My Forgiveness

By Beth Hoyer

Victoria Montreal Thunder after unable to sleep by a schizophrenic mind is urged to type down her mind's contents by people insisting onto that to help her cope with her inner problems. Victoria types down childhood incidents of bad luck that were revealed to be manipulation by the manipulative group the High Council. The reason for that manipulation is revealed later which she is debating on whether to give forgiveness for the incidents in her life.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Beth Hoyer
• Release date: Aug 22, 2021
• ISBN: 9781005397012

Beth Hoyer

I'm currently a lover of cats. I love to type stories on my computer for hours. I like the science fiction fantasy genre with romance thrown in it when it comes to my stories. I like to take hikes through forests snapping photos to use as my covers for my stories. I'm an aspiring author of science fiction fantasy.AccomplishmentWe that seek goals and dreams,Seek many ways for the dreams,To be accomplished.We that seek the path to the goal,Know there will be many paths.Choosing the right one,Will take time.We that dream the impossible,To be accomplished,Will face many,Obstacles, bridges,And challenges,To be overcome in time.It will take time for,There’s no challenge too great,Nor too small that waits,To be conquered.

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My Forgiveness

Edenia Series

By Beth Hoyer 2021

The time is ten o’clock bedtime I meant to go to bed which I tossed and turned for two hours till midnight is when my head involving schizophrenia got too much for me and woke me up.

I can’t sleep despite a noisy head of the schizophrenia rearing its ugly head chanting Are you forgetting something? over and over bothering me to think I’m forgetting something but what?. which got Taylerra saying to me Shut up voice. You should really type this down.

She appearing as a plant onto my window still that moved after stillness added You’re pacing as seen by spies out the open window’s blinds where I’m at indicates you have a mental problem. So go type it down. this true by voice in mind saying Paranoid feeling spying!

I went to the laptop as ordered by Taylerra saying You need to tell a part of a story. You’re upset about that situation so use first person’s point of view.

I went to the computer to type getting a voice into mind from the schizophrenic voice rearing its ugly head saying I doubt you can type.

That voiced talk always kills my mood to type anything down onto the computer which can be stories of the Edenia series the High Council ordered towards me You to continue typing that series down. We’re amused by the stories.

I heard by father at his residence Their amused by your typed mistakes overrun sentences and wrong grammar uses so focus onto that fixing that up. That amusement makes them think you can’t sell your writings for any monetary amounts despite using the Veronica Thomas persona.

I didn’t believe my own father at first for that joker behavior the High Council thought involving my writings. I thought that was jealousy talking when he has critiqued my writings

Father saying This story is terrible fix your grammar into it involving the use of the word your.

I wound up joining an online journaling website detailing me having a schizophrenic voice like Diary of a mad woman as labeled journals.

A person named Shauna Shania as said her name commented I noticed your uses of the word your needs work and correcting.

That’s when I figured out to myself Daddy’s telling the truth involving his pickiness with my writings.

I went over some stories I put online Smashwords’ website for fees and fixed the typos but not the overrun sentences. That was fixed later in future stories I’ve given up going over my older stories to fix.

Forgiveness you want it confess your crime? blared Taylerra.

Her talk made me remember Jollica Jello as she calls herself my teacher from private school insisting on the friendship is still friends with me. This friendship was insisted by Jollica after I left the private school by nastiness of students and teachers. Miss Jello was I called her while in school but Jollica in emailing correspondence and phone calls insisted on the friendship. I know she was a neutral party in that nastiness and stuck up for me as a friend in that school despite later fired for that friendship. She should be furious with me for being the reason she was fired given a black mark preventing her for becoming a teacher in another school. That’s what teachers in New York City’s schools received if they were fired a lifetime ban from becoming a teacher in another school which doesn’t matter where. That mark followed Jollica but she hasn’t indicated any anger towards me. Jollica has kept in contact with me regarding whatever persona name I used in other locations still not indicating angry attitude towards me.

I asked Jollica once by phone Why aren’t you angry at me and that private school for ruining your teacher’s career?

She said "My religion belief is Christianity as it’s dubbed. That religion has been strong on forgiveness towards people doing wrong against them. I’ve forgiven you for that question you asked me including the wrong committed. Our religious god is an all seeing one that’s very forgiving in his own ways.

There’s a saying involving the Christian god ‘My ways aren’t your ways.’

God pointed towards friendship with you something I realized with lots of thinking thoughts that he had a purpose for our friends’ status. I realized now what that purpose involved forgiving you."

I recalled that conversation which I don’t remember what else Jollica said in our talks on the phone. I remembered the memory as a reason why I couldn’t sleep something to do with forgiveness.

I heard Taylerra saying This forgiveness is something the High Council isn’t used to having as a reaction from First Ones using peace against them such as the attack on their species. A violent response is what the High Council expects from First Ones regarding humans being manipulated by the group. They weren’t expecting a peaceful I don’t give a damn talking response for forgiveness excuse my language.

