Playing Time Against God: While Still Naked in the Garden
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Theresa L. Avalos
At the age of eighteen with an inquisitive open mind and a fire within I found myself in the midst of a journey that placed me unknowingly on a path to living a life towards authenticity, reading all that I could to uncover a way to fulfill the desires of my heart, and the questions on my mind. Why am I here, what am I to do here and how do I face and meet life to live out a purpose?
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Playing Time Against God - Theresa L. Avalos
Copyright © 2015 by Theresa L. Avalos.
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Table of Contents
Rumi Inspires
Pre-Existence
It Wants to Be Forgiven
Dazzling Dream
A Bitter Vision
Vivid Lucidity
Astounding
Honorable Decision
Her Very Own Song
Passion’s Cry
The Sky
Mornings in Her Head
Between you and me
Love’s Endeavor
Changing Colors
Naked in a Dream
Withstanding Social Graces
Simply Love
If Only
Do You Dance
Distractions
A Winner’s Circle
I Look for You
A Child Is Smiling
Revival of His Flame
Too Small Shoes
Silent Spaces
The Colors of Belief
Momma
The Saga of Love
When I See Daisies
Where Is Home
Wonder’s Love
Where is the Point of Entrance?
Family’s Total Love
Celebrating a Life
Enveloped by Your Love
Forbidden Thoughts
Mercy’s Naked Gaze
Heaven’s Eyes
The Rise of an American Family
Tangled Weeds
Teardrops
Returned to Peace
Happy God
Quiet Persuasion
Compassion’s Gift
In a Dream
Master of Madness
Children are the Reason
The Last Blue Moon
I Am That, I Am
Ecstasy in Your Name
The Plan
My Father
Life Lives in the Infinite
Living Inside
Remarkable
Making the Mark
Cousins
Simply Love
Timeless God
Yesterday’s Eyes
The Color of Loneliness
Preface For Freeing Maria
Freeing Maria
Indigenous Woman
Healing
Generations Unite
In Splendid Ways
Insanity
Gathered Them by Heart
My Eyes Are Full
At Last?
My Best Friend
The Fallen
Wishing to Fly
The Other Side of the Moon
Excellence…
Forgetting All the Wonderful Things I Want to Remember
Mercy’s Naked Gaze
Eyes as Big as Sunshine
This Life
Life Lives in the Infinite
Restoring What Has Been Missing
My Everlasting Brothers
The Struggle For Nothing
From me to We
Laying Down My Dream
A Tale of Nothingness
Ask Of Me
We Weren’t Set Up For This
Hasn’t All Been Said
Fly Through, Fly By
Dedication
Acknowledgements
Epilogue
Unfettered
Abuelo
Rumi Inspires
Out beyond rightdoing and wrongdoing
There is a field
I will meet you there
When the soul lies down in that grass
The world is too full to talk about
Jalal al-Din Rumi
Playing Time Against God stems from an internal, living abstract map that was set in motion after being triggered by this poetic cadence of words, where I identified a fidelity to the truth in Love/God echoing and verifying the openness, the vastness inside of life that widened the understanding, that God is life Itself. This single poem by Jalal al-Din Rumi planted a mystical seed that penetrated the womb of my consciousness, giving birth to a boom, a thunder that unlocked what was brutal concerning my mind, harsh on my body, and abrasive to my life. A passionate romantic world of tender language, and the severe sharp voice with a faceless face laid uneasy underneath my facade, all in which were lodged deep inside of the muscles and ancestral cells of my body and the split of my mind, fragments of me picked up the brokenness to look into them, slowly delving deeper into my interior. Poetry that had been nurtured and cradled inside an inner revolution had finally found its dawn the morning I was exposed to my first Rumi poem, that piloted the crucial and inevitable journey of questioning, exploring, and discovering to experience life governed by a pull that never stops pulling, the relentless quest for truth, here in an orchestration of words joined by a melody within, a melody to be placed in this book for the healing of a thousand lifetimes.
Poetry is the echo, asking a shadow to dance.
Carl Sandburg
Pre-Existence
Haven’t we met?
You seem so familiar
Beckoning me loudly
Locked in a memory somewhere
I recognize you in a distant soundless theme
Curious to what gift you’re to bring me
Wondering what gift I have within to offer
What exchanges we are to make
Let’s open up to see the delicious splendor
Is it hidden?
