Upon Sadness
By Jesse Toban
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Jesse Toban
I am a budding author playing around with self-publishing on my way to creating some more serious content when I am finished with my degree as a Psychology student at my local university. I have been through two major relationships that were emotionally and physically abusive. These poems were a way for me to frame the intensity of what I was dealing with.
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Upon Sadness - Jesse Toban
upon sadness
Jesse Toban
Dedicated to my the first man I loved
ISBN 978-1-312-86207-4
Copyright 2014 Jesse Toban
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and she looked fearlessly into the sun
knowing for sure that
it would blind her
but knowing also
that in that
final bright
moment
when the world
closed around her
that all of the secrets
of the sun would
be revealed
and only then
could she be content?
i hate that person
that person that sits there
that person that stops me
so, why should it matter?
when no one’s around
nothing else matters
no one’s around
i’m all that you see
a frustration beyond
above and above
i wish that you knew
maybe some other day
don’t say that you can’t possibly mean it
don’t say it that way
please, say it again.
but now it’s too late
some pion still sits there
knowing my weakness and waiting for nothing
despise the ones i do not know
even more when i do
they do it on purpose
how could they not know
one time i sat there
hoping another would come
just to prove a point
and keep a promise to myself
(they helped)
(those people that sit there)
(if they hadn’t stopped me)
(you)
(nothing else would’ve)
a dance of recurring nightmares flicker through my head
like candles in an unholy chapel
a tap on my shoulder,
i turn
look
nothing,
i am alone,
a cold dark place surrounds me,
a maze for fools,
Stuck,
i am a fool,
a fool for letting myself be led here,
i find a map for