Unlocking the Cellar Dreams of a Poet: A Book of Poems
By Joe Gonzalez
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My wife, Orelia (Cookie), is, and will always be, my inspiration. And I know that she will be forever grateful for many of the poems included in this book. I also hope you will enjoy reading this book of poems.
Joe Gonzalez
I am a retired police officer by profession. I was born in Harlingen, Texas. Our family migrated to West Texas in the early 1960's. As a pre-teen, I shared time with my two older brothers selling popcorn up and down the aisles inside a movie theater back in Harlingen. When we grew up, we went to work in the cotton fields hoeing weeds during the summers and picking cotton in the fall. We were back in the fields during the onion and cabbage harvest season in the early frosty mornings of fall in order to help our parents put food on the table. Back when one could earn twenty five or thirty cents an hour, working ten hour days in the hot summer sun, was no fun. But it meant growing up, feeling grateful for what God gave us and sleeping with a full stomach. At times, it was fun because it also meant making new friends who were doing the same thing for their parents. It was an honest way to survive poverty. Thanks to our parents, who always wanted us to finish high school, we all graduated high school at New Deal ISD, which is in Lubbock County, Texas. I attended Texas Tech University but eventually, dropped out in order to marry my high school sweetheart. After 49 years, I still love her with all my heart. She is still the apple of my eye. She is my best friend and my life is complete having her at my side. My jobs went from working the fields, working at a slaughterhouse, a meat market, a warehouse, and driving the big rigs. From there, I went to work for the Lubbock Police Department as a street cop until retirement. During my years of working, many friends have touched my life. The fact that friendships make a huge part of our lives, is what inspired me to write this book about dreams and friends and what they do to pass the time. We’ve all had those types of friends. I am also a writer and a regular commentary contributor to the Lubbock Avalanche Journal Newspaper which publishes my op-eds in the Sunday commentary pages every three or four weeks. My wife, Orelia (Cookie) is, and will always be, my inspiration. And having her as my biggest critic, I am thankful to her for allowing me to continue to write my stories and my books. Thank you for all of your unconditional love and support! I love you forever and always!
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Unlocking the Cellar Dreams of a Poet - Joe Gonzalez
Copyright © 2017 by Joe Gonzalez.
