended all three.

In the Psychic Development class, I learned that I was somewhat psychic; we all are. It is just that some people develop their ability, and some are born with it more developed than others. One night we had to work in a dyad, where one partner would think of a thought, and the other would say aloud what the thought was. With my partner, I was frustrated. When the professor asked me what the word was, I said, I thought that she was thinking of the word peace, but towards the end I felt more that the word was love. So, I really don’t know what the word is. My partner jumped back in her chair and said, OMG! I started thinking the word peace, and then changed my mind because I thought that love would be an easier word for you to telepathically hear. I was more shocked than she was.

In all the classes I was the only black student, but in the Past Life Regression most of the men and women were all retired and in their late sixties and early seventies, except for one other young male, who I believe was only eighteen years young. We had done a few past life meditations where we were guided to a huge room with many doors. We had to choose a door and walk through, and each door took us to a specific past lifetime. One time I opened the door and saw myself as a little white girl on a home-made swing on a large tree. I remember that it was a large plantation though I’m not sure of the country. I had on a white dress with white socks and black patent leather shoes. We jumped forward in time to adulthood, and the professor asked us how we died. I immediately saw myself in a huge barn with a handsome Black man who was my lover. My White father burst through the barn door with a shotgun, and as he shot at the slave I jumped in front of my lover and got shot in the chest.

I saw all this in my head with my eyes closed, as if I was watching TV. A few students wanted to know if being White in a past life was a wish of mine, but the professor just answered that it doesn’t matter, what matters is the vision that came through.

Even though it was a Past Life Regression course, one day the professor asked us if we would like to meet our Higher Selves. I was a bit apprehensive because a few years before in a Psychology course a professor took us on a guided Meditation to meet our Higher Self. We walked through fields and ended up at the bottom of some stairs that went all the way to Heaven. We were supposed to walk up the stairs and meet our Higher Self at the top. I was scared to walk up those stairs and not be able to come back. So I was not surprised when I walked up the stairs and met no one and was only too happy to come back down and open my eyes.

Yet, this time at the University the professor did something which made me feel safe. We chose our own location and my choice was a thatched roof hut on a beach. And she told us to surround ourselves with protective white light so that there would be no interference from negative entities. I loved this idea as I felt more open to receive. When the professor said, Now picture your Higher Self walking through the front door I truly saw a white silhouette of light come through the door. I could not believe that I was actually seeing it, but there it was!

I was so excited that I started telepathically asking a million questions. I vaguely heard the professor telling us what to ask, but I was in my own world. The next thing I heard was the professor telling us to thank our Higher Self and say goodbye. I was not ready, but I speedily asked the one question I had wanted answered in that moment. Mind you, it was not about my life purpose, or world peace, I asked about the scuba-diving professor whom I had a crush on at the time… I just said his name, Rhu! My Higher Self responded with a telepathic zap like an electric bolt which coursed through my body in one second, leaving me with a feeling of peace and unimaginable BLISS! It was so sudden and sharp that I literally rocked back in my chair, and almost opened my eye to see if anyone had seen my body jerk like that. I had never felt anything like that before, and I thought, this is what Divine love must feel like. Needless to say, I took it to mean a yes about Rhu only to discover months later that he was not that into me. This relationship would even later become an ah-ha moment of understanding why a 180-degree turn from a male partner.

What I also discovered was that the zap was an awakening, maybe like kundalini rising where I was open to the higher dimensions of consciousness. The zap helped me access more of the theta shamanic state naturally. This theta state, according to Dr. Wayne Dyer happens between wake and deep sleep, and the moment of coming out of sleep to wake. In this theta state you can have visions, healing, and program or reprogram your subconscious mind. This theta state also helps you to receive and decipher dream messages from your soul.

When we had completed the meditation the professor asked if any of us wanted to share. Many of the other students met their Higher Self, who showed up as Angels, deceased relatives, or spirit guides. The eighteen-year-old young man’s Higher Self came as a group of people from Atlantis. This time I was determined to keep my mouth shut and waited until class was over to ask the professor about the zap. She said, That is what it feels like when someone has been touched by God. I thought to myself, that she is just as crazy as I am. That was the end of that, but the experience had changed my perception of the whole realm of spiritual possibilities, and my belief structure about God, my Higher Self, and my place in the scheme of things. It would take many more years for me to understand that the zap was not to be interpreted so much as being touched, but as my awakening!

