Reborn: Dead Inside: A Poetic Memoir
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The book was left raw to some degree to reflect the honest pain and anguish she was experiencing when writing through all of this.
It is written in a revealing and honest light with hope for readers on similar paths near the end.
Reader Review:
"I read your book today and found it to be very straight to the point
revealing the exact reality of your life. It touched my heart in many
ways. I found myself being able to relate to so many of your emotions. I
passed the book on to my mother and she has already said that she can
relate to it. I want to congratulate you on your success....on being able
to find the strength to overcome many obstacles in life. All I can say is
well done, my friend, well done."
~T.S. Wilkins~
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Deanna Fae Prall
CRUMBLE dead inside Nov.15/2006 {In memory of the person I 'used'to be] When your whole world crumbles; before your already sad eyes- eventually you cannot count the amount of times you tried to scream so loud; "I need help!"- ....and received no replies. You become everything you never were and cannot find what you have lost; you search far, and near- and will not stop at any cost- but there is nothing left of you... you might as well admit it's true... ....you are gone... and those are not your eyes; the ones starring back at you- with hatred and no hope at all, begging you to answer the question; "Where exactly did I fall?" Eventually you cannot grasp- or even care what happens to you anymore, because all is lost; and the only thing left to do- ....is crumble... {'because you are dead inside}
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Reborn - Deanna Fae Prall
Copyright © 2007 by Deanna Fae Prall.
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Contents
Introduction
The First/Last Word
Paxil Eyes
Little Pink Pill
Dear Jenn
I’m Not Sorry
FU
It Hurts To Be Nice {In Memory Of JH}
My Ink-Filled Hero
For John
Sick, Demented, Beauty
What I Know
From Me To You
Denial
I Am This Girl
Binger
Deadly Escape
A Little Less Strong
Promise Me… {from one to another}
Alive and Induced
California
Delinquent
Emotional Contammination
Brad
Rock
Father
Flashback
Grammy
Missing ‘Me’
Dead Like Me
If Only You Knew…
Lost Words
A Winter’s Dreary
Black Christmas
No Direction
Below
Dead Dreams
Broken
Sedated
Breakdown
Rock Bottom
I Know That Pain!
Mindless Mess
Open Eyes
Stronger Half Wanted
Reborn?
My Fellow Dreamer: Rich Carlton
Coward
One Day At A Time
Can You Love…
Hope, Unmasked
Night Fears
Stranger… Please Come In
For Kim
Letter To Whoever
Dead Already
Together, We Shall Walk
Will You?
Courage Released
A Beautiful Deppression
Final Goodbye {Last night in Chester}
Here
Footsteps To Nowhere
A Piece Of Hope
Untitled-{Advice for you AND me}
One Good Habit
Thank-You
Dedication
This book is dedicated to my friends,
{particularily my fellow poets}, my brother, Brad
{this will explain the letters I could not write},
and anyone who’s ever hit rock-bottom before.
Know you’re not alone, and thank-you all for the support.
I hope my words can inspire you all
to see that there is good in all of you,
and that there is no dream you can’t achieve.
Never look down on anybody unless you’re helping him up
—Jesse Jackson
Introduction
In these tangled prose;
I will tell a story;
of how I went from having it all-
to standing back, just watching myself fall,
without taking a step back, long enough to breath;
oh the dreams I could’ve achieved
if I did not keep it all bottled up inside;
if I did not constantly hide
in the rambunctious shadows of my mind,
pushing everyone away—too afraid to say
that I’d finally found my only fear:
to admit the fact,
that I wanted to disappear.
Now things become more clear
as I look back and see
that I was this woman, once alive;
before becomming too afraid NOT to hide
in drugs, dreams-
anything to block my inner screams
when all I ever needed…
was someone to listen to me
Deanna Prall
This collection of poems and prose were written through a’storm’, so to speak, {with the exception of a few songs I’ve included to fit the current situation(s)I was facing.}Perhaps by the time this book is released, the storm will have subsided.
My poems are pretty self-explanatory;they mold the places I’ve been, and the things I’ve done. They are the inner-anxieties I fight everyday and a result of the the things I did not say… {I’m not much for candy-coating either}.
It took a great deal of courage for me to go through with the publication of this book, because it is like my journal,
{but, I do tend to live by the motto Feel the fear, and do it anyway
}
I did not intend to hurt or offend anyone in my honesty; however, I will not apologise, as for these poems were written as I