“How” Did I Get Here?: Everything the Hard Way

By Kitt Foxx

Sometimes things are just so bad that there is no solution if you are honest. This is a perfect example of two honest people that just couldnt make it. So after a large loan from a large local bank in Dallas, Texas, and after a change in latitude, things got progressively better, and success finally smiled on them. They were thankful. They helped many people along their way to becoming successful. Sometimes its just not easy to head in the right direction without some help financially to give you that boost that you need so badly in life that raises your attitude to a much higher level that leaves you with only one thing to worry about instead of so many that life forces on us sometimes. Some of it seems to be so unbearable at times that you cant even see any light at the end of that tunnel. But you wait and you hope. And occasionally, that light appears. The moment is at hand.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Jul 31, 2017
• ISBN: 9781543436143

Kitt Foxx

RETIRED FORMER TRADE SCHOOL TEACHER AND HEATING AND AIR CONDITIONING TECH. FOR 30 YEARS, ORIGINALLY FROM ROSWELL GEORGIA. NOW. RESIDING IN THE BEAUTIFUL VILLAGE OF PINE ARIZONA. IN THE FOOTHILLS OF THE NORTHERN ARIZONA MOUNTAINS. GOD’S SPECIAL PLACE FOR WEARY WARRIORS.

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PROLOGUE

Growing up an orphan in a place like Windy Hill Texas did not prepare Sue Myers for anything useful or even hopeful, there were only approximately 800 people living there and most of them were farmers, there’s just not a Lot of social adventure in the Sears Roebuck Catalog in the outhouse.

And trying to escape her boredom by marrying the first man that ask her, ole Earl Hawkins was the biggest mistake of her young life, and until meeting Ray Harris much later in Dawson, she never had a peaceful or safe minute, One hell of a honeymoon, Things changed when they ran away from Dawson together and as time passed her life improved, and Ray grew in his own way, he took. huge chances to change their lives in Dallas, And that big bank loan in Dallas really helped them after they got there, and those chances he took were the key that proved to be the major thing that put them on a new path In life. How did I get here? THIS IS THAT STORY. Just be patient and keep reading and you will find out all about. How you got here And. Here’s why.

CHAPTER 1

MEETING SUE

It was too cold today to be thinking about going swimming in the lake, and I have no idea why I’m thinking Sue would be here this afternoon, but here I am, I’ll wait a little longer, if she’s not here by four thirty I will give up on today, it’s really not her fault, and I don’t have any idea why I’m here except, I just really need to see her and be with her for a little while, my name is Ray Lee Harris and I’m seventeen and I’m very much in love with this girl, she is twenty three, but she is married to ole Earl Hawkins, her name was Haley Sue Myers back in Windy Hill Texas and now its Hawkins, We are lovers and have been since I was just barely seventeen, I have no idea how this is going to turn out, But I just need to be with her unless we are discovered and are. Both killed. But she says she loves me, and that the chance we are taking, she is very afraid of her husband Earl, he is almost forty years old and she is very unhappy he beats her a lot, she has shown me places on her body where he has beat her, big black and blue places, just looking at them makes me very angry and upset. I would like to wring his neck, sometimes I think about killing him, but I know I couldn’t do that, but it is a temptation, and I know that is wrong so I just suffer in silence for her. And hope that someday something will change, so we can be together but at this time that don’t look too promising, so we just steal away to our love adventures when ever its possible and safe to do so, It just gets harder for us to separate each time we meet.

Sue evidently was a lot tougher than she looked, she was only about five foot eight and one hundred and thirty seven pounds she told me, but she was evidently a very strong willed little lady, to take that kind of punishment, I ask why she didn’t go to the police and charge him with assault, I did once right after we married, she said and the only judge in town threw the case out of court because he told the judge that I hit him with a hot frying pan, and that he was only defending himself, so he was released on that basis. Earl told the judge that I had Temper Tantrums, and threw things at him and swung hot frying pans at him if I disagreed with him lots of times, and that he was just trying to calm me down, when this episode began, the Judge wouldn’t let me talk about what happened, kept telling me to keep quiet. And let the man of the house talk woman!!! Lots of times I admit, I seriously considered using that hot cast iron frying pan when he was seated at the table just as hard as I could swing it.

