From Whence Cometh My Help: A Journey Through Grief
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In this book you will follow the authors journey on her long uphill climb out of grief. You will read stories of others who have lost loved ones and who have shared their deepest feelings and emotions in an effort to help others recover from the devastation caused by the loss of a loved one. You will see Gods unlimited power at work in their lives as he is able to do immeasurably more than we can ask or dream.
As Dr. Ann Melton grappled with the loss of the love of her life, she wrote daily in a journal, describing her emotions and her needs. It is her prayer that in sharing her story and those of others, readers will be helped in their journeys out of the loneliness, heartache, and grief brought on by the death of a loved one.
Ann Davis Melton
Ann Melton grew up in Western North Carolina and married her high school sweetheart and the love of her life, Frank. She received her doctorate from the University of South Carolina and after thirty years in education, she retired as a public school superintendent and traveled with her husband the next seventeen years. Ann is the mother of two, and the grandmother of five, and the author of seven award-winning books.
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From Whence Cometh My Help - Ann Davis Melton
Copyright © 2015 Ann Davis Melton.
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Contents
Acknowledgments
Preface
Our Life Together
The Greater the Joy the Greater the Sorrow
Heightened Senses
The Comforter
In the Night
Long Uphill Journey
He Leadeth Me
Affirm in Our Hearts Where Our Loved Ones Are
Comforting Words
Sources of Strength
There Is No Right Way or Wrong Way to Grieve
Anger at God
Anger at Our Loved Ones
Finding Someone We Trust and Letting Our Feelings Out
Quiet Times with the Lord
Breathing as Prayer
Pray
Grief as Our Goliath
The Hole in Our Hearts
Focusing on the Lord
One Step at a Time
Finding A Place to Heal
Keeping Busy
Giving Our Love Away
Seeking His Love
Trust
We Do Not Choose What God Puts Before Us
The Firsts are the Worst
Looking Back on Life
Trying Not to Worry
A Day to Just Watch
Fanning the Flame
The Problem with Negative Thinking
Peace
It Is Well with My Soul
It Is Well
Praise and Thanksgiving
The Threefold Cord
Minute to Minute
Mistakes and Regrets
Counting Our Blessings
Hearing God’s Voice – Feeling His Love
A Glimpse of Heaven
Allow Your Pain To Push You into Your Purpose
The New Norm
Boot Camp
Suffering
A Time to Live and a Time to Die
Never Give Up
Crying is Healing
Giving Ourselves Time to Heal
Surviving the Holidays
What I Learned in the First Four Months
What I Had Learned at the End of the First Eight Months
What I Learned by the End of the Tenth Month
The First Anniversary of My Husband’s Death
The Six Stages of Grief
Life Goes in Cycles
Major Decisions
A Message to Friends of the Bereaved
A Post Script To Friends of the Bereaved
I Believe That Our Loved Ones Can See Us
Visions and Dreams
Searching for Shalom
Keeping Memories Alive
Appendix A Plan Now, Don’t Wait
Appendix B My Funeral Wishes
Author’s Statement
My Prayer
Bibliography
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I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills,
from whence cometh my help.
My help cometh from the Lord,
which made heaven and earth.
Psalm 121:1-2 KJV
This book is dedicated
to the memory of
Lambert Franklin Melton
A man of great
kindness, integrity, love, generosity,
and service to his fellow man.
A man whose life
was made rich by virtue of
great moral and physical courage,
noble character and
strong intellect
1maninbluesuit.jpgMy husband, Frank Melton
Acknowledgments
I want to thank the many friends who were willing to share their stories and for their willingness to relive the awful days, weeks and months following the death of their loved ones. There is no way to adequately prepare anyone for such an experience, but it is my hope that this book will in some way help others to heal.
I want to also acknowledge the three ladies who believed this book should be written. The first is Betty Coward Stillwell, who came to me just two weeks after my husband, Frank, died and told me that I was supposed to write a book about dealing with grief. Betty had lost her husband, Kent Coward, when he was very young, so I knew that if anyone knew what I was going through, she did.
Just two days after Betty approached me, I received a card from Sandy Howard Douglas, a young lady who was in my fifth grade classroom my first year of teaching in Covington, Kentucky. We have grown closer as the years have gone by, and she is a person of deep faith. In her card she wrote, "I already know the name of your next book. It will be From Whence Cometh My Help."