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Contents
Introduction
About the Author
1. A Flower for Heaven’s Garden
2. A Legacy Left Behind
3. A Merciful God
4. A Reason for the Season
5. Aiming for You
6. Birth of a Church
7. Blow! Trumpets of Glory
8. Broken Rose
9. Carnival Ride
10. Chasing Casting Shadows
11. Christmas Angels
12. Cinnamon Eyes
13. Colors of the World
14. Come On, America! Come On!
15. Crown of Thorns
16. Diamonds of the Night
17. Divine Mercy
18. Don’t Get Me Started
19. Father Built It
20. Folded Note
21. Free to Be Free
22. From Out of Nowhere
23. Golden Rules, Broken Rules
24. Have You Been There?
25. He is Coming
26. Her Eyes Told It All
27. His Cross
28. Honored Sacrifice
29. How Many, Dear Lord?
30. I Am Who I Am
31. I Testify and I Believe
32. I Thirst
33. If I Don’t Come Back
34. If Only
35. If You’re Coming Back
36. Jerusalem, O Jerusalem
37. Let’s Do It Right
38. Like Leaves in the Wind
39. Lord, Was I There?
40. Magi
41. Merry Christmas, Jesus
42. Midnight Mule
43. Miss That Silver Tree
44. No Vacancy
45. Nobody’s Hero
46. Nothing Wrong with Yesterday
47. Open the Clouds of Heaven
48. Open Your Heart
49. Praying, Fasting, and Repenting
50. Shifting Sand
51. Show Me the Heavens
52. Star of the Sea
53. Stolen Time
54. Take Me Home (with the Winds)
55. Take Me to That River
56. Take My Soul, Lord
57. Texas
58. Thank You, Lord
59. Thank You
60. The Exodus of Life
61. Surviving Sounds of Death
62. Southern Tracking Backroads
63. Lessons About Life
64. Fulfill Your Dreams
65. Broken Shoelaces
66. An Eventful Dream
67. The Bench
68. The Bus
69. The Cross
70. The Great Apostles
71. The Greatest Surprise
72. The Last Mass
73. The Last Word
74. The Lord’s Last Supper
75. The Mirror in My Eyes
76. The Perfect Number
77. The Price of Free Will
78. The River Winds
79. A Fight, A War, A Death
80. Guardian Angels
81. Merry Christmas from Heaven
82. Weathered Rainbows and Times
83. Trembling Hands
84. The Horse and Me
85. Since I Was a Child
86. Just to Fall in Love with You
87. The Sound of Her Voice
88. Trying to Reach Your Heart
89. Visions of a Revelation
90. Walk Me into Eternity
91. Walking Alone
92. What Have We Done?
93. What Is Truth?
94. What Would Jesus Do?
95. When I Meet My Maker
96. Words from the Cross
97. You Gave Me Memories
98. You Were the Music
99. Powers
100. God’s Bird
101. Beyond the Sky
102. A Miracle in Christmas
103. I Cried Your Prayers
104. It Doesn’t Matter Anymore
105. Thoughts of an Endless Sleep
106. Sundown Silhouettes
107. Solitary Soul
108. Guided by Temptation
109. Bottled Dreams and Hardened Stones
110. Blue Morning Mourning
111. Black Tie, White Lace, and Silk
112. (Not) Looking Back
113. Thunders of the Beast
114. Texas Tours
115. Shadows of an Endless Sea
116. Shades and Marmalades
117. Searching for My Domain
118. Sand Castles (in a Lost Oasis)
119. Red Bandanas and a Wooden Horse
120. Imagine an Ageless Time
121. Rivers of Memories
122. Garden of Stone
123. Daddy’s Dreams
124. Climbing Walls
125. Beautiful, Oh, Beautiful Jesus
126. A Whisper in the Wind
127. For This Life
128. Sweet Perfume in the Wind
129. Renaissance Crossing
130. Raining Harmony
131. Purpose Without Reason
132. Memories of an Adolescent Time
133. If
134. I Grew Up Believing
135. When Tomorrow Comes
136. Weeping Heart
137. Time Eludes
138. Time and Miles
139. The Price of Pride
140. The Cowboy
141. Valley of Silence
142. Hindsight Is 20/20
143. Harlingen
144. I’m Dead, Take My Soul
145. No Girl
146. Alone and Free
147. Freedom
148. Cindy, It’s a Beautiful Dream
149. Dark Sights
150. Kiss Mama
151. The Stallion That Crossed the Sea
152. Shadows and Echoes
153. The Galaxy Broadway
154. Stuck on a Rainbow
155. God Bless the Child
156. Let the Children Sing a Song
157. My Life, My Love
158. Reaching for the Living World
159. God’s Going to Punish Us All
160. God, Let My Heart Heal
161. Pages from Mom’s Life
162. Cowboy Up!
163. A Repentant Sinner
164. Hollow Mind
165. I Wonder Worried
166. In the Midst of a Foggy Morning
167. Martyrs of Yesterday’s Child
168. Sons for a Better Land
169. The Smile of Anger
170. This Tombstone Place
171. Time’s Gonna Change Us All
172. Cartoon Morning
173. Craving Salvation
174. A Falling Star
175. A Past Never to Forget
176. An Old-Fashioned Christian Revival
177. Dreams of an Ageless Child
178. Eyes of Morning Blue
179. Hiding from Myself
180. Icicles and Me
181. In Search of Freedom’s Path
182. In the Horizon
183. Silent Stones
184. Southern Fields of Sand
185. The Family Bible
186. As a Stranger, as a Friend
187. Crucified and Still Alive
188. Cruel World
189. Far Away, My Lover Lies
190. The Blanket of Your Heart
191. The Empty River
192. The Silhouette
193. A Lonely Man Sleeping Alone
194. Asking the Word
195. I Tailgate the Wind