Soon after completing these classes I discovered I was clairaudient. Again, I did not know that this had a name until years later. I had probably heard my Higher Self speak to me before in what we call the still-small-voice within. This time after meeting my Higher Self, I knew that I had heard for the first time, loud and clear, a message from my Higher Self, or even, the Angels - same thing.

What had happened was, I was at the end of an hour-long interview for the Office Manager’s position in my Department. I had been doing the work for over a year, I just did not have the title. It was a sure thing… or so I thought. I was feeling smug with myself and thought that the interview had gone well when I heard a voice say, This is for the good of the whole. Initially, I thought that it was my own thought even though this is not how I usually speak. Then I thought no, it must be that still-small-voice within. It definitely was not coming from evil, because evil never thinks about the good of the whole. Therefore, I was happy to know that if I could receive such a positive message about the interview, then it must mean that I got this! I did not. As it turned out, another woman with my first name got the position of Office Manager and we became great friends even up to today. Repeatedly, I asked my Angels, What did you mean by giving me that message and still not giving me the job? I had to wait a whole year for the answer.

As it turned out an African American with the same name as mine, was hired for the job. At the time, our esteemed boss had a harrowing tendency to get the job done in a chaotic and disorganized way. When things fell apart, as it tends to do in chaos, he would shout and yell as if the mistake was everyone’s fault but his. In the beginning, I took the abuse to keep my job. After the first, and surely, within the second year, I was fighting back, but behind closed doors; never to the point of over-stepping my boundaries or to risk losing my job. This powerful African American woman on the other hand, after working with us for one year, wrote him up just before he applied for the position of Dean. Apparently, the Universe knew that if no one reported him he would get the position, and he was not the best person for the job, i.e., for the good of the whole."

She left the job that same year. Her mission was accomplished, and I understood why she was chosen. I would bet that she did not consciously know her mission. It does not matter. When God chooses you for an assignment, you just do it, because you are qualified; you have what is needed to get the job done!

Another one of the newly introduced courses which inspired me greatly was Kabbalistic Astrology. The professor always brought her husband, who sat quietly at the back of the class. One day she told us that he was her third husband and her Twin Flame. What the heavens was that? That one question sparked twenty years of research and the discovery, in my dreams, of my own Twin Flame. He was married at the time and lived on the Big Island, so I was wavering as to whether I should just continue my boring life or follow the first dream message. But just when I was looking for confirmation, I received it from my eight-year old daughter one night. (see Chapter 2 - I took that message to mean that if I put myself in the right place, everything would fall into place). I was not about to break up anyone’s marriage (which is the first Do-Not-Do rule of Twin Flame reunions), but maybe, if my timing was right, things would fall into place naturally. But this walk was not natural, and I would learn to believe in black magic.

Many times, over the years, I wished that this was not my walk. I wished I knew nothing about Twin Flames, about black magic, about being a victim of black magic, nor meeting many souls who had experienced or heard of someone’s experience with black magic. How did this come to be my path? Black magic had happened to me and I did not believe. I was being guided to go back to the beginning so I could learn and understand. If I didn’t go, I would not know who I am. I would not be able to counsel others.

Just last month a girlfriend of mine from childhood shared that she had to pray for a male friend who was having problems keeping a girlfriend, and whose money was beginning to go down the drain, so to speak. My girlfriend fasted and meditated first, to find answers. What she found shocked her: The man’s own mother had done black magic to tie up her own son. The mother wanted to ensure that her son kept paying the mortgage on the house that she lived in. My girlfriend had to tell the man what she had discovered in her meditations and tell him what to do to remove the spell. He would still help his mother – after all, she was his mother, but he would help with his free will.

