Made for More: My Story of God’s Grace and Glory
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We desire to know our lives matter, and we live in a world that craves more, but what is more? We’re bombarded with messages about what more looks like and how we can successfully live a life of being made for more. Perfection is a constant measure of success, and we manipulate plans so we feel like we are making an impact. In the end, we are empty and exhausted.
Author Lauren Elizabeth Miller has lived this and felt this on a deep level. She’s walked through the emptiness and exhaustion that stems from trying to be perfect and never fail. She’s also felt the redemption and restoration that only God can provide.
In Made for More, Miller shares her life story and the freedom and redemption she found through complete surrender to God’s plan for her life. She tells how obedience matters more than any outcome and that being made for more is simply living a life that stems from God’s grace. When we understand this, it changes everything.
Lauren Elizabeth Miller
Lauren Elizabeth Miller serves people through words and points them to Jesus as the blogger and creator at laurenelizabethmiller.com. She earned an MBA in 2012 and uses her business degree for nonprofit work. As an adoptive mom, she has a passion for kids in need of families locally and around the world. Lauren lives in Nolensville, Tennessee, with her husband, Scott, and three children.
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Made for More - Lauren Elizabeth Miller
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ISBN: 978-1-9736-7379-8 (sc)
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ISBN: 978-1-9736-7380-4 (e)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2019913190
WestBow Press rev. date: 9/26/2019
To Scott. Without you, this book would’ve never happened. You believe in me and cheer me on like no one else. I love running toward heaven with you.
Contents
Chapter 1: How I Found Myself Here
The Day after Perfect
Chapter 2: My Childhood
The Teenage Years
Not Being Rooted
Chapter 3: The Golden Years of College
Lasting Relationships
A Positive Shift
Chapter 4: Becoming a Perfectionist
My Dad, My Hero
Goodbye, Depression; Hello, Perfection
Chapter 5: Chasing a Career
Church World
An Unexpected Career
Chapter 6: The Kid Takeover
Early Mom Life
The Working Mom
My Kids Are Watching
Made for More Parenting
Chapter 7: Adoption
An Exception to the Rule
China
The Miracle
Chapter 8: Made for More Than Perfection
Goodbye, Perfect Life
More Than Perfection
Chapter 9: Made for More Than Plans
A Plan Pro
God’s Provision and Love for Me
God Equips His Plans
More Than Plans
Chapter 10: Made for More Than Guilt
Guilt from the Past
Mom Guilt
More Than Guilt
Chapter 11: Made for More Than Complacency
Perfectionists Love Complacency
Becoming Complacent with Age
More Than Complacency
Chapter 12: Made for More Than Weakness
Most People Would Rather Die Than Give a Speech
Real versus Fake Weaknesses
More Than Weaknesses
Chapter 13: Made for More Than Grudges
Sometimes Forgiveness Is Easy, and Sometimes It’s Hard
More Than Grudges
Chapter 14: Made for More Than Hesitating
A Family Legacy
When Hesitating Becomes Disobedience
More Than Hesitating
Chapter 15: Made for More Than Following People
People in Authority
More Than Following People
Chapter 16: Made for More Than Manipulation
The Manipulator
Being Manipulated
More Than Manipulation
Chapter 17: Made for God’s Grace
Grace Extended and Received
Grace Denied
Made for God’s Grace
Chapter 18: Made for God’s Glory
Glory in the Good and Bad
Made for God’s Glory
Chapter 19: Made for More
The Journey to More
My Current More
Acknowledgments
Notes
Father,
Open our eyes as we read each page
Examine our hearts and expose our weaknesses
Inspire us to seek your grace more than our glory
And give us a hunger to display your love
Help each one of us to trade a worldly perfectionism for the perfectly messy life that brings you joy
Give Us More
—Alan Clark, lead pastor, Gateway Community Church
1
How I Found Myself Here
I had my entire life planned out. I was going to be the perfect person. I would be an incredible wife, a rock-star mom, a successful businesswoman, and a loyal fr iend.
Do you want to know what my superpower was? Perfection.
Perfection seemed to come naturally to me, and I made it my pinnacle of success. Imperfection meant failure. I held myself and everyone around me to this standard.
I am capable of looking at every situation and making it a worldly success. I can create order out of chaos. I can see situations coming at me and plan accordingly so that they do not hurt my meticulously put-together life. I process. I plan. I make everything perfect, which makes me feel successful.
Or so I thought.