196. In Vain, but I See Wrong
197. Make a Wish, Son
198. My Nighttime’s All for You
199. The Cries of Jesus Christ
200. The Magic Words
201. The Silent Cries Are Shouts
202. ’Twas the End
203. Ain’t It Hard to Say
204. Cry Like a Child
205. Feel a Windy Breeze
206. I Am a King
207. I Am of You
208. I Cry for…
209. Listen to Your Mind
210. Nowhere Lost
211. A Morning Sunshine
212. I Cut the Rose
213. The Bridge
214. Overcome Shadows
215. In Time, Man Destroys Man
216. Hollow Paths
217. Fools and Heroes
218. Early Morning Prayer
219. Dreams Can Be Deceiving
220. Daily
221. There’s Always Hope
222. The Alley of a Lost Highway
223. Teardrops of Life
224. Summer Moon
225. Streams of Life
226. Silent Crying Noises
227. Scattered Photographs
228. Papa Did All He Could
229. Ticks Before Midnight
230. In the Rain Alone Again
231. My Life Without You
232. Skull Place
233. The Child in Me
234. Promises to Keep Forever
235. Loose Ends and Dead Ends
236. In Winds of Fear
237. In My Arms
238. Evergreens and Clouds of Gray
239. Young and Unafraid
240. Strength of the Soul
241. The Misery of Being Alone
242. Teardrops That Never Fell
243. Lost in Dreams of You
244. Sweeten Your Flower
245. Sorry, I Walk Alone
246. My Mind Walked Out on Me
247. Four Walls and One Closed Door
248. When You Discovered Me
249. Trying to Believe
250. The Timing Was Right
251. The Sounds of the Desert Roar
252. The Opposite Way
253. Tell Me Your Dreams
254. Little Pigtails
255. Tell Me the Truth
256. Winds of Fear
257. Time and Memories
258. Thoughts of an Empty Mind
259. The Truth Never Will Seduce Me
260. Exploring Inner Thoughts
261. A Strong Handshake
262. 40 Days
263. Debating a Single-Sided Conversation
264. Una Triste Mañana
265. Todo Mi Ser
266. Un Arco Iris Sin Fin
267. Tranquilo Es El Momento
268. Un Techo De Estrellas
269. Mi Cuate, Mi Amigo, Mi Padre
270. Oracion A Mi Madre
271. Quien Iba Saber
272. Rescatando Memorias
273. Soñador
274. Su Bendicion
275. Su Corazon Palpito
276. Creyendo
277. Dios Lo Corono
278. El Jardin De Mi Madre
279. El Silencio
280. La Historia
281. La Mera Verdad
282. Lo Daria Todo
283. La Banquilla De La Iglesia
284. Casa De Pobres
285. Si Me Vuelvo A Enamorar
286. Si Lagrimas Tocan Tus Labios
287. Escuche Una Cancion
288. Disimula
289. Dime Si Eres Feliz
290. Besos Grabados
291. Ven Aqui
292. Una Moneda Y Un Anillo
Notes
Acknowledgments
First of all, I wish to thank our Lord Jesus Christ for giving me everything I need in life. He gave me the most humble parents I could ever wish for. They gave me life in order for me to have it all, and I do. I never wished for riches, just enough to live on. And I do! Thank you for giving me an understandiong heart. And, thank you for giving me the talent to put thoughts into words.
Thank you, Mom and Dad, for always giving me the freedom to be obedient, trusting, and loving as a son and as a brother. Thank you for all your advices and all your teachings that I know came from the heart. Thank you for showing me how to overcome life’s obstacles, and thank you for giving me your religion, which I will let it guide me all the days of my life.
Once again, I thank you, Father Peter D’Souza from the Covenant Medical Center Chapel in Lubbock, Texas, who has always been so nice in allowing me to read many of my poems and writings during some of your Saturday services at mass. You have always given me words of encouragement to write something for a special mass so that it could be shared with our little congregation. Thank you very much. I hope I have never let you down.
Most of all, I thank my beautiful wife, Orelia. You are the love of my life. You have always stood by me during all of our ups and downs. As we celebrate our forty-fifth wedding anniversary this May, I again give you my heart, my soul, and my total being. Thank you for always saying that you love my writings. Thank you for always standing by my side and never making me feel any less than you. Till death do us part. As God is my witness, till then, I will always love you.
With all my heart,
I warmly dedicate this book to my wife,
Orelia (Cookie) Gonzalez.
Introduction
I was born the fourth son of a ten-sibling family. Being the fourth born had its advantages and its disadvantages, needless to say. I, on the other hand, took advantage of everything positive that came my way. I also learned from my two older brothers. School was tough for all of us. I come from a family that struggled through the ’50s and well into the early ’60s. We were migrants. As kids, we began working in the fields just so we could put food on the table. I don’t think there were any child labor laws back in the late ’50s; and if there were, maybe they weren’t enforced. Then again, we probably didn’t mind because we had fun working in the fields. at first.