There was no justice in Dawson for her, so she just tried to keep from getting these kind of beatings from Earl, sadly he got worse with the beatings after he learned that the judge had sided with him, just because evidently his wife had him by the nose, and the fact that he was the only Judge in town, he could not have a wife beating charge or any other thing put a blemish on his record in Dawson, afraid that he would never be elected again. The bum!!! He really showed me what he was made of. That he was not much for a judge. Dawson, was a quiet little community here in North East Texas about fifteen miles from the Arkansas border, a nice place to live if you had some money for the necessities of life, or a good paying job and a decent husband. The climate was not bad it did rain more here than in Windy Hill, and we and we had more trees and a much larger population, more stores and things we didn’t have, and It had four. Doctors instead of just one in town it was a nice friendly town except for Earl.

Ray was a great friend and a good lover compared to Earl, they were complete opposites in the way they treated me, Ray was quiet and affectionate and Earl was loud and rough, and cussed and hit me often, I tried to stay out of is way as much as possible, Ray was a lover, Earl was a jerk, he talked loud and slapped me around if I got close enough., it wasn’t easy staying out of his reach, but I got hit pretty hard sometimes, I sometimes felt like just taking an Axe to him while he was sleeping, and just get it over with, I never loved this old mean fool, he was nice to me and always had money to spend when we were seeing each other years ago in Windy Hill but he changed right after we were married, he was rude and hit me a lot if I didn’t do exactly what he wanted me to do. I started disliking him a week after we were married., I spent a lot of time trying to figure out how to get away from this crazy idiot, the man, has a violent temper and everything has to be done his way or he throws things, and breaks dishes and cups, all over the kitchen, if he don’t like the food I prepare, he picks it up with his fingers and throws it at me and all over the kitchen. Then after he leaves for work I have to clean up the kitchen and the floors also and at times I have to wash my hair to get the food out of it. I’m not sure if this is a real man or just a spoiled brat man child. I am very sure that I would like to get away from his sorry ass for good. I’m afraid to mention or file for a divorce, he promised to kill me if I ever did that.

I love the time I spend with Ray he is my idea of a real man he rubs my back and neck for me and is so romantic with me and we both love to make love for an hour or more at times, I really get to hurting sometimes for Ray, he’s younger but I’ve shown him what I like, and he pleases me every time, he can last forever some times, he just can’t get enough of my loving, and at times I can’t get enough of him either, I’m just so happy to be in his arms, and away from the fool I’m married to, his first wife I’ve been told ran away back to her parents in Austin and her father threatened to shoot him if he ever saw him again, so three years later he divorced her rather than be shot. He might be a fool, but evidently not a stupid one, he knew that her dad was a man of his word and let her be. and her dad arranged the divorce details with Earl and warned him not to ever be seen around here again or else. He would have saved me lots of pain if he had shot him. Back then, I wouldn’t have ever met him in Windy Hill and wouldn’t be in all this trouble today. Just wishful thinking.

CHAPTER 2

THE TORONADO

I was not very fortunate growing. up, my mom and dad were killed in a tornado that hit Windy Hill one spring when I was ten, I was at school that day about three miles away, when it hit, it was really a bad one. After that, I was raised by a neighbor, Henry Johnson and his wife Ann, they had three girls already so one more was no problem. I didn’t get to go to the funeral, they didn’t have an open casket funeral, they weren’t found for almost four days. But they had ten thousand dollars in life insurance five each, and the court awarded it to the Johnson’s to care for my welfare after the funeral. They were good Christian people and treated me as their own and loved me. I was happy there with three other girls to grow up with. I was twenty when I met Earl down at the cafe I was working at. I’m not going to deny that I didn’t care for him then, I think it was that I had lived in the little town of Windy Hill so long with a population of about eight hundred most all my life and I was ready for a change of scenery, and the town of Dawson was about two hundred miles North East, and I was tired of being a waitress in a little cafe here in town, there was a whole new world out there somewhere and I wanted to see it so bad, The bad thing was I knew nothing about men or their ways and I walked blindly into a different world that I was not able to live in, this was almost slavery. I was so surprised and so afraid of this man that I thought loved me, by the second month we were married I didn’t know what to do, I was afraid to go to sleep with him in the room. And i wished I had never seen or met this man I was deathly afraid of him and didn’t want him to even touch me.

