Silent Expressions: My Mind, My Life, My World

By Sin Raws

When life gets rough, it either makes you or breaks you. In the solitude of prison, so far away from the natural elements, you discover much about yourself and others, behind and beyond these iron bars and concrete walls.

Observation, Perseverance, Patience and Implementation becomes your dearest companions and assist enhancing your knowledge and answers all questions concerning your inner and outer surroundingsincluding yourself!

Growing within by accepting the facts of reality, seeing and understanding that the meanings of words no longer has one or two meanings. The meaning of a word is how you define and describe it to your life. Overcoming all impossibilities only to be hindered by invisible stagnation with the only avenue to keep from going insane is to calmly exercise the mental by placing your thoughts and feelings somewhere you can set yourself free. Ive chosen my somewhere on paper and call itSilent Expressions.

Silent Expressions is whats on my mind, which became my life in this world of mine. Its a deep thoughtful masterpiece and insight of my maturity, streetness, urbaness, and reality acceptance of this cold, cruel and sometimes sweet world, as my emotions and thoughts overflow and spill out in abundance, poetically.

Loyalty, betrayal, hate, love, family, friends and hidden agendasthe true feelings of others that they seek to hide behind kind words and smiles but ultimately manifest through their actions, attempting to camouflage and perplex the molestation of facts and common sense that most hurry to deny through word semantics.

Many people may want to shout their opinions, yell out their facts or express it the best way they can . . . Ive chosen to silently express mines through this collection of what I label urban poetry. So I invite you all into my mind, life and world silently through . . . SILENT EXPRESSIONS.

-- Author Sin Raws

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: May 27, 2009
• ISBN: 9781462840953

Sin Raws

Sin Raws Is an incarcerated Philadelphian serving an indefinite sentence in Pennsylvania’s state of correction. He hails from the north side of Philadelphia’s infamous Blumberg Housing Projects. He’s the founder and President of All ‘N’ Entertainment that helps incarcerated men and women publish and expose their talent and takes on assignments of writing songs, poetry, etc. for established and up-coming music performers. Sin Raws has successfully written a catalog of songs and books. The future release of T.E.O.T.S. (The Elements Of The Streetz), a fiction novel, N’ Less Love (an urban fiction romance novel), Silent Expressionz (a book of poetry), and the unique sequel of All ‘N’ (You Reap What You Sow), part 2. Look for the release of the above books in the near future. To contact Sin Raws, write to the publisher or email him at [e-mail]. Author Sin Raws

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Contents

SIN’S DEDICATION

SIN’S ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

INTRODUCTION

I’M NOT FOOL’D

HAPPY VALENTINE

A DREAM

BROKEN PROMISES

GENTLE BOSS

REALITY

JESUS

ONLY ONE YOU

TO DO BETTER

SOUL LESS

THIS PEN

SPECIAL U.R.

PHONEY AZZ FRIENDS

LONELINESS

SHOUTOUT TO THE SURVIVORS

STREETNESS

THE SHADOWS OF MY TIME

I LOVE MY GRANDMA

A TIME FOR CHANGE

MR. TALKDATSHIT

TRUE IS YOU

OPINIONS

LOCK DOWN

2-GETHER 4-EVER

GANG WAR

BIG STEPBROTHER

A NIGHTMARE

INITIATION

I WAS ONCE A CHILD

FIRST STEP

PRAYER

FACE IT

WHY ME?

