Adamantly Myself: A Collection of Poems

By Juan Ella Fontenot

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• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Apr 28, 2009
• ISBN: 9781465327444

Juan Ella Fontenot

A free lance writer and poet, Ms Fontenot has her work published on Poetry.com and Wisp e-zine, and her poetry has been enjoyed by multitudes of online bloggers. Her writings are a reflection of her life experiences and the deep feelings, thoughts, and emotions that these have left in her heart. Her poetry is a window to her soul where passion, love, pain, victimization, disappointments, and happiness coexist. As you read her words, they will breathe with the fires of her heart and they will guide you into a world of beautiful romance, sensuality, intimacy, controlled anger, forgiveness and hope. Although she writes from the depths of her heart, there is also great intelligence and wisdom in her words. Ramon A. Laval, Ph. D. JuanElla is a beautiful soul, that I am so glad I was able to meet. Her work is, without a doubt,the most "sensitive" I have read in a while. It takes someone with a lot of HEART to put that out there! She is extremely courageous, and warm. I am proud to call her friend. Diane Itani

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Contents

A BLANK WALL

A CADAVER

A FANTASY

A HEART DEFEATED

A LEAP OF FAITH

A NIGHTMARE

A SHELTER FOR A SOUL

A WOMAN’S NIGHT OUT

ABANDONED

ABOUT LOVE SONGS

ABYSS

AN OUTCAST

AN OUTRAGE

ANGER

ANIMAL PASSION

AS I REST IN MY BED . . .

AS IF THE HEART DOESN’T KNOW

BE STILL MY FRIEND

BEHIND THE GLASS

BELATED BIRTHDAY WISH

BLOWING SMOKE

BOOTY CALL

BOUND AND GAGGED

BREAKING FREE

A PRAYER FOR THE DYING

CANDY ANYONE?

CLIMBING A MOUNTAIN

COASTING ALONG

COPYRIGHT LAWS

CUT ME WITH YOUR KNIFE

CYBER-SEX

DANCING IN THE SAND

DANGER ZONE

DARK VEIL

DARKNESS WILL COME

DAVID GRANT

DAY ONE

DOES YOUR STAR IN THE NIGHT

DEPTHS OF DESPAIR

DON’T LOOK AT ME

DRAWN TO DEATH . . .

DREAM LITTLE GIRL

ECHO

EMOTIONAL STORM

EVER HAVE ONE OF THOSE DAYS?

EXERCISING MY WRITES

FAKE!

FATE AND DESTINY

FEED THEIR HUNGER

FEEDING ON MOMENTS

FEELING YOU

FORBIDDEN LOVE

FREE TO RUN

GHOSTS

GOING OUT OF BUSINESS

GOOD OVER EVIL

GRANNY LOVE

HAREM

HE CAME TO ME

HEART MADE OF STONE

HEART REPORTING FOR DUTY!

HELD CAPTIVE

HE’S GONE

HOLOGRAM

HELD HOSTAGE

HOT OUTSIDE

I AM

I AM A PUPPET

I LOATHE

I LOVE YOU. GOODBYE!

I ONLY CRY ON MONDAYS

I WALK ALONE

COMA

IN MY DREAMS

IN OTHER WORDS

IN THE ABYSS

INFIDELITY

INTERNET PASSION

ISOLATION

JEALOUSY AND HATE

JUANA ON JUANA

JUSTICE

KNEES BUCKLING

LET ME BEGIN

LET’S NOT TALK ABOUT IT

LIES AND HALF TRUTHS

LIVING INSIDE THE ECHO

LONGING

LOST LOVE

LOVE AT SEA

LOVE GONE WRONG

LOVE IN AN ENVELOPE

LOVE IS

LOVE WITHOUT HOPE

LOVER (DON’T PAUSE)

A LOVER’S PRAYER

LOVE’S GRAVITY

MAGNETIC TEARS

MANEATER!

MAN’S SEARCH

MARGARITAS IN A FISHBOWL

MEETING MY LEGAL EAGLE

MEMORY LANE

MOMO AND MICHAEL

MOMO’S COMING!