Then a few days later, I got a phone call from Gail Smithwick, a first year teacher Frank and I met years ago when we moved to Covington, Kentucky so that he could attend college just across the river in Cincinnati. When Gail called, she said, I believe you are supposed to write another book, and I believe that it should begin with the e-mails you sent after bringing Frank home from the hospital under hospice care.
When these women approached me, I could not imagine writing another book, especially one dealing with the grief I was experiencing at the time. However, as the days passed, I began to think about what these three people had told me. All three believed strongly that I was supposed to write another book and that it was to deal with the grief process. I began praying about this, and then one day four months after Frank died as I was sewing, I was strongly compelled to go to the computer and begin this book. I went to my computer, and two hours later discovered that the difficult task of telling my story had actually begun.
I would be remiss if I did not also mention my mother, my Aunt Sara Sue, and my Aunt Edith, as well as my Granny Sherrill and Frank’s mother, Lona Kilby Melton. These godly women persevered as they watched their loved ones suffer and die, and they never lost faith. Instead, these women became stronger in their faith, and their love of the Lord grew deeper. We are told in the book of John that there is a cloud of witnesses watching us and praying for us, and I have no doubt all five of these ladies are a part of that cloud. I also believe Frank is there with them, loving me, and praying for me. Consequently, each time I felt like giving up, I had only to remember them, and I was encouraged to push on to complete this book.
I want to thank Darlene Lowe who proofed this book. She did not just read it and make needed changes. She took a personal interest in the book and put her heart into the process. I wrote the book as I went through the grieving process and I never reread it. I could not reread it as it would have been too difficult. Therefore, you can imagine all the changes that were required. This book would not be what it is had it not been for Darlene and I thank her from the bottom of my heart.
I also want to thank several of my dear friends who called, visited, sent cards, took me out, prayed for me constantly, loved me through my ordeal of grief, and encouraged me to continue to write. Tina Stovall, Betty Turner, Alan Allman, Verna Shuler, Frank Crawford, Mary Lowder, Jimmy Parris, and Nancy Pryor were there when I needed them the most. And of course, my children, Myra Hargrove and Buddy and Carla Melton gave me hope and lifted my spirits through it all.
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4 NIV
Preface
When we lose someone we love the grief we suffer may seem unbearable. We may feel devastated and bewildered by the flood of emotions that accompanies such a loss and we may wonder if we can survive.
This book was written over the span of a year – the first year after my husband died. It is gut wrenchingly honest as I share with the reader my deepest feelings as I traveled through the dark days of grief.
It is my hope that somewhere within these pages you will find passages that help you, comfort you, and give you the strength you need on your journey out of grief.
It is my prayer that this book will serve as a reminder that God is always present to comfort us and to sustain us in our most challenging and difficult times. I pray that we will call on him again and again and that his presence will reside in each and every person who is suffering. God’s love is deep and it is in that love that we will find comfort.
Our Life Together
We met in the eighth grade, and he took me to the eighth grade prom. The next day he told a teacher who asked him whom he had taken to the prom that he had taken the girl he was going to marry. We dated all through high school; of course, we dated other people, but he was always there for me. If anything bad ever happened in my life, I only had to turn around to find him there supporting me. If I dated someone he did not approve of, he would be there with a kind lecture. I will never forget a night I was at the bowling alley with a group of very nice friends, he appeared and asked if he could talk to me. Of course,
I said, and we went out to his car. It was raining, and we drove into town and up beside the court-house, where we could look down Main Street. I want you to know that I am always here for you,
he told me. I don’t always approve of who you date, but that is okay because you have a lot of growing up to do. But one day, we are going to get married.
We talked for about thirty minutes, and then he took me back to the bowling alley. I will never forget that night or the love and concern he showed for me.
Because I am the product of a broken home, marriage and a family have always been the most important things to me. All during high school and college, I prayed daily for God’s guidance in my life: God, please don’t let me make a mistake. Please help me to choose the right young man to marry.
And my prayer would always end the same way: God, please help me to choose the right young man, but God please let it be Frank Melton.
We dated for eight years and were married in 1963. He was the love of my life and my reason for living; there is no doubt in my mind