My husband, Scott, and I said yes to adoption, and that’s where I can pinpoint the beginning of my grand ideals slipping through my fingertips. I’m forever grateful that God was gracious enough to pull me out of my mind-set of perfection. God used our family’s adoption calling to begin to set me free from my prison.
I learned quickly that adoption and orphan care do not fit into a nice, tidy box. Adoption and orphan care do not always sync with full-time office jobs or five-year plans.
My plan was to be a working mom. I could do it. In my mind, that was what I was created to do. But after we came home from China, I walked away from my job. It was more than that to me though. I felt like I was walking away from my entire career, which had become my identity. I was losing a huge part of who I was. It was one of the hardest seasons that I’ve walked through. My entire life changed, and everything began to shift. I questioned. I cried. And then I cried some more.
Life has a way of throwing at us hard seasons that wake us up to be loved by God in a way we’ve never experienced. Maybe a sickness. Maybe the birth or death of a child. Maybe an adoption. Maybe a whisper when you cry out to God because you are sick of trying to be perfect.
For me, I began to realize that no matter how perfect I tried to be as a mom I couldn’t heal all of the hurts my children experience. I realized that my small-minded idea of the perfect career wasn’t aligning with God’s immeasurable calling on my life. I also began to see how unfair and limiting it was to hold my husband, friends, family members, colleagues, and mentors to my personal definition of success.
God took my perfect world and slowly peeled it away from me. I’ve never clung to God more than when I realized I needed Him to fill in the cracks that had formed as my carefully crafted life crumbled to the floor like a cookie in my three-year-old’s hand.
Actually, my life didn’t just crumble. It crashed. More like the Buzz Lightyear action figure that my son thinks may actually fly at some point if he continually throws it into the air.
But then, through my confusion and tears—because I just threw my entire career out the window—I heard God whisper, You were made for more.
I finally began to believe that God had another plan for me. He had more for me than my safe plans of sitting behind a computer screen in an oversized office chair. More than my small mind could ask or imagine. His plans would be immeasurable.
I knew He wanted me to write. He wanted to create beauty out of my unplanned season.
The Day after Perfect
I found myself in a small-town coffee shop in rural Ohio with my laptop open while processing my life. (That’s a dramatic way to say that I was writing.) I sipped my red eye and ate my warmed blueberry muffin while coffee machines hummed in the background. I began to believe that God had ordained this time in my life. I hadn’t planned this path, but He had.
I’d always wanted to write a book, but I thought it would be when I was old and wise. Spoiler alert! I’m not old and wise. This wasn’t supposed to happen now. This book was on the long-term plan of my life, and I don’t always handle changing plans well. Just ask my husband, Scott.
Scott loves to plan where we are going to dinner early in the day, but then he’ll change his mind two or three times before we actually go. It stresses me out. Flexible is not my middle name, which made this time in my life incredibly difficult but also miraculous.
The days following the shattering of my plans, which I categorize as when I became a writer, were wild and weird. Even as I type these words, I only have a vague plan as to how I’m going to get these words into your hands. But I’m weirdly just fine with it. The old Lauren would’ve had to have the entire plan in place before starting this book. Perfectionism breeds efficiency and can make large projects, like writing a book, difficult.
One time a coworker and I were tasked with rewriting the nurse job descriptions for the entire nursing staff at the hospital we worked at. We were both perfectionists. The job descriptions never felt good enough or done. If we hadn’t set deadlines and goals for that project, they probably still wouldn’t be done. Perfectionists never feel done because we are always chasing an illusion that doesn’t exist.
Planning and quality work are good, but if we’re not careful, they can chip away at the miracles God longs to perform in our lives. Shattered plans and imperfect work tend to draw me closer to my Savior. If we allow it, God’s glory can be so evident in those moments.
I’ve wasted many years making my own plans. By making my own plans,
I mean that I made decisions that were logical and safe. Perfectionists and planners like safe. It’s how we roll. If it’s safe, we will gladly do it! And we’ll do it well!
On top of the perfectionism, I am driven to always be all in and do my best in every situation. If you’re a perfectionist, you probably go all in too. Part of the fear of dropping perfectionism is that it forces us to choose what we are called to go all in on and what we need to let go.
Going all in is very admirable if you are solely focused on God’s plan for your life. When it’s your own plan though, you will tire easily and become frustrated with yourself and others. I’ve always wanted to do my absolute best in every role that I was ever given. It’s part of my hardwiring.
My all-in hardwiring paired with my desire to be perfect has felt like a weakness or fault, and for a while, I believed that no good could come out of it. But now I am learning what a God-given gift it is and how I can use it to glorify Him.