MOVING FORWARD

MY BREACH OF ETIQUETTE

MY CAPITAINE

MY FRIENDS

MY FRIENDS CARRY ME

MY KING

MY KNIGHT MY LOVER

MY LIBIDINOUS WAYS

MY LIFE—A POEM

MY LIFE IS REAL

MY PURPOSE IN LIFE

MY SADDENED HEART

MY SOUTHERN BELLE

MY VOICE

NAKED AND EXPOSED

NAKED BEFORE YOU

NATURES CHILD

NEVER TO BE SEEN

NO LONGER A YOUNG GIRL

NO TURNING BACK

PARALYZED BY FEAR

PASSION LONG FORGOT

PASSIONATE CLAIM

PASSIONATE INTENT

POETIC EXPRESSION

PRETENDING

PRETENSE

PUZZLED

RAPED

REACH FOR ME

ROAD TRIP

ROPE OF HOPE

RUNNING INTO THE STREET

SAD GAME

SADISTIC

SANDS OF LOVE

SAVING MYSELF

SELF DISCOVERY

SELF INFLICTED WOUNDS

SHE SMILES

SLEEP MY LOVE

SMOKING

SNAKES IN THE GRASS

STOP THE NOISE

STOP THE SONG

STRANGE THINGS HAPPENING

STRIPPED

SUFFER THE CHILDREN

SURRENDER

TAKE ME BACK

TAKING THE MAN

TETE-À-TETE

THE 360 WARRIORS

THE AFTERGLOW

THE BEAST WITHIN

THE BUD

THE CHILDREN

THE CLOWN

THE CRYING POOL

THE DEVIL MADE ME DO IT

THE END

THE HEALING MOUNTAIN

THE HOPEFUL DEBUTANTE

THE HUNTED

THE ICE-CREAM MAN COMETH

THE LAST WORD

THE MISUNDERSTANDING

THE ONE

THE PICTURE

THE POET

THE POETS

THE POWER OF LOVE

THE PREDATOR CALLED LOVE

THE SCAVENGERS

THE BIG SEARCH

THE SONG OF THE FATHER

THE SPOILS

THE WRECK

THIN ICE

THIS IS ME

UNTIL YOU GIVE OF YOUR HEART

TIME TO GO

TIME TO PAY THE FIDDLER

TIRED AND VULNERABLE

TO-DO LIST

TOTALLY DEFIES LOGIC

TOUCH OF ECSTASY

TRAPPED

UNABLE TO CRY

UNDERSTAND ME?

UNFULFILLED

UNSPOILED TERRITORY

VENOMOUS SPEW

VROOM, VROOM

WAKING UP

WE ARE NOT ALWAYS IN CONTROL

WHAT THIEVES WE ARE

WHO AM I?

THE TIGER

WISTFUL AND WOEBEGONE

I dedicate this book to my wonderful son, Chip, my beautiful daughter, Laurie Beth, and my FUNtastic little grandson, Michael. Whenever I questioned my reason for being here, I look at them, and suddenly I know why.

I thank my Dad, Harrison Fontenot, for giving me his creativity,strength, and resilience. I thank my Mom, Juanita for giving me conscience, sensitivity, and compassion.

I want to give special thanks to those friends who have always been there for me. They encouraged me to ‘exercise’ my writes! Special thanks to Vicki, Diane, Pat (my sister-in-law), Barry, Shyam and Ramon for their help.

I want to thank all of my friends on Yahoo 360, especially Bonnie, JuJu, Beth, Cris, David, Frank, Hilde, James of JT-Images, Jim, Jodee, Karin, Paul, Rick K. (AKA: Wingman), Robert, Todd, Joanie, Victor, Lisa, Cammie, Trisha, Lynn, Destiny, Marla, Nez, Jennifer, and all the others who helped to keep me sane when we were fighting for Michael.

A BLANK WALL

A blank wall

a dark hall,

Feeling my way,

through the day.

I cleaned my house

for you to come

then just like that

you were gone.

I locked the doors

There were tracks on the floor

I missed a spot

In time I forgot.

I wanted you here

I wanted you near

Did the phone just ring,

messing up everything?

Was there a call?

A note on the wall?

A message in a bottle?

A memory to coddle?

It’s time to get real

Second chances won’t heal

all the old scars

coming from afar.

Be fixed and ready

Be strong and steady

Lock your door

Go back no more.

A CADAVER

I am nothing, but a corpse.

Because you were my soul.

And you left my body

In your quest for gold

Now here I lie

A cadaver alone

With no motion and no notion

Of how to go on.

Place a wreath on the