Unfinished Business - Change Is Constant!: An Interactive Web Based Collaborative Self-Help Guide

By Nubia Maat Ptah

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• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Apr 11, 2007
• ISBN: 9781469114446

Nubia Maat Ptah

I needed to understand without self-hate why I found myself in so many hurtful situations with men. I knew I was not alone with my hurt so I decided to research the sociology of African Americans. I enrolled in City College and majored in African American Studies. All of the AAS- courses were very revealing as to how and why African Americans interacted in such a negative manner with one another. Our behavior was conditioned through the enslavement process. The mass kidnapping, rape and murder of Africans has created a dysfunctional societal structure within the context of white supremacy for African Americans. Now, with a foundational cause of the African American psychology I was better able to understand my role in the bigger picture. With this new found knowledge I was capable of releasing blame and hate for the Brother #’s in my book. I have since received a Bachelor of Arts degree with a focus in Black Studies and I am currently working on a Master of Science in Public Services Management with a concentration in Public Policy. My life is not a fairy tale there is no knight in shining armor that rescues me at the end of my story. My unfinished business is about tying up loose ends in my mind and accepting the lessons of constant change. Ache’ to the Ancestors- Nubia Maat Ptah

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Unfinished Business-

Change is Constant!

An Interactive Web Based Collaborative Self-help Guide

Nubia Maat Ptah

Copyright © 2007 by Nubia Maat Ptah.

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Contents

Acknowledgements

Introduction

Chapter One

Age 14—Brother #1 First sexual partner!

Chapter Two

Age 15—Brother #2 First man and first headache!

Chapter Three

Age 15—Brother #3 Rapist!

Chapter Four

Age 16—Brother #4 First psycho!

Chapter Five

Age 16 thru 21—Brother #5 Miami Vice!

Chapter Six

Age 17—Brother #6 Dazed and Confused!

Chapter Seven

Age 18—Brother #7 Hollywood!

Chapter Eight

Age 21 Thru 26—Brother #8 Stalker!

Chapter Nine

Age 26—Brother #9 Invader of the heart snatcher!

Chapter Ten

Age 27—Brother #10 Chicago’s finest!

Chapter Eleven

Age 28—30 Brother # 11 Front door key into Africa!

Chapter Twelve

Age 30—Current Brother #12 Mr. Music!

This book is dedicated to all the teachers in my life

who have taught me the lessons of strength, compassion, endurance, and spiritual alliance as the basis of mastering the unknown and the future.

A special appreciation to all the Warrior Black Queens

still without a voice, I share my words and timeless wisdom.

Fragmented pieces of my mind have a way of roaming into my dreams, altering the course of my life.

-Nubia Maat Ptah

Acknowledgements

Several people come to mind whom I would like to thank for their continued support and patience while digging deep into my psyche to retrieve the forgotten memories of my past lives.

My family without your lessons I would not be the warrior Black Queen that I am; my children Tamika & Brandon thanks for understanding jazz; David Danku for acknowledging my spiritual self; and Mrs. Geraldine Booker for being my Griot when I needed you.

My professors; Zada Johnson, for your raw Queendomship; Mr. Allen, for helping me to connect everything; Ismay Ashford, for helping me to recognize the self within us all; Ezzat Goushegir, for guiding me to the vehicle that will never restrict my creativity; and Dr. Sandra Jackson for knowing I could.

To all the brothers #’s, I now understand my role in the script! Forgiveness is a total cleansing that opens spiritual doors.

Introduction

I was born Angela Lynn Gary in 1970, to a teenaged mother who was addicted to the street life and eventually left me in the care of her father who soon