Our family went from deep down in South Texas up to West Texas. Dad lost his job as a butcher in a meat packing house in the late 1950s, so he took the family out of school and we headed up to the Texas Panhandle. This went on for about three years. We were labeled migrant workers.
Going in and out of school became a hassle. Trying to keep up with school, studies, grades, and our friends finally took its toll on all of us. Trying to maintain good grades wasn’t easy either. For one thing, we didn’t want to fall behind nor did we want to get sent back to a lower grade. I have no idea how I did it, but I managed to maintain a good A and B grade average. For one thing, I loved school. Maybe I was the only one. None of us failed, which was a good thing. So almost five decades have come and gone since my first line of poetry became a reality.
The innocence of my youth was unmistakable and unpredictable in my early years. The words came out in simple syllables and words. For one thing, coming from a Hispanic family where mainly Spanish was spoken, it was not easy to learn the English language at first. For a long time, I didn’t even know there was a second language.
I actually started my school education while staying in Mexico for a short spell. In fact, I didn’t ever attend kindergarten school. I didn’t even know there was such a thing. I went straight to first grade. I didn’t know a single word of English when I was finally enrolled in school here in Texas, so I didn’t learn English until I entered the first grade.
Learning English took take a while. Learning a brand-new language for the first time was hard in itself. Everything I knew up until then would eventually have to be translated into this new way of speaking. Oh, we still had to speak Spanish at home in order to communicate with Mom and Dad; but conversing with other kids in school, teachers, and many of our neighborhood friends was sometimes funny. I didn’t know how to master the art of pronunciation or enunciation at first. I was a long way from knowing how to do that. On the other hand, communication was never really a problem for me. Somehow, someway, I would get my point across. So, in a way, school was a lot of fun for me. I wanted to learn, and I was at the right place to learn. We were now enrolled in the public school system, and I loved it.
We were all enrolled in the public school system from beginning to end. Dad could not afford private school, so it was in New Deal Junior High School that I began to understand a little bit about poetry, poems, and poets. I think it was in sixth grade that the class was asked to write a short poem. I wrote mine, and when all the poems were turned in and finally graded, the teacher asked me to read mine out loud in front of the class. Before that, I had never stood in front of the class to say or read anything. I was about as nervous as a person facing a man with a gun. But even though I felt a thousand eyes staring back at me, I got through it without a scratch. In the end, I was proud of my poem and proud that I had had the guts to stand in front of the class, recite to them my silly little poem and actually got an applause. The worse was over. A new me was born.
I soon realized that I loved poetry. A new chapter in my life had just begun. Secretly, I began writing poems and keeping them hidden from everybody, especially to my siblings. Back then, nobody wrote poems, except me. Writing and reciting poems to my brothers would have been a disaster. We were guys for goodness sakes!
As for all those early poems and writings, I guess you could say that I stuck ’em in the cellar.
When I saw for the first time my future girlfriend and wife to be, I began writing her letters and short poems. It would be years long after we were married that she began to know about the many poems I had written. Many were written to her, for her, and about her. Some were, and still are, a little bit silly; but she has always inspired me to write my thoughts, my feelings, and my opinions.
I have always loved going to church. That is why I wrote What Is Truth? and What Would Jesus Do? I am and will always be a Catholic, mainly because our parents brought us up to be Catholic. For this, I am very proud and so very thankful to both my parents. I am by no means any holier than anybody else or a saint, but I do believe in the teachings of the Catholic church, and I strive to live like Jesus Christ would want me to live. And just like everybody else, I also fail sometimes. I’m not perfect. I live in faith and hope. I live for a better tomorrow. So I wrote There’s Always Hope.
Yes, a few of my poems reflect on some of the stories found in the Holy Bible, many are based on things that touched my life throughout the years, and some are based on some of the things I did wrong or could’ve done better. I wrote The Price of Free Will. Some poems may border on the silly side of me, the sensible part of me, and of course the serious side of me. I wrote Colors of the World and Cowboy Up for fun. I wrote about Mom and Dad because they gave me a way of life I will always treasure till the day I die, and I wrote a few poems in Spanish, which I selected to be included in this book of poems in order to very proudly honor my background, my language,