As a side note I would like to say that personally I believe in magic, and I believe in using magic to change your own life’s situations for the better. A person can use theurgy, affirmations, rituals, etc. However, when you interfere with someone else’s life or free will choices, white magic then becomes black magic.

So tell me, how do I follow the guidelines from this quote as I write my story? The quote says: If you propose to speak, always ask yourself is it true, is it necessary, is it kind? To answer: First, is it all true? Yes. Second, it is necessary for the victims to know and understand what is happening? Yes. Third, is it kind? The word kind is debatable. If I could find a kind way to speak of evil, someone must teach me; I am open to learn. So for me the answer is No. On the other hand, the answer is yes, because it is kind to tell the victim.

What have I learned? What am I learning? A leap of faith meant that I followed God’s Guidance and just trust the process… like the Fool tarot card. This Twin Flame experience is what started this book twenty years ago. This is the fourth re-write. Now, in Divine Order, I am ready to share.

INTRODUCTION

Mark Twain said, Why shouldn’t truth be stranger than fiction? Fiction, after all, has to make sense. This book may appear crazy to one who lives a normal life, or to one who has never had an extraordinary spiritual experience. However, the stories in this book are about my Spiritual Journey and the unexpected guidance I received through my dreams from my Higher Self with regards to my life path and purpose. Many times I share personal experiences where it appears like I am venting, and yes, I am; my Mars (assertive action) in Gemini (through communication) came out in full force; some might call it passive aggressive. So what? There is a time and place for everything. This is my hour of healing and my way to let it all go. I will share most of my personal and mystical experiences and hopefully, you can see how I was shaped to be in this present space. It should be an unspoken understanding that there are some life experiences that remain between God and myself, and some that I hope melt and disappear from the closet. I don’t know everything about everything, but I have shared as much as I know or was taught. So please do not expect this to be a self-help book even though I hope that sharing helps those with a similar walk and purpose.

We are all taught that we have a purpose but for a long time I felt like I had none. I was so bored with my life at forty-eight years old that I had thought that just what I was doing, was my purpose. I was a single parent raising my daughter whom I loved very much, but I was always angry. I went to work every day in a job I liked, but there was no growth. I had big dreams for myself, but I never seemed to be able to fulfill anything more than what was already happening. I read almost every self-help book that came across my path. I tried affirmations and positive thinking. But it was not until I discovered my own Higher Self and received guidance about my life and purpose that my life began to change.

In this book I share thirteen dream messages (with only a voice) which I received from my Higher Self beginning in 1998 when I lived the USA. Only one additional dream message came with a face. A year later, after I had returned home to the Big Island (of which there were twins - a Big Island and a little island), I would receive thirteen more dream messages approximately one or two months apart. All the messages came as only the voice of my Higher self, no silhouette, no form, and only one of those messages came with a face. Even though the message with the face came in the middle, in this book I have put it at the end because it has great significance for me. Then the messages stopped for a few years, and it was just as well because I could find no one to help me understand or interpret. I was sure that I might be going crazy. But God would help me to know that I was not.

Occasionally I would encounter a like-minded soul. I had completed about three hundred pages of the first draft of the book by then, but I also had received about fifty rejections slips from publishers. When I reflected upon what I had written back then I have to admit that I was rambling with no concise direction. So, I changed the book into a New Age Magazine. I met so many people who were thrilled that the Big Island could have a magazine like this. But I was doing it all by myself, got burned out, and the magazine crashed. What surprised me was, no matter how many ads were in the magazine, everyone kept asking, "When are you printing another book? Or, I loved your last book!" Even though they were talking about the magazine, they channeled the correct word for the energy; it was a book.

The years continued to pass while I just lived and tried to survive in the physical world while experiencing many spiritual situations. I received one dream message, from Dorsoni my Twin Flame, to help me keep the faith. He said: "You are supposed to be a Psychologist, with a Ph.D. There was no way I could even think of reviving this childhood dream, so I dismissed everything. However, it took fifteen years for me to begin to live my dream which just goes to show that receiving a message does not mean that it will happen tomorrow; it happens in God’s Divine and perfect Order. These dream messages and their manifestations in due course, were my lessons in patience