KARMA

HOOD PRIDE

GALAXY OF LOVE

A YOUNGIN’S VOICE

YOUR BABY DAD

OUR FEMALE INSPIRATION

THE ELEMENTS OF THE STREETZ

SO IT WAS YOU

MY SISTAH IS MY KEEPER

EXTRA! EXTRA! READ ALL ABOUT IT

MY ANGEL

IT’S NATURAL

PREPARE TO MOVE OUT

MY #1 FAN

FACTS OF LIFE

STAINED HEART

BECAUSE OF YOU

A FATHER’S INSTRUCTION

HIDDEN TREASURE

NEVER AGAIN

MAKE A WISH

I SEE THE LIGHT

A KISS ON THE CHEEK

NEVER GIVE UP

BEAUTIFUL

BIG CITY OF DREAMS

FOREVER MISS

POLITICAL HUSTLERS

OH SUNSHINE

PRECIOUS GIFT

I CAN’T WAIT ’TIL THAT DAY

I’M SO SORRY

HIGH EXPECTATION

CAN’T BREAK ME

ME AND MY TWO GUNS

WONDERFUL WARM BREEZE

SPECTACULAR SEX

OUT OF SIGHT NOT OUT OF MIND

ROLL DA’ DICE

UMMI BASEEMAH

EVERYTHING ISN’T 4EVER

SOLID AS A ROC

A SAD DAD

EXPLOITED FEELINGS

JUS’ ANOTHER DAY IN JAIL

EVERY DAY IS MAMA’S DAY

A PUSHED OFF HEART

WE’RE ALL ‘N’

SING LITTLE GIRL

HOLD ON

I JUST FEEL LIKE

ENDLESS TEARS

CONSCIOUS

WHAT’S THIS WORLD COMING TO?

MY MIND, MY LIFE, MY WORLD

BETRAYAL

IT WON’T BE LONG

DEAR READERS

Chapter One

ON THE WAY SOON

Excerpt from T.E.O.T.S.

PROLOGUE AND CHAPTER 1

PART ONE

CHAPTER ONE

SIN’S DEDICATION

I dedicate this to the following: My Grandmom Gracie Mama Berry, (RIT), Treeva (RIT), Ms. Cookie (RIT), David T. Henry Jr. (RIT), ’Lil Nephew, Cheryl, Mommy and Dad, Lasheena Sheena Wilkerson, Mrs. Doreen Dixon, Aunts BeeBee, Gail, Deb, Sharon, Kim, Titty, Nesser, Sharvonne, Johnnita, Marvina, Teressa, Muffin, Ummi Baseemah (R.I.T.), Mildred Brooks, Nifera Mohamad Berry, Shanasha, Nastajah, Netty, Mr. George, Naasirah (Tweet), the Control Unit Survivors, Mr. Gary Banks, BIG Dave Henry, and all those that relate directly or indirectly to mind, my life, my world and all that came in and out of my life—Ya’ll played a part in this book!

SIN’S ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

GOD definitely gets acknowledged first because without His mercy, graciousness and blessings I wouldn’t have been able to get this done through solitary confinement chaos and confusion. Mom and Dad [Maryann (Ummi) and Big Yassin] I love ya’ll so much. These circumstances I’m in wasn’t because of you, I’ve made my own choices, so ya’ll free of blame. Nifera, my wonderful reflection, I pray that you’ll unite with your sister Muffin from 19th Jefferson. I truly love ya’ll and please find it in ya’ll’s heart to forgive me for my absence. Mrs. Doreen Dixon, we did it again! Thank you so much. Big Dave, what can I say? You were right big bro. you told me what I should do, I did it. Now reap what your Lil’ stepbro put together. Marvina Hudson and Malcom Rowe, Marty we’re BBC 4 life, Blumburg big godsis, I love you and wish you and Malcom the best. Mujaahid, my man D-man from Sinclair, Steve Peeks from Homewood, Sloan, Klep ya’ platinum already. 1 blood 1 bond, D. ASP stop hating, Duke ya’ a tuff and true friend, welcome aboard as my manager. Badlander, we’ll miss you, Brandon, rep Blumburg in heaven, homie REST IN THIRLNESS. Gun Smoke 17th, Jay, we’re All ‘N’ and expanding, Carolin Cheeks, Judy Jackson, I miss y’all crazy selves. Christini M, I enjoy our mental stimulation and mental gymnastics. I told you I’ll shout you out. Dizzy Mack, Desperado Fatts from Hansberry St., G-Town, Sacrifice, Shafi, Jessica Silver, Tiny Tim, Ron Ron, Do Right. Arizona (AZ) Mr. Norm Johnson, Mr. Kareem, it’s still Murdaaaa! Mr. Tone Wilcox, Mr. Jay, Xanyell Smalls of Horizon Books good looking out, sis. Mumit, my homie Michael Roc Mullen and the Mullen’s family, especially you Mya, ya dad Roc loves you. Chelsea welcome to the family. Ronald Ron G. Lewis, Mr. Shag, Lucy, Abdullah, Curt, ya’ll stay focused and remember we’re All ‘N’. Susan Hampstead, the Xlibris family, all the retailers, radio stations, online, televisions, bookstores and other supporters, Norma Jai House, thanks so much for ya’ contribution to my life. Jenny and Rufus Triplett of Prison World Magazine, thanks a lot for your support. Black Kerry (YGS/Wilson project) the N.B.M. boys, ya’ll know who you are, I love ya’ll and we’re bonded beyond the grave, never forget that! Sisters Sharon Howard, Shaheed (aka) Kaos, Ceteawayo, Notty, Derrick H., M. Dot, Shawanda, Warren H., Benny, Dennis McIntyre, Walden Books, Pica, Leslie Nafisah Powell, Hadiyyah, Mecca, Jazz, Badass, Nasir, Quadire Yassin, R.J., Sayf, Tweet, Shyne, ALL ‘N’ ENTERTAINMENT, the Beat Radio Station, WAMO, Power 99, Urban Xpressions, Tiny (R.I.T.) Grandma Gracie and Uncle Gil (R.I.T.), Mildred Shakey Brooks, Poppy and his son and wife Tia, stay tight and Rep 28th and Cecil B. Moore ’til death, Ty, Shizz 28th, Maurice, Tyheed, Jermaine, Spotty, Tyesha, Smooth, Ebony, XXL, KING, Beanie Sigel and STATE PROPERTY, Kyle, Brody and to all the READERS. Y’all is so important to me and other authors I wish I could name you all, but space is limited, so just do it yourself when you purchase and read this book . Thank you and God bless you all.

