Lithium and Heroin: Coping with Dual Diagnosis
By Phillip Graph and Frank Harris
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The book will be of benefit to students, practitioners, educators and the public alike. Using it as a guide, students may be more empowered to enter into the uncertain areas of their own questions. Practitioners will no doubt be encouraged to further build their awareness. Educators can employ the book as they teach basic theories and applications. Advocates, too, will find the book useful as it raises essential questions about the cultural norms and systems that impact mental health treatment in our country. The author succeeds in establishing an accessible framework that fosters thinking about essential questions regarding mental health care.
As a teacher, I have read many books, and this one kept me spellbound and learning from beginning to end. I am already thinking about ways to incorporate it into my classes.
Sincerely,
Dana Elmendorf, MA, ATR-BC, LPC
Assistant Professor
Seton Hill University
Greensburg, PA 15601
Phillip Graph
Phillip Graph lives in Greensburg, Pennsylvania, and is originally from Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. He currently works for Mental Health America of Westmoreland County. He is in recovery from mental illness and addiction. His last psychiatric hospitalization was in 1999, and he has stayed well by taking the medication Zyprexa and abstaining from opiates. He regularly shares his recovery story at local colleges, universities, and mental health facilities. His message is, dual diagnosis is not an irrevocable fate and can be overcome. Mr. Graph enjoys running, photography, and filmmaking.
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Lithium and Heroin - Phillip Graph
Lithium and Heroin
Coping with Dual Diagnosis
Phillip Graph
Illustrated by Frank Harris
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16901.pngContents
About the Book
Introduction
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Afterword
About the Author
About the Book
Lithium and Heroin: Coping with Dual Diagnosis is a firsthand account of one man’s odyssey from mental illness and addiction. It chronicles his lifelong story struggling with anxiety and depression as a boy to schizoaffective disorder and opiate addiction as an adult. It provides insight into this dimly lit world. It recounts experiences during psychiatric hospitalizations and drug-seeking behavior with the message of hope that recovery is possible. Our society is plagued with mental illness and addiction. This story is meant to inspire others that dual diagnosis is not an insurmountable obstacle to overcome.
Introduction
I wake up flat on my back, strapped to a bed. I turn my head to the left and see my arm tied down with two metal-buckled restraints. The same is so for my right arm and legs. I think to myself, Not even Harry Houdini could escape this predicament!
These leather restraints have a kind of sado-masochistic air to them. They’re often one of the first things you see upon admittance to a psychiatric ward. I should know. I have made over a dozen pilgrimages to these facilities over the course of my life. I don’t intend on returning, but one never knows.
Do I consider myself crazy? Not really. Although without my medication, I can become psychotic and delusional. Some people who have encountered me while off my medicine probably could argue that I was insane. Perhaps the best words that describe me are overly sensitive, too analytical, perfectionistic, and nervously irritable.
What does it mean to have a chronic mental illness so severe that you have to take life-sustaining medication the same way a diabetic relies on insulin?
Lying on my back, bound in this seclusion room,
I ask, My God, how did I get here?
By sharing my first-hand experiences with the reader, I hope that I can provide a beacon in this dimly lit world of mental illness and addiction.
Anxiety. Depression. Bi-Polar Disorder. Schizophrenia. Suicide. Anorexia Nervosa. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Addiction. Over 30% of all Americans have suffered or will suffer at one time in their lives from some sort of mental illness. It is a disease that needs to be treated like any other. But how? The mind is such an intangible part of our bodies. In the book of Jeremiah of the Bible, God says, I knew you before you were formed in your mother’s womb.
This seems to indicate that our souls are timeless and immortal, however our brains are not. Mental health can be defined as the physical health of the brain. The brain is the physical repository of the soul. The soul, spirit, or mind is eternal. However, the brain like any other organ in the body eventually dies. There has to be a way of studying someone’s soul or spirit. The Greeks called it psychology,
literally the study of one’s spirit or psyche.
Thus, psychiatrists and psychologists probe peoples’ minds in search of analyzing their behavior.
I have no medical degree in psychiatric medicine. I have no master’s degree or PhD. in psychology. However, I do have copious amounts of practical knowledge about mental illness and addiction. It was earned the hard way: 16 hospitalizations, 1 near fatal overdose, and doses upon doses of psychotropic medication and narcotics. The scars that these experiences left on my soul are my diploma in human growth and development.
Dual diagnosis refers to someone who has a mental illness and self medicates with drugs and alcohol. It is sometimes called a co-occurring disorder.
As early as I can remember, I suffered from depression and anxiety. When I became a teen, I discovered that experimenting with illegal drugs seemed to make me feel better than all of the psych meds that I had ever been prescribed. Narcotics gave me a rush,
a sense of euphoria. They quieted my racing thoughts. Psych meds did nothing to make me feel happier. Rather, they supposedly controlled my thoughts and moods in order to prevent me from having manic episodes. It took many years for me to realize that narcotics, in the long run, are destructive and that being compliant with taking psychiatric medication is the best solution for staying well.
I am a believer in naturopathy. Eating healthy, exercising regularly, and taking nutritional supplements are smart ways to stay well. However, sometimes using integrative medicine is the best route to stay well. Integrative medicine refers to combining traditional
medical techniques with more holistic approaches. Traditional
medicine refers to allopathy -treating symptoms and not really exploring the cause of an illness. This generally means taking drugs, which can cause side effects. For example, most anti-psychotic meds cause weight gain. Yes, these medicines can control symptoms associated with mental illness, but at the cost of causing insulin resistance, where the body converts sugar into fat, instead of using it for energy. The natural, holistic model tries to treat the underlying cause of the problem. It is the naturopathic belief that no one has a Prozac or Zoloft deficiency, which is causing depression. Rather, we would try to treat the body as a whole to find out what is depressing us. Natural supplements often have side benefits.
So, that vitamin C you take to boost your immune system may also heal your gums, so that you don’t suffer from gingivitis any more. Believe me, I always try to go the natural route. Drugs are dangerous. However, my psychiatrist that I’ve been seeing for the last 32 years always stresses to me that I have a chronic mental illness which requires medication. You need that Zyprexa like you need oxygen,
he tells me. I’ve tried natural supplements, detoxification, acupuncture, and massage therapy to help relax me. One example that comes to mind was when I tried the herb Kava Kava to help alleviate my anxiety. It worked really well. I felt calm and relaxed. I didn’t think I needed my medication anymore. I was taking Risperdal at the time. It didn’t take long before I had a manic episode, while I was still calm and relaxed on the Kava Kava.
As my doctor reminded me, manic episodes come on with me like dominoes falling. One goes down. The next thing you know, they’ve all fallen. A manic episode can come on like a spark and quickly turn into an inferno. I’ve also tried SAM-e, 5-HTP, B vitamins, St. John’s Wort, and valerian. Unfortunately, I haven’t felt any soothing, calming, or well being effects from them. It’s a shame. Who wants to take drugs that cause unpleasant side effects? Life is not black and white. There’s a lot of gray. I’ve found that the best way to treat my mental illness is to live a healthy life and take my allopathic medication.
Chapter One
My adult mental health diagnosis is schizoaffective disorder. This illness includes