Free to Be Me

By AE Smith

Free To Be Me is an expression about being free mind, body and spirit. This book is dear and close to my heart. I am so thankful to God for allowing me to be used and heard in this hour for such a time as this. It is my prayer with great sincerity that every reader can open up their heart to be totally healed, delivered, and SET FREE. The bible says in John 8:36 If the son therefore shall make you free, you are free indeed KJV. Some have been called to teach, preach, to be a nurse, doctor, lawyer, sunday school teacher, church secretary, caretaker of the elderly, CEO of a company and the list goes on. This book lets readers know it is ok to be who God has called you to be and if you are not you are living a LIE.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Dec 7, 2011
• ISBN: 9781465388001

AE Smith

My name is Angela Smith I was born on September 3, 1969 in Shreveport, Louisiana. I was raised up in the church and at the age of 9 I gave my life to the Lord Jesus and he became my personal savior. I knew early on that God was going to use me for this glory, because of the gifts he had bestowed upon me as early as the age 11. I begin journaling at the age of 12 and I knew one day God would use me to write books for his glory. At the age of 19 I got married and moved away to California. I am the mother of two beautiful children Rais and CJ. I have traveled through life leaning and depending on my heavenly father and I can truly say he has never let me down. I am an Author, Licensed Certified Medical Coder, and I hold a degree in Business Administration.

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Copyright © 2011 by AE SMITH.

Library of Congress Control Number:       2011919298

ISBN:         Hardcover                               978-1-4653-8799-8

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Contents

Acknowledgements

Introduction

Chapter 1  The Pain Of Being Rejected

Chapter 2  Forgive Let It All Go And Be Free

Chapter 3  The Dangers Of Unresolved Anger

Chapter 4  You Can Run But You Can’t Hide

Chapter 5  The Spiritual Wilderness Stage

Chapter 6  Lil Prayer Lil Power, Much Prayer Much Power, No Prayer No Power

Chapter 7  Idol Mind Devil’s Workshop

Chapter 8  Strongholds That Keep You In Bondage

Chapter 9  Perfect Those Things Concerning Me

Chapter 10  It’s Time To Come Clean

Autobiography

Acknowledgements

First I would like to say thank you to my heavenly father for allowing me to write this book and for proving the enemy wrong when he told me I could not do it. I want to thank my family for there prayers. I would especially like to thank my children Rais and CJ for holding me accountable to write even when I did not feel like it. Thank you to my mother Dorothy Warren for introducing Christ to me at a very young age. Thank you to my brother Morris McCoy for always having my back. Thank you to my aunt Barbara Dunnigan (my uncle the late Pastor Leon Dunnigan Jr.) for encouraging me to be all God has called me to be. Thank you to my aunt Brenda Jones for always reminding me how much God loves me. To my mentor Robin Smith thanks for your unselfish acts of kindness. To my Godmother Sadie Hamilton thanks for always praying for me.

Introduction

Oh my goodness how do I begin to introduce this book. In the beginning when I was preparing to write this book ordained by God I was thrilled especially when the title came to me while driving down the road one day. Shortly there after my thoughts changed because I knew there would be things I would have to write about that I did not want share with the world. Then there begin to be an uneasy, unsettling feeling down in the middle of my stomach. I said Lord that is personal you know I can’t write about that. Then after fasting and praying the Lord begin to speak to me that my trials and tribulations were not even for me they were for ministry to help someone else. The Lord also spoke to me that he requires what is past and that my past did not even belong to me Ecclesiastes 3:15 KJV. After this spoken word I was elevated to a place where I can share anything the Lord places in my spirit to share without resistance.

The bible says in John 8:36 if the son therefore shall make you free, you shall be free indeed KJV. Some people have been called to be a teacher, preacher, nurse, doctor, lawyer, caretaker of the elderly, secretary and the list goes on and on. Free To Be Me lets readers know it is ok to be who God has called you to be and if you are not you are LIVING A LIE. There is nothing more crippling than living your life for someone else that is called bondage and entrapment. God does not desire for his children to be walking around clueless and defeated.

Jeremiah 29:11 says for I know the thoughts I have think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil to give you an expected end.

Free To Be Me lets the reader know it is ok to admit your struggle, deal

with it, move past it, and not be ashamed to walk in total FREEDOM.

Chapter 1

THE PAIN OF BEING REJECTED

I can remember feeling rejected growing up as a child. I always knew that my biological father had rejected me and eventhough I did not express it early one in childhood it hurt me deeply. What does it mean to be rejected-it means to refuse to accept, to disapprove, refuse to acknowledge, refuse entrance, or membership, it means you are dismissed from being considered, and most of all it means you are not wanted. As a child I can remember feeling like I was a mistake because my biological father rejected me. I always hid the way I felt because I did not want to hurt my mother.

I mean no child asks to come here then to come here and have one parent reject you is hard for a child to fully understand. All I understood was that I had a