I’m recalled that memory involving Jollica forgiving me which I’m not sure if Miss Jello is aware of the High Council manipulating me-

She doesn’t but suspects their reach has touched you like the group confusingly asked her in their presence on this forgiveness towards you status. I interrupted by Taylerra.

I shifted to glare at Taylerra saying Don’t interrupt.

Taylerra said I have to comment for I need to talk to someone.

Ugh this was what the Meritanians plants said whenever they interrupt my thinking mind commenting something to me. I swear the Meritanians have roped me to become their spokesperson to the High Council hence Taylerra’s insisting on being my companion. I figured Taylerra is relaying orders from her bigger sisters and brothers to say towards me to say towards the High Council in response. Oh well.

I’m not protesting to that job for Taylerra has said in response to the schizophrenic voice’s talk Shut up and type Victoria.

I find Taylerra’s comment always gets the schizophrenic voice to be quiet for a bit which I’m able to type down what she wanted me to type as dictated by the plants communicating with me. Some of those typing results into ideas for the Edenia series I’m typing with the Meritanians’ input suggestions and ideas coming to mind like muse’s talk.

Taylerra’s snickering in my mind as usual likes she’s about to suggest something joke like she saying Tell the tale of Kurb in third person’s point of view as ordered by the High Council.

I got memories involving this Kurb which brought other memories.

Story as typed down ordered by Taylerra saying Title story Surrai’s Story and type it down in third person.

I obeyed as I remembered myself acting as the recorder of memories to the High Council. I went onto the laptop to read files of this Kurb aka Kurpanov Zesky with his reaction to being punished by the High Council for inappropriate behavior. According to the files the High Council wanted to know what’s on Kurpanov’s mind from his angry pacing in front of people. His behavior was as seen on recorders in the Zesky Asylum he indicating he’s furious with something the group wanted him to talk it out. I noticed the High Council have roped servants to speak out their problems. Kurpanov according to files was sickened with devices to make him remember memories including given the virtual pains of labor for females’ birthing babies in the process. His angry attitude was question by natives of the Zesky Asylum which he wasn’t forthcoming with his answers. As a result the High Council ordered him to their presence he didn’t protest despite brought to the High Council’s throne room with recorders there to record him.

Kurpanov was asked by their speaker Says what’s on your mind? Talk Kurpanov. Don’t keep that mind bothering to yourself. You’ll react violently if you don’t talk it out.

Recorder aka myself recording at the time said Talking is an acceptable way of servants to voice their minds’ contents without a violent response.

Kurpanov was urged to kneel while in the throne room of the High Council with the group’s recorder of memories to type his words onto the laptop. He opened his mouth to speak only to get gag gak sounds of choking. The assassin servant of the High Council dubbed Heartbreaker arrived into view with the Source in control choking Kurpanov. Kurpanov from the looks of him appeared to have no defenses from Heartbreaker’s mental ordered choking.

The High Council through Mindbender their speaker and guardian as overheard said Enough choking Kurpanov. Let him speak.

Heartbreaker in response went to kneel next to Kurpanov, the assassin saying Elsa complains your sign language is awful needs work. So practice that while telling your tale and don’t use your voice.

Kurpanov obeyed unsure of why he wasn’t disobeying Heartbreaker’s ordered order who verbalized what the Surrai said to be bothering him. I acting as Recorder remembered Kurpanov’s signed story as spoken by Heartbreaker as said despite using computer files to reread what was already typed. I read that the typed work involving Kurpanov signing as said by Heartbreaker who used a third person’s point of view when interpreting Kurpanov’s talk. Heartbreaker as heard said something of a Surrai dubbed Master Kazak is aka Kazak Lightener of Terrania during the time of Edenia’s orbiting. He is known for lightening cauldrons for the Terrania Unity Games or TUGS as nicknamed. He took up the job of lightening the cauldron from no one on Terrania willing to do that job. The Prussians hosted the first cauldron lightening ceremony using a human slave dubbed Valeria the Wise One of War as named. She used a new to the planetary game of archery to light the cauldron from a sun glass carried by her mate friend dubbed Jeff-Jenny for being both male and female on his looks. Kazak is Surrai son of Kurpanov Zesky from Zesky Asylum who reportedly created Kazak’s father. Recorder notes that Kurpanov is using third person’s points of view in his story telling signed language in exact English form than the words taken out American Sign Language as balked by the High Council who hates that.

As Kurpanov said Kazak was created after Kurpanov outwitted a female Surrai’s game of making the male Surrai fight each other for mating relationship with her.

Kurpanov appeared to be signing that point of views despite his sad expression onto his face. He paused to cry tears like he was upset apparently allowed by the group to have his crying fits. The High Council group on Terra according