Bipolar Dad. Borderline Husband

By Sheila M. Amari

Doctors said the girl born with a heart problem would not live. Her parents abandoned her to maternal grandparents. After five years, the parents claimed her and made her work like a slave. Her husband used her to get rich.

• Language: English
• Publisher: LifeRich Publishing
• Release date: May 16, 2017
• ISBN: 9781489711625

Sheila M. Amari

RETIRED GOSPEL MINISTER PSYCOLOGICAL THERAPIST FINANCIAL CONSULTANT FARMER MUSICIAN ARTIST

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ISBN: 978-1-4897-1163-2 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-4897-1162-5 (e)

Library of Congress Control Number: 2017933765

LifeRich Publishing rev. date: 5/15/2017

CONTENTS

Dedication

Abbreviation

Acknowledgement

Introduction

1. Born To Die

2. Frank’s Control

3. First Kiss

4. Serving The U.s. Navy

5. Pursuing Riches

6. Making The Rounds

7. Mental Health

8. Choose Life Or Death

9. Hell On Earth

DEDICATION

This book is dedicated to everyone who has been abused spiritually, mentally, verbally, or physically. It is to awaken people who have personality disorders, and behavioral problems; to inspire them to try hard to be less selfish, and become aware of what their relationship means to their families. It is to encourage dysfunctional families to work at living in peace and treating each other with respect.

Praise God for those who have found Grace, and been able to overcome their abuse. To those who are searching for help, my prayer is that you will find the only WAY…Jesus Christ and partake of his joy, and peace. If and when you do, please pass the GOOD NEWS on to others in need.

Luke 1:31, I John 5:4-5

Author: Sheila M. Amari

ABBREVIATION

Scriptures are taken from King James Version (KIV) of the Bible.

Names of the books in the Bible, used in this book, may be abbreviated, using the first two-four letters of the book name.

Pphd = Paraphrased

Ill = illustration

Pic = Pictures

ACKNOWLEDGEMENT

Those who have worked at the Publisher’s Office to help, guide, and advise me, have been a joy to work with. I greatly appreciate their patience and kindness. They have taught me that my computer can do things, which I did not know it could do.

God Almighty I acknowledge, for giving to me the ability to write this book. He is my source, strength, joy, and peace. All that I am and all that I have, I give back to him. Praise God for His mercy and grace. I love HIM with all my heart.

Author: Sheila M. Amari

INTRODUCTION

This book will peak curiosity and stir emotions. Written in the third person, it is about a girl who was abused verbally, mentally, and physically by her dad and her husband. They both treated her like she was their slave.

Some events are based on truth, and names have been changed. Others are embellished to obscure the truth. Parts are fiction to stir the emotions, and hold the reader’s attention.

She was born with a heart problem and the doctors told her parents, that she would not live, when she was born. Her parents abandoned her for five years. During that time she lived with her grandparents. Later, she was held back, by her parents, when it came to normal childhood activities, but forced to work like a man, on the farm, and a maid, in the house.

Her husband moved her around, within five states. He traveled on his job, and was gone more than half of the time, leaving her to raise two boys, maintain the household, do yard work, take care of all business, and make most decisions related to their family, while living away from relatives and friends.

Author: Sheila M. Amari

CHAPTER ONE

BORN TO DIE

Isaiah 49: 1, 5: The Lord formed me from the womb. KJV

I t was a brisk afternoon in December. Ruth yelled to five-year-old Ryle. Start a fire in the kitchen, wood stove, and put on a pot of water to boil. Why, mama? What for, mama? Just do what I say and you stay in the kitchen", she yelled back. Ruth had birthed twelve children of her own, and now was about to deliver her first grandchild.

Cassie, next to oldest of twelve children, was in labor for long hours, and her husband Frank, eventually decided Ruth needed help, if Cassie and the baby were to live. Therefore, he scampered to bring in two medical doctors, to help Ruth finish the task.

In early morning, Beulah Rose Shiloam weighed in at six pounds, eighteen inches long and had blue eyes. She was the first of six children. The difficult birth caused by the prolonged labor, caused pressure on her head against Cassie’s pelvic bone. It caused a swelling, like an upside down cone, on top of her head. She had heart problems, and the doctors told her parents that she would not live. Cassie was a long time recovering. The doctors told her that she was not built for having babies, and that she should not have any more children. It is something most people do not think about, that everyone is dying from the minute they are born. Imagine what it is like to EXPECT to die every minute you are living. Beulah was born December 1933 with Mitral Valve Prolapse. All her life she had weak spells and shortness of breath. She stumbled around a lot. Tomorrow is not a given.

As a toddler, pictures and tales by relative confirmed that it took about a year for the cone shape to dissipate, from Beulah’s head. Her parents would never talk about it or tell her why doctors said she would not live. They would not let her do things which her peers did. The family feared she might have brain damage and they always treated her differently. Her parents always told people that it was her nerves, when she had a weak spell. One day, at the dinner table, when she was a teenager, Frank tried to tell her why the doctors said she would not live, when she was born. When he got to the main point, he looked at Cassie and said you tell her. That was the end of that conversation.

Frank named Beulah, after his teenage girl friend (Beulah). He wanted to marry her, but she would not have anything to do with him. The middle name Rose was for his sister Rose. He was third of seven boys in his family, then, Rose was the first of three girls - totaling ten children in his family.