INTRODUCTION

When life gets rough, it either makes you or breaks you. In the solitude of prison, so far away from the natural elements, you discover much about yourself and others, behind and beyond these iron bars and concrete walls.

Observation, Perseverance, Patience and Implementation becomes your dearest companions and assist enhancing your knowledge and answers all questions concerning your inner and outer surroundings—including yourself!

Growing within by accepting the facts of reality, seeing and understanding that the meanings of words no longer has one or two meanings. The meaning of a word is how you define and describe it to your life. Overcoming all impossibilities only to be hindered by invisible stagnation with the only avenue to keep from going insane is to calmly exercise the mental by placing your thoughts and feelings somewhere you can set yourself free. I’ve chosen my somewhere on paper and call it—Silent Expressions.

Silent Expressions is what’s on my mind, which became my life in this world of mine. It’s a deep thoughtful masterpiece and insight of my maturity, streetness, urbaness, and reality acceptance of this cold, cruel and sometimes sweet world, as my emotions and thoughts overflow and spill out in abundance, poetically.

Loyalty, betrayal, hate, love, family, friends and hidden agendas—the true feelings of others that they seek to hide behind kind words and smiles but ultimately manifest through their actions, attempting to camouflage and perplex the molestation of facts and common sense that most hurry to deny through word semantics.

Many people may want to shout their opinions, yell out their facts or express it the best way they can… I’ve chosen to silently express mines through this collection of what I label urban poetry. So I invite you all into my mind, life and world silently through… SILENT EXPRESSIONS.

—Author Sin Raws

I’M NOT FOOL’D

I know already who’s who,

I know who will and won’t do.

I know the smiles that’s fake, some made by mistake—

I know the words semantics that spell out hate.

I know everyone is gonna die—

I know many want to fit in, so they’ll tell lies.

I know who play’d with guns, and got major cash in the hood—

I know the scary cats and hungry rats that mean no one no good.

I know every brother ain’t a brother, he’ll be the first to shed your blood—

I know whose true like that behind my back,

I know whose word is mud.

I know who’s in a rush to talk too much and need to go on a verbal diet—

I know the ones that’s real with what they feel, some just remain quiet.

I know I’m black and that’s a fact, I don’t need no one to remind me—

I know the white man’s history isn’t a mystery and if he could, he’ll sell or buy me.

I know who really care and gonna be there, so I don’t have to say no names—

I know whose position and their mission is to only cause me pain.

I know for sure my knees not sore and I’m always on my toes.

I know that people