There is no doubt it exists
And we play our parts on top of this stage
Exchanging tales of who we might be
While the unknown longs to be revealed
Reading each other
Building each scene bit by bit
In your presence
With a gaze you offer me a mirror
As I bellow out a laugh
Maybe shed a tear
Find myself blushing in a shade of red
Stomach in a knot from a sort of knowing
What a gracious gift
Your company
Fascinated by our time
Tickled by your light
I am delighted
My companion
My teacher
It Wants to Be Forgiven
It wants to be forgiven
For all the damage it has be an accessory to
But it won’t take all of our blame
Since it only leads to the fire
It is our thoughts that allows the inferno to burn us up
Our deeds demonstrates our thoughts
It demands that treason not be pursued as its wrap
It doesn’t see it as that kind of an error
It won’t take on such a betrayal
Since weakness is too easy to prey on
The flavorless keeps us wanting for something that is in line with our desires
It devours our intentions
And the exposed area is battered
Then the exposed area gets temperamental
Despite the armor we have settled on
It leads with its seduction
And laments on its tasks
It wants to be forgiven, this entity called temptation
Forever is too long to live without being understood
It wants to be forgiven, for living off our greed
Fantastic And Nothing Less
Fantastic and nothing less
Morning enters mixing wonder with a placid dream
Playful caresses the horizon dressed in silver
There she is, tasting colors blazing from a heroic sun
Love and reason at her grasp
Energy rising, enthusiasm at a new high
Dedication taking place on a new front
Love the purpose on her side
Her blood flesh and bones
Restore at a rapid rhythm
Forgiveness she set in motion
Forming an alliance to a whole new way
Kindness and compassion in every direction
The vision of Creation
The obligation of her voice, the rise of the crescendo, trumpets the sound
FANTASTIC AND NOTHING LESS…
Dazzling Dream
I open my eyes and turn to you in gladness
When I dreamt that dazzling dream
Touching the untouched
Tasting sweet nectar
Melting upon my tongue…
In the brightest white
Near the deep blue sea
Laughter all about
Over head a choir of musical angels
In a swift motion I take up to fly
Like a bird I soar
Taking in new dimensions
I settled down
Come to rest
Peaceful from liberation
Perched on a ridge
In the company of the moon
A Phoenix lands
We are side by side
We talk until dawn
This Phoenix tells me…
Her secrets to rising from her ashes
My mother was a phoenix who always expected to rise from the ashes of her latest disaster. She loved being Judy Garland.
Lorna Luft
A Bitter Vision
I once saw a wicked face
Perceiving it all in a backward tale
Keeping me upside down
And twisted…
Forced to face my complications
I was in for a challenge
Refining a lifetime in forgiveness
I labored to put it graciously behind me
Ahead, I took off step by unsteady step
Repeating forgiveness prayers that I chanted
Day after long day
Working to replace this malicious picture
In its place, to remember beauty
As my eyes absorb loveliness
The chaotic emotions finally subside
I was proud and gallant with the notion of a conquest
Not staying on course with forgiveness
Instead complacent
In a moment’s silence a reminder of forgiveness failed to occur
I reentered into a familiar ground
And I entertained a bitter vision
The awkward thought of running into an old reality
Back to the hell I taught myself
The hell of stagnation
Convinced me to give up my sad tale
The opportunity to see a light that sheds defeat
The light of forgiveness
I was forgiving the wrong heart
Too weak I saw me
My shadows too ugly to be seen
Selfish, and I wear too many faces
At once
It was revealed
The problem was me
As mercy comes unwraps and unravels my time here
It all begins to make sense
At last, my blindness decreases
My malfunction is open to see
The chasm between my soul and my heart begins to shrink
Truth that holds me liable to my deeds
Promising favors above my head
Allowing them to reach into me
Once too attached to my dark night
The dispute instead, I rendered it a mystical alteration
The love I almost defied
The hard fall that held me in a fetus position
Ministered to me
In harmony with an intimate beat
In touch with the stars
To compare the light
Love once again conquers what is foul
Changes my mind with a change of heart
Transcending from moment to moment
Releasing the heartache of an internal battle, that love now tends after
To be liberated from a twisted mind that has me split into pieces
Silly irritations have been passing me by
No longer holding me as a peculiar kind of hostage
Holding another to any kind of expectation, is a recipe for my rage
Judging my neighbor only demonstrates my nature
Loving my proclaimed enemy transforms my ailments
Exchanging poison for nectar
Now it is evident to me
That we were all uttered and designed by the Creative Force
Blue print done in brilliance
Under the law of Love
Can it be that differences turn the earth around?
Where diversity eats away at mediocrity
Vivid Lucidity
The universe explodes through