Dancing on the Brink
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Adam Holbrook
Adam Holbrook was born in Lima, Ohio and grew up on a farm near the village of Westminster, Ohio. Adam started his writing career at the age of fifteen years and was a photojournalist for three Lima area newspapers while yet in high school. After his graduation in 1972 Mr. Holbrook enlisted in the U.S. Air Force and served as a Psychiatric Ward Specialist at Keesler Air Force Base in Biloxi Mississippi. Adam resides in Lima with his wife of thirty seven years, Mary Luma Holbrook. Adam and Mary have four grown children and two grandchildren.
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Dancing on the Brink - Adam Holbrook
© 2016 Adam Holbrook. All rights reserved.
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Published by AuthorHouse 02/05/2016
ISBN: 978-1-5049-7403-5 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-5049-7402-8 (e)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2016900849
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Contents
Preface
I The winter 1975 – 1976
The Spring 1976
The Summer 1976
The Return to Reality?
A Tale of Three Hospitals
The Eighth Floor
The People
The O.T. Lady
Going Home
Home?
False Labors
August 23, 1976
Preface
In the frosty February of 1978, during the first of my many hospitalizations at the Department of Veterans Affairs treatment facility in Marion, Indiana, I met and became instant friends with a very special nurse aide.
During one of our frequent chats she said something to me which I shall never fail to remember.
She said, "Adam, there is a part of you that is so logical, but there’s another part of you that is so crazy!!"
Realistically looking back over the forty plus years that I have suffered from schizophrenia, I can without reservation state that pronouncement is an accurate appraisal of my psychological composition. I am indeed mentally untamed, but at all times I find myself dancing on the brink of reality - and hoping to fall in.
Be reminded as you read the following pages that the head of a person afflicted with schizophrenia is a very noisy place. Our thoughts are elusive as they dash willy-nilly through our consciousness and every moment seems to carry with it a new adventure in perplexity.
As you read this journey into the intriguing world of one man’s mental illness, also remember that the events and people depicted are real.
Also bear in mind the medications written about in this account of my experiences have not generally been in use for several decades. Nowadays we have much more effective medicines with very few, if any, side affects. Therefore, people who suffer from any form of mental illness today have nothing to fear from modern medical science.
Lima, Ohio
July 30, 2014
I
The winter
1975 – 1976
In March of 1975 I was married in Middlesboro, Kentucky (for reasons which I would rather not discuss) to a girl who was fourteen years of age. As much as we were able, me with schizophrenia and Cindy being in her youth, we loved one another. However, we were both children, psychologically speaking, and were not at all prepared to function in the adult world in which we had suddenly found ourselves.
For the first few months of our marriage Cindy and I led a quiet, reserved life in which nothing memorable happened. Cindy continued her education and we were quite contented with one another. We attended church regularly and although our income was meager we were able to pay the rent on our single bedroom apartment and to provide for ourselves the necessities of life.
Then in early July of 1975 we became acquainted with a group of handicapped traveling sales people and were persuaded to throw in our lot with them. Cindy and I proved ourselves to be fairly competent sales representatives and didn’t mind living out of suitcases. We loved traveling and passing through places we had never before seen. But when the manager of the troop discovered that my wife was only fourteen years of age we were both unceremoniously fired and sent home.
That was the beginning of our woes. Once back in our hometown of Lima, Ohio, Cindy and I found ourselves to be restless and moody. For the next few months we bounced from pillar to post, from