Earl was older and had some money, to flash around and had a job and just swept me off my feet so fast. We were married after only two weeks of courtship. I was really a foolish little country girl. And I paid for it, including the new hardship that Earl slowly put on me, It slowly dawned on me that I had made a very terrible mistake marring this man, l was his slave not his wife. Now I was in some serious trouble that I didn’t have any idea how to get out of. Then one day at the grocery store there was Ray. And I said Thank You Dear Lord!!! He was the answer to my prayer. Now, too late it seems I found a gentle young man that after getting to know him well, I discovered what real love was like. And what a real big mess I was really in and I wondered if I would ever be able to be free of this life, I was really scared for my life. At times if he was drinking and finally passed out, I’m ashamed to admit that on more than once, I got out the biggest, sharpest, butcher knife I had and stood over him, trying to build enough courage to push his head back and cut his sorry throat, and get to shaking, and cringe up into a ball on my bed, and cry, because I just could not do it, but I wanted to so bad, I hated this man enough, But I just couldn’t do it, I was raised up by the Johnson’s differently. In a Christian home in Windy Hill. But vengeance was so strong, and I had never had this feeling before in my life. It scared me, and I was afraid I would weaken and do something that I would always regret. And then Ray and I would never have a chance to be together. I cried a lot, those nights. Into my pillow I was sick that I was that stupid, and had ruined my life. I was afraid that this was never going to end. I even entertained the idea of killing myself a few times. When he hurt me really bad and I couldn’t sleep because I hurt so bad and finally I cried myself to sleep in the early morning hours. O God what am I to do?

CHAPTER 3

LEARNING ABOUT REALITY

Earl works at a lumber yard over in Tyler and the owners live here in Dawson, over on Erie street, sometimes he drives the big Red flat bed truck and brings a load of lumber back to Dawson for the lumber yard here. The lake here where Ray and I meet is about six or seven hundred yards from our house, thru the woods behind where we live, sometimes Earl has to go out of town for work, making bids on lumber at the sawmills, I always tell Ray in advance when and where, and how long he will be gone, and I go over after dark and we make love for hours, sometimes, at the lake, when it’s hot we go swimming in the lake naked, just after dark and then go to the bedroom in the house, we met in Dawson at the grocery store he used to carry my bags home in his Jeep, I loved to ride in it. And I liked being close to Ray, I was always excited when we had a chance to be together, but I didn’t know what to do with my feelings for him, I thought of a plan, but could I make it work? I didn’t want to make a fool of myself, but I did want him and badly, I was ashamed to admit that even to myself, But that didn’t stop me from thinking about it, and the thought of it was driving me crazy. I wanted to make love to him. And I’m sure he is probably a little boy virgin. Just like I was when I married Earl. I hope I don’t scare him too bad. I’m sure he will live over it, even though, he may never be the same again. I feel very foolish doing this today.

This morning after we arrived at her home from the store, she ask if I would bring her grocery bags into the house and put them on the table, for her that she was too sore to carry them, that her husband had beat her yesterday, and she pulled her skirt up a little and showed me her thighs that were bruised terribly, then ask me if I would rub some Pain medication on them. I was very afraid to do that, but she pulled me into the bedroom and removed her skirt and panties, and I managed to rub her buttocks and thighs for her, my face was on fire I was so excited, I had never touched a girl like this before and I wondered to myself what am I doing,? after a few minutes she ask if I would do her back, I was too tongue tied to say no, but I couldn’t find the words to say It. Maybe I shouldn’t but I really wanted too, and this was causing hard feelings to occur over here. In just seconds she was completely nude, and her back was terrible, I ask how did this happen? She told me her husband beat her up last night. And I just couldn’t find the words, to describe how I felt about what I was looking at, it was terrible!!. I rubbed her back with the lotion she handed