After Cassie was recovered enough to travel, she and Frank: moved, in the A Model Ford, forty miles across the local river, to Moose County Georgia,and left Beulah with her maternal grandparents (the Woodall’s) until she was age five. During those years her parents lived with his parents and farmed. They visited on a few weekends. There was no bonding between them and her. They fussed at her for walking around, holding her hands crossed over her private parts, telling her to move her hands. She had very few memories of her parents, during the five years she lived there.

D.J. and Ruth Woodall were first cousins. Their parents arranged their marriage, when she was age thirteen and he was age twenty-one. Bearing five girls and seven boys Ruth delivered them each at home alone. She said she spreaded a quilt on the floor, got down on her hands and knees, and had each baby. She had one set of twin boys.

They both were descendants of Cherokee Indians and he was a descendent of Robert E. Lee. His grandmother Ester was full blooded Cherokee. He was short, chubby and sweet. He hardly ever spoke, but smiled a lot. She had beautiful red hair, which she wore up in a bun, until he died. She had it cut short and had a permanent put in for the rest of her life, which was the style at that time. The daughters influenced that.

Ruth and D.J.’s oldest child died as a toddler, before the others were born. They drove a wagon loaded with vegetables, pulled by one old skinny, red mule, headed for the market. May, a beautiful curly, blond-haired girl, put a Sweet Pea in her mouth, and sucked it down her throat. Saving her was impossible.

D. J. walked their first and only milk cow about 68 miles, within three days, to their home in Sartain, S. C., from Lando, GA. The reason they thought they needed a milk cow, was because Frank: (being the controlling person that he was) convinced them that they needed one. He also convinced the twin boys to go to the dentist and have each of their front tusks pulled, so, as an adult, their teeth would grow straight.

The Woodall family was humble, quite, poor, and Godly people. They were law- abiding citizens, and not proud people. There was no knowledge of them getting into trouble, of any sort. There were no memories of ever hearing of a fuss, or disagreement between any of them. They worked hard, and respected everyone.

Cassie and Frank was a nice looking couple. She was dark skinned (Cherokee Indian), 5’2 tall, had beautiful, dark, silky hair, which Beulah liked to comb, and had a good figure. Frank was 5’11 tall, had red hair, was fair skinned, and was very handsome.

Grandpa D.J. use to come home from the mill, in the afternoons, and get Beulah a piece of fatback out of the oven. He and she would go sit on the front porch, in their straight back chairs. As he chewed his tobacco, they just smiled at each other. He was not a talker. Watching the sun go down, they waited, for Ruth to come walking home from work. They worked different shifts. He had a Wen (Sebaceous Cyst, which grew no hair) on the top, left side of his head, about the size of a nickel in diameter, and about one forth inch deep. Beulah use to stare at it when sitting on the porch.

They sat Beulah down in a straight chair, by the small, Franklin, Coal heater, in the dark, corner of the dining room, which had the shade pulled, while everyone went to work and school. Cassie claimed that there was always someone asleep in the large, back room, but Beulah does not remember such. There was a door to the room off the back porch where the boys came after shift work and slept during some day hours. It had three double beds. Beulah was not allowed to go in there at any time. She did peek into it several times. There were clothes strewn around the room. The adults worked at the Cotton mill, about a block away, and the boys walked to school.

CRISIS! Bang! Crash! Screaming! Beulah hears two cars crash outside the window, just six feet from the house. She was so afraid. They had told her not to get up, out of the chair, nor go to the window. The shade was always pulled down over the only window in the dining room where she sat, while they were all gone to work and school. When she needed to go to the toilet, which was located on the back porch, but was not allowed to go alone, she had to wait until someone came home to escort her, to the toilet. Grandma Ruth or one of the girls carried her to the restroom at lunchtime, suppertime and bedtime.

There were three things that Beulah feared. Sitting alone in that dark room, fearing the high back steps, and the day Frank took her away from her grandparents.

For the first year Ruth chewed up Green Beans and other vegetables, and put them in Beulah’s mouth, to get her to eat, when she was an infant. Later, they turned a chair around and stood her on her knees, at the table, at meal times. Ryle and the boys use to tease her at the table. When Frank was there, he made them stop. He told them not to give her candy or sweets. Beulah would ask Ruth for a Vanilla Wafer. Cassie would say no she cannot have a Vanilla Wafer, but Ruth would hand her one (repeatedly) each time she asked, even in Cassie’s presence. Beulah bonded with her grandma Ruth, not with her mama, Cassie. She also bonded with her grandpa D. J. and not her daddy Frank.

Cassie’s family did not approve of her marriage to Frank, because he was an Alcoholic. Once she left him and moved back home with her parents. After going back with him, she said she would never leave him again. She asked him to promise that he would quit drinking. He told her I will make you one promise, that you will never see me drunk again. From then on, he always stayed away when he drank, except for his usual substantial snorts, when he walked in the door, at meal time. Her family put him down. Each time she got pregnant her sisters got in a big uproar, about how awful he was.

The five room mill hill houses where Beulah lived with her grandparents, four aunts, and seven uncles (one set of twin uncles), was on the comer of Eighth Street. The house was typical for a mill hill. It had a front and back porch, and a rest room on the back porch.

Entering the front porch, then the front door was her grandparent’s bedroom. It had two standard